Please do not look at me with those same pitying eyes
that you would look upon a wilted flower in the dead of winter.
When you see the tears in my eyes as I smile
and tell you through lies that I am fine and will be okay,
please know that most days I am afraid
and behind closed doors I am hurting
more than you can ever know;
emotionally and physically.

Please do not think I always want to put you down
with my sad little life and my depressing thoughts.
Sometimes I just need a presence because
I am so used to spending my days alone with my head.
Please understand that I know things can all become too much
but that is when I need someone the most.
Now most days I feel like nothing but a burden
and that people only stay for the good days and run when they are bad...

Am I that bad of a person, that I do not deserve someone who stays?
Am I not worth so much as a, I see through your lies, I'll stay for a while?
Am I this worthless, failure that I think and feel all the time?
Am I really not worth anything to anyone at all?

I must’ve tried a million times
tried so hard to get you to see I was here all along,
but you had a different plan and broke every promise we made.
I thought I knew you, so trusted your words
But now I know that couldn’t have been further from the truth
So I packed up everything I gave you and left
Now there are no more tears to cry.
I don’t have to try to say goodbye to your memory.

I could have actually cared about you
If you had ever given a **** about me
Now I’m sure I’ll have no trouble finding someone who loves me more than you,
but good luck finding someone who will love you as much as I ever did!
Although this was a good, goodbye and I felt free
You shoved a knife so far in my back
I can no longer trust whoever comes into my life
I’m so **** scared of being played all over again.

Please don't be lonely when I'm gone
I've been sad for far to long
And now I've become so numb inside.
I want to slowly slip away
Into the darkness I will fade.

Please don't cry when I'm gone,
I haven't been myself for a while
And now I'm lost inside my mind.
I am tortured by these voices in my head
Telling me I'm better off dead.

Please don't be lonely when I'm gone,
I've been sad for far to long

Maybe if I tried to forget you.
Wipe away all our memories,
Then I could close my eyes and get some sleep at night
Breathe and feel okay when you don’t call.
Some nights I look up at the stars
Just so I can feel like I’m next to you.
Each night, it gets harder being here without you
So I shut my eyes and let the tears role down…

Please don’t tell me you’re letting me go!
Please don’t tell me you’re going to be moving on!
Just turn around and walk the other way
Because I can stand another heartbreak.
I can’t stand to see you turn away.

Maybe if I stopped depending on you,
Hide the fact this is hurting me
So you can never see through my tears
Because I’m longing to feel your arms again.
Some nights I wish upon a star
Just so I can be where you are.
Each night, how I pray just to hear from you
So I try to close my heart from these feelings I have of me and you.

Please don’t tell me there’s nothing left here for us!
Please don’t tell me there’s no time left at all!
If it’s the end please turn away
Because I don’t want to hear you say it.
I can’t stand to see this fall apart.

I know you’re slipping away, fading away
And I can’t be there.
They say your giving up now
But I know you’re a fighter, so please hold on.
I can’t bear to see you go yet,
Please hold on, I’ll come back home
Nana, please make it through the night…

Please, if there’s a god above I’m begging you
Don’t let this be the last time, I won’t get to say goodbye
I’m asking for a chance to let her stay.
Please if you hear me, let her make it through this lifetime
don’t take her away from us, too many will be heartbroken
I won’t be there to wipe away my little sisters tears at night.
Please I’m begging, Nana make it through the night.

I’m praying that this is just a nightmare
And that when I wake tomorrow it will be fine.
I never thought it would hurt this much
But oh how I’m wrong, how know they will hurt much more.
Please Nana, I know you’re tired and I know you must want the pain to stop
And I wish for anything in this world that could
But I just want to see your face again…
Please Nana, just make it through the night.

I once thought that I would need you
and that no matter what I would do
You'd be here, even if it was just in my dreams.
But now you're gone and I still wonder why,
I was never enough for you to stay true?
It hurts far too much,
I wonder what was so wrong with me?

I wish all of you the best
wondering what it was that i did
to watch so many people walk out of my life
It caused more pain than you can imagine.
Now that they're gone, honestly
It's killing me more than you could ever believe
its plaguing my mind, I wonder why all the time?

Looking back on my life so far,
I see that I will never be good enough
I've watched too many people leave
ever the ones who I thought were supposed to stay!
I always wondered what was wrong with me
Until I saw it was the voice I had
Now I sit quietly, hoping I won't lose someone again!

Can I pretend that I'm worth something just this once?
Can I pretend to forget all the pain today?

Standing face-to-face,
Trying to understand
Why I have a tendency to break things down?
Turn away from you,
Unable to say a word
But I can already feel it now,
I'm pushing you too far away.

I won't let you stay,
Don't want to hurt you more
Then I already know I do, it's something i always do.
Nothing that I can do
Could ever live up to what you deserve.
So I don't think we can stay friends,
I hope you understand

One more step and I'm breaking.
One more and I hurt myself again.
The door is closing
And I just can't change it

Nothing more to say,
Nothing left to break.
Nothing more to give,
Nothing left to take.
I keep reaching out for you
But I can't tell you what it is.
I keep reaching out for you
Just wishing someone would stay
As I push you away!

Looking out my window all I see is rain
A broken heart lost in this world
And nowhere left to run.
Time is going way too fast,
it’s just hard to make every second last,
Now all I have are these questions spinning in my head.

Why can’t you see I’m not lying?
Why can’t you see that I’m good enough
just being me?
Why can’t you see that I’m changing?
Why is that you never want to see the real me?

What am I supposed to do,
when all I really want is to be with you?

Looking back has never been so hard for me,
way too many memories staring me down.
Just waiting to be found.
I know what I have to do
I have to face my troubles on my own,
I never seem to be rid of these haunting thoughts.

Why can’t you see I’m not lying?
Why can’t you see that I’m good enough
just being me?
Why can’t you see that I’m changing?
Why is it that you never want to see the real me?

How am I supposed to change
when I don’t know who I am anymore?

Looking back over time makes me see the truth
of what I’ve done to hurt you for the last time.
Just wanting things to change.
I no longer know what to do S
hould I just drown in this river of tears?
Should I just let go of this cold, empty world?

Why can’t you see I’m not lying?
Is that it? Is it over for us?
Lies they remain.
Why can’t you see that I’m trying?
Trying to stop this monster from consuming my life!

These tears in our eyes they lie.
These tears show how we have made our mistakes.

I no longer care to stay
These tears won't stop falling.
There's a lump in my throat
And a knife in my hand...
One...
Two...
Three...
The blood just keeps on spilling.

I'm done with this life,
I'm done with this pain.
Sod it I'll jump
Now here comes the train...
One...
Two...
Three...
Ready to jump and no one's noticed.

Reliving memories of suffocating blankets,
Locked doors and
Raised voices.

Hiding behind doors, baracading ourselves in
Whilst glasses shatter and
Doors slam.

Being ran and shoved into brick walls,
Whilst being told you're a failure
And they wish you were alive.

Reliving memories in my dreams
So I choose to stay awake
Choosing deprivation of sleep over deprivation of sanity.

My screams echo off stone cold walls,
the only voices that speak to me.
Trapped inside the darkness that now ensues
where the sun always used to shine through.
Days and nights getting longer
as I desperately grasp onto the crumbling walls of myself,
clawing my way out, always falling hitting the ground.
Alone and afraid of the abilities of my mind
to make oneself feel so alone and worthless.
The thoughts are back...

The ones that tear you apart!

The ones that make you wish you were never born!

The ones that promise to uproot your life!

Or promise to end it, whichever comes first.

Yes! They are back with vengeance since the day I tried to walk away and set myself free.

Now, I am terrified of the repercussion.
The repercussions of believing in myself for so long!

Tear this broken heart right from my chest,
grind it down into something worthless just like it's host.

This heart can no longer take the pain of a cold world
out to destroy the most beautiful of innocent things.

Rip all these feelings right out from my cold dead body,
as I no longer wish to feel a single thing.

Run away,
They just cant see
All the tears that slipped from your eyes.
Hide your face,
Don't let them see
You're losing grip on reality.

I'm lost inside
And have no way out.
I'm trapped inside
My own dark mind.
I'm no longer afraid to let go
And just end it all now.

Run away,
No one notices your hurting,
Cant see past the "I'm fine" your saying.
Never seem to look
Past the smiles as tears roll down.
What is the point in hanging on?

Let's runaway and never look back.
You and me, hand in hand...
We could escape this world of pain

I know this all seems so blue
And you feel you're gonna lose,
But one day you'll see
Just come with me...
Come take my hand,
I promise you this...

When life is like a sad song,
You feel you can't carry on.
One day you'll see
Just how brave you can be...
There will be some sunny days
So just stay strong...

I know you're tired of these days
Don't want to carry on,
But listen to me
I promise you'll see
A reason to hold on...
Just follow me

When life is like a sad song,
You feel there's nowhere to go.
One day you will see
How strong you can be...
There will be light again
So just stay strong...

I know it's hard to go on,
I'm there too but I'll help you.
I know that it's tough
But I'll promise you this....
When you sing a sad song,
The days will brighten up

On the shore I stand staring out
into the waves of pure wonderment
and the dark sullen sky, filled with stars
knowing that you were once one of them,
shining within the night sky
before being picked for a life here with me.

The people laughing and playing
oblivious to the absent feeling lying within.
Children enjoying the soft warm sand beneath their feet,
now you never will know such simple joys.
These are the days where I feel as fragile as a china doll
Knowing that I lost something I never really had.

Looking out across the sea, how it stretches for miles
wishing you the peace and serenity this scene gives me.
Hoping you may get a second chance at life,
back up there among the stars where you can dream.
My little star, something I never really had at all
but knowing what could have been I still look up to see you shining!

You figured out I fell for you
But we both couldn't say those words.
I know I had my chance before
But I need you in my life.
You are my best friend
And I can't mess this up
But you told me I would get that chance again
We still talk but avoid that topic
When will we get this second chance?
When will we admit we want this change?

Like a glass falling
I will shatter into a thousand tiny shards,
Cutting and grazing the skin I hate most.

Like the time we cast away,
I too will disappear and fade away.
No one noticing that it could have been worth something...

Like the ocean on a stormy night
My ship sets sail into the dark abyss
And I pray I do not return from this journey.

Like the mountains that crumble, the ground that trembles,
I am just as unstable...
Do not tell me your lies...

Just like this world, I will die out from hate...

Friends, yeah I have them
But I don't know if they know
The battle that I'm facing
On my own.
This battle is so tiring
I'm slowly letting go
This one last time I tell you now
I always feel so alone...
I'm all alone,
I feel so cold and alone.
I'm lost in this world,
So dark, just on my own
I'm so alone
Even thought everyone is around me,
I'm all alone,
So very alone!!

So many tears I'm trying to hold back,
I don't want anyone to see me cry.
Pretend I'm okay and that I'm not hurt
But honestly I no longer feel secure.

So many scars I'm tearing open
Exposing the wounds once again.
Wearing a fake smile I've promised myself
I won't let anyone see me breakdown, this time.

So many questions left unanswered
Maybe it's better off this way.
I've been left torn apart and broken
Maybe I'm better off dead after all.

So many fears I'm trying to ignore,
I don't want to seem so weak or fragile.
Trying to find out where I belong,
I have no chance of succeeding.

So many tears I'm trying to hold back,
I don't want anyone to see me cry.
Pretend I'm okay and that I'm not hurt
But honestly I no longer feel safe or wanted.

So many times I have sat and cried,
You've wrapped your arms around me
And comforted me until I was done.

So many times I have faked a smile
You've seen right through it every time
And told me everything will be alright.

So many times I have forced a laugh
But with you, you make it real enough
And you bring the light to my world again.

So many times I have wanted to let go
But you've gave my world meaning and purpose
And you fight along side me for a better day.

So many times I have failed to see the truth
But you help me realise the many reasons
And told me what you think of me.

So many times I have lost faith in me
But you've held onto me until I'm strong enough
And you tell me you will never leave my side.

So many times I want to be in your arms
But I know what you've been going through
And we both promise to keep eachother going strong.

Tired of being cast aside
As soon as someone better comes along.
Tired of feeling like nothing to you
When all I do is try to support you.
Why is it okay to make me feel
Like a complete waste of space?
Why is it okay to make me feel
Like I'm never good enough for anyone?

On the shore I stand staring out
into the waves of pure wonderment
and the dark sullen sky, filled with stars
knowing that you were once one of them,
shining within the night sky
before being picked for a life here with me.

The people laughing and playing
oblivious to the absent feeling lying within.
Children enjoying the soft warm sand beneath their feet,
now you never will know such simple joys.
These are the days where I feel as fragile as a china doll
Knowing that I lost someone I never really had.

Looking out across the sea, how it stretches for miles
wishing you the peace and serenity this scene gives me.
Hoping you may get a second chance at life,
back up there among the stars where you can dream.
My little star, someone I never really had at all
but knowing what could have been I still look up to see you shining!

I wish someone could read my face sometimes,
see through the lies that say 'I'm fine'.
When all is said and done
we walk away and the door is shut;
that's when the tears start to come.
What people don't understand
is that my mind is like a barricade:
the panic is worse when I admit I'm not okay
so keep my mouth shut,
scared of a repeat from the past...
As the days go passing by
and all I seem to have done is cry,
behind closed doors i'm scared of myself,
knowing I'm too much
and never going to be good enough

I lie threw gritted teeth
None of this ever feels right,
Is this how it's all going to end?
I'll close my eyes and
Cling onto hope but it's
Getting stronger. I've got to face it!
Can I take it?

I'll have to stand my ground
Even if it's all on my own.
I've got to stand up to this
Even if it's fake smiles and
Bitter tears streaming down.
I'll close my eyes and wish I can make it.
Can I take it?

I'm just a scared little girl inside
But I've got to keep fighting.
All you need to know is I'm trying.
Now all of this is everything I have to take,
You will never understand the demons I face.
I'll try not let them bring me down!
Can I take it?

I've stood up and braved it all
So I'll try not reject everyone once again.
I'm still shattered on the inside,
Broken from all the memories.
I'm bleeding out one last time.
I'm just a naive, broken child still!
Can I take it?

Reason clouds my eyes
Reflections of a thousand lies
Never ending, time killing me.
Losing my faith for the last time.
I've lost who I am,
I can't stand and fight anymore.
I can't take it!

I have lost my battle with my demons.
I'm completely broken and empty,
I can't stand and fight.
I can no longer face it all.
I watch my life take a great fall.
I used to be a happy child, now I'm dead inside!
I couldn't take it!

After everything that we went through,
it's all now ashes on the ground.
I know I've said this is the last time,
many times before,
but this is the last time, I will let you hurt me again.

If I gave you up so easily,
why am I still hurting?
If I knew all along we were a lost cause,
why am I still searching?
If I made a lucky get away from the hell that was you,
then why do I still feel the same!

You were like a tornado,
tearing my world apart from the inside out.
You still haunt my dreams
turning them all to nightmare, all too easily...
So why do you still have me and when you shouldn't?

You are the love that came
when I didn't expect it;
came without a warning.
I didn't get the chance to think it through.
I just woke up one morning and texted you,
When you replied it made me smile,
That is when I knew, I lost my heart to you.

From time-zone different coffee dates,
To late night-early morning calls.
From staying on the phone while we slept,
To movies and songs always shared.
You would tell me you wanted to be with me,
That you had feelings but weren't quite ready yet.
To suddenly changing your mind.
From inviting me for new years eve - to not remembering and freaking out...
You changed your mind about me so fast with new friends and a new job...

You say you didn't string me along.
So what exactly did you do?
Tell me you wanted to be with me
To barely taking the time to talk and always waiting for a better option to come along, that's why we can no longer make plans...

I'm strong enough to leave you,
Weak enough to need you.
I don't know what I'm still here for?
Maybe it's in case
You're strong enough to leave me
But weak enough to need me...
Maybe you'll miss me and come back to how we were...
I need that now more then ever!

Take me...

Take me far away
Above the clouds
Where I no longer have to feel this sorrow.

Take me...

Take me where
The grass is green
And I no longer have to play theying game.

Take me...

Take me away
From this wretched would
Where I will no longer be subjected to the never ending nightmares.

Take me...

Take me far away
From this never ending torment
Where I no longer have to live a life I have no wish to live.

What if I ran away?
Through myself in front of a train?
What if I cut too deep?
Let these pills take me to eternal sleep?
Would you cry at all
Or miss me?
Am I going to be easy to forget and move on from?
Am I worth anything to you?
Would you care if I took
My life?

Tell me I am enough!
That is all I long to hear from the image staring back at me.

Tell me that I can make it,
but my reflection mouths otherwise.

All I hear are the words that are not my own;
spoken from the cruel mouths of others,
being etched into my skin
as an everlasting reminder that abandonment is all I will know.

A worthless, broken, failure of a girl
is all I am destined to see...

You don't know what I've been through
To wined up here.
The constant words hurled in my direction
Now all I do is run,
And when the night falls and all I want is you,
We start the fighting just like my mum and dad would do.

All the times they promised I would be okay,
Turned into empty words so I would feel safe.
But their words you see meant nothing at all,
As his fists would fly just as much as words.
I know you would never lay a hand on me, like they did
But I cant stop the fear that I'm too far gone foe you to stay.

I go down the same road everytime,
Lost in a river of painful memories
And I know its weak to be so scared all the time
But these things they hurt me and broke me down.
How I wish I could just be honest with you,
I'd love to tell you the truth of what I've been through.

Thank you,
For being there when no one else was.
For giving me a reason to stay,
For giving me a reason to hope.

Thank you,
For making life seem more bearable,
For making me smile more then I have in a while,
For making everything feel okay, even if it was just for tonight.

Thank you,
For being my reason, even though you may not know that.
For not judging me and not giving up on me.
For being my reason to give life another chance.

There are not enough words to tell you
Just how truly thankful I am.
I just wish I could prove to you how much it really means.
Thank you, I love you.

Counting the stars in the night sky,
I'm wondering where I went wrong?
A little girl who grew up
To be nothing like she planned.
A broken hearted girl
With no hope of feeling okay.

I've been sitting here talking to myself once again,
Staring at the moon
Wishing I could be up there too.
There's nothing down here for me
As I know I can never do right by them,
I wish there was a way to start again.

How I wish that little girl could see
A light there at the end
But her world crashed when they taught her that
No one would ever care
About the failure she was
And how worthless her presence was to them.

Maybe one day while I'm looking at the stars
Or even just talking to the moon
I can find a better place to be.
Maybe one day I will find
Someone who can show me that this big old world
Isn't as bad as it has been made out to be.

Once a long time ago I remember it all,
As if your words were etched into my skin...
I remember your words,
Your vicious twisted laugh
Sending me spinning into a forgotten void.

Your words were your weapons
Tearing at my ****** skin,
Ripping my heart into millions of pieces.
Not the daughter you ever wanted,
A mistake was all you ever thought of.

Your eyes were like two black vortex's
Draining every inch of hope from my once glimmering daydreams.
You ripped my world in two
Leaving me to dye among the fallen leaves of autumn.
Of course you never cared.

I am the daughter
You would gladly watch die!

The hardest thing is picking up the phone
But having no-one to call when you're at your worst.

The hardest thing is screaming into your pillow
Because your crying so hard that your chest feels like it could cave in.

The hardest things is telling someone you're not okay
But having to comfort them because they don't know what to say...

The hardest thing is knowing you once had that person... Your person
But now they have gone without a look back, not daring to check in.

The hardest thing is pretending I am okay everyday
Because I am completely alone with no-one to call when I'm at my worst

I said I love you
And you said it back...
Do you mean it the way I do,
Or just as friends?

The softest raindrops hit my window pane,
They help me feel the peace I long forgot,
Their graceful dances fill my mind with hope
That I'm not alone in this dark fight.
I watch the raindrops tangle into one
And hope that my day will come,
When I can trust someone who's good and true,
Who won't forget what the darkness brings.
Oh I don't want to be alone
So I'll sit and watch the raindrops dance,
A graceful harmony of sorts
Helping me feel a little less alone.

If I've ever put you through hell
And you feel like I've only called
When I've needed help...
Or lied to your face,
Shutting you out to protect you from myself
Then there's nothing left for me to say
But thank you for putting up with me.

Now I have trouble finding my way,
Believing that I'm all my mistakes
And the words that they spoke are coming true.
I lie in dark, lonely rooms
Unable to speak a word of how much I'm hurting.
I know all I'm doing is letting you all down
But I'm too tired to keep fighting myself!

I feel like...
Nobody understand
Nobody cares
Nobody wants me
Nobody needs me
Nobody sees me
Nobody hears
Nobody gets me.

I feel like...
An outcast
A shadow
A ghost
A nobody
A waste of space

This is all I am

I feel so drained and tired
yet I can't sleep...
I don't really eat and I barely drink anything
Yet I feel so hungry...
I've cried near enough every night
Yet I cannot stop...
I feel like this barrier I have been putting up is slowly breaking down
I can't control it...
I feel so weak and fragile
That one single thing could throw everything out of proportion
and I crash...

Soft red liquid
dripping down my arms.
Scarlet crimson colour
possessing my thoughts
and mind.

Thoughts of death and spirits
clouding up my mind.
Death notes written
thoughts of death
crossing my mind.

Trying to hide my pain
away from those so called friends.
Trying to hide the tears
that come so frequently.
I'm not who i used to be.

Pain is just apart of life,
apart I've grew up with.
Another day of trying to get by
but no-one see's me cry.
I hate this so called life....

You told me this all before
They say it all again
but they never understand
Deep down I know the truth
But things happen and its not me.
I'm lost somewhere I sure
And I can't make my mistake.

I'm trapped in a room
With no Windows or doors.
I'm trapped in a box
With no keys but a lock.
I'm tortured inside
With no cure to be found.
It's not me who is showing.

When the darkness takes over
The real me is lost.
I feel a different person inside
I know I've been lost.
It can take days, weeks, months
For my true self to return.
I'm trapped once again.

I often think about myself,
That I'm worthless and weak.
I often think I can't make it,
That I'm a terrible person.
I feel like a failure
Often a loser too.
I can't escape from my nightmares.

I cry so often on my sleep,
I cry in front of people
But they cannot see.
I often do not eat
I starve away the pain ,
Instead of cutting
No matter what I hurt.

I want to scream
But no one hears me.
I want to cut
But it makes me feel worse.
I want to cry
but I am afraid of these people.
I never know what to do.

With words I've been betrayed
You tell me that you care
But I won't let you bring me down.
Tell me why it's always me
The one that always feels scared.
You smile when I fear the world
After you promised to be there.

I can't trust people
I'm too scared to let them in.
People tell me to be strong
But they don't know what it's like
To be lost inside your own head
With nowhere to escape
But let the darkness consume me.

Thought the professionals knew best?
I tell you I hate life,
That all I want is too escape
But all you do is send me away,
Tell me I'm fine and that I should just smile.
I thought you professionals knew best?

Thought that friends were there to support you?
I tell you I'm down and that I'm done
But you push me away
And ignore my cries for help.
You tell me I'll be okay when you don't have a clue.
I thought friends were supposed to support you?

Thought that parents were supposed to care?
I say I feel hopeless and like I've failed you
But you ignore my plea
And tell me I'm being stupid.
You say I don't know what you've done for me
And that I need to stop being so selfish...
I though parents were supposed to care for you?

I thought that professionals could help you out?
Well I guess they can't because they can't see my cries for help!!
I thought that friends were there to support you?
Well I guess they don't understand that I can't do this on my own!!
I though that parents were supposed to give a ****?
Well I guess that they don't when all you do is cause trouble!!

Shout and scream will there is nothing left.
Put me in that grave like you are desperate too.
Make my life hell,
Spill all my secrets...
Continue your violent, death threats.
I will just pretend it means nothing to me
But truthfully I cant wait for the day
When I don't have to feel at all.

Time will say nothing but I told you so,
When the leaves fall down and begin to decay.
When the sun goes away and the rain clouds come out to play.

Time will say nothing but I told you so,
When the laughter drifts away and memories begin to fade.
When you haven't the chance to say hello before having to say goodbye.

Time will say nothing but I told you so,
When the music starts to come to an end before you've had the chance to listen.
When the poems all lose their meanings and lyrics become just jumbled words.

Time will say nothing but I told you so,
When you don't say the words I love you enough to all those that you hold day.
When the world starts to fade away and you've barely chosen to live.

Without so much as a thought,
Time will say nothing but I told you so!

Today I am sad.
Its the kind of sad when you don't know why
But you know it must be felt wholeheartedly.
The kind of sad where you don't realise
Until your face feels wet and you realise you've been crying.
The kind of sad that hits you from nowhere,
Where you find yourself lying in a dark room
Because it demands for you to acknowledge its existence.
The kind of sad where you know tomorrow you'll be fine
And be able to face the world again.
Today I am sad and will willingly let it consume me
Just for tonight in my lonely dark room.
But when I open my eyes tomorrow I will say goodbye to the sadness
And let it all go roaming free with the wind.

Trapped in a world
So cruel and vile.
Bitter twisted sorrows
Lies told by the world.
Trapped in a cage
So cold and icy.
Lies cut into my skin
Etched into my mind.

Trapped inside my head
So twisted an dark.
Bitter sweet nightmares
Monsters unfurling.
Trapped inside a clouded mind
So evil and fake.
Bleeding out abandonment
Longing to belong.

Trapped inside a nightmare
Crying for a meaning
Longing to be wanted somewhere
Bleeding to feel something.
Trapped inside hell
Wanting an escape
Knowing I have no chance
I'm ending my so called life.