my legs broke from all the standing around i did, while i was waiting for you
my arms ripped from all the weight i had to carry due to the fact i can’t express my feelings for you
therefore my jaw hurts due to the fact that every time i see your face i grind my teeth into dust that you just blow away
and i curse the day I met you

now
Instead of the happy bells ringing every time I hear your name
i hear thunder storm shaking me, my soul to the very core

i no longer breath the air to live but just to exist
just to know the art of scraping through
just to relate to someone
even if it sounds ridiculous

I know longer find myself captivated with the wrinkles i make when i write something romantic

but yet my heart longs for love
and this longing is something that is now
a part of me

gosh I’m just so heart broken sometimes you know seeing your post knowing he’s better then me just cause the fact he’s close enough to brush his thumb across your cheek but you gotta understand that i love you way more then he could possibly know how to love and that we have a connection. Like i love you like how Dwayne loves Whitley, how Jim love Pam, how cosmo loves Wanda, how uncle jesse loves Rebecca and how Eric loves Donna. Idk honestly i love you more then the word itself and i can’t see myself smiling as much as i do with anyone else but you and i can’t deal with the fact that you are my soul mate and i might not be yours so I’m in turmoil so i can’t help to cry even it makes me look weak it’s November 18th 11:57 PM and i love you and you love me too (or at least that’s why i tell myself) but you’re with him. it’s like i created a universe the sun is losing its shine and flowers are losing meaning and beauty you are the goddess that bless my worlds with happiness but now you’re blessing him with smiles and i know you want me in your life and i want to be in yours but it’s like stabbing a knife in my back and in my chest and i can’t help but to still love you cause it’s you

I am broken
All i feel is that burn i get when i try saying your name, as if i was  gargling  Listerine for two long

I am lost
My sense of distance no longer exist,
It just Feels like I’m in a door room  leaning against walls trying to find a
way out

I love you but what is love if you don’t love me too

today, is it sad you feel like yesterday
and that tomorrow will be just like you

I feel this stillness in the roots of my soul and the heart that lies within it, will you deliver me something new?

will you shift plates so you can say you brought something new to the table, something different.

if you do, please don't make the ground I walk on break, don't make me fall on my knees in such a way that my legs become a fabric softer than Cotten.

won't you make sure to let me know before the storm strikes? Just this once, warn me.

in this dream the air was sweet, not bitter or sour

in this dream we were gods making gods every time we believed in a great higher power

in this dream everyone's heart was on each other's sleeves, made of gold but breaks like glass

I do not know if I dream to much or dreamt to little but in this dream there are no such things of dreams but visions waiting for its moment to exist

tonight, I will look up
and see you are the only one in the sky
shooting across my vision
then forever disappearing

so I close my eyes and then I realized
I can repeat the events that just unfold
over and over again when my eyes are shut
when I go to bed, turn off the lights and dream
of you
the only star in my sky

yes I see her and I'll still see her even if I close my eyes or leave the room. I'm not obsessed with her imagie just amazed how she seems to glow so I can't help but keep on Staring when she's looking down or away from me and yeah I know she's not mine but i swear she's not his, well she is but that's not the point, the point is I'm not the point and she belongs to herself.

you are beautiful
like a dream where the sunset is forever
and the season is always spring
you are lovely
like a picture of a blooming flower
where dreams come true each time you open your eyes
you are the embodiment of beauty and the reason why it even exist
you inspire goddesses with the color of your eyes, so they make angels after your imagie
but then again you are a goddess yourself
blessing me every time your presence, when it's near
because your presence is a present alone

I am lost
but I am not losing
I am broken
but I am not breaking
I am hurt
but I am not hurting

I passed the point of no return
and then I passed it again, does the mean I did return?  Or does it mean I'm so lost I have no sense of direction

hold me close
and I'll hold you close
love me more
and I'll love you the most
kiss me hard
and I'll kiss you harder

my dear you are as lovely as a flowers
as sweet as a candy store
and as elegant as moon light
my eyes forever wishing that your sight permanent
my heart forever wanting to be yours

you are the closest star to me
you are the that one dream that be came reality
you are the moon most beautiful light
even more beautiful when you reflect on yourself
you are the embodiment grace and elegancy
you are the human that angels try to base their look after
you are that first flower to bloom in spring
You are that first leaf to fall so lovely in autumn
you are many things
but of those many things
You are not mine
You are the worlds

today there's no tomorrow
tonight there's no morning
and right now there's nothing but present moment

as I fall like the first leaf of this season
I wait to crash all so hrashly into the ground so I can know how lovely it was when I was falling
so I can know that I missed the thing that I wish would end
so I can know if I have regrets or if I lived to the fullest of my expectations
if I have any

there's no time for wishing
nor for us

there's no time for hoping
nor for you and I

but I can't help it, so I sit here waiting for a fate to decide that you and I
that us should exist  

hoping that us could exist
even if there is no time left

what can I do
if a flower I've admired has been picked
what can I do
if the sun that shines so lovely has set
what can I do
and if my heart full of love to give doesn't receive love to take

I love the flower for the memories I'll forever have of it's beauty
I love the sun for the hours of sunlight it gave me
and love my heart cause it loves to love not to be loved in return

I am just a boy
Trying to be a man
I am just a system
Trying to be solor
I am just a sun
Trying to shine
I am just a poet
Trying to find a muse
I am just a "I"
Trying to be enough for a "you'

I am not overwhelmed
but I am stunned by your beauty
so effortlessly you make my jaw drop
and turn my eyes heart eyes
you aren't my dream girl, you're the dream it self
with your beautiful brown eyes and your lovely short hair I can't help but running my fingers through

as i fall for you like I'm the last leaf of autumn
I will adore the way you laugh
as i fall for you like a tear of joy
I will adore the way you smile

and I am planning to never get up

fall,
like a ripped off flower petal
and land so very elegantly
watch my eyes sway side to side the closer you get to hitting the ground
watch my hand hesitate but reach out just before you fall to fast and I think
"will I be the one who catches you or will I be the one that let you get away"

poem 74:
you are beautiful , like the sky after the clouds have cleared

you are gorgeous, like like the first flower bloom  in the spring

you are lovely, like a poem that made you smile but shade one tear

you are all these things and more, with every pasting day
you make jaw drop and eyes turn into hearts
you make the sunshine bright so it can compete with your flow

you are truly beautiful with a mind so bright and heart so kind
as walk while looking like a queen from the 1950s
you are beyond words, but theses aren't just words
these are feelings of amazement
of appreciation
that someone like you exist

to you
the only star in my sky
the only planet in my solar system
the only Galaxy in my Universe

ive come to adore you like how sand adores a cold cool wave
how flowers adore the first refresh rain show of spring
how lungs adore sweet clean air of the biggest tree

you are my queen
you are my goddess
you are my angel

thetefore rule me
bless me
and protect me
as I fall deeper in love with your soul, heart and all the atoms that make up your body

my love you aren't mine yet
but you are still the sun that shines in my darkest dream
the moon that guides me on the nights on lost the most

my dear you aren't mine yet
But you some how got me smiling to the thought of you
got me excited due to the idea of you and I existing

You bloom and blossom so effortlessly
You grow and shine without even thinking about it
So now I am left if an dropped jaw and heart shaped eyes
Due to your smile

oh how I am amazed,
the sight of you makes my eyes feel like their turning into hearts
though you make no sound,
I am fully aware of your presence in the room

with a sweet scent and gentle touch
I can't help but to admire you
I can't help but adore you
Even if many come in your shape and size

theres something about even angels can't deny

"you know I use to have defense mechanisms but even my subconscious got tired of my ****, so I stay shut."

look beyond the color of my eyes, behold my soul and the vision it carries
behold my soul and the world it has created
where you and I are no longer distance lovers
where hate isn't real,  our love is felt the second our eyes meet and our lust is know the second our finger tips touch
look beyond our existence and see the reason to my rhyme
see yourself in my eyes

I love without being loved, without being in love
I care without being cared for, without being cared of
crush my heart and hold my soul and I will still walk among the living just to be there when you need me
through the pain
through misery

I love you
I care for you
my heart is yours to destroy
and is yours to keep until hell freezes over

"Remember what you said to me?"

"Ummm maybe"

"Can you say it again?"

"Yeah, okay, I love you"

"I love you too "

"did you realize what you said?"

"Yes and I do.. i love you, I loved you for a while I just couldn't say it"

"I know you did"

"What!, how?"

"You don't need words to tell that someone loves you, they'll show you in their actions and the small things they do, for example as you start smiling in the middle of a kiss"

"Oh"

"Well I'm in love with you"

And then we shared a kiss mixed with love, passion and lust and like always we smile right in the middle of it and I think I loved her even more.

hi
Seems to be the first word I ever said
And it seems to be followed by a four letters like love, they seem both to be heaven sent
Like your smile and the way it shines
It never failed to make my day reach complete bliss

So as the temperature was falling, I was falling in love with you
As I watch the clouds go by
It seems like the sun got dimmer the closer you moved
It just proved me right, you were all I need at night

Hello with a smiley emoticon
Was the way you responded
It seem to me like heaven came before death
All I felt is my heart being a beating mess
And my soul escaping my chest
To catch a glimpse of yours pour out through your eyes

And see what could be

I want you to breath, feel your heart
Realize the best kind of stars are the ones cast away in your soul
and the most captaining dreams were the ones that you always forget
just because you weren't built to remember

My friend, angels are inspired by the atoms that make you you
And I am inspired by who you are also by the ways you try to make me laugh
so stay and let's watch the skies until it turn gray

I've come across the moon in my dream
the moon whispered to me "I am in your reality and I've been told so is an angel, so close your eyes my boy and try to dream within a dream because even though life is hard, the point of it is easy"

but I've tried to dream. Humanity is a blur I've tried rubbing off but then again humanity is more like a stain. It (humanity) is all but nothingness in this void of insanity. so i'm sorry but i cant believe in angels or even reality.

Gorgeous eyes
Which makes it seems like the sea was capture in them when the sun had finally risen

beautiful lips
which makes it seems the heavens were built in it and it would just give an angelic kiss

but maybe  life is life, eyes are just eyes and lips are just lips
from you it's all just a blissful gift

I am lost and I vow never to be found
I am sad and I vow never to be happy
I am alone and I vow never to be comfort by the existence of others
today I am all these things tomorrow I will be other things
I'll die as I close my eyes and be reborn as I open them

I am many things, therefore there are many things expected from me

you are a flower, unpicked
you are a seed, unplanted
you are a idea, unthought
you are beautiful in ways unheard of
you are lovely in ways unseen
and I yearn for day I've touch your heart
for the day I've make you smile
for the day I've heard you laugh
you are a dream but some how I'm lucky enough to see you even after I open my eyes