My northern star
I could never ask for more
than for you to stay

We met in winter
flushed cheeks warmed from weeks with you
called love till spring blooms
we said I love you

Silence turned me blue
feeling empty without you
thinking what to do
thoughts piled up the room

she made you smile
thinking maybe it was time
to let you fly free
and so It shall be

from that moment on
you hated me to the core
I was just afraid
that you never loved me

we stayed for a chance
hoping we'd bloom once again
tied a broken string
yet breaks once again

I meant what I said
that you were a life that matters
the beats of my heart
you were everything,
why do we fall apart?

I'm sorry I stopped
it doesn't feel like it's us
words were still just words
and secrets behind your eyes
nothing will ever be right

I looked up to you
Even if you hide from me
My only night light

There was nothing left
Than just words and nothing more
It was all I had

I am nothing more
Than a monochrome figure
Dancing on rainbows

Its easy to say
When efforts can't play
Piled up words to decks
Love loses it's breath

If I were a rose
It hurts to lose a petal
Than to grew a thorn

A butterfly kiss
memories start to flutter
I miss how it feels

I was too much in life
Never tried to be less
Only wished for life
But now I'm a mess

You were all I had
warmth of every sunrise
Cozy as my sweater
Cocoa on a moonlight

It was my choice to stay
Knowing the cost it takes
I was only myself
But a no one to you

You carried on
Not my will to break
Though in life onward
You'll be okay

The scent of your words
Led me to forgiving tears
Melting my blue heart
Telling me to disappear
Till I forget my story

When I gave it all
To every single last breath
Knowing you have left

Let this be my last
Just forget the past
Erase every piece
Let this give you peace
But if you can keep
My name at least
Maybe you'll find me

I promised you life
even if I'm half the heart
so I'd watch you fly

Close my eyes
Color me blue
Take my breath
Make me new

Falling winter's kiss
Caresses down to every curve
Ebbs beneath my skin

From broken Morse code
It's hard to convince your mind
That I cared for you

Lifts my head up high
Finding peace at night
Eyes burns like fire
Hoping to be alright

Listen to the sound
ripples beating like my soul
letting myself flow

There is light in thee
from the darkest galaxies
reflects light in me

Habit by habit,
Just another white rabbit,
In this life's gambit,

Time is all I have,
To forget me in your eyes,
Till there's nothing left,

You tell me you're here,
but you choose to stay behind,
Where I can't see you,

Cold coffee,
Drought soul,
Pale blue,
Broken bones,

Chapped lips,
Tired skin,
Plain vanilla,
Broken again,

I held my hands high,
feeling every heaven's tear,
heal my anguished heart,

You are on my mind,
With every detail I love,
Beats less in my heart,

Strange but nonchalant,
Dancing through the eyes of doubt,
My rhapsody of pain,

There's hope in the dark,
Honey amber in the night,
Flickering like the stars,

Lay by the purple meadow sea,
where eternal dreams may be,
only in time will it flourish in me,

Tangerine pumpkins on night's blood moon,
Candles lit in pitch black rooms,
set the skulls and silk webs,
trick and treat with madness, I dare
Shiver crawls on my pale skin,
Feeling the screams of Halloween dive in,

Time for bed,
Rest your head,
I'll  protect you dear,
from the nightmares you bare,

Close your eyes,
Count to three,
You'll be safe with me,
I promise you my dear,

Engulf me in love,
Break me in half,
Only once-more,
Only encore,

I once remembered
I was filled with   memories
then were blown away

With all that matters,
.
from every beat of your heart,
.
with every love in your lungs,
.
and the light in your eyes,
.
Everything about you matters,

Every bite of you
comes with an aftertaste
of broken fragments