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Always Ally Mar 2014
I'm not the brightest star in the sky
I'm not the rose in a field of daisies
I'm not the rainbow after a storm

I'm the dark cloud in the sky of blue
I'm the person you'll soon forget
I'm the cold preventing you from being warm

I used to be a lot of things
Now I'm nothing at all
Always Ally Jun 2016
Oh Moon, oh goddess;
why do you weep?
I know too well of your lonliness.
I know too well about the darkness that surrounds you.

Little light lingers from the end of a day.
The same light that approaches you.
It shuns you, pushes you away.

You believe nobody sees you, but
I know many who admire your
shimmery shine.
Plenty look to your silent beauty.

Oh how the stars are yours and nobody else's.
For they are just as dazzling;
yet you outshine them all.
The glimmer even at a glance of a sliver of you
is enough to allow a decadent sigh.
Always Ally Nov 2012
I've known you forever
But now your eyes seem cold
Unforgiving
If truth be told

We've grown apart
We're different now
We'd apologize
If words would allow

Keep in touch we had said
We no longer talk instead

A sympathetic smile
And maybe a wave
Maybe, just maybe we'll be friends again
Someday.
Always Ally Aug 2013
The pale light of morning
The pale blue in your eyes
The curve of your lips when you smile
The curve of your waist meeting your thighs
The way you love
So much and then not at all
Still wandering around
Waiting for the fall
In the pale light today
You come to call
In the pale light today you feel it all
Always Ally Mar 2015
Breathing out
In order to breathe in
I know nothing's wrong
But I'm not convinced
I can't let it out
And just let it happen again
Always Ally Nov 2015
Somewhere along the way I lost you
In a crowd of a hundred
Waited for you to find me too
But that's not what you did
Is it me imagining you said I love you
Did we not talk all through the night
You never kissed me
Or told me it'd be alright
Music takes you away from me
Even when it's the one thing
That connects us and let's us fall in love
Without lyrics but I guess that's never enough
I'm lost in the rhythms
And you already played the song
I was a piece that you played
without the notes there's no reason for you to stay
Always Ally Nov 2012
Our love
Pulled down the stars
Placed some in our eyes
Placed some in our hearts
Always Ally Jul 2017
I want it to be love
Oh desparate heart
I want it to be you
But what you is real

If you hold my hand
What a great start
If you be closer
I know you would feel

For me, a thousand kisses
For you, a golden throne
I want it to be real
But I'm really
All
Alone.
Do I only love the you in my head or you as you truly are
Always Ally Nov 2012
Laugh right now
Smile right now
For no reason
But simply that you're here
You're alive
You're one person
With the potential to change the world
Right now, things are changing
But you are still you.
Always Ally Mar 2014
It makes me sad to lose you
You were something I never had
Never will have and thanks to her
She's not to blame
That I am sure
Only myself
Because she is better
Always Ally Nov 2013
I want to be called strong
Not beautiful, not smart
Strong
Not physically, but mentally
I could get along as long as I'm strong

I want to be strong
Maybe as I had been before my illness
Maybe as I am after

I know I am strong
I have been, and always will be
I am strong even as I am weak
I am strong even in my last week
Always Ally Dec 2014
You're so set on destroying yourself
And there's no place you'll stay
You've pretty much given up
Claiming all you need is space
But I'm afraid you'll float away
Wherever you may be
Gravity,darling, gravity
Won't bring you back to me
Always Ally Nov 2012
I was alone
Young in age
Filled with sadness
Filled with rage

Tried to speak out
But no one heard
Not a whisper
Not one single word

Got used to depression
A familiar friend
There always
Until the end

I didn't need anything, anyone
I did everything on my own
I got used to the cold
I got used to being alone

The girl with no future
The girl with no path
The girl angry with the world
Full of wrath

They starred and they whispered
But I didn't care
I'd cut my skin
I'd cut my hair

The girl who had nothing at all
The girl who suffered the fall
Always Ally Nov 2014
The flowers wilted within her heart
Tree leaves fell from her eyes
A river ran through her veins
Stones were overturned in her brain
Sunlight beamed between her teeth
Petals colored her lips
Wind stirred her like a tornado
A beautiful disaster indeed
Always Ally Nov 2012
Don't convince me to stay
When I'm already gone
I loved you then
But not for long

It was good then
But as the saying goes
All good things come to an end
Or so I suppose

I'm sorry
But I had to leave
I'm sorry
Please, forgive me.
Always Ally Nov 2012
A
Single light
In the sky at night
Shining and leading the way
Twinkling in the eyes of the future, and the past
Waiting on a change that might never happen or never last
Bringing people closer than ever before
To a new life and a new world
Measuring the distance
Of hard work and long days
The night is alive
With stars of love
Hope and
Faith
Always Ally Mar 2015
It is me
At fault
For having high hopes
For having great expectations
It is me
Whom I'm mad at
Because I allowed myself
Because I believed
It is me
Always me
Always my fault
Always wrong
Am I right?
Always Ally Jan 2019
I wish I was important
I wish I felt it deep in my bones
Drop everything important
Here for you, - -actually here for you, important

It’s always at times when I need someone the most that nobody is ever around
“I’m here for you”
But are you?
Words are words
But the words screaming in my head are louder.
They screech their twisted words and dig their claws into my brain.
But you’re here for me right?

I don’t see you though. I don’t feel you. I don’t feel loved. I don’t feel anything. I’m empty except for the screaming.
Always Ally Nov 2014
It was winter
Snow fell
Your lips turned blue

It was spring
It rained
You wore rain boots

It was summer
Sun shined
You swam in the pool

It was fall
Leaves changed
And so did you
Always Ally Nov 2012
The words flow through me
Like a river stream
Passing over pebbles
Leading me to my next dream

Past a meadow
With tall flowing grass
Wind in trees
At peace, at last

The sun warming the top of my skin
Filling me with sunshine
All from within

The words remind me
All of life
Can be full of happiness
Or great strife

So I'll remember at the darkest of times
To be glad of what I have
All that's mine

While I could be complaining about life
Someone is struggling for theirs
I want to let them know
Somebody in this world cares

The words can help
The words can hurt
Help you feel safe
Or keep you alert

Words are just words
But can mean so much.
Always Ally Nov 2013
I wanna help you
I wanna hold you tight
I want to whisper it'll be alright
If it'd help you sleep at night
Even if I don't believe it's true
Don't let the future scare you
Always Ally Nov 2012
I love
Loving you
I hate
Hating you
I want to be
Wanting you
But things have change
Life got hard
But you'll always be in my heart.
Always Ally Nov 2012
This tree
Is a first kiss
A wedding
A first house
A first child
A first Christmas together

This tree
Is our tree
Of our lives
So lets's nourish it and help it grow.
Always Ally Nov 2013
The most unkindful cuts
Comes from those the closest to our hearts
They know exactly where to hurt you
And usually don't regret in doing so
Always Ally Mar 2014
I realized that maybe
Just maybe all these years
I was hiding behind accusations
And immortal fears

I'm tainted like our love
But yet I keep you near
We're bad for each other
At least that's what I hear

Who should I blame
Or will the blame disappear
Same old reasons
Just another year

So the world is cruel
So are you and me
But at least I'm not alone
I have you, my dear &
That's more than I'll ever need
Always Ally Nov 2018
Waiting is just a pain
and disappointment
I only have so much patience
You make me get my hopes up
Wishing you'd do all the things
I've seen on TV
This is reality
This is my reality
Maybe I want too much
But maybe it's what I deserve
And you've got nerve
To keep me waiting
               Wishing
                    Hoping
                         Breaking
Always Ally Nov 2013
What do you do when you see no point
When there is only the dull lifeless fill of your sorrows
Always Ally Nov 2013
Who would I be if cancer had not affected me
Would I have different hair
Would I be a different person
Would I be normal
Would I like that person
no
This is who I am now
It's who I've always been
A little bit stronger than then
I'd be me either way
I'm different in a good way
It's a part of me in a way I can't describe
I'm just glad I survived
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Always Ally Sep 2018
Somewhere in the willows
You hear it through the walls
Starts as a whisper
But then it soon calls

Make your way to
The adventure that awaits
You are the key
That opens the gates

Troubles and trickery
A daring little spell
Bring your wits about you
Hope it goes well

Witches are brewing
Skeletons will dance
Vampires are preying
You'll be put in a trance

Haunted are the willows
Who call out your name
Answer to them
You must finish the game
Always Ally Nov 2017
I wonder how much people can change
And how through all these years
I've stayed the same

The only thing that passes me by is time
And I'm trying to my best all the time
But I have to wake up and realize
I'm not fine doing fine

I'm such a simple girl
With complex emotions
So simple isn't my world
Too many situations

"Help me" I wish I could say
But I'm silently wasting away
Always Ally Jul 2014
I'm lying there but I'm still imagining you at my side
Maybe you're reading a book
Maybe you're rubbing your eyes
You could be yelling at the tv
You could be crunching too loudly
You could be here but you're not
Always Ally Jul 2014
You know that feeling when time freezes
You're hand starts to shake a little
You can't help smiling when you know for a fact how stupid you look
They're the only thought on your mind first thing in the morning and last at night
Always Ally Nov 2012
Your laughter
Is like sunshine
It warms me up inside
Make me feel like everything's alright

Your eyes
Are forgiving
Sparkle like stars
Are full of excitement

Your hands
Bring warmth to mine
Wipe away my tears
Are soft like silk

Your heart
Is as wide as the sky
Is loving
Is Mine, just as much as mine is yours

I love you, all of you
Your anything
Your everything.
Always Ally Sep 2018
Everytime I say goodbye
My heart hurts to leave his side
I know I shouldn't cry
But I'm just not satisfied
With leaving without a word and just a sigh
I love him too much and I don't know why
Our love comes easy we don't have to try
My o' my
love
Always Ally Jan 2017
It haunts me.
It haunts me.
The way you breathe my name.
Your touch still lingers on my, and oh my I can't believe you stayed sane.
I grow old with the cold, but at least that I know I can find you now.
I breathe you out.
I breathe you out.
I see you now.
I breathe you out.
I breathe you out.
I can win.

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