You like others I know that
your current crush through the years
me never measuring up
you don't love me,
be honest
you would have let me die slowly
never really caring
not giving me a hand while i slip to depths
shrugging and moving on
pointing your pale finger at my sinking self
you have a crush and always did on others
me never measuring
never good enough

never enough ...

The mountain ***** to your heart went on forever.

Never ending. Forever the effort.

Like all, I just wanted to be accepted and loved.

I slide down the rabbit hole on my way to a new world . A portal full of color to a new world. Leaving the old world with the old people and the old friends.

The Homeless don't have iPhones

When the rain
Is blowing in your face
And the whole world
Is on your case
I could offer you
A warm embrace
To make you feel my love

When the evening shadows
And the stars appear
And there is no one there
To dry your tears
I could hold you
For a million years
To make you feel my love

I know you
Haven't made
Your mind up yet
But I would never
Do you wrong
I've known it
From the moment
That we met
No doubt in my mind
Where you belong

I'd go hungry
I'd go black and blue and
I'd go crawling
Down the avenue
You Know there's nothing
That I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love

The storms are raging
On the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change
Are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing
Like me yet

I could make you happy
Make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends
Of the Earth for you
To make you feel my love, To make you feel my love

UP this nice morning
coffee and raisin bread
messages from someone questioning my attention
my compliments, my adoration
I'm sad for her
beautiful smart woman
sad beautiful smart woman

do you hear me?
i can not sing this song any louder
to have lived a life of extreme
for the curtain to go up now
for me to turn and all goes slow
your eyes how perfect
the glint and smile
then it all began
a slow and long burn
i cant make it stop
you haunt me
i love you so
i love you so
i love you so

I believe I can see the future
Cause I repeat the same routine
I think I used to have a purpose
But then again
That might have been a dream
I think I used to have a voice
Now I never make a sound
I just do what I've been told
I really don't want them to come around

Oh, no

Every day is exactly the same
Every day is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Every day is exactly the same

I can feel their eyes are watching
In case I lose myself again
Sometimes I think I'm happy here
Sometimes, yet I still pretend
I can't remember how this got started
But I can tell you exactly how it will end


I'm writing on a little piece of paper
I'm hoping someday you might find
Well I'll hide it behind something
They won't look behind
I'm still inside here
A little bit comes bleeding through
I wish this could have been any other way
But I just don't know, I don't know what else I can do

- Nine Inch Nails

I am empty,
       given myself all away.

Born in a white neighborhood to white parents in a white church.
Riding her bike to a white school
College with her white girl friends.
Married a white man and had white children.
Teaches Piano to her white students.
Year after Year
Year after Year
Hate seething out between her tight thin lips
Praying in that same white church.
Every Sunday going to that white church.
Praying
Praying
Hate seething out between her tight thin lips.
A good Lutheran girl she is.
Playing her ***** for the congregation.