I feel like I can’t break free,
Like nobody can really see.
I’ve hidden my pain and sorrow,
I’ve lent my feelings for others to borrow.
I let them tear me apart,
I should’ve stopped from the start.
I’m just trying to heal,
I just want to feel.
I want to say I’m okay,
I wish you would just stay.
But they’ve left me alone,
To find how to heal on my own.
I just wanted to be your daughter,
But that dried up like water.
Why can’t I be enough,
Why does this all have to be so rough?
I’ve tried to be cheery,
But I’ve become so weary.
Would you see me if I was more?
Or would you just continue to walk out the door.
Am I being too silent?
Because you are quite violent.
I just want to be loved,
But then I'm just shoved.
Why don’t you care?
Why can’t you be there?
I’ve continued to give away
Everything just so you’d stay.

Outside it’s snowing,
No one knows where they're going.
People are trying to fight,
But they’ve given up on the light.
My heart is dying,
I’m tired of the lying.
Why do I even try,
When I know I could never touch the sky.
Where is the sign I’ve been waiting for?
Will it come or will I just end up on the floor.
Blood is red,
I listened to all he said.
I’ve become so numb,
What will I become?
Can I ever hope to heal?
Is this even real?
I want to find my way,
But everything's became so gray.
What is the cost,
For being so lost?

It's time to let go,
Let yourself grow.
You've been through a lot,
Show them what you've got.
Show them you're strong,
Show them you belong.
Prove to them you're not a little voice,
It's time to make your choice.
Life has been a battle,
And your stone has begun to rattle.
But fear not, for we are hear,
We will help you see clear.
We are your friends, we're sticking around,
We'll make sure you're found.
We won't let you slip away,
Because we are here to stay.
So give up the fight,
Breathe in the light.
It'll be a hard climb,
But it's because it's time.

That's all I've ever wanted,
My friends to be happy.
Even at my own expense,
I want to give them the world.
I want them to smile everyday,
Then we can all celebrate.
I'm more than willing to pretend,
If that's what they need me for.
They can punch me bite me break me down,
Anything they want if it'll make them happy.
They can ignore me for the rest of my days,
I'll be hurt but that's fine.
As long as they're happy,
I don't care.

To pretend everything is alright,
It's easier to do once you've snuffed out the light.
But I am slowly drowning in the night,
So I try to help myself and write.
But I'm losing the battle I've fought for years,
Now all I have left are tears.
I've decided I've lost,
Because I'm not ready for the cost.

Have you ever gotten to the point where you push the ones you love so far away they don't even bother trying?
I have, it feels like everything is dying.
I mean it was might fault in the first place, I pushed them hard,
But I was just afraid of letting down my guard.
This is what I get for being scared of getting hurt,
This has all made me so very alert.
I'm such a fool,
And you were cruel.
I let him take advantage of me,
Now I'm drowning in a sea.
But it's not his fault I was so dumb,
It's not his fault I've become so numb.
I wonder how the ones I used to love would react,
I bet they would look at me and cry since I'm so cracked.
I wish I could say goodbye to all,
But you would get mad and put up the wall.
So instead I'll sit here and smile,
Hoping I don't have to stay for much longer.

Bad days will always be the norm,
I promise it's normal to be in a storm.
But when you get to the eye of it all,
Your worry begins to fall.
You are able to be at peace with all things,
You are able to unclip your wings.
You know the worst is only yet to come,
But you won't be the one to succumb.
The storm is coming fast,
But with the peace you know it won't last.
Bad days will always come around,
But they do not define you, you don't have to be drowned.

She said we was helping us grow,
But now all my thoughts flow.
She said that she loved me,
But she never set me free.
I thought she was one of the good guys,
But she's just full of lies.
She tortured me so much,
Now I whimper at the touch.
Grandma's are supposed to me nice,
But what is the price?
She hated us so,
And now I know.
I can't believe I fell for it,
I can't believe I let you hit.
I'm done with you,
I know you are too.

Hello mom and dad, I'm so excited today,
I've got no time to go out and play.
Today I will make you a present,
I hope it's very pleasant.
But then the bell rings and there is a call,
The words I hear make me feel so small.
What papers are you talking about?
Please, I beg you not to shout.
Why is everyone crying?
What are you implying?
Why are we not at our house?
What are all these doubts?
Finally someone explains to me,
Mom and dad wanted to set me free.
I'm not going to see them again,
They tell me take a deep breath and count to ten.
But I don't want to breathe, I want to cry,
Because all I ever did was try.
But I was not enough,
Why is life so tough?
I did everything you asked of me,
But now I'm locked without a key.
Now I'm all alone,
Stuck in the unknown.
Will I ever get to know,
About the trouble so long ago?
Mom and dad I thought you loved us,
Did we put up too much of a fuss?
Goodbye mom and dad, I'll sure miss you,
Because I never got to see what's true.

What exactly is a neutral state of mind?
How would it be defined?
To be okay but not?
That's quite a tough spot.
It's as if you have nothing to feel,
Like you're not quite real.
What if I said I was neutral,
Would your reaction be quite brutal?
Should I lie and say I'm fine,
Or would that cross another line?
Should I let the panic overtake me,
I could get lost in a sea.
Anxiety and depression fight one another,
It's never just one or the other.
I guess I can walk around,
Wishing nothing more than to be found.

The sky seems so blue today,
It's the perfect day to play.
But what happens if the lights go out,
Will you begin to shout?
I promise I'll still be there,
Because no matter what I will always care.
You don't have to be afraid,
To me you will always be worth more than a grade.

"I'm okay I promise." She says her eyes filling with tears,
He left, he's gone and she just stares.
She's begun to build up the wall,
Soon this girl will fall.
She doesn't see the light,
Nothing seems right.
"It's okay to cry" They try to tell her,
But nothing is like it used to be.
She has no time to rhyme,
Because she's lost inside.
I know that girl, how she feels,
Because we are one in the same.

If I say I'm okay,
Will you stay?
I promise I can smile,
Just please stay for awhile.

She fights for a voice,
But has no choice.
She cannot run,
Now she’s done..
Once this is over for good,
I just hope they all understood.
I did what I had to, so she could be saved,
But she thinks I wrongly behaved,
When it’s all her fault,
Because she’s the one who went to assault.
Now her hands are tied,
And she’s cried.
But it’ll be okay,
Because I don’t want her to stay.
I’ll get what I need,
Then she can leave with speed.
Because I don’t care,
Isn’t that right Baby Bear?

I’ve pushed everything to the past,
Because nothing ever seems to last.
I continue to be broken,
All of my wounds remain unspoken.
I just want someone to care,
But no one is ever there.
Why won’t they let me fade away?
They always demand that I stay.
But what if I don’t want to be here?
What if nothing seems very clear?
Do you want me to keep faking that I’m alive,
When I’ve never felt anything inside.
All of my words have been left unsaid,
All because the real me has been left for the dead.

She walks around jumpy and smiles,
Acting like she hasn't just walked for miles.
She acts like everything is fine,
But I know better, I used to walk that line.
I used to be the one acting like it’s okay,
Letting others leave when I just want them to stay.
I see what others don’t see,
I see the old me.
The way I solved everyone’s problems but never mine,
Just continuing to repeat the two words, “I’m fine.”
It’s okay to not be okay,
I promise we won’t go away.
I know the way you feel although it’s not the same,
It’s like no matter what you can’t find your name.
I know it’s hard but if you just keep going,
You’ll learn all about the unknowing.
Please never give up, we care for you,
All of us, including me too.
You play a big part,
With your amazing full heart.