the blue
the hum
the life electric
the round of the earth below
the hum fills me
i see it
i see it coming fast
the hum growing louder
the blue bluer
the sound crisp
the smell of all that is electric
i hear the people
i smell their clothes
the rush of the crowds reaching out
release me
i have arrived
release me
i have arrived
release me
i have arrived
tears streaming
the great relief
they reach
they reach for me
i have arrived

yOUR BOOTS and trim coat
i turned to see your smirk and twinkle
skin a glow and wanting
the ground gave and roof tipped
yOU looking through me into my hidden screen
me. ...nothing but lost in the depth unseen

falling into You

...searching

I found me.

you make your move.
its all hands on deck.
time to change.
change your clothes.
you want to smile.
you are changing socks and people.
some friends aren't friends at all.
small talk in the cellar doors .
you are the topic.

i have to say some and very few friends
and family are true to you.
its those relationships that grow.

the others die like yesterdays tomato's.
rotting and hanging on the vine.
their unhappy judgement
their empty promise of support.
growing further away.....

...but I kept trudging to a new land.
to sunshine, and the land of plenty.

there was she of course, that perfectly perfect love, that loved me without judgement. she just wanted me to be happy while
she was on her journey too.

happiness was the  promise land.
new socks and new shoes.
a few old friends and family that really loved you.
...and a whole host of new ones too.

i'm happy.

truly happy.

... I hear the whisper growing,
the whisper's fingers probing me deeper than deep.
whispering it's whisper, "live".

the spring waters rushing.
the snow holding on in the warming sun.

Can't move on and can't stay the same.

pages written long ago thrown in a fall storm.
edges showing in the melting snow.
long ago and how it use to be here with me.

Can't move on and can't stay the same.

a day begins,
the sun shines.
the warmth takes hold,
life begins again.

The light goes off in my mind
i think of those times of blame
not measuring up to your current flame
the high and mighty measure
the ruler measuring high
i can never measure up
never meeting your lofty podium
beating me down with your words
disappointment is the day
year by year
someone else better always  
"I love you" you would say
never really meaning it
disappointment is the day
never measuring up

My soul back from the exit .

..:from the dark and not knowing

The light always present and was sometimes dimmer than dim

My soul back from the  exit .

Back from the lies and dark dark dark.

Kevin you know who you are .

You know .

You know .

You know.

Back from the exit into the light .

The pull of life as you shuffle to the coffee maker, while the dogs sniff your feet.  You pour the water and scoop the coffee.  Push the button, the light turns on and life begins.  The low burn of sound coming from the street outside. You are engaged in it, like it or not. If you spit in the fire of your soul and it still burns... you live my friend.

the difference in him
was the lightening in his soul
listening to the wind
he peaks
he scales the walls
moves the mountains
leads the march
is the president
aids the forgotten
loves a beautiful woman
can't stop moving
grows his children
listens to his visions
watches the movie
reads the book
walks the river
runs the trails
all by doing
he is himself
and no one else
a rebel by doing
is happiness and doing
all the same

collectively we move to behave
through such sin we die
little by little
death of the boring
death of living a lie
a lie of a fool
puppets hanging
the last gasp of life

rebel you have hope
run your race
be you
splash the puddle
kiss the sun
and live your life
by doing you
succeed in this life
the game by God
you win the prize
you are you
rebel you are perfect
...you



KT Feb 18 2014

FOLLOW your life stream and the timeline stops
the ball is dropped and one slips to the other side
life not ending just changing into multiple worlds
skip time and go to the timeless
the shift moves and tugs
you are in the mindless moments of eternity
your life is born again
life doesn't die it is timeless
follow the stream to the reality
the realty of life is all powerful when accepted
beautiful in its limitless perfection
you are a miracle of life and you are timeless
perfect limitless you...


KT Feb20 2014

it all can change
a right turn
not the straight

some turns are good
some hurt

your life
made of moments
your precious moments

A mirage here and there

A yearning to feel safe

I stop at the first sign

Moving on

Searching for a safe place to rest my head

Radiohead – Fake Plastic Trees Lyrics

Her green plastic watering can for
her fake Chinese rubber plant
In the fake plastic earth

What she bought from a rubber man
In a town full of rubber bands
to get rid of itself

It wears her out, it wears her out
It wears her out, it wears her out

She lives with a broken man
A cracked polystyreneman
Who just crumbles and burns

He used to do surgery
For girls in the eighties
But gravity always wins

And it wears him out, it wears him out
It wears him out, it wears him

She Looks like the real thing
She tastes like the real thing
My fake plastic love

But I can't help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn and run

And it wears me out, it wears me out
It wears me out, it wears me out

If i could be who you wanted
If i could be who you wanted all the time, all the time
Songwriters: YORKE, THOMAS EDWARD/O'BRIEN, EDWARD JOHN/GREENWOOD, COLIN CHARLES/GREENWOOD, JONATHAN RICHARD GUY/SELWAY, PHILIP JAMES