"Wait"
is not just an action
it's a feeling,
without any reason
irrespective of the season
often hard to be beaten...
if ends for one,
arises for other one...

an eternal search
a perpetual urge
a deep inner sigh
subsequent to a "high".

a low-key loner
once flew higher
the flaring fire
of an unfeterred desire.

here i roam
to find my home
a key to sire
peace before the pyre.

an unknown quest 
the soul, yearning to rest
searching for the path best,
life's an endless test!!

a girl, gorgeous
her attitude, gregarious
confident and cognizant.....
having high values
and spiritual virtues
mannerisms regal,
undeterred by negative people
loving, caring and sharing....

when encountered a test
laid down by destiny,
for her patience, tolerance and acceptance...
all efforts to crush her beaming self esteem
go in vane!
moves on with an all new glory,
one more embellishment in her tiara!

In you I've found
a never-ending love
an ever-trending friendship
a daily strengthening bond
an ever-growing togetherness
an incessant connection
an everlasting relationship
an eternal union

Having you in my life,
i am blessed with
an anchor for grounding
a home with solace
a smile to be adorned
a purpose to look forward
above all, a love to be cherished forever
my friend! I'm proud of having you!
happy friendship day

War,
A permanent scar...
Bitter memory,
Bloodshed history...
Lost by one,
But won by none......

Do not guide
I need not to be tied
Just show me the sunlight
I will take my flight
Not so creepy, just a creeper
Not a dodder, just a seeker
With you i grow
Just a vine
With you, I entwine
Till the end.....

Not the person,
making you feel loved and happy,
But the one,
gradually transforming you
in your better version......

from pillow talks
to
having pillows only to talk with,
somewhere we mature...
×××
from more than friends
to
just friends
somewhere we lose our self esteem...

the only way
to be happy anyway
is to "cut"
yes
cut the train of thoughts
cut the expectations down
cut the ties of attachments
cut the calories
cut the unnecessary interactions
cut the mundanes.....

Sometimes "good" is the best word to make one feel better

the petrichor
penetrating the heart's core
from the earth crust
When quenched, it's thirst
blended in the gust
of the summer breeze
yes! it's summer rain!

the petrichor,
wish I could devour
intangible
invisible
inaccessible
yet i savour!

the petrichor,
released by the nature joyfully
when the rain heals
the burns, soothingly!

the petrichor,
intoxicating
exhilarating
reviving
embracing me, like you???

सिर्फ़ आवाज़ सुनकर
अगर कोई हाल जान जाए,
हम कितना झूठ कहें कि ठीक हैं
पर वो न मान पाए।
जो धड़कन सुन ले
दिल को देख ले,
जो दूर से ही
दुखती नब्ज़ पकड़ ले
अनकहे लफ़्ज़ पढ़ ले।
महसूस करे
जो दर्द छुपा हुआ,
समझ सके जो तबियत को
जान ले जो मिजाज़ को।
कभी कभी ऐसा भी कोई आता है
ज़िन्दगी में,
माँ के सिवा ...

एक तन्हाई........सौ यादें
सौ तन्हा.......एक महफ़िल

Whenever it became the matter of self esteem, few relations became memory....

lonely when you're with none
lonelier when with wrong one
and the loneliest when not
understood by the people your own..

They used to believe in
love,
Now believe in
karma....

समक्ष युद्ध की शक्ति नहीं
ये कायरता का वार है
शांत सहृदय वीरों को ये
दुश्मन की ललकार है
समय नहीं अब निंदा का
अब बातों का ना सार है
भूत भगाना अब लातों से
देश की यह हुंकार है

हमला करते मासूमों पर
नर जात नहीं ये सियार है
रक्त बूंद के बदले को
अब हरेक सिंह तैयार है
रक्तबीज के संहार को
माता अब तैयार है
वीरों को अब कोई न रोके
जन जन की ये पुकार है

चैन से कोई सोये अब न
वीरों की चीत्कार है
अंगारों में हाथ है डाला
अब मचेगा हाहाकार है
सीमा पर अब होगी होली
पास में ये त्यौहार है
तब जाकर के मने दीवाली
अब तो आर या पार है

चर्चे हों कुरबानी के दुश्मन ललकारे घर में घुसकर
तो प्रेम दिवस की बातें करना कहानी सा लगता है

जब तिरंगे में लिपटकर वापिस आते वीर चवालिस
तब चॉकलेट और तोहफ़े लेना मनमानी सा लगता है

जब शहीदों की चिंताओं पे सौ सौ फूल बरसते हैं
तब ग़ुलाब की आस लगाना बेमानी सा लगता है

बारूदों की आग लगी जब झुलसे देश धमाकों से
मोमबत्तियों में दावत खाना क्या रूमानी सा लगता है

जब माँओं की गोद उजड़ती लावारिस हों नन्हे मुन्ने
मेहबूब की बाहों में छुप जाना नाफ़रमानी सा लगता है

जब हो जाये सीमाओं पे कितने निर्दोषों की कुर्बानी
तब बेमतलब के जलसों में भी वीरानी सा लगता है

चीत्कार हो वीरों का जब करना हो कुछ काम तूफ़ानी
तब चैन से सोना भी वतन से बेईमानी सा लगता है

Do not compromise your principles for temporary gain,
In any case people are going to lose interest...

Why the longing prolongs for people
who are long gone?
How long the heart lingers over people
who are no longer?

On one sleepless night,
I realised that
The anger
and the hunger
don't get along well,
Got up had some cookies,
killed them both and slept well.....!!

what keeps one from taking the first move?
not one's ego,
it's the fear of getting disappointed afterwards...

what keeps one from certain people?
not the fear of being judged,
it's the fear of being criticised afterwards........

what keeps one from togetherness?
not the fear of being used,
it's the fear of being misused and thrown afterwards...

what keeps one from love?
not the fear of getting the love faded,
it's the fear of being unloved afterwards...

actually the biggest fear is not "the present",
it is the fear of "the afterwards"....
can we live in the moments? and fear afterwards?

The moments....

Slip like the sand
Never come back

Hurt like the eye dust
Pass like a caravan

Err in the seconds
Punish for years

Fluid like the streams
Yet stuck in breath

Fragrant like the flowers
Scatter like the petals

People say no comeback
Yet peep in the thoughts and dreams

रेत की तरह फिसलते लम्हे
लौट के कहाँ आ सके लम्हे

धूल की तरह आँख में चुभे
कारवां रहे गुज़रते  लम्हे

दी सज़ा मुझे साल की कई
बार बार क्यों ज़ुल्म करते लमहे

धार में बहे वक़्त की रवां
साँस में मग़र अटकते लमहे

महकते रहे फूल से खिले
पंखुड़ी बने बिखरते लमहे

लौटते नहीं लोग ये कहें
ख़ाब ख़्याल में झाँकते लम्हे

स्वरचित
जुगनु

once upon a time
standing high with you
i was taken to a cliff
and was pushed down
by you with the help of your band..
nothing left to hold on
but an extending hand
midway, i could hold
only to get pushed further down...
crushed to pieces when hit the hard ground
found myself alive
destined to survive
slim chances to revive...
the pain spilled
i quilled
and rebuild
myself on the heap of my write...
now i am standing high
stronger
safer and better
at my own....
now you are being thrown
hanging at the same cliff
by the same people
who helped you once to push me
should i offer my hand
or quietly bestand
or join the band?

loneliness is
when you try to take a nap
but wake up with a snap
and realise that dawn is far away
when you try to read something and fail
hold your mobile and habitually check social feed
inbox knowing that nothing it has
you see the last seen of them,
already disabled you know
try to see the dp not visible since years
and monologues echo inside.
you take a walk go to terrace stare in the sky
a night with no moon and stars hidden behind clouds.
you comeback to bed
and try to sleep with your pillow shifted otherside
failed...
the monologues continue
you grab your phone again
check online friends
few overseas frnds
wish you could ping them
but could not
now open the notepad
and write your heart out
pour your inside out
with tears in your eyes
silence shaken by audible cries
loneliness given by broken ties...
oh my God!
yes the God you find your own
to share without fear of being judged
and slowly relieved you are
relaxed you are
feel blessed you are
bestowed with words you are.
writing flows
a poetry glows
out of a dark lonely night
ending the day's fight
loneliness transformed into a soulful write....
and you sleep accomplished
filled with positivity...

a lamp lit for sweet memories
a lamp for golden dreams
a lamp for high hopes
a lamp for loving bonds

forget not to lit a lamp
for divine blessings
the lamp must for
diwali celebrations

sparkling life pure hearts
full of health and wealth
abundance showers
harmony empowers

one lamp for this world
one lamp for our mother land
may this series of lamp encircles all
may the lamp enlightens all