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Be lucky that it's clear
that I'm here
and not in your ear
making rhymes about
******* and beer.
I'm here
knotting so many fallacies that
I could be queer
but it's clear,
I'm here.

Still here, that is.
Or... maybe I should be lucky.
Let's both not take here for granted.
Even when it aches,
like reality has some sickness
that we can neither cure nor talk down,
we must remember
that we can no more not be here
than we can be in our dreams...
If you can't understand those words
then you're struggling to be here
shifting your eyes like flickering flashlights
they **** away and bang bang bang against the hand of boredom
because the brain is running dry,
I understand.

Be here with me, dear literary vagabond,
peruse my nonsense. Take a bite.
Chew upon the syllables and forgettables,
like soggy vegetables.
Let it all melt in your mind,
like Belgian chocolate (forget the vegetables).
There's nothing here except derangement,
but
have you won the battle?
Are you still here?

The sound of turbulent water
running through the pipes.
The roar of trembling engines,
jostling and towing their vehicles
down the street.
The tap dance of computer keys
mirroring the senility of my mind...
The slamming of doors:
all these sounds,
as if reality is sonically transparent,
but
are you here with me?

This world is more transparent
than I ever gave it credit.
If you're still here,
I bid you welcome
to the magnificent world
of a millennial extravaganza,
growing beyond the cosmos as if
our minds can pierce the heart of dark
and render mystery a pale reflection of
ordinary!

Yes, if you're here,
still here,
things are very ordinary.
And I can never hide that from you.
I can never make you think these words are legendary,
because I'm here,
and I'm not not here,
so you take me for granted
and though I could spin your mind
like a world on my finger,
people will only wish they could be here with me,
when I'm dead,
but if you're reading this,
I'm here.
Ironies of life and death.
Parallels of the ordinary and extraordinary.
They bind us in a seamless dance,
a dance that weaves together passion
and stillness.

I hope you all enjoy!

DEW
Sometimes, when I let go of you, I fall.
I fall into a wood chipper and cry sawdust.
I fall into ******* and bleed lust.
I fall into gold chocolate and I eat rust.
Nothing's more painful than letting go of the truth.

Sometimes, when I leave you behind, I forget things.
I think the touch of your skin is like slug slime.
I think of your voice like a broken nursery rhyme.
I think these wounds will all heal in time, in time.
Nothing's more regretful than being human; losing youth.

Sometimes, when I drown with you, I'm good at math.
Factor in all the times you made me lose the path.
Divided by the times I boldly faced your wrath.
Multiplied by that time I quit you cold turkey.
Nothing equals: why do I even love you after all?

Sometimes, when I dream of you, the other stars fade.
The secret to loving you explains how the universe was made.
The sun and the moon make love, eclipsed nightmares evade.
Venus and Mars make pillow-talk a banquet of bliss.
Our signs aren't compatible, but why trust the zodiac?

Sometimes, when we fight, there's a silver lining.
I mine for it and melt it down, polish it and wear it.
I'd never sell it, but I would brag about it.
I'd never forge one, but I caught you faking it.
Conduct a survey of my affections and find it unanimous.

Sometimes, when it's over, it's just beginning.
I see you on the horizon of dawn escaping the wake of sunset.
I hear you playing the harp of loneliness in a crowded cacophonous room.
I taste you weeping as your new love docks in from an ocean voyage.
Nothing's more dissolving than the nature of your serpentine carousel.

In short, never have I ever never gone a day without thinking of you,
Without wandering the wastelands wondering when I'll next see you,
Without my heart aching under the heartbreaking realization that you,
The edifice of my pining, are exactly who I thought you weren't, you,
Are healing poison, and I'll only drink when I wish to die whilst feeling alive again.
I wrote this last year on July 1st.
It's almost an anniversary of all the craziness I went through with my ex. Strange how I miss her all the more.
Currently, she won't respond to my messages, so... oh, well.

I wrote this in healing from a world of pain, not entirely concerning her, but that healing gave me a moment of clarity, which, given my poetic nature, allowed me to write this poem of which I am very proud.

Enjoy!

DEW
As a boy I grew up thriving off of excitement,
Counting the amusing days toward bitter end.
That boy never saw me huddling in crap caked coat,
Calling out to him to stop dreaming! Do homework!

As a teenager I grew up running; lust a carrot before me.
I thought each day a time for friendship, not discipline.
I thought each kiss to be life's purpose and not reprieve.
I though love to be freedom from responsibility. Oh dear.

As a young man I grew up crawling through smoke.
My life was burning down, that's why I was blind.
My blood was boiling that's why I was always angry.
I was falling apart, a thing of ash and charred bones.

As a man I grew up clothed in another lifetime's nightmares.
Watching the lives of others became window shopping.
I used to beg for candy, now for money; born a beggar.
There is no way out of this hole, because I'm the hole.

As an old man I grew up spitting out teeth, shedding.
I shed the nightmares, I shed the misery, even poverty.
I watch myself shedding even insanity; I'm no longer aware.
From this bed I exhale a wasted life, and meet a loving God.

As a spirit I finally grew up, finally glad for a lifetime's lessons.
Listen to those who have grown up, be disciplined and in that free.
Only in working for all that you are worth will poverty lessen.
Shirk your teachers? Hate your parents? You'll be just like me.
So it's pretty self-explanatory that you don't write a poem about poverty, loneliness, and hopelessness unless you're feeling pretty lousy, right?

Well, what can I say?

I can say a lot...

I'll say one thing punctuated by insults.

Go brush your teeth and get some sleep, you lout! Ba-humbug!

(LOL)
I know that it's twisted,
But, what love isn't
It steadily grows in your mind,
Vines intertwined, each branch is a vessel
To the heart of the blind,
because that's what love is.
Simple, how it complicates
When it breaks,
There's no remedy for how it aches
The mistakes, that you so awkwardly pursue,
Are the branches that lead to the, I love you
Now tell me and listen,
Let the quick sand, quicken
As you drown in the dust
Of what you cooked in the kitchen
You thought it was religion,
When you said your vows,
Like an animal you're stricken
When they, she, takes you down,
Simple, how it aggravates,
When you take,
Your last step.
Hard to believe it when you feel
A back-stab wound,
You're all consumed,
You want to crawl inside,
With the rage that love has blinded,
The truth is harder to take,
Than any magic pill you make,
Any time a simple memory,
Sneaks up to say, 'Hello!'
You're breaking every mirror
To not see your face bellow.
There you go, it's twisted,
But, what hate isn't,
With nowhere to go,
You feel like the convicted.
So you're trapped in a life,
That you don't want to be in.
You'd love to start over,
Just where to begin?
Tears are like, rain on the window of your cell
It's fine when you're here,
No one can hear you yell.
Anything, so long as you forget that smell,
The one that's so good, it's like poison in the well.
You want to drink.
God you know how much it hurts when you do.
Hey, take another sip...
It's not like the memories are through with you.
They're like the torturers
And you're a rat in their cage.
An experiment sometimes; Life.
It can go both ways.
You just never believe in bad fortune,
So why bow to the danger?
In the depth you're so hollow,
Because inside is a stranger.
There they are again,
The tears,
The fears,
The anger,
The stranger,
The hate,
The scientists.
Back again with prodding sticks.
They're in your mind,
And there, they're rooted.
You once grew love like a tree,
But, your world's upside down.
So all you have are the roots.
No... wait, they're thorns.
Like the roots...
This poem (almost a rap) was written on this day, November 4th, all the way back in 2010.
2010 was a big year for me with poetry. I experimented quite a lot. I wrote a few amazing ones. It was also a turbulent year for many reasons, which I won't go into.

However, I had some romantic relationships that year that have defined my life: memories that cling to my consciousness; memories that are awake even when I'm asleep. Such is love.

I hope you enjoy this one :)

DEW
I’m struck
Struck, not by stubborn winds
nor seeping rain and bitter snow
I am struck by the audacity!
The audacity of life itself…

Grating insults hurled
middle fingers flashing like upturned fangs
sumptuous thighs, bare and glistening in the sunlight
heavy alcohol dripping off the cheeks.
Failed relationships,
I was bored so…
Isn’t that always the excuse,
as to why I can hear her
***** him
didn’t she know I’d be home?
Who cares.
It’s the audacity of life that bugs me,
because,
the simple answer, with every infraction,
is,
I do so, because I am.
Now leave me be.

But I know they know it can't be that simple.
They're all the 29th round boxer fighting a shadow:
an unyielding mass of darkness
chained to our souls
occupying no more than the air itself
yet heavy as the bedrock of hell
deep and destructive.

I've seen these shadows break a man.
I was that man.
So I tremble at the audacity of life.
Wherein the puppet manipulates the master.
Wherein the blind see more than the visionary.
Wherein the beggar is imbued with purpose,
and the money mogul strips his vassals of soul and sympathy.

Yes, and I have the audacity to write this,
like I give a ****,
when I'm just like you.
Another day...
Another dollar...
With this poem, I wanted to reflect on the reality of living in a world one does not understand, as well as the presence of hypocrisy that seems to be, not only a fact, but a staple of human consciousness.

How do we shake this weight?
It is our willingness to bear duplicity that splits, then weakens, then shatters our "self."
Every building needs scaffolding to become a grand structure.
I think humans are much the same.
Our lives get so complicated that we forget we are organic.
Mortal.
Fallible.

Anyway, enough for today!

Enjoy!

DEW
The daughter forgot the nest.
She left it, fading in memory,
Until memory washed away,
Like footprints on the shore.

Out of the deadly ocean we call life,
She found the shore,
And seeing her mother still nesting,
She made new footprints.

My daughter, mother sings delighted,
My love for you is boundless.
My heart breaks with every glimmer of you:
You left before you could hatch;
You existed before laid for birth.
You have never known my love:
What did the world teach you?

I know your love, daughter haughtily grumbled,
Love is passion:
It divides pleasure and pain;
It conquers war and ministers peace;
It imprisons hate and waylays death.

Oh, mother simpered,
Sorrow burrowing in her expression,
Not abating when she spoke:
Daughter why are you so bitter?

Aghast, daughter saw betrayal in,
Mother's skin and bones:
Me? Bitter? You don't know me!

Mother shifted her weight,
Letting her gentle warmth,
Embrace her sleeping children equally:
I know you through your beliefs,
And you don't know love,
Because you live the lives,
Of lies, and tricks,
Hate and war.
You think you are right, because,
You assembled fragments of truths;
See here, I have the whole picture.

Summoning her deepest conviction,
Mother spoke from her heart:
Love unites pain and pleasure,
Because pain teaches,
And pleasure rewards;
Pain directs,
And pleasure roots;
If they don't work together,
We are utterly lost.

Mother sang her words,
Like a symphony of beauty:
Love,
Misguided love,
Sows wars,
As easily as it ministers peace,
But hate ignites war because,
We imprison our hate,
Instead of letting it go free,
And replacing hate,
With love.
Hate imprisoned,
Is a monster,
Snarling in the cage,
Luring bystanders,
That it may be set free.

Mother's song was a tempest,
Rattling the trees,
Sweeping the forest floor,
Carrying the clouds,
She sang with purpose:
Love does not waylay death,
Love is death,
Love is the death of hate,
War, and sin,
But it must be true love.

True love? Daughter despaired.

Mother's song quieted,
An eerie echo in the wake,
Of the song's crescendo:
Love is not passion,
Love is peace.

Daughter's eyes showed defiance.

Mother's song settled to soft steps,
Like water drops gleefully,
Jumping from trees:
You don't believe me,
Because you don't know love...

Daughter turned her head,
To look at the setting sun,
Storm clouds of dissent,
Brewing in her mind,
And there she saw it!

The setting of the sun...
The sun allows itself to die,
Assured that it will,
Be born again in morning.
The moon and stars,
Mostly gone during day,
Yet night provides their,
Reigning.
Storms enrage the elements,
And destroy the founded,
But enrich the earth,
And scatter the seeds for new life.
Predators linger, lurk and listen,
Waiting to crawl, catch, ****!
Yet even they must,
Protect and raise their children,
Because there is a time,
For weakness...
For strength...
For death...
For life...

Daughter turned back to mother:
May I shelter my siblings?

Mother smiled:
Now you know...
Love is in the embrace.

Before summer,
Siblings hatched,
Marveling at their sister,
Big, and strong,
In heart and stature.
When they learned to fly,
They flew with her.
When she died,
They laid her to rest,
And mother, too.

If love is not taught,
To willing ears,
It is wasted,
Like water through,
Open hands.

If your wings,
Tire from love,
Know this:
Love rewards,
For love commands peace,
pleasure, pain, hate,
Yes...
Even death.

Love commands.
I am not enslaved.
I'm ignored by the misbehaved.
Those with a lust for power,
Spoke my name, in your darkest hour.
To convince you that I am malformed.
To provide for you a view deformed.
And you took that view,
Discarding what you childishly knew,
For what you were told was adult.
Hate is the name of that view,
Hate is an all-consuming cult,
Unrepentant of its ways,
Marking the many days,
Until it can say that when you and they wilt,
It's your fault.
Or mine.
For when,
When I am absent,
Like a working parent,
ONE thing is apparent:
When I return,
Love is heaven-sent.
You, they tell me, you shine like a diamond in the sun.
I polish myself to ward off the dust,
I have no fear, for they say I don't rust.
Why should I work; they say I've already won...

You, they tell me, banish dark with a blink.
I walk into destruction, intentionally.
I defeat demons arrogantly.
A powerful child isn't as weak as you think.

A day soaked in turmoil bathes me.
A towel of misfortune rapes me.
Clothing of shame drapes me.
Cruel fate awaits me.

I realize, if I am that diamond, not the sun,
It was truly the sun shining,
Not I, and too long spent there,
Would leave me high and dry.

I realize, we all blink away,
Darkness.
Just try closing your eyes,
You'll see the banality.

Propped up like a scarecrow,
Were their compliments,
And I was the field,
Now my crops don't yield.

I look into the world's eyes,
Contempt, like marching soldiers,
Flood forth from their gazes,
Into my heart, and ****** it.

My senses barren,
I walk back to the sun,
So I can be burned,
Into oblivion.

Saying to myself,
"It wouldn't,
Have been so bad,
If they loved me still."
So, my best three poems had been rejected from this competition and I didn't even make any of the five or so semifinalist spots.

I'd been so excited to enter, because I'd heard so many good things about my poems; one person going so far as to say, "Your middle name should be, 'a beautiful mind.' "

Of course, I had no clue as to realize I was swimming in a "little pond" and that the big pond would be so... belittling, haha.
Anyway, I hope that this one is enjoyed.

Dark, it is, yet caging, it is not.

I find that ironic, how some poisons make you feel free.
Starts to make you wonder, if these things we call curses are really curses at all. Well, curses have prices.

Those things which are good don't; they have "conditions."

It takes a lot of experience to know that.
However, the good path is a hard path.
In a sense, it's more dangerous than the troubled path, because you have to be so much more careful. Those who don't like the good path are spiritually, mentally and physically lazy.

The thing is, although they say it takes a "community" to raise a child, I believe that it takes a "world" to sustain a man.
Yet, what do I mean by sustenance?
I don't mean ***, Lamborghinies , and drugs:
enough of those things and you'll find yourself emptier than a tube of toothpaste, while the devil uses your extracted minty-happiness to wax his chest.

Seems too typical if I say, "You need God," but it works for so many people.
Why does it work?
The devices of this world are like drugs, and you know it:
the internet, McDonald's, ****; breaking dependence on these things makes your mind clear, it gives you purpose, and ultimately, you become a better person.

However, there are people out there who call themselves Christians, and they're like bad books: the cover looks appealing, even the blurb on the back is enticing, but you delve in and you're disgusted.

It's hard to be a Christian, because everyone is saying that you shouldn't be.
It's like buying a medicine that is saving your life, and then turning on your television that features an advertisement saying, "If you're using clozorilXR, discontinue use immediately. Condemn that product!"
Imagine that advertisement fifty times a day.
That's how tough it is to be a Christian.

It means, being a Christian is hard (as I said about the good path before), and the harder something is, the more people you'll find failing at it.
Yet the good virtue is that they're still trying.
(I can't believe this guy is trying to sell us Christianity)
I'm not selling you anything.
Christians call this "sharing the good news."
In other words, I'm just telling you how happy I am and what I've learned.

You can break free of the drugs that pollute your mind.
Christianity it not an instant cure.
It's a journey.
A mission in actively fighting societal, social, physical, and mental pollution.

Chemicals are released in your brain when you have ***.
Most people can't resist that chemical.
Many people are addicted to it, some casually, others terribly.
No one is calling them drug addicts: that's a crime in and of itself.
I could go on preaching, but I'm wary of how people will feel about this.

"I didn't come here to be preached to."

Well, then tell me, what are you living this life for?

Many people will have answers.
I tell you the truth, 100% of those answers are fleeting.
So we cop out and say, "I'm here to enjoy life."
Well, you're not enjoying it; are you?
That's why you're "here."
Love is poison,
love is love,
love is hell,
love is above,
when in heaven, God rest your soul,
when in love, no rest for you at all.

Love is the poison,
love is the antidote,
love is the noose,
love is the hymn,
when in hell, sing, sing, screeaam away the pain,
when in love, I'll come back again, again... again.

Love is death,
love is cure,
hate is doubt,
love is sure,
when in doubt, hold out your hand,
when you're sure, she doesn't taste bland.

And still, I'm dying for love,
because love is poison,
and I will love only when it kills me.
I hope you enjoyed this :)

DEW
Were you to ask it
query it
seek it
the answer to my heart
is there shade on the eve of love
indeed, there is
a shade like mountain's umbra
a gloom cast from the deep
a shadow that cloisters
clutches
croons in one's ear
sorrow of the like one wishes experience only once
if at all

There is a time to be glad,
but not on this eve...

Today, we experience love's eclipse
a respite from charm and wonder
a delay of inevitable passion
a somber
slow
seething
slump
into a chasm of finite eternity
where seconds last years
and moments are lifetimes
but not cherished times
not a calm before the storm
it is despair before victory
the long sigh of anticipation
as one is disemboweled
waiting for death's promise
a metaphorical death of
all our hopes and dreams
as the queen of night
suffocates our sun on high
we dream a waking nightmare
but know
it only lasts the night

And suddenly
like the snapping of a finger
it appears
not sound
but light
a pinprick
and
though small
it envelopes one's whole mind
a shard of light
like a rope of hope
penetrating your soul
you know it
the eclipse draws to an end

A sliver of its radiant face
the sun peeks round the corner of doom
smiling wanly at first
but as the eclipse abates
you know the warmth
the curling of fingers around fingers
eyes connected
you see them
as if having waited centuries to see them, despite it being first sight
embracing, you are taken adrift
into a flight so free that wings are an inconvenience
arm in arm with your lover
you cascade out into reality
up and down and down and up
the eclipse is no more
love is free
a breeze so firm and sweet that
your lungs feel brand new
your chest swells with pride
you're found
and you have found
together,
you and your lover,
ascend heaven's heights
and dream of eclipses no more

Bound in freedom
free in mind and soul
hearts as one
under the sun
despair
no longer takes its toll...
I recently helped someone grow past a particularly frustrating relationship experience they were having, with nothing but my perspective and some advice. They were moved to tears as they were able to recognize their faults and strategize a way to grow closer to their partner.

And with that, I felt inspired to write this poem about how, sometimes, life looks darkest before sunrise.

I hope this poem was able to move you.

Enjoy!


DEW
When you say,
"Love isn't working,"
I was let go,
In favor of sin.
I work for you:
You haven't paid me.
I require: manners,
Apologies; forgiveness; reconciling;
Passion; discipline; appreciation;
Acknowledgement; patience; understanding;
Faith; hope; joy...
If you pay me,
Yet you say,
"Love is not working,"
Do you pay in poison?
Are you paying:
Bitterness; insults; hate;
wrath; violence; war;
sadness; madness; lust?
Do your employees stay when,
You hate them and hurt them?
If they do, they're not staying for you,
but I can't stay for anything but you,
So I leave when you're not you,
And I stay away when you refuse to be you.
To be you,
You must love me.
Unconditional love
Is pure love,
Free from sin.
Sin is hate,
If you don't love me,
You love hate,
When you love sin,
Then you will say,
"Love doesn't work."
And I will call out to the darkness,
But there you will sleep,
And eternity will keep you,
Because you want to be kept.
So love me,
Love, "Love' and prosper.
Love is a higher power.
God is love & peace.
So faith in God is faith in love.
When will you choose to love?
Will it be when you've love everything?
That will never happen?
Will it be when things are always falling apart?
You won't let it go that far?
Will it be when your world is okay, but you feel empty?
There are things for the emptiness?
Will it be when the emptiness is properly fed?
The emptiness is never fed.
The emptiness will grow,
Until it consumes your friends,
Your family,
And your soul.
It will never stop consuming you,
Even after death.
Those who tell you different,
Have never died,
Those who died and tell you so,
Didn't go to the after life,
Otherwise, they wouldn't be here.
Isn't that so?
I bought the shirt
to tell you I was there
when the electric slide was
cool,
when I wore dandelion
hair.

I knew the words that could
school
your mind so that you'd
stare.
With your electric hide
you can go
anywhere,
but imagine your jealousy
when I'm in all the photographs,
not noticing I don't fit.

In the millennium's decade
I wove webs at bars
I healed dames their scars
and gave them my brand.
I told jokes with slight
of
hand;
left coats with nowhere
to stand.
Oh, I was the border patrol,
******* pockets,
though none could pass.
My security measures were
long and vast,
probing questions
slick with crass,
I'd lead them to pasture
epiphanies from my grass.
Yes, I wore the hat,
compliments, too,
but my hat wouldn't fit
no matter what
I told it to
do.

All that time,
searching for something to fit.
Keys slipped out of locks
Numbers ripped off of clocks
women deprived of their... talks,
for my language was divine.
That was the problem:
how could I be divine?
Was I the branded fool?
Was I truly sublime?
A prince I was, set to inherit the world
till misfortune struck, disaster unfurled.

I couldn't fit into my home
or wherever I'd
roam.
I couldn't fit into school
now a blunted
tool.
I couldn't fit into work
Who's that?
****!

No, no, don't feel sorry for me...
After all, I'm only 3.
Three things you wouldn't
want to be.
Too round, too soft, too... me.
I'm not the sort of peg
that fits in at any degree.

I'm just the laughing stock,
that you put in your wok,
who tastes bad next year,
that much isn't clear.

Yet if I live in the past,
I'll eat my own tail,
so in order not to fail:
into the future, fast!

Someday I'll find,
that fitting is not the key,
it's learning to
relax,
in something bigger than I'll
ever be.
A lot of my history sort of slipped into the poem here.
Some is obvious. Some is suggested, but not true.
Some is not true, but suggested... yes, I repeated myself... did you notice? LOL
Some is true, but not suggested -_- how does that even work? (You figure it out, haha)
And some is totally not obvious, but wrong or true.
As with all things, let's just enjoy the low-hanging fruit, leave the other fruit to the rock-climbers, and the forbidden fruit to the idiots.

I think I've taken up enough of your time in being silly, haha!

Enjoy!

--- DEW
There's a penny for every sob story,
and a dime for every winner.
A dollar for the tax collector,
and Benjamin pays himself.

But you, my friend, are forgiven,
forget toil and bore;
where you lounge on laurels,
others hunger for more.

There's nonsense in fiction,
truth in law.
But law guarding fiction:
the beast's toothy maw.

You write the laws, my friend,
you are the fiction and truth,
you are the red hand,
you are the beast's jagged tooth.

On and on, the mercy rolls
Are you winning?
Check the polls!
Is it fiction?
No one knows,
but the crown drapes from your head,
to your toes.

Life worms its way into your moth holes...
99 problems; 101 dalmations: you do the math.
You plug the holes with your fingers;
end up with no hands to stop the flood.
That empty feeling lingers,
so does the blood.

Everything's shot to cheese,
but the truth isn't cheesy.
You beg for no mercy,
but you don't say please.

In the end, there's no mention
of how you were spared.
Dare to infract again,
only devils have dared.
I started with the third and fourth lines of the sixth stanza:
"You plug the holes with your fingers;
end up with no hands to stop the flood,"
that I had written weeks ago and had actually intended as a proverb for my fantasy novel, "Brightvoid," which I am currently planning/writing.

Since I had misplaced the note with those lines and put them into my poetry notes, I sat there, staring at those words and decided, "You know what, I'll do it."

Those words will still be employed in my novel, but they'll also be employed in this poem. They must be poor, working two jobs, poor things :(

Enjoy!

DEW
Cast off your secrets
light the lamp
shake off the veils of slumber
indulge in the essence of life.

She calls
She calls to you and me
the Mother.
She speaks in the tongue of your soul
she is never a stranger
and when you listen
memories of love and bliss enchant you
though they were void not moments ago.

There is a chord still connecting us.
It is strummed when we love one another.
It is strummed when we share in selfless joy.
We are the instruments of this innocent music.
It coaxes the beast, our delusions, into its den.
We lock the gate and frolic in the fields,
safe from the weapons of our own chaotic powers.

The Mother invites us to her table.
Before us, the meal of life has been prepared.
It is whole in the giving.
She warns us to keep it whole.
If we give it back as one, there is a door she promises.
Who knows what lies beyond,
but,
I want to go there...

Do you?
I hope you enjoyed this :)

DEW
I sit alone.
I taste the bitterness
of my tongue
and somehow
life is more bitter
than this stale breath;
more empty than my cold bed
less comfortable, than my bleeding heart
more drowning, than nonsense
and less appetizing
than my own
rotten
mind.

Now I sit in two.
I whisper to my friend,
or,
what he desires to be called...
I tell him:
I wonder if there is
a primitive man
somewhere
in another world
absent
of the
vainglory
of future man.
Primitive man sits, nursing a wound
He stares into the night sky
and dreams of my life
he hopes his wound would be
as superficial as mine.
He imagines the weight of my wounds
as mere foundations for greatness.

All the while...
I dream of him

My friend chuckles.

I say:
Imagine how I see him.
Imagine his mind absent of media,
as if the universe
cured him of some life-threatening wound.
I tell my friend:
He was made perfect, you know.
I tell my friend:
That man could cure the world if you gave him a chance.
He would be a god.

My friend gives me a sideways glance.

What?

He offers a gesture of non-confrontation.
I relax. I sigh. I simmer in my somberness.

Imagine him! I declare.
The things he could accomplish in my life and me in his!

My eyes glaze over.
Instead of a deer, I'm an insect.
Instead of a car, it's a train.
Instead of headlights, it's the sun.
I'm not frozen, I'm petrified.
Because:
maybe, at the end of the day, he and I are the same.

That primitive man.
He would bumble around society. He would be consumed by the media before having the answers. It would devour his perfection. In the wake of its *******, the carcass of his potential mastery would be a mere ornament in the media's MTV mansion.

And I, society's specimen of advancement and culture?
I would be devoured by that primitive man's natural world. I would be reduced to moaning and wailing, crawling like a stuck pig, hoping to find a highway, all in vain. Why don't I just lay there and die?
And that nature? It wouldn't leave a carcass. It's too efficient. It's too...
Monstrous.

The primitive man. He's the god of his world.
While I. I can dream of being a god, if that helps.

But will the void mumble.
Will it turn in its sleep?
Will the god, in some slumber, whether dream or nightmare, ever
ever
dream
of being me?

Well.
Then it's in for
a rude awakening...
so to speak.
I hope this does not trouble your morning
or afternoon
or night.

I hope this invites you to learn from an example of one of the many follies of man. Worse than making a mistake, is never learning your lesson.

Maybe that's who we are.
We are those who revel in success.
Or those who are mired in failure.

Only humanity will stand the test of time.
The individual only lives to stand the test of a lifetime.
So live well :)

Enjoy!

DEW
This sour day tastes to you,
The way the lemons are never blue.
You misunderstand my words in total.
Laugh and disagree? This isn't anecdotal...
I've cried here...
haven't we all?
Did the tears dry on the
face?
Were they swept away by shaking
hands?
Were they evidence of void
plans?
Relax... come here and
walk these moonlit pastures.
The galaxy swirling above
swallows not only our planet,
but our disappointments, too,
if only for a night.
Think of how
tears aren't always the martyrs of
tragedy;
they can be the heroes of a
celebration.
Maybe... that's what we always cry
about.
In those moments when time does
stop,
as our hearts threaten to
pop,
maybe it's all the joy
bottlenecked.
The release of agony into
elation,
or the release of love into
transcendence.
As the sun invades the night,
carrying with him wondrous light,
watch the pastures transform.
The waters will sparkle.
The flowers will bloom and
the grass will glow green with envy.
The sky will turn a joyous blue.
When you cry, this also will happen to
you.
Sometimes (very rarely) films make me shed a tear.
It's usually at that moment of the ******, where the hero/protagonist has just achieved their dream or have been shattered by a realization of their own tragedy.

I've read that if a character goes through a trauma and doesn't cry, you will cry for them, but if they do cry, you don't feel the empathetic urge to do so.

The one tear rolls down my face and such sorrows capture my soul. It has to be a good movie, though, like almost perfect, at which point, it's more than just the moment that motivates the tear, it's the entire symphony of the movie. The movie "Jack", featuring Robin Williams, about a boy who ages 4 times faster than a normal human always comes to mind. I saw it when I was a kid and I don't want to see it again because it's so sad.

I don't know if it's because I'm brought to such powerful emotion, or if it's because my tear-ducts are so weak/sensitive, because in the winds of winter, or if I rub my eye, I end up tearing up for an hour, or until I wash my eyes. It really *****. If not the tear-ducts, I suppose I'm a very empathetic person.

Anyway, thank you for reading.

Enjoy!

DEW
Strangers meet under banner of peace,
Each with bubbling thoughts to release,
Words, flooding jaw, to open mouth,
Salivating tongue, whipping words to route.

Gingerly they stand, like spices they are,
Ready to aid any recipe,
To reach for dreams afar.
They don't even know who they are,
But they make shapes of one another,
Regardless of fit, unlike kindred brother.

Bright words fade to dark whispers,
As the strangers make new friends.

In the end, what is left are daggers,
Made from the shadows of contrast.

One stranger bleeds, invisible wounds that bleet,
Calling out for transcendence, beyond defeat.
The other ponders for silence, amongst the wheat,
But in a field of sorrows, one cannot help but eat.
The strangers stand apart, on a stage bitter sweet,
For underfoot is the rage, a sword incomplete.

Rage desires vengeance, out of arcane countenance,
Fallen from mercy, they each are kane to the sore,
Humans thrive on the jolt of fear sans repentance,
For the breath of *****, and wine, are of death.

Acquainted strangers shed blood instead of nectar,
So as not to drink of the life, from which they all are victor.

Yet they stand mortal enemies, under the stars of fate and boredom.
Where is that banner of peace, waving to set the stage... again?
For we are not sworn enemies, we are mortals of a fallen kingdom,
Meant to die for beliefs that will eat us alive from the inside.
I wrote this on September 28th, 2011.
I have an idea as to what inspired this, but I can't be sure.
Regardless, the amount of symbolism and hidden meaning in this is astounding. I can only read into it properly (even after all this time) because I'm me, LOL.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy!

DEW
Like an anthill I was, at birth.
The sprouting of a tree not yet mighty.
The trickle of a river not yet strong,
but within my mind were dreams.

I thought to myself...
When will I flow?

Every touch,
every word,
every color,
every note,
every taste,
was another grain,
another pebble,
another boulder,
another hill,
another expansion to my range of view.
And though I could yet call myself a mountain.
Though streams wove their ways from my eyes,
fresh springs of tender breaths,
trees rooted deep enough to whistle in the wind,
thoughts beginning to form,
I still spoke the words,
“When will I flow?”

I caressed the clouds and their silvery charm,
hugging my neck, like heavenly trinkets,
a beard of trees splayed down my chest and back, like emerald robe
and
ah,
rivers, splashing and bubbling and whooshing and running,
like naked children tumbling down from innocence,
giggling all the way
until they learn that the world hungers for blood.
The clouds at my neck are a vice at my fury.
They blacken like mists of soot
and crackle and moan.
They roar and spit fire upon the earth.
A tree splits and becomes a beacon of wrath, a torch
setting other trees aflame.
Oh, all nature is the same.
There is a time for peace and for war.
But when the flames settle.
When my skin is charred and creviced.
Then sprouts the green fingers of spring.

I am the mountain.
I command the seasons.
The winds are my whip.
The Earth is my chariot.
The clouds are my helm
and lightning my sword.
Guardian or warlord?
Lover or slaver?
Is it an illusion?
Am I at the whim of the seasons?
Does man define my beauty?

Thence comes the answer.
I flow.
I once flowed into me,
Growing strong, I was the mountain,
But the flow is leaving me now.
What leaves me is what I can do without.
The flow becomes my power.
In dying, I gain control.
Strong is my pen,
my word masters the sword
and
for every beginning
there is an end.
This is me thinking about age
and everything I can be with time
and all that will be lost to the ages.
More than swords in the ground can rust
I fade and wither, I choke and splutter
For the taste of sin is as corrosive lust
My ***** in winter, like yolk or butter
That is the tongue tilling bounds of time
The book states the fruit of tongue is death
I planted seeds in every vineyard for wine
They’re drunk on my beauties, each breath
Of nonsense ushering their apocalypse
Yet, I never wished for this, I know the truth
I never envisioned a world on the brink
Of oblivion, neglected old, putrid youth
It all turned hellish in the wake of a blink
I never listened, because I was always deaf
My passion faded till there wasn’t any left
I never heard the screams, shouts, cries,
But when it all burned down I smiled,
That was the music even enjoyed in silence,
The great machine of enslavement toppled
Laid to waste and rot was the factory of violence.
This one's pretty dark.
I hadn't planned on it being this way, but such was the night on Sunday.

I think it's got a solid rhythm, so, good enough, haha.

I hope you all enjoy!

DEW
I saw her softly combing her chestnut hair
Each motion like parting smooth ocean waves.
I had to know her and how she behaves.
Yet my heart filled with terrible despair.

My friends told me to turn back,
but I braved the restless sea.
I seem to have a knack,
For finding any key.

I found her reading my favorite book.
She was delighted to know I knew it.
Nothing was more obscure than our love,
for a writer more obscure than his peers.

I dreamed of her every night
her passions warm
our victory right;
in either
dorm.

Every meeting with her I carried
my fantasies: a shell eclipsing the
very truth I failed to see, or so they
said of my nights' shameful proclivities.

We shared our hearts like pastries,
devouring one another's
thoughts until we
knew the taste
by rote.

Of course, we were so engorged upon the
fictions of our authored lives that something
had to be real; had to be tangible
beyond mere spooling tales wagging to tune.

Ignited like a forest fire was the lust coursing through us and
in gleaming moonlit fits of ravenous lips and tender bits
our bodies danced in only so many ways two
chiming instruments can rattle the soul
knocking and injecting essences
to quench the flame that
can never ever be
quenched...

Oh, Lord!

I lay there breathing wishing to die in
the moment I knew I loved her that I
may immortalize the knowledge thusly
ending potential doubt and teeming lies.

A month later, we were still burning and
alive and burning alive but we don't
threaten our haven, we just consider
ourselves lost in a wonderland of ***.

Then a man, a few years my senior came,
and he wanted words, he felt entitled.
He felt entitled to her, her mind, her
body, her genius, her love and her ***.

A month later, at a bar back at home,
I saw it all too clear and regretted
ever knowing her, ever loving her
every succumbing to the ***: that drug.

She's somewhere now, loving him, because he was entitled;
his name was on her history, in her language, on her
books, in her mind, on her, in her, every time
I thought it was just me, he was there
dancing with her, holding her
my hand was a ghost
all along.

My darling portends the end of an era,
but my life began with her and that soft kiss.
My darling portends a life of searching for,
cure to a heartbreak that mends with further pain.
There's a story behind everything, of course.
It seems my life revolves around the only love I've ever known.
You get a taste of something glorious and... what if you never have it again?

Life is strange, haha.

Enjoy!

DEW
When the cage has no bars, what do you rattle?
I grab my chest, something is pounding inside!
Maybe I'm the cage...
I'm a walking, talking penitentiary.
My uniform is black, my prisoner is blue,
these words that I'm writing, he's writing to you!
Yet I'm an accomplice because I too am a prisoner,
I build walls and break them down hoping the symbolism will free me.
I traversed the world searching for a way out, my only hope is the sky,
so I created all of you to help me fly.
I just lied, didn't I? That's what you'd wish.
Baby, you've got no class if you're not the main dish.
A car or a plane or a train or a ship.
You can go anywhere you want but you can't leave this "planet"... sh#$!
Where do you want to go, J? You barely leave your house.
"Shh, I need an excuse to hate my life!"
You don't need to hate you, that's a job for your ex-wife...
"Sshhhhhh."
Writer's Note: This hails from back in November 2016, LOL. It's just been sitting unpublished... it is weird, though.
Seven mountains
Seven seas
Love abounding
All fear flees

I once had no idea of the soul
in knowing I knew not my own
yet there was nothing to find...
Shape. Touch. Smell?
No one can ring a bell
There are no pictures or words
Only memories and monuments absurd.
I dreamt of my home
realized I was ne'er there
ne'er reading shelf books
ne'er breathing its air.
Yet I found a new place
where I'd rest my head
and I slept there past reason
till I was near dead.

I dreamt of a girl
but ne'er knew her
out there by a lake
she wasn't a blur.
Still I couldn't touch
could only see
feel the warmth of her heart
like a hearth by me.

When dreaming was done
I walked on the edge
I've always liked risks
but none like the ledge.
I do it for the view
beyond is a sight to see
always something new
where you're not s'posed to be.
This one is immensely lyrical and...
lo and behold, it could be another country song!

I was playing "Destiny" on my Xbox the other day and got talking to a racist who said he was only kind to me because his cousin likes me.
We talked for an hour or so. I'd say it was epic, but the bad taste in my soul is more than an aftertaste. At one point he called me "boy" when I accidentally died.
Anyway, he called himself a redneck: he lives that "lifestyle".
I suppose a part of myself is responding to two nights ago.
Culture is culture, all beautiful in some way.

I hope you enjoy!

DEW
Throughout the life of this lonely traveler, one thing has been true.

No one knows the burdens of a truthful, man.

Women pine, quake and laugh about the piteous concerns, and lies of, men.

But, no man has ever exposed the truth of women and their lies.



Clothes to cover up, aging flesh, morose temperament, and the scars of woe & wrath.

Mascara, the dark filth of the earth, to cover tired eyes and the depth of secrets in the soul.

Paint, to cover the cracks of age, and the true doom of the beautiful, yet withering, rose that is youth.

White lies, that blind and twist the fabric of a man's sense of truth and wonder about his love.



The lies are small, the vanity deep, and the wrinkles like rivers that are of broken reason. Trickling; yet, like veins in the eye,

The blood of falsity bleeds deep into the twisted soul of the lying woman. The illusion.

The lies are. Small. Yet each day, each month, each year, they are built skyward, like bricks in a chimney.

The smoke from within is putrid and rife with the anger of misunderstanding and emotional vapor.



The chimneys I see reveal factories of deceit and compulsive irony. The make-up of woman-kind.

They beg for truth, yet hide everything but tears to the eyes of their coddled lovers.

Each man, a babe; helpless to the hammer and clock of heart break to come.

A woman will tell one lie to save your soul... then tell another, to sell it to carrion. The lost.



I am lost. I am a vulture to truth and I am sickened by the taste of greed for love.

They tell me, they hurt, because one man broke promises meant to churn the engines of love...

Yet they continue to stir the cauldron of their own false worries and stifle the honesty of love.

What do they want? My soul? My. Soul? I will give it. I will bury it in the grave of pity, I will.



I will shovel out all the hope, dreams and promises I have to give and empty out a nest; in there.

I have burrowed out the ache and the pain of the bricks and lies women have told me, just to make home for new residence.

When I watch the walls crumble from the coom and cuss, of their idiocy, I will simply clean up the mess.

I have no more to give, but what I hope to be and what I hope to have once I find the woman without lies.



Truth is, men are masters, 'because' of women. Physical strength is all that keeps them at bay, because they, once, slaved us to their needs, we tipped the balance and hold the chain of destiny, in hopes of taming the horses that pull the chariot of angels.

The woman I see, riding the chariot is fierce and bright, like the light that shines that forms the ever-present sun.

I watch her until she passes by and wait for an empty return.

As I am here, with an empty soul... For. New. Residence.



The emotional man, is whipped and beaten by that chariot-woman. She laughs and curses me into the dirt.

But, I stand up righteous in my pursuit for the honest woman. The 'giving' woman.

She waits upon the highest tower, letting down the chains of our bond, to give me flight to the heavens.

... Until then. I simply. Have.

No woman.
I wrote this poem on July 4th 2010, a day, that culminated a harrowing series of ten days, ten days that may be etched in my memory so long as I live.

I was delighted to find this and read this today because it reminded me of the sorrow I've held on to for so long regarding my relationships with women.

Regardless, I'm in better spirits today, and am in a more reasonable place to perceive and digest the anguish I felt in those days, and in the times that followed.

As always,


Enjoy!
1) Chunks of silently fluttering wings descend,
They collectively form a gust of gentle wind.

2) Jars of emptiness lay open. Around, waters bend,
And swirl the jars to regard my invitation: rescind.

3) A blow for toe is their price for ice.
To cool a fool, a steep fall for all.

Let's obliterate this madness,
And maddening ventures!

1) Tell the angels that by the time they left,
I had been healed by their form of nature!

2) Tell the demons and their empty chatter,
That I will no longer give them my life.

3) Finally, tell life that consequence is meaningless to a fool.
The fool should never have been born or made a tool.

Ah, the sound of clarity is sweet: like water, like air.
Onward to world *******, I willingly prepare.
It'll take some time to say something about this.
When I do though... when I do...
'Twas not the fall
that killed
or the brawl
that spilled
the blood
that crawled from wounds.

'Twas not the silence
that spoke
of death
that broke
the soul
that cried in hollow dreams.

One thing is certain.
Words sprang to life
teeming like the bodies of a virus
throttling leviathans,
making them wet, and sad and dumbfounded.
These words were alive, a glorious fire
and then,
like a flood of apocalyptic magnitude
oblivion swept the words away.

The leviathans walked on,
no longer spurned to celebration,
they turned on one another,
throttling, breaking and spilling one another
across empty pages,
that God did pick up
and mumble divine profanity,
thereby he did close the book
and think of man and his pacifying words
no more.
I had another poem written up not ten minutes ago and it got deleted, because my tracking pad is a homicidal lunatic that deletes text on a whim.

Anyway, I hope you enjoy the runner-up poem created in the tide of overflowing frustration!

LOL,
Enjoy.

DEW
Temptation fled
will to dance gone
flat on a bed
from dusk to dawn.

Death can be cruel...
What do we know?
They just disappear
no idea where they go.

Yet, uncle has this effect on me...
He's not here, but this sting must be he!

Mother said, be quiet! don't tap your feet!
She can't hear this melody sounding sweet...
No dancing today, I'll be a statue.
I won't move, like I ran out of glue.

Procession was long, I couldn't see past
Heads of the elders, relics of the past.
It's not raining, but their faces are wet.
Him, her, her, I know, the rest I forget.

Now at the grave, we all say our farewell.
Look at my feet, they're beginning to yell!
Uncle wouldn't want me glued to still,
he would want me tapping, flexing my will.
I'll show them, and I'll never let them stop,
my mourning dance, or my weak heart will pop!

Jump into the rhythm, steadily go,
my movements with him, I want him to know
that he was special, and I'll tap away
today, tomorrow, tomorrow, today.

You get down from there now! My mother does shriek.
Is this how you treasure moments so meek?
I couldn't hear her, and I couldn't know
how over-the-line innocence can go.
I danced for the heavens, uncle will see,
he's playing a song for me and my feet.

Someone took me down, mother boxed my ears.
The day that followed answered all my fears.

Now I don't dance on a day of mourning.
Being old, I understand the warning
but my daughters sing when we lose a kin
an idea can break you, or let you win.
I hope you all enjoy this one! :)

DEW
On sleepless nights, I pray the sleepless nights away.
In the heat of the moment, I pray the heat will stay.
Where we are going, I hope we thief the time today.
And spend today’s time tomorrow, let it last a little longer.
So on the dreamy nights, I pray the dreams come true.
On the cold nights, I pray you hold me till I’m warm.
On the lonely nights, I pray you're with me till they're through.
Where we've been, I put the memories in my box of accomplishment.
I leave the sad moments for those who've taken everything for granted.
They drown in the sorrows of every fruitful tree they've planted.
On the wonderful nights, I hold you deeper in my heart,
And to the one I pray, make sure she and I will never be apart.
A little treasure from 2011.
I was horrified by the idea that I might have been a better writer when I was younger; meaning that in 2011 at the age of 20, I had reached a level of "mastery".
I now know that, that is not the case.
When I spoke of my horror through a Facebook status, a friend of mine said that I'd been better before, because I didn't overthink my writing.
Being the "now and then" stubborn kind of guy that I am, I faced that comment with disdain... until (recently) I realized he spoke the truth.
Once I was a writer whose writings were sculptures; simple devices of sensory ploys.
Now however, my writing are machines. Suffused with purposes that, although they may not be greater (by no means lesser), are more complex.
They once had enough dimensions to ***** a house of cards.
Now, they bear dimensions capable of representing the innumerable walls of a bee hive.
The answer is simple. As a writer, I evolved from a poet to a novelist, and so I wasn't thinking "little-picture" anymore.
I think that this is why novelists generally have a hard time writing poetry.
We have to know observations such as that to truly understand life.
My transition from a sketch-artist, to a poet, to a film-maker, to a novelist has made me a greater writer than I would have been otherwise. (Maybe I'm just confused LOL)
Anyway, now practice will make perfect.

Oh, and in case you're wondering, I was getting over a break-up that had occurred the year prior to 2011 when I wrote this poem.
See, I love hard; diamonds don't shatter easy, but they fracture like glass, finding themselves irreparable...
Often, these dreams pierce the veil,
between sadness and bliss.
Armies cross
bliss is defenseless
I wake up cold

My steps feel the weight of the stone floor
out to the window, my dreams take me…
Even awake, dreams command my vision.

The world is blind to me and I am blind to the world.
They do not bear my dreams and I do not know their torment.

If they knew my dreams,
they would carry me forward
hands on my hand
we move the bricks together
sight for sight
blindness for blindness
dreams for truth

The strange warmth of fellowship fades in loneliness,
as if it were antidote… or poison.
Still, the memories linger
sparking
yearning to blaze
but they cannot provide warmth
for they are dreams
and fires must feed on flesh.

The armies continue to pour
from somberness into bliss
the fires wink out softly
my eyes dull; my dreams fade.

And for once, I see what they all saw…

Darkness.
So, this poem ends on a dark note, like many of my poems, but it's the type of note that I'm not sure about.
Still, what I am sure of is, the message is about conformity and losing sight of ideals in place of stasis, or regression.
Things like, "I don't give a f**k."
Or, "I can't be bothered."
Even, "F**k you and the horse you rode in on."
These can be funny to consider, especially in a movie.
However, in real life, the tone is different:
it's why "motive" is so important to a police investigation.
If someone cheats on you, is it because you were an *******,
or was it because the person is an unabashed cheater who lied to you, every, day?
Boo-hoo, right?
That's what I wanted to touch on in this poem.

So, without further ado...
Enjoy!

DEW
The city was laid bare:
like a patient upon the operating table
I walked the streets with precision
I was the scalpel carving communities from the fauna
the city was alive, and so it was truly sick
concrete jungle
projects and penthouses
the beleaguered old traipsed about, silent, but not quiet
the youth, rambunctious and carnal, feasted upon the dying
With each touch, I soothed the soul
Kisses, like antiseptic.
Lectures, like stitches.
Like cumulonimbus, the raucous ramblings of crowds grew
I said to myself, "It is fine, this is life, let it live."

Youth, ablaze with carrion wings, descend upon the old
beaks barrelling forward, pecking and snatching decency
still there are some who help
swooping down like proud eagles, they shoo away the scavengers
they beat back the tide of villainy
they shelter innocence, foster truth
but they are not enough...
I carve out the **** of corruption
I ventilate the lungs of the city and plug the punctures
but the pollution is virulent and stubborn...
Still, I say to myself, "This is poetry, love is a mystery, let them be."

I will hear them cry in the rain
I will not know my place
I might extend a hand, proffer an embrace, but
they will shy back,
for man will become monster
and God will become devil... in their eyes: deluded; poisoned by hate.
I will wonder where I went wrong.
Will I try my best to turn the helm against the wave,
go THROUGH the heart of the storm?!
Of course, I will try
I will try,
but I will fail.
Man will flaunt his freedoms, those which were freely given.
Despite my grief, I will say to myself, "All things have an end. There was nothing I could do."

I wonder to myself...
How many centuries have I folded my hands against the storm.
Behold! It's patience!
It will ever rise,
It will ever approach!
So long as man lies,
It will reach for his throat!
Man will always feign surprise,
It is a sickness he cannot broach...
As the color of morning skies is calming,
The fumes of the rumbling storm are maddening!

I always let the storm build until the lightning sets the world on fire
because
I thought the storm was man's voice in an inimical life...
But I was wrong, the storm is the beast that lurks in the shadows.
It sets the table for carrion.
The beast builds the cumulonimbus, preparing the kindling for the floods of war.

The storm's pallor stains man's skin so ubiquitously
That he mistakes the storm for himself.
The storm is the color of sin: six in total.

I wanted to breath about the idea of responsibility: culpability.
Watching the world burn paints you as the enemy.
We have to do something, even if we're not sure why, or for whom.

God is the people. He is the future.
He (the "Wholeness" of our (human) being) is what we strive towards:
The Perfection of Humanity
The Peace of our Souls
The Sustenance of our Planet
The Respect of All Life
The Beauty of Divine Soul in All our Works
The Tempered Passion of Truthful Expression
Love for, and Security in, Ourselves that Spreads into Love for the Community
Patience Under Hardship and Tolerance Under Misunderstanding

Without setting our goals upon improving humanity, we feel empty.
If we're not focused on being good people, why are we even here?

That's all for today...

Enjoy!

DEW
I love this woman, I can't let her go.
Confession of love? I won't let her know.
I stop cupid in his tracks: catch arrow.
To make it all last I'll start real, real slow.

I leave hints of my name for her to see.
Her flowers tasted by my honey bee.
Whatever she creates I proselytize.
Billion degrees in my campfire eyes.
She is that sun to my bright dream night cries.

I'm lost in her affection though I've none.
I can imagine, her kisses are fun.
My glorious wishes won't be undone.
She is that mile target and I'm the gun.
When she says yes, I'll tell everyone!

A carefully crafted letter to her...
Sent back stamped denied, my vision's a blur.
I planned this so well, but not this failure.
This is a crime! Someone stop her! Jail her!
Sicker as days pass, my skin is paler.
I, noble warrior; she, impaler.

I've been a patriot in her nation,
She was supposed to be my savior.
**** this emotional constipation,
I should have just approached her earlier.
I suppose I'll try again... when I can.
Cupid readies his bow: another girl.
I halt his trigger finger... first, I plan.

Our hero, obsessing over opportunity: *"stuck in a loop"

Made certain his failure would return; luck into ****.
Squandered opportunity we all know,
But it is failure we line out in a row.
This is why he's the hero, he never gives up,
But he never amounts to anything...
urrghh! I'm gonna throw up.
I love this one.
Ever since I took writing seriously and got into writing stories more than poetry (at one point I ignored poetry completely) my poems have become more about stories.

I'd like to write more "breathy" poems about nature and love.
I'll get to write some soon.
I'd also like to write a spine-tingling one, I admit it's fun now.

However, my poems concerning wisdom, irony, satyr, and all-around knowledge, I have special relationships with.

I wrote on Facebook six or seven years ago: "That's the thing about life, it's a satyr of itself."

I'd reached a point where I thought I knew everything "in a sense", but life really threw me a curve-ball. Now I'm seeing it more towards the right way, and it's exciting. However, realizing you have so much responsibility that you weren't aware of is daunting.

Writing poetry helps express that.
So, if you're wondering what this poem is about, read into this section and you'll understand.

Enjoy! :)
The snapshot of our reality
was instant
was pure
it existed before our time
before we were ever sure

Magnetic was the bonding
snapping together like opposites
negative and positive meeting
where forces find the neutral
you and I were there
where brotherhood is beautiful

But my negative was a poison
an acid in the well
slowly unwinding
the potency of the spell

I watched the picture fading
like a manuscript lost to time
that which was made by God
corrupted by insanity's rhyme
there was a cyclical note
in the air of the night
when truths became daggers
and lies flickered alight

I was patient
I was penitent
my prayers were true and real
but our friendship was cut down
like prey under blades of steel
I saw my past catch up
like wolves in the dark
devouring what we'd created
disemboweled by matters of the heart

Who can cure these ailments
that live beyond the soul
while it watches the tumult below
hearts fighting in lieu of the goal
I was there on the battlefield
I watched the future fade to black
all I wanted was the love
that could bring my will to fight back

Brother can be lost in the world
they can spill the blood they share
they can get lost in the moment
and spite the fates that brought them there
it's hard to create family
but so easy to break it
because that which truly matters
is fragile, vulnerable, naked

We protect our love by how we lead our lives
with integrity, compassion, and virtue
so that in the moments life gets hard
we fall back not on the things that hurt us
but on the bonds that gave us life
that gave us the will to carry on
Those piercing eyes,
Cause piercing cries,
That cut the night,
To be devoured by flies.

All the wise,
Will seek demise,
When the only prize,
Is foolish delight.

Have a bite,
Of broken ties,
And lover's pies,
Caked in lies.

A woman dies,
In fading light,
Of teeming fright,
From piercing stares.
I thought this one might be a little spine-tingling.
You be the judge.
Since it borders on horror, I like it a lot.
Not because of the horror, but the border.

Enjoy!
Some days, only sometimes,
I crawl outside myself,
To wander the world's wonders,
Peering through it, like a shelf.

I walk the narrow road's way.
Whisper, wispy, thin lies,
To lead those astray,
That don't see with their eyes.

Burning in the light of the moon.
My ethereal flesh is a sight to see,
To touch it is a mortal sin,
A taste would fill one with glee.

I am no mortal in this form.
I climb the highest height,
To know I cannot watch,
The ants, the world in fright.

May I spread my wings of burden?
Go where I am not wanted,
To fill the world with fallacies,
Mortify. Justify, the haunted.

Time has run out for me.
Dreams I can no longer pervade,
To paint pictures, 'pon pulsing skulls,
I hold a purgatory masquerade.

I must return to be full of myself.
As I watch the thick skinned carcass sleep,
To know that what I am,
Is a troubled man, pathetically counting sheep.
I wrote this in November of 2010.

I love this one: it's dark, but it feels so nuanced, the rhyme scheme is great and the rhythm is cool.

Not bad :)
The wind did try to bend the tree.
The tree did not comply with glee.
“If you do bend you will not break…”
“But if I bend my back will ache!”
The wind blew soft, “It’ll only tickle.”
The tree just coughed, “If it remains a trickle.”
The wind blew hard: a threatening gale.
“I will stand firm; I know this tale!”
Without patience, like a wave,
the wind’s full force said, “Tree, behave!”
To this, the tree did move to bow.
The wind blew on, “You’ll listen now.”
Enjoy! :)

...
You had set a date and you’re 10 minutes late.
You feel guilty, because you don’t have a reason for it.

You’d rushed in, head down, embarrassed and hot with frustration, only to realize your date isn’t there and she had no idea you were the one so close to being a fool.

You check your phone and realize she'd sent you a message about how she’d been busy, and would arrive about 17 minutes later than expected.
She apologizes, but really you thank her for the inconvenience.

The food had been set ahead of time. A three course meal at a restaurant you’re not familiar with. However, new soup comes steaming out. A meal for two.
You start on your own.
17 minutes late turns into 23 minutes after you’ve arrived, a total of 33 minutes; you feel alone, her soup is sitting there excavating cold with each passing moment. The soup is delicious: you think, and it warms you to know that at least something is right with the world.

Your hesitation in texting her mirrors your shame.
Of course she's not coming, women from photos like hers don't walk into lives like yours...

It isn’t too long after you’re done with the soup that your date comes in.

She’s beautiful beyond expectation.

Everything fantastic about life can describe her, and to you, again, nothing in existence can explain how perfect she is in this moment.
Like a drowning man in an endless ocean, you can’t help but reach out to her with every inch of your soul.

Biting her lip, she looks into your eyes, lost, until the tip of her soul touches yours.

You witness her red-lipped smile like a red rose bloomed.

You smile with grandeur, because it’s the only reflex that reflects your hopes fulfilled.

You stand up and ready her chair for her.

SCENE
I'm having a lot of fun uncovering my old writings (editing permitted, of course).
I had a powerful vision, and I still do, but my yearning for romance used to be stronger... I'll have to prime that passion once again over the coming years.

I hope that you like, nay, that you "love" this scene and what it speaks of love at first sight.
Our senses are heightened by disappointment and fear and then suddenly, our desires are sated by a person who fulfills the most taxing of our greatest needs.

Without food you die, but without love, you still die.
You die in a way that makes death seem insignificant.

I hope that you find love.

I hope that it is the kind of love where 1+1=3 (or more)

Without that you will never know peace.
When does,
the cobra strike?
When it deigns so?
No...
The cobra strikes when you...
Flee!

Parade before it.
Drink your fill,
and a little more...
Be merry,
that it knows its greatest weapon,
is laughing stock.
Strange one here, when you think about it.
Is it worth becoming immune?
Don't we then "become" the snake, when this is done?

You be the judge.
It is not paint that his lifeless creature wears.
It is the make-up smears that animate its features.
It scares me not consciously, but with a deep sticky dread
hiding in the shadows of my mind.
Its face parades in color and shade, in light and dark,
but I know its face to be hollow.
I know its fingers to be as the roots of a tree
that feed on you at the slightest touch
and you dare not let it ***** you
love you
or all you will know is hate.
It withers down the soul of a man
so that he will never love a woman;
she will appear to be a siren
and he will run in shame from his flaccid courage.
It disembowels the soul of a woman
until she thinks her entrails more impressive
than any pecker;
she stumbles around like a blunt fork
never holding on to what she needs.
It enrages the soul of a lover
until he cannot bear to witness love endure without a scream.
All the while, its hollow face feeds
upon what glimmers in the sun and glows in the night,
a vacuum never sated,
never feeling peace's respite.
I've kissed this face and I'll never kiss again,
not until God and I can uproot the devil's sin.
I wrote this back in January of 2017 and discovered it while my girlfriend and I were reading old poetry notes to one another.
We've both been hurt in love and both had dark poems to share.
In reading this, I felt the weight of all the shame and fear I believe dwelled within me when I wrote this.
It was refreshing to share this with her, as, indeed, I had not chosen to never kiss again. Whatever the devil's sin was, I now view my relationship with it differently.
I've learned to forgive myself for whatever plagued me in the past.
I know myself to have deep veins of emotion, with high ups and low lows, so all the better to keep the peace.
Anyway, I hope you found something in this poem for yourself.

Enjoy!

DEW
From the fading warmth of my cheek,
her arm cascaded to her side,
like the minute hand of a clock:
how minute I felt in the absence
of touch.

It was her touch
that revealed what it is
to be alone.
It is her touch
that cemented the truth
built up
like a fairy-tale tower,
plastered upon my skin;
rooted
in each step I take.

As time passes,
in my lofty solitude,
I forget her face.
I forget the trace
of touch,
marking out the
far reaches of
my heart,
the territory she stole,
the jigsaw piece she
lost.

What remains is a memory...
Enshrined
in the gems
of dragon's treasure;
entombed
in the lands
of hopeless measure:
it remains.

I seek it out
in a perilous journey,
across arid time, and crooked space
it bathes in rubies,
it's slender edges, and soft lace;
there's her face!

The memory in the crook
of my lap, it sates
my bleeding heart
my barren fates
circadian rhythm, it sings to me
it's precious here
a sight to see
go now life
leave me be
with her I'm fixed
no broken dreams.

I cradle memory
turn it over to find...
What's this? An edge is cracked?
How come!
Is it the witching hour?
Where's loaded gun?
The memory pours
out forth the fun
I lose the memory
dear love is done.

Out on the steps
of my life post-love,
I share a drink
with a charcoal dove.
I really feel the rhythm when I read this over.
I hope you can, too!

Enjoy!

DEW
I ain't got no money
I ain't got no time
I ain't got no talent
but ability to rhyme

Lost friends in the gutter
lost lovers in the winds
I only seem to hold on
to this bottle of gin

Too busy with nonsense
too drunken to care
There is no evidence
of my copious despair
but I have an idea
that will turn it around
a crate full of beer
in which I will drown.
Ah-hah-hah-hah-haaaaa... :(
A poem for when you're on the knife-edge of laughing or crying.
LOL

Enjoy!

DEW
Prowling,
like a wolf
on the periphery of the unknown
betwixt knowledge and dread
I saw the dark truth
I felt the gulf
the waste
the expanse
the difference in power
the taste of defeat
the vice grip of the inevitable
the long, slow bleed of my dignity
flowing out
with the gold of my entrails
eviscerated by my pride
how I dared to topple the monolithic,
undeniable truth
that there is always
a better you
a better me
a better us, out there
stronger
bigger
faster
smarter
more hung
more fashionable
more handsome, more beautiful, more androgynous
more capable
more accomplished
more patient
more... loving
more empathetic
they know more random facts
they've been more places
they've known more people
they've seen more sunrises
they've counted every moon
their worst is better than your best day
he cares for her more deeply than you did
she loves that
she's forgotten you
he tells her what he never told you
and she loves him for that
you were always afraid to find out
they never invite you because you're not fun
what a downer
what a bore
there's always that one person
upon whom your envy is never sated
they lope in moonlight
flowing locks of grace
teeth bared in a frightful grin
they know all your cards
they can play you like a fiddle
they're out there
where you fear to go
the apex predator
the person you'll never be
but dream you could
and dreams are all you'll have...
I'm a competitive person, by nature.

And this poem came to me as I realized, one night while gaming, that I'd never be the best at anything. I felt a sense of futility about any pride I've ever managed to feel concerning an accomplishment of mine.

I watched myself, small, in a sort of third-person view, question why it was I have ever striven for anything, when I continually run into my betters.

It was a scary realization. But, I believe, it's ever more scary when you have no powerful allies in the world, or when, even your allies fear the world at large, and you're all united in fear. It's a condition that humility fails to pacify.

A deep dread. A paralysis of hope.

Enjoy!

DEW
Did you hear? The skies are red, because the blood was not shed.

The book was not read, when the priest did not hear what she said.

So the glass was not spun, and the windowless frame did cease to be finish-ed.

Her heart was not won, so the book stayed, weighed down with the dread.

She climbed the stairs of a windowless house, open to the scorn.

Would you believe that one day she was birthed, but not born?

From every love she was neglected, every lust she was torn.

Each day was an agony, forever doomed to be forlorn.

From the bell tower she fell, so time stopped after the last chime.

Her mirthless tear, would grace the ground for the last time.

There she lay, so peaceful, so utterly supine (one could say she slept).

Where she fell, there grew a flower, one could only describe as sublime.

All who rounded, those who crowded, could not help, so they wept.

From this grave, there came no salve, so salvation was lost to her.

From the red skies she watched, slowly, the world would deter (from preservation).

The skies are red, because her words were like the mouth of every meager nation (neglected).
The skies are red, because she lost the way.
The skies are red, because she lost her way.
The skies are red, because there is no way.

No way in hell that there will be a brighter day.
So stay and finish what hath begun.
Spin the record the way it was supposed to be spun.
Bury the smoking gun and plant a tree for the sun.

Breathe life into a peaceful world that has not yet begun.
Tasting the cold rain
of her lullaby dreamscape
I floated through
her open streets
like open veins
where we carried out
our transfusion of love
such was
the umbilical cord of trust between us
such was
a long night's passions
not a drop wasted
she swallowed
the waters that were spilt in open corridors
rivers wide and winter white
ever fluid as they wound their way
into her dreamscape
spinning webs of reality from potential
and on nights
like this
I dream of who would have become if she loved me
but she dared not
and the cobwebs never spooled again
never cast their wide net
out into the hungry world
where babes go to die and ne'er do wells
eat breakfasts with smiles
I waited for her
and she never came
it was then I knew the brutal cruelty of the world
how
promises age
like foul eggs
wherein one thinks oneself soon to be fed
cracks open the vault of life
and goes mad
from the sight of the bitter truth
that all men die of heartache
long before their bodies give out
long before they never heard "I love you"
from tongues not forked
and lips not peppered
with the winter wonders
of myriad men
to whom love was also promised
and never made manifest
A sad poem to end a good day that somehow ended sadly :)

Life is funny sometimes, LOL.

Enjoy,



DEW
Even as we danced,
there was no echo
of lovers lost...

The lake
was as a sheet of
glass that I thought would
crack
if we lost
a step.

The music
was the rhythm
of our hearts,
slow, but fierce
calm, but alive.

I taste the tearsdrops of
the heavens
bathe me in serenity.

I've known beauty,
but never perfection
not before this moment
melted my heart
and spread it like butter
over her love.

Yet, in the quiet
rapture,
there was a darkness.
Heartache troubled the
solace of the dance.
I drew back the blackened veil
and to my surprise
I found myself...
my identity...
buried for too long
in the misery of
flames of ire.

It was then
I knew
she
I would cherish
with abandon.

I stared
into her gentle eyes
I held
her trembling hand
I kissed
her doughy lips
and I loved
like sorrow
eclipsed.
I suppose it was about time to write something like this.
Not feeling very good these days, but a poem like this always lifts the spirits.

Enjoy :)

DEW
They dragged me
screaming
down the highway
to their sacred hell.
My torture was a whisper
to their grinning
over fires
that fester.

Nothing in nature
can rewind:
naught but the hand
of God.

Upon retaking my first
steps
anew
I mounted the struggle.
Peace my birthright.
Truth my shield.
Bold conviction
became shaking steps
ascending
the stairway
to heaven.

With my folly transparent,
I witnessed
the cackles and claws
of the demons
to be mine own whip.

I set down the weapon.
I let the ashes of despair consume it.
I do not look back,
for the stairway is its own guide.

Bittersweet is the rasp of envy,
and gratitude: the beckoning of peace.
Those two songs.
One by Led Zeppelin; one by ACDC.
You can't be exposed to rock without these pillars of experience.
We must keep struggling with this question.
The high road, or the low?
If we cease to struggle.
We are either dead or hopelessly lost.

Win your battles, my friends.

Enjoy!

DEW
"ACQUAINT"
Met, but noticed not...

Gazed, yet unseen, unsure, blank...

True love has this charm.

"FIREWORKS"
Our darkness alight...

Under our skins, twisting seas...

Love is our new moon.

"INTO DEATH"
Voyages close-knit...

Knitted into the beyond...

Knit before we knew.
I really got into writing "Haiku Triplet" poems last year.

I'd decide on a topic, give each poem a title of its own, yet the overarching title would be the true purpose, what unifies them, a sort of story.

I don't know if anyone else has done that, but it felt really fun and original for me.

There's another one that I posted here, if you search through my poems, it's called "Turmoil..." and it is by far my favorite of my triplets.
Don't say it, I warned, I professed
Don't say
the tears of a woman
weigh more
than the tears of a man
I wouldn't dare, she said
for even though my tears could crush scales
their load could plant ten oxen in the dirt
capsize ships
they also carry the joy
that you are by my side
and your tears
bellow with the fear
that you are alone

I nodded
she understood

She rested her head on my shoulder
a weight that pleased me
a gesture that eased my heart
tell me, she said
about the scars in the river

I didn't know what she meant
a river with scars
what bled from it
water does not bleed
I told her this
she said
if water does not bleed
men do not cry
I said, men do cry
she said, then water does bleed
I ask, what does water bleed
everything breaks, she said
everything is made of finer things
fine things in men break, I said
who breaks them, she asked
women do, I said
did I break you, she asked
not yet, I sighed, not yet
and she then wished in her heart
that that would never yet be so

I wondered from then on
even after she broke me
even after I forgot her face
what are the scars in the river
what does water bleed

Then
on a day when the sun baked the earth
when thirst drove one to madness for water
when children dove in the lake
dogs panted cross-armed beside steaming asphalt
just to feel the windrush of the cars
people, blasting air-conditioning, counted their blessings
people, sweat sogging their ragged clothes, counted their woes
and I watched the sea give of itself to the sky
water evaporated heavenward
and I said to myself,
ahh - water does bleed

In the days that followed
the bleeding of the rivers, lakes, ocean, and people,
I watched the heavens weep terribly
like a mother in despair over her dead child
and I saw people drink of the sky
dance in the weeping
laugh - laugh to crying if they must
laugh for exultation of life and love
dance and roll and frolic in the richness of the land
and I asked myself
having seen the bleeding of the river
Is this the bleeding of the sky

Winter came slow
like death, we expected it
yet dreaded its presence when it arrived
how the snow choked the life out of the land
and we clamored in fear of the world without
We clung to one another
clung in ways I never knew in summer
intimate like a scarf around the neck
she and I snuggled in the sheets
no fear of sweat
no
sweat was desired
water was desired in every way
to break the spell of the arid air
she and I danced the way
only two bodies could
when connected like child to mother
she was connected to me
I was the nourisher
I was the farmer in the field
in her fields
in the fields of the future
generations could be sown and grown
and yet
they could cease to exist should I
deign to disappear from her
the cruelty of destroying the future was present
a cruelty that is
a man's purpose
to allow, or to abate

We held one another
by the window
watching winter fade
snow crept from the trees
the ground dissolved from winter white to early-spring brown
I watched the snow bleed
I then saw it all
the cycle of life
water and its many phases
and I turned to her
I said, "I love you."
She understood
as she held me tighter
shedding the weight of the past
she pressed her lips on my ear
said, "Thank you, my love."
And from then, I never scarred again.
My rivers never bled
and neither hers
evermore.
I shall leave this one with a simple note:
Find the loves that inspire you.

As always, enjoy!

DEW
After all
there was so much to hate
and no one cared
for what there was to love
the least of whom
was himself
and that
was why he drove the cleaver
THWACK
into the wood
right between his fingers
between yes or no
between bedlam and smug satisfaction
knowing he'd missed the mark
on a whim
though
should he have succeeded
he would go on a broken man
no
not because of the mutilated hand
but because of what he would do to himself
should he have abandoned himself
indeed
his tattered body
paled in reflection
to the cavity in his soul
where worlds of dreams had gone to die
and he had pleasure in their deaths
how he marched them on
the dreams
pied piper was he
to the vast
incalculable
sums of fantasy and waylaid plans
beneath him
his scales
his snout and snarl
his wings
a dragon
on a hoard of promised treasures
sure to be expelled
due the ravaging of time
due delinquency and self-wrought disaster
he was an effigy
to the great power of humanity
fallen in grace
subdued by cancerous desires
and poisoned
by fool's love
a rusted bounty
of sham hearts
open and willing
willing his demise
but he loved it
the attention
the destruction
for as it were poured upon him
in him
through him
about him
a pool of toxic ichor
his price for the abuse
was the sacking of the world
the decay of humanity
as they tortured him
they wounded themselves
ever deeper
salt in his wound
was salt in their eyes
rot fed to his belly
became rot in their souls
but they could not stop
they daren't
for they feared his power
they feared
his penchant to rule them
to lay waste to their weakness
mold them
guide them
command them
they feared losing
all their closely coveted lies
that dangled
like snow sequins
about their shivering
cadaverous bodies
malnourished
wanting for respite
from the cold
of their inimical
and unforgiving
reality
from which
escape
is a closed book
empty save for a warning
that what goes up
will surely fall
but what goes down
into the depths of hell
truth itself
where the ****** break upon their wickedness
shall salvation ring in the deep
and awake the beast
who rises to mount the peaks
another dragon
born for battle
destined to be pillaged of its cantankerous wealth
how
it gorged on humanity
letting them wear sequins on their bodies
rather than glory
verve for life
satisfaction in the passing of time
and joy in knowing the coming of the inevitable
they feared to be free
for the cage
they thought
fueled their spirits
but it was a charlatan's ruse
smoke and mirrors
hiding the puppet strings
clouding their judgment
obscuring the ability
to see that He was their shepherd
the pastor of their flock
and with him
all doors would be opened
all minds would be free
all bodies would be whole
and no blood
would be spilt
forever
and on into the waking
of eternity...
This poem hits so deep for me.
It came out of some incredibly deep subconscious musing.
The night after I wrote this was incredible. I had an intense and revelatory lucid dream that left me spellbound, empowered, and I was left not wanting of anything for a full week, which is unlike me as I'm usually thirsting for all kinds of experiences that I can't or wont have.

Anyway, I hope this poem brought something to you.
I hope it awakened something in you, as it did for me.

Enjoy!


DEW
In a tomb that love forgot
lay a girl that love forgave.
Centuries never left a spot,
and in the tomb, she did behave,

but she tired of waiting there
for the lover, that she desired.
Juliet had forgotten his face,
but, thinking of him, she never tired.

The door to the crypt did crack.
Fools exhumed her there.
All their faces slack;
they couldst naught but stare.

For the light did not consume her;
didst not illuminate, beyond a glance.
Forthwith, they didst entomb her
That shard of flesh left them, askance.
I wrote this after seeing a beautiful digital painting someone created and posted to this illustration page that I follow on Facebook.

It's really beautiful, and poetic in and of itself.
So I wrote a poem for it.
Hopefully, the artist will pair it with her piece, (LOL) because I swear they go so well hand in hand. If you saw the picture, you'd understand!

Enjoy!

P.S. the painting is of a girl in the dark except a solitary beam of light catches a part of her face.
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