In various possible scenarios I hallucinated,
With numerous eyes bored on me,
Truth strangling my throat with hatred,
Now,yes, now I can be freed,
Well, truth is not that transparent as it seemed,
I know they won't turn their backs on me,
It's killing me inside, pay some heed,
But it will suffocate them for life, then let it be,
Where should I lead?

Away from them,
For their better only,
The Truth is unsaid!
Maybe another day.

Shadows hiding our appearances to the core,
Crowd drifting the distance more,
Between us,
But not between our souls,
I bet I saw someone last night,
Not thinking about your rejection,
I just went towards your reflection,
And I embraced you,
It felt like a dream too good to be true,
Somehow you didn't pushed me away,
I expected the harsh words you didn't say,
The spell has broken,
My racing heart has calmed down,
Thank you for at least letting me do that,
I wish this wasn't the last time we met.

Hanging in there with the life support,
Eyes opened with a blur vision,
Analyzing my state,
Needles everywhere,
contusions and lacerations were too there,
Wait, I can't open my left eye,
Oh right! he punched me right there in our fight,
Aah! why does it pain so much?
Oh yeah! he threw pipe at my head to crush,
I guess this was bound to happen,
Why?
Because I contradicted,
At every rule which stated biasness,
At every person who eyed me with lustness,
At every time when my gender was the conclusion,
At every stage when my 'no' to them was a confusion,
At every step when my abilities were dejected,
At every moment when my rights were rejected,
Feels like I contradicted too much,
Should I have not?
But then I would have started to do it a lot,
With content I closed my eyes,
At least I tried and fight,
Soon the doctor said I was no more,
Guess I couldn't tolerate it furthermore.

You remember the time at the beach,
I remember the long walk we took,
You remember the coffee we drank,
I remember you wiping off the smudge,
You remember the day we met,
I remember the way you saw me,
You remember the joke I made the other day,
I remember the way you laughed,
You remember the day you hold my hand for the first time,
I remember the warmth it spread,
You remember the the gift I gave you,
I remember the shine in your eyes,
You remember all the moments we spend,
I remember 'us' every time in them.

Again, he looked down on me,
But it was not something as amused to be,
It is always his way I walk,
Not only do as he likes but also talk,
My actions seem immature to him,
Now he controls how I think,
But how much will I have to compromise?
Rot my ears listening to his sweet lies,
At last I did it!
That breakup was nothing hard to commit,
Do you know how I feel?
Must say quite a relief,

Again, I started living on my own terms,
For which I had been known once,
Could see the nature smiling at me,
That happiness is for free,
But you bound yourself with permission,
And forget your mission,
To be yourself at the end of the day,
Let's start it all over from today.

Peeping through the hole I can witness the bombs exploding,
Outside the men with their guns loading,
People are running to save their lives,
But the explosives can't lower the cries,
Atmosphere is all gloomy and dark,
Like atrocity has left its mark,
Rage has overtaken humanity,
Is this my destiny?
I remember the old days with mom and dad,
How I was their favorite lad,
Spending time with my friends would be a carnival,
Where everyday was no less than a festival,
But it lived for a short period of time,
Soon power made people commit crime,
They all have become blood thirsty,
where all the decisions are based on money,
They say the war had been won,
How could it be when mom and dad are gone?

Crossing the busiest lane,
I saw her again,
Waving back at me,
Asking me to join her if I was free,
Pleading in her irresistible smile,
It made my heart beat which was fragile.

Jogging my way to the lake,
I saw her again,
Keeping up with my pace,
Trying her best to ace,
But tripping again and again,
Laughing instead of moaning in pain.

Gazing at the stars with wine,
I saw her again,
seated next to me on the cold surface,
Staring at the twinkling with a daze.

Then it dawned on me,
It was my own weak memory,
'Playing' my favorite moments,
'Deleting' the parting torments,
'Pausing' on her pretty beaming,
'Rewinding' all our meetings,
'Reset' button should be somewhere,
But do I want it to be there?

Does the thought of him still bothers you?
Does his presence still haunts you?
Does your call logs still have tons of his missed calls?
Even though he's been friend zoned?
Out of empathy do you still comfort him?
Do you lend your musical ears to hear bittersweet lies from him?
Is it still tough to act up your courage?
Even though you know this is a phase?
Even though he makes you see it clearly?
Does he still make your creative eyes see the nature of his friendship hypocritically?
Does he try to control your carefree world?
Does he still try to ruin the happy moments with his deliberate gloominess?
Does he still linger in your fantastical dreams woven for you to amaze?
And does he still try to fill your innocent sky with that hateful color of anger?
Does he still try to make you feel guilty of the things you would never imagine to do?
But in his virtual self-created world which suits him better is he still hurting you by leaving small but hurtful scars?
Does your scars of unknowings still hurt?
Have I failed to help you?
But can you please try to help yourself every now and then?
That if you feel void I'm one call away?
Does it still happen?

How could I forget that accident,
Which made us feel like we are meant,
We both underestimated each other,
This paved the way for us to walk together,
After that everyday was full of confessions,
Every hug, Every cuddle, Every moment was mixed with passions,
Your smile was what I wanted to see everyday,
For that I always had to find a way,
Those small wounds would make you worry,
And then I would be in your arms for you to carry,

But how could I forget that accident,
Where you forget me and went,
I alone got tortured living those memories,
Remembering every of your chivalry,
It is pain to see you too close but too far,
Like fighting alone a war,
In your eyes I am now a stranger,
In your path and life I've become a hinder,
Now I realize how your love was no less than a poison,
For that how you chose me to be the one,
It is pain that I wear behind this smile,
But you wouldn't stop to look at it for a while,
Now everything has changed including you,
Wish I had never met you.

From that distant contact I can see your smile,
Enjoying every sip of your wine,
Let me tell you I am the Jealous type,
Can't help it when you have enough boys to swipe,
You must like that guy from last time,
Behaving as if you found your partner in crime,
Let me clear this to you that you're mine,
Won't let you see other guys let alone dine,
Be with me is what I want,
But you always take me for grant,
I'll keep you entertained for life,
And eventually will make you my wife,
Whether you like it or not you have to be with me,
And accept the life's fate as it will be,
Don't call this life suffocating,
I have been long waiting,
What if you won't be doing your job again,
I'll earn for us, don't be in vain,
I would be the one doing all the things,
If it means cutting off your wings.

Tears just shed from my eyes,
Like a part of everyday cries,
But that's not the problem,
Loving someone is the one,
My patience has exhausted,
Is this what you really wanted?

When it comes to trust anybody,
Feels shivering throughout my body,
Darkness is my escape house,
I can sense the calmness arouse,
My evils understand me better,
And it has became my shelter,

New beginnings would be a hard step,
But I can do it without any help.