pieces starting to fall into place,
i no longer worry about saving face
i thought i had escaped loneliness back then,
but now i realized that it was nowhere near the end

a blank canvas enters the scene,
a slate furthermore wiped clean
i cannot say i’m moving forward with no trepidation,
but i’m positive that i no longer hold any reservations

if someone had told me back then
that i would love you for this long,
i never would’ve believed it

but here i am,
one thousand days and counting
and your smile is still the brightest amongst the comets

someday, sooner than later
we will come together as one
when the Divine sees fit,
a new cycle will have begun

the moon always brings me back to you,
one thousand nights entwined
it has forever been you,
and ours will be the love of a lifetime

as if the moon could bring me to you,
shining its radiant, iridescent glow
and lighting up the night

our distance could be cut in two,
the moon as our messenger, as though
it powers us through the fight

i had you for the moment,
but before long, you took your leave,
promising a new world for us

but don't worry about it,
because it was always you who i'd believe,
and it was right of me to trust

we had our own goals to achieve,
through the galaxy, we'd traverse
doing all that we can

you always returned to me
my only, my beloved, my universe
and i love you with everything i am

he called me, "honey" as if it was second nature
and in his presence, i felt comfortable and calm
does he know that these tears are a result of longing,
and not of my evergrowing qualms?

repeated numerals,
always the usual,
name in the crowd,
songs chiming loud,

signs from above,
breathtaking as doves,
guided intuition,
true to our vision

love on my mind,
one of kind,
you in my heart,
a true work of art

i never had you,
yet you always seemed
within reach

love comes to me in waves,
but will i ever have the ocean?
would i be the one you'd save?
or would you leave me, frozen?

on the shore, the water delivers gifts
such as words from faraway lovers
the further away i drift,
the more i begin to suffer

he kisses me repeatedly,
never missing a single beat
i ponder, if only
there was a chance we could ever meet

someplace in the middle,
where stillness would allow us
even something just a little,
in that, i would trust

the sun rays danced on your skin
in a dream, if i recall
you were the loveliest of them all

i felt a single touch,
that was your arm across my shoulder
a hint of your lingering smolder

a warm feeling on my temple,
the fiery passion of your kiss
for once, i remembered our bliss

you breathed life into my lungs,
simply for being authentically you
you washed away all of my blues

feels as though i knew you in a past life,
could it be that we’ve crossed paths?
if i told you, would you laugh?

the start of another age;
i no longer wish i wasn’t lonely
because the past is long gone
and i have found peace within myself

she’s everything i am,
and everything i could be
she gets tired and lonesome,
and she’s suffered for me

she’s strong and capable,
and someone i look up to
her unconditional love is powerful,
and she’s lessened every pain i’ve gone through

time after time again,
she’s forgiven my selfish ways
because she has always been a part of me,
and she’s always here to stay

some days he is the sun,
at times he is the darkness
as much as i tried to love him,
his entire being was tarnished

i have so much love for him,
but i didn’t know whether to believe
that it was him who captured my heart,
or the versions of him i conceived

i offered him the world,
he gifted me the wheel of fortune
said that fate was the ultimate test
but i had already driven myself to exhaustion

my love, i flew too close to the sun
and then the darkness encapsulated me
maybe deep down, you loved me too
but i deserve to be free

i’ve allowed the halfheartedness of past lovers to swallow me whole,
to flood my mind with worrying thoughts and melancholic sentiments,
to dictate my natural being and my sacred core,
and to make me believe that they were the ones to save me

my love cannot flow to those whose hearts are guarded
i cannot force the purity of my intentions on those who abuse it
but now i constantly wonder,
if it is you who will actually choose it

though it feels like i’ve waited forever,
i’m glad i found you again
in this lifetime

stardust sprinkled across your face
i threw my love out,
will you let it go to waste?

it’s hell in itself to know
that i cannot learn to breathe
through the flames
with you

child, don't be afraid

does the weight of the world feel heavy on your shoulders?
does your love mirror the affection that you're given?
do you feel alone when the lights go out?

there's a glimmer of hope shining through the pavement
can you see a new beginning,
like the one you've been craving?

is it enough to make you get through the day?
or are your demons chasing you,
throwing you back into the fray?

child, don't be afraid

are you aware that you are the only one in the world?
can you see how lovely you have the potential to be?
do you have the courage to wholeheartedly be yourself?

please, don't feel alone
when it all comes crashing down.

gold dripping through the clouds,
tender words spilling out of your mouth,
i’m sorry it took so long to get to you

every beautiful thing
that engulfed my mind
always lead back to him

but he had yet to know
that this love went both ways

the chance to see you smile
again and again,
i’ve travelled through world lines
though it feels like it never ends

tragic, they may call it
as i realized i failed to save you at first
but it was unlike me to give in,
as i’ve already gone through the worst

you said i suffered so much for you
though i never found it to be tedious
was it me you were always looking to?
in this timeline, and the previous?

now i have finally found you once more,
i have protected you from what would be inevitable
what i wouldn’t give to always be yours
it was always you, didn’t you know?

the twinkle in your eye,
your evergrowing mind,
the love within your smile,
you dance just like a child

the softness of your touch,
a heart that grows so much,
you are more than enough,
and all of the above

the warmth of your existence,
grows fonder by the instance
it's you in all your essence,
with you i feel abundance

the troubles of the past,
is completely by contrast
we may move too fast,
but i can love you, at last

my love,
your strength is blinding,
your courage, shining
how did you survive
all the fighting and
all the crying?

you did stop
and think “it’s wrong”,
yet you carried on?
knew you had to be strong
and be there for mom
because she was always alone

here you are today,
going your own way
and seizing the day.
waiting for someone to say,
“now i’m here to stay
because you’re worth it, babe”

meet me when the sun sets on the horizon,
when the moon takes its place in the sky
and the stars show up for the night

the ten minutes you wait for your coffee,
when you glance at your watch idly,
and think about what love could be

just know that it was always you,
the one who encapsulated my heart,
even though we were always thousands of miles apart

coming back to you feels like home,
no matter how often the seasons change,
it was you and i who forever remained

here’s to the day we finally meet:
i feel you more and more everyday
and for your arrival, i will pray

oh, saturn
won’t you loosen up
and let your worries go?

how he thrives,
on the pain and power
of those weaker

the balance lost,
and the love was gone
like a bittersweet symphony

i swore it was love,
but the pure agony
was sorrowful poetry

still he said, “venus,
won’t you give me all
and every piece of you?”

but i refused,
because who would i be
if i forgot the essence of me?

the familiarity right in front of my eyes,
that was you, the reminiscent of a beautiful sunrise
like the morning light after a dark storm,
you were a sweet release, the ultimate sense of warmth

i knew all of your favorite songs and sentiments,
and you, all of my complicated brilliance
the way you lovingly flashed your bright smile,
i became aware that you would be around for awhile

how could it be that you were always standing there?
one-sided knowing that it was love, that just wasn't fair
maybe it was for me to realize it on my own.
that no one else but you could be my home

a short phase of my life,
that happened to be you

the morning light
and you were here,
the setting sun,
your presence was mere

i absorbed the lessons
you had to give,
and realized the growth,
i needed to live  

the love you showed me
was more than enough,
the highest of highs,
you took me above

like a haiku,
pleasing and concise
i could never forget you,
my lovely vice

time never mattered with us;
because the distance between you and i
was only but a couple thousand miles

love never lessened between us;
because i always felt your presence in me,
and i saw what, someday, we could be

words never lost meaning to us;
because your message was loud and clear,
how could i mistaken your love, my dear?

silence never discouraged us;
because you were always by my side,
and i can’t wait for the chance to call you mine

in a dream, i felt your touch
the way your hand reached out to me
and brushed my hair out of my face

i interlocked our fingers tightly
as if you could’ve slipped away from me
at any given moment in time

just like we do when we’re awake,
we touch with our hands
to make the other aware of our presence

as we gaze at one another,
i sense the company of unspoken words
as if you can see right through me

could you be the one i’ve been looking for?
i think time and time again,
that this could be something more

i find myself drowning in
the softness of your deep brown eyes
falling further and further down,
as your gaze holds mine

when you touch my skin briefly,
making me aware of your presence
the warmth of your intent,
that's the purest of your essence

how can a single person offer that?
so much comfort and serenity
simply by just existing as you are,
i feel as if you were meant for me

perhaps this is fate as they call it,
or chance as the realists say
but there's peace when i'm with you,
as you are the brightest part of my day

i would love you in the next lifetime
twice as much as i love you in this one
and many more lifetimes to come
i will always feel something for you

because you never gave up on me
even when the world came crashing down,
even when everyone turned their back on me,
and even when everything was against my favor

you never let me roam behind you,
you always knew when something was amiss
you let me express myself freely,
even when i was speaking nonsense

because you understood what it felt like,
to be misunderstood and overlooked
when you were at your most vulnerable
and for that, i love you eternally

the sun welcomes new beginnings
as it wakes me up every morning,
reminiscent of the days with you

the other side of the bed feels empty
and the coffee i attempt turns bitter
but it was perfect when we made it together

the scent of breakfast may fill the space
but the portions have split in half
because only one of us remains

the thoughts of when you were here,
they never fail to haunt me
and i constantly wonder what made us grow apart

under the golden light,
he was dressed in a red sweater
the luminance bounced off of his cheeks,
and his outlook played along with the scenery

he laid surrounded by flower petals
and carefully ran each fragment between his fingers,
feeling the softness as if it were a safe haven;
an escape from his constant bustle

he remembered back to the days
when freedom and liveliness were necessities,
but in that moment in time,
he felt calmer than ever before

as time continued on,
he picked up the book and mouthed the words
something about a dream, he said
maybe this was always our reality

the look in his eyes was calming
and it felt as if time had stopped,
just the two of us conscious of the situation

his soft touch felt like rose petals,
brushing against my bare skin
and leaving me breathless and wanting more

he read words off of the page
and chills ran down my spine,
thinking about if those sentiments were meant for me

his soothing voice resonated deeply,
emphasizing each of his sentiments
and it felt like listening to my favorite song at dawn

i imagined having all of him to myself;
that seemed like it would fill me up
and mend all the gaps in my heart

but what if i got just a piece of him?
would that be enough for me?
perhaps i never want to wake up from this dream

a gold hue laced the clouds in the sky
while the calm blue covered it,
reminiscent of a scene from a painting

with the cool tones composing the base,
the artist continued adding warm tints,
giving the piece a unified appearance

then i thought, "what if people were created this way?”
from how you appear and move,
it’s almost as if an artist imagined you

your dark hair lays flat but holds softness,
your dimples emerge the moment you smile,
and your lips purse whenever you’re in thought

your laughter is more melodious than a thousand choirs
selflessness is a rare thing, but it’s your best trait
and your passion and spirit can make anyone a believer

is it possible that some people were just born perfect?
all perfectly proportioned and envisioned?
with a charm that you can sense by how they go about life?

perhaps the idea is a little too farfetched
since we can never truly be sure of the process
but when i look at you,

i see a masterpiece

as my sun sets, yours begins to arise
my lights get dimmer by the hour
while yours revive

as my moon awakens, yours prepares to descend
my surroundings steadily grow calmer
while yours unsuspend

even though our distance extends miles,
the moment we gaze above the mayhem around us
is when we are both looking at the same sky

the scenery may appear a bit different,
but when i tilt my head upwards to the stars
i feel that you are doing the same

so to my one and only,
whenever you feel alone or empty
just glance up at the wonders in the sky

because i am also doing so

anyone would be lucky to have you
as you are the light amongst the darkness
the good in the midst of all the evil
and the diamond surrounded by stones

you may think you’re a speck in the crowd
but you are one in a million
a rose dripping with traces of gold
a sun radiating warmth and serenity

no one could ever replace you
because the space you occupy would not be the same
without you there is no rain in the drought
and no order in the neverending chaos

you may think you’re an ordinary one
but you are one in a million
the best of the best
and i just want you to remember that

let's meet when the spring arrives
when the cherry blossoms bloom
and the weather eases up

when our worries diminish
and the sun sets gently on the horizon
that is when we may taste serenity

the moment your arms wrap around me
and you whisper sweet nothings
maybe then we will be content

because the spring welcomes new beginnings
and one of them is you and i

with his hair styled back all neat
his eyes bounding universe and galaxies
and the freckles on his face animating his emotions

he wrote down words and read them aloud
focusing on his enunciation and delivery
as if his next moments depended on it

he dressed for the occasion in fancy attire
sipping on a glass of water
awaiting the answer he yearned for

in the end i told him i would do the same
that i would always be on his side
and that he was my answer to everything

the joy overtook every inch of his face
his smile appearing grander than the cosmos
and he was the most beautiful thing i’ve ever seen

you’re a golden boy
with sunshine in your heart
and stardust in your palms

you light up the world
simply by sharing your wonder
and spreading the light you possess

like a flower on a spring day
you blossom bolder than before
revealing your beauty and strength

all of me could never equate
because half of you is more than enough
to fill the spaces that this universe gathers

you are the missing piece in everything
the love songs, the bitter coffee, and so on
and you hold the power to complete them

so spread that magic throughout
and show them what you can do
because all of me is less than half of you

the sun woke me up this morning
the warmth reminding me of your skin
and how we were pressed upon each other
the blankets shielding us from reality

the tea at breakfast kept me awake
the tingle in my throat as i swallowed
taking me back to the moments you took my breath away
in all of the best ways possible

the wine at dinner eased my mind
i remember you said you’d always be on my side
those words almost preserving my existence
like nothing could shake me ever again

the moon greeted me before i slept
the stillness of the night bringing me back
to the moment you told me you loved me
darling, my days are all filled with you