"unaided" poems
i am convinced now that
no passion exists
like that between
a man and his craft.
no love
like the love for solitude,
by which one can enter
a world all his own,
and plunge to its unfathomable depths,
carelessly disregarding his return.
no quest otherwise compares-
oh how could it?
when countless years of history
can never be retold,
never be reenacted
with different players and different settings?
a man plays a role for
a day, a month, a year, a decade,
then withers in the sun, a palm in the desert.
no amount of memories can be remade,
and no amount of care is remembered.
he is destined only to be vessel of loneliness
for others to mistakenly join and unjoin.
but in his craft
a man loses himself.
he has only his love to invest
and only his love to be returned.
when stricken with failure
he selfishly laps it all up,
gathers it close to his heart,
and holds it as treasure, locked and filed.
he searches for the bottom with lighted torch,
the end with relentless fervor,
finds no evil along the way to be a hindrance,
has no expectation dashed and destroyed.
his eagerness for success drives him deeper.
his delusions of grandeur,
perpetually emboldened.
come find me, i am waiting for you
the solitude beckons him into its fissure,
the cleft in the crust of civilization,
indescribable and hardly intelligible to others.
yet its perfection is infinite as the stars are remote.
with enthusiasm does a man pursue that perfection,
does he pray to be with that god,
Lord of his life and Giver of his breath.
he is a post for flags to be hung,
seen only by those who wander the same mountains,
searching for a chasm of their own.
he is unaided in his walk with the stars,
windowless and guided by celestial phosphorescence.
a man needs silence,
darkness beneath his eyelids,
and space in his bed to breathe.
Apr 12, 2014
Apr 12, 2014 at 2:18 PM UTC
She has a bruise on her left knee
reminiscent of science-book nebulas,
and the veins reaching into her palm
look like the ivy vines wrapped around
the old oak at the end of my grandmother’s
driveway. But as she presses contacts into each eye,
her pupils dilate and contract like a camera
lens shifting to accommodate for motion
blurry as her unaided vision, and her wrists
crack as if made of ill-fitted cogs chipping away--
both a tempest-tide and midnight snowfall,
yet the sum of neither.
Feb 23, 2015
Feb 23, 2015 at 8:10 PM UTC
534
We see—Comparatively—
The Thing so towering high
We could not grasp its segment
Unaided—Yesterday—
This Morning’s finer Verdict—
Makes scarcely worth the toil—
A furrow—Our Cordillera—
Our Apennine—a Knoll—
Perhaps ’tis kindly—done us—
The Anguish—and the loss—
The wrenching—for His Firmament
The Thing belonged to us—
To spare these Striding Spirits
Some Morning of Chagrin—
The waking in a Gnat’s—embrace—
Our Giants—further on—
3.1k
she was as the smell of smoke,
clinging to my fingertips.
a linger of reckless abandon.
she was always the first ****
burning my throat as i inhale.
fingertips, trailing constellations,
sweat glistening as the smoke coils.
i need fresh air.
but my lungs are black,
and i cannot breathe unaided.
Feb 7, 2021
Feb 7, 2021 at 8:02 AM UTC
When I feel unappreciated,
my heart feels unaided.
I give everything to everyone,
and I get everything from no one.
I do not expect money for a gift
but at least give my hopes a lift,
to my dream of this world being fair,
because my reality has learned not to care.
So thanks to no one for being as kind as me,
and no thanks to everyone who could not be.
Jun 9, 2012
Jun 9, 2012 at 8:46 PM UTC
When the wind works against us in the dark,
And pelts with snow
The lowest chamber window on the east,
And whispers with a sort of stifled bark,
The beast,
‘Come out! Come out!’—
It costs no inward struggle not to go,
Ah, no!
I count our strength,
Two and a child,
Those of us not asleep subdued to mark
How the cold creeps as the fire dies at length,—
How drifts are piled,
Dooryard and road ungraded,
Till even the comforting barn grows far away
And my heart owns a doubt
Whether ’tis in us to arise with day
And save ourselves unaided.
2k
I watched you silently from my place amid the masses
As you sat alone on stage
Around you stood the empty chairs
Still awaiting instruments and bodies
But you didn’t seem to notice
Slowly drawing the bow across the strings
While fingers danced seemingly unaided
I sketched you then in my mind so that I might always remember the way your brow was furrowed
Hair astray in the fashion most expected by a being that has not slept in as many days as artists of unheard merit are apt to do
I traced the joints of your fingers curled around the dark wooden handle almost, but never touching the off white fabric that stretched between one point and the other
In my mind I found I could only liken you and your appearance to that of others I had only read of
All fictional of course
Here a wayward detective long since run down but never out sank his sorrows in a bottle while his mind fractured but still brilliant carried on
But then there were so many others that also came to mind, each tugging at the corners of my imagination with passionate desperation
Attempting in the only way they knew to be the sole capture of my attention
In this corner I found a journalist well traveled as he was versed, with the quality beseeching that of a gentleman hidden under two days worth of growth
But perhaps your likeness might be more suited to the air of a more scientific mind, secret genius cultivating cures for every kind of illness while still trapped in the depths of madness
I sat and watched as you played unnoticed for what seemed to me just a moment but was far more then that as my mind turned over the possibility of all the people you could have been
But when asked softly why didn’t I rise from my unnoticed place and put to rest my chaotic thoughts by moving close to speak to you if only for a moment
I resisted
What could I say to let them understand the path my mind had run
How I was unwilling to leave my seat, held there by this slight fear
That if I dared to find my voice, to rise and cross the space between the seats… to draw close enough that you might see me
All that I had imagined you to be would be crushed or somehow dulled by the harsh light of reality
You might not be a gentleman, suave and smooth with charm or reflect even a bit the madness of a scientist whose sanity has long since gone…
You might be so far from the truth that I’d never write this poem
So I sat silently in my place amid the masses
Watching you draw your bow across the strings while your fingers danced unaided
Feb 20, 2013
Feb 20, 2013 at 7:42 PM UTC
then I am wearing black suit,
white shirt, black tie,
pockets full of tissues,
most crumpled, mostly used,
like my spirits
If it's 2pm,
I am in Augusta,
in a baptist church,
a nice jewish boy,
fixing his askewed tie,
doing what
The Lord commanded of him
If it's 2pm,
I am in Augusta,
sunny and 72 Farenheit,
inside of me its a different forecast,
y'all decide the condition,
the condition I'm in
I'm in the way back row,
humming so softly,
me and Johnny C.
nobody hears,
nobody cares,
*She stood in the crowd and shed not a tear
But sometimes at night when the cold wind moans
In a long black veil she cries over my bones
She walks these hills in a long black veil
She visits my grave where the night winds wail
Nobody knows, no and nobody sees
Nobody knows but me*
nobody knows, I am there,
nobody sees, nobody believes,
but god only knows I am here
my spirit taken here
unasked, unaided, unabated
did not have to fly,
the ship that was to take me,
busted on the rocks
for
*the words that are used
to get the ship confused
will not be understood as they’re spoken
for the chains of the sea
will have busted in the night,
will be buried at
the bottom of the ocean*
still
If it's 2pm,
I am in Augusta,
at a funeral,
my words gone silent,
even store bought stock phrases,
so sorry for your loss,
not for sale, all gone, all aloft,
all sold out on
this Sabbath day
If it's 2pm,
I am in Augusta,
in some form of which
not readily acquainted,
my new context a riddle,
never knew this morphosis
till now, until
it was needed,
all on that day
If it's 2:45pm
can't understand
all these people standing
over me, and the sidewalk
taste in my my mouth
it appears I appeared
on east 57th street
in my New York City,
it appears I appeared
to have
fainted dead away,
asking me not where how or when,
only why,
and I have no answers for
them or me or anybody who dare asks
a quest,
commencing and ending in
why
must have been the heat,
but decide then and there
maybe go visit
my Jordan and
my grand children
May 17, 2014
May 17, 2014 at 2:00 PM UTC
Who is this young girl,
Thinking she has the right to be in my office?
I pretend to be nice,
I do all the tests,
After all, I can’t risk her suing for neglect.
I comfort her, by telling her it’s stress,
Indeed yes, this is all in her head.
I let her tell me all of her symptoms,
She must be a hypochondriac because how else would she have come up with all of that?
Nevertheless, so she can’t say I haven’t done my job,
I send her for an MRI and EEG,
I also use my favourite words:
I tell her it’s nothing sinister.
I can’t believe she’s wasting my time,
She has anxiety, her brain is all fine!
Now that I’ve ridden her off of my list,
I can move onto to patients, who are actually sick.
She walks in looking young and healthy,
Does she really expect me to believe her?
She’s too young to be sick, and all her tests say are that she needs a psychiatrist, not a neurologist.
I give the advice I’ve learnt from my medical degree, “just get on with life and do whatever you were doing. Go to university, you’ll be just fine! You can’t keep relying on your family forever.”
Poor them, they must be really fed up of her,
She’s just too lazy to make her own food, to get out of bed, to go alone to the toilet unaided.
Yeah, she can still go to university, it’s not like she needs 24/7 care in case she falls down the stairs!
I tell her she doesn’t need those crutches that she uses,
I tell her she’s wrong about social anxiety, although she says it’s much better and I’ve only known her five minutes,
She’s just stressed, her diagnosis is functional.
Six months later her MRI and EEG are normal,
But I already knew it would be,
I advise her doctor to sort her out with a psychiatrist, even though she’s already seen one because I don’t get paid to actually listen to people.
A year later and she’s trying to get another neurologist appointment?
We can’t be having that, let’s make her referral disappear!
She’s told an ophthalmologist she’s having temporary loss of vision, flashes of light?
Who even cares? It’s just in her mind.
She’s chased up how her urgent referral hasn’t be fulfilled in a month,
I guess I’ll have to write her doctor a letter then,
I’ll say it’s just migraine auras because when I saw her she was fine.
She’s only pretending to be disabled,
After all it’s functional so she must be pretty messed up inside.
I’m a doctor so people know I’m smart,
So I get good money,
I don’t need to actually believe my patients and look for things that are not obvious to see.
I’ll make sure she feels like she’s going crazy and will never be helped or believed.
Apr 22, 2019
Apr 22, 2019 at 9:02 PM UTC
Trade me...
lives...
Let me see
how ...'simple "
it is...
to persevere...
when you are
the scapegoat...
work mule...
invisible...
until
what you haven't done done
becomes noticed'
Trade me...
bodies...
navigate the world
from a distinctly
different
perspective...
the receiving end...
of the invisible 85%
who rarely
get a second glance...
Let alone
a golden chance.
Go ahead...
walk the tightrope...
with two left shoes...
stretch your tolerances...
but you're working without a net
and no
there are "volunteers"
falling all over themselves
just to
be the one ...
Don't bother
with your opinion
it is now
inconsequential.
As too...
are you.
I think
you'll find...
no seats saved;
no "extra" tickets;
your sentences will start
trailing off...
as you realize that
no one is listening.
I liken it
to the sounds of your car...
each sound
comforting and familiar...
you know exactly
how hard
you can push it....
...The same curves,
always handle differently,
in an unfamiliar
downgraded vehicle.
So to,
go our lives....
becoming callused
and indifferent
to the cars of others...
unless of coarse...
beep, BEEP.....VAROOM!!!!!
pretty...
Shiny....
RED!
Perhaps instead...
admiring ...
noticing...
appreciating...
There is
tremendous beauty
in watching a pro
surf the serendipitous waves...
all the while...
being charming, witty,
purposeful...
but most of all
unaided...
A gleeful grace
effortless...
Perhaps
one day....
my demolition derby
of a life...
will allow
the crossing of our paths.
And if
you still maintain
that smug
judgmental disdain
you seem
to be so proud of...
I will drop this *****
into 5th gear...
and you my pretty...
can **** my tailpipe!
Jul 2, 2014
Jul 2, 2014 at 6:03 AM UTC
Were there things of I scarcely write,
Flesh-bound secrets: my darkest plight.
Unaided heat and aching skin,
A howling instinct come from within.
Such carnal longings... my guiltless crime
But none do know my mind sublime.
Left to myself, I twist and turn,
Frustrated flames in which I burn.
I feel the madness course through my veins.
I pull my hair; frustration reigns.
From my bit lip and furrowed brow,
Aroused, I ask myself "how now?"
In vast bedchambers, I lay alone.
My mind basking in depths unknown.
My toes curl tight and nails dig deep
for nowhere will my wetness seep.
I groan quite softly, left unappeased.
Such torment stands eternal tease.
Just one is tangled in pillows and sheets,
Trembling of wanting and unshared heat.
All over my skin the goose-bumps rise.
Perhaps a beast you'll find in my eyes.
What secrets be there in my physique,
Hidden within an element mystique.
Dec 30, 2014
Dec 30, 2014 at 12:00 AM UTC
How must she restrain her heart from the embrace of the one who crumbles it so casually?
So delicately her heart sifts through his hands, as he holds the parts most essential for it to beat unaided.
She has exhausted her limit, her soul’s definition.
She no longer knows her very own existence.
Jan 1, 2014
Jan 1, 2014 at 11:25 AM UTC
morning dew,
uninvited, unaided, unremarkable,
essential.
carry away the blood, the sweat,
the summation,
the tears.
evaporate
the human stain
of despair,
drain the toil,
cleanse the collection of the
soil's tears
Jan 3, 2015
Jan 3, 2015 at 5:20 AM UTC
You will never understand,
The meaning has gone from a specific three words,
You can't hear me anymore, no matter how loud I say it.
I don't feel your touch anymore or hear my name from your lips.
I don't remember your sweet, sweet scent because it's been just that long,
But sometimes I lie awake at night and I can hear you singing,
I smell that once delicate scent,
I feel the touch of your skin, and hope that I'll dream of you again;
Because you don't love me
Yet, still, I love you.
I remember 'the good old days' when our love has its way,
But things are different now
The poems I made are gone, you threw them absent from times grasp ,
Our time of love is done,
I suppose you have commanded it so and all I can do is sit in my strain filled sorrow.
The sorrow gets stronger because you're gone, forever.
I write this poem to you
This is what I want you to hear,
When I die, this has my last words for you that may ever mean anything.
You are my first love the only and truest one,
The only thing is that same is not reciprocated,
But I don't care about that, for I love you keen;
I'm just a man who's always here for you,
But if I die I leave these words from me, remember me.
For when I'm absent I'll be gone unaided and I can't go back and see in what manner you are.
So in these words from me, remember me.
Jul 12, 2016
Jul 12, 2016 at 1:17 PM UTC
As subtle as it may seem I frighten at the pause inflicted
when standing before a knowing crowd
to speak up and be heard.
My brain rummages in a waste paper basket of words
for meaning but finds nothing that will escape my throat
out into the open where eager eyes wait and watch
for the imminent collapse of discomfort
around me like a skirt dropping without an elastic band.
Yet my head bubbles with exotic words all inside the cranium
but no words escape from even leaking outlets.
I slink in fright at what I may say, some unkempt sentence
something funny or fumbling, never intended.
Yet I write such massive volumes of words unspoken
but tempered in some inner furnace and beaten into poetic shape
asking no one for any help, but writing unaided and unfettered.
I write because all the things I want to say have gone past spoken
experience and now desire to be recognised as written words.
When spoken before a mirror they come alive with different meanings
and wander into understanding without jabs and jarrs or prodding.
Many like me have said the same thing when discussed
and I wonder why that happens so uncomfortably.
Best to leave us alone and not bother to seek our words of wisdom
but our written words as reflections of an inner mirror!
© Marshall Gass. All rights reserved.
Apr 5, 2014
Apr 5, 2014 at 2:55 AM UTC
I was bored, so was you,
We were sitting on the bench in the empty park, staring at the blue,
I was depressed, my life was over,
I told you my depression, my troubles, but all you did was said, "Go get a four-leaf clover."
You laughed, I didn't. It wasn't funny,
For you it was like the topic of money,
For me it was the topic of life,
But all you did was said, "I got a win in a game, high five."
I said nothing, there was nothing to say,
I wanted to go home, if yet may,
I wanted to leave you, leave the breath, leave the life,
You paid no attention. Before you had been my best friend. It was like I had been stabbed with a knife…
I stood up and said, "Take care."
All you did was said, "You're so dull. Don't stumble upon a hare."
I did a fake smile, knowing nothing is worth to live.
Lost everything. Friends, you, lost the power to believe…
All the love, all the tries,
Buzzed away into the air like flies.
How many times I had been deceived, broken, lost,
Nothing is worth now, not the cost…
The thoughts kept sailing, over and over.
My depressions atop my head did nothing but trouble me and hover,
The rain poured endlessly while I stared at nothing but the dark,
My mind kept saying, "Die with a growing spark."
I pulled out my pistol, in my hand,
I had no bullets, but they appeared as of magic hand,
I placed the weapon to my head,
I saw you grinning, "You were never my friend. You are worth nothing, but to be lifeless and dead."
I had no strength, I wanted to die,
I knew that my Mother had said a beautiful white lie;
"You will have a great life and will be full of joy."
To me love and friends are something that I can't explain the importance of, but the others I cared for used it like a toy…
I let my last sad tear drop,
And squeezed the trigger with no stop,
Right away my world faded, and I saw the dark, I saw a hand,
The Death appeared, holding out it's skeleton hand, "Welcome child, welcome to the end."
Welcome. I appeared in Hell,
Time for my pains and depressions to fade away that I hid so well,
Nothing but dark. And then it slipped away and faided,
I appeared in the humongous void of space, leaving me lost and unaided,
Nothing mattered now, only the darkness and the vastness of the dark pit-full space,
The tears, the shattered memories, the hatred, and the pain, washed away my oh-so hoping face……
-Mishka Wayz
Nov 24, 2019
Nov 24, 2019 at 2:54 AM UTC
I count the hours in diapers, wipes, formula and tiny prepackaged jars of mashed food.
I count the weeks in early morning babble, and bedtime stories. In cuddles.
I count the months in doctors appointments and milestones; first teeth, rolling, talking, crawling, walking.
I count my heart beats when they stop because of tumbles, rolls and kabonka bonks.
I count my smiles in discovery, first aided and unaided steps; when small things to me seem so big and new to him.
I count my tears in sleepless nights, upset tummies, and runny noses.
But if you ask me the time, or what day it is, I won't be able to tell you. Because I count time in moments. They go by so fast, and if I stop to blink or give you the time I will miss them.
Dec 6, 2014
Dec 6, 2014 at 3:47 PM UTC
You didn't **** me,
Not literally.
Figuratively-
You stab me deep,
left me to bleed,
scarred from weep.
Emotionally-
You left my heart voided,
it couldn't be avoided,
Abandoned and unaided.
Mentally-
You chose to pursue,
things which were untrue,
I had no rights to sue.
You didn't **** me,
Not literally.
Not yet.
Nov 1, 2014
Nov 1, 2014 at 1:28 AM UTC
Something was very different in this morning glory
The cupid had blessed me with a brand new story.
There were certain promises in the start which I had to oath
It was important for future ensuring a compatible growth.
It started away and the world seemed down under,
My life got a new meaning, which made people, wonder.
The ride started and life continued in its own pace,
But the journey was swiftly adding memories irrespective of the space.
Anything and Everything soon became the only vocabulary which I understood,
And there I was, preserving each and every moment under the hood.
Thus, life got more and more valuable with this blissful treasure,
Each day seemed special now, full of joyous pleasure.
Nothing could have been better than this blessing of the supreme power,
Happiness was flowing in heart making me feel at the peak of heaven’s tower.
But man is greedy and thus the aim was to be wealthier with such memories for life,
Knock! Knock! And the sleep just got over with the dream turning into a falling knife.
Something was very different in this morning glory
The cupid had blessed me with a brand new story.
An unexpected occurrence suddenly arose in between the way
The relation blessed by sun now lost its sheen and so did its ray.
The pool of memories now suddenly seemed the biggest fear,
Who knew that accumulated fortune would also bring a tear?
The past was still beautiful but the present left me unaided,
Though memories are still in heart, but the inner self feels degraded.
Tears, Requests, Anger and Love, all were efforts which went in vain,
The memories started hurting now which I believed I could empty in drain.
But it is just not easy, to let go off someone who was a part of you,
Every minute recalls the time spent with her, making you feel blue.
The purpose every day is to get rid of emotions and start afresh,
Either you hurt yourself physically or find yourself caught in a mesh.
The memories which made you smile still continue to haunt
You find yourself alone in the crowd seeing yourself daunt.
Jun 28, 2012
Jun 28, 2012 at 8:51 AM UTC
I see your enchanting beauty
Closing my eyes
Hear your melodious tunes
Plugging my ears
Praise your love and compassion
Shutting my mouth
Smell your divine fragrance
Snubbing my nose
Sense your magnanimity
Untouched
Reach and merge in you
Unaided
All I need is your blessing
To qualify myself
Oh my Lord! I Owe You.
Jan 13, 2015
Jan 13, 2015 at 9:32 AM UTC
The swing, moves unaided
Back and forth,
Forth and back,
Where children played,
Fun was there only worry of the day,
But the rain fell, and play no more,
The spinning wheel a tangled mess,
Twisted,
Distorted,
Jagged,
Metal blooded dry in the sun,
A place of fun,
Now of silence, only the rain falls
Then there is fear in others eyes
Craters left where each one ruptured,
Where each one fell
It destroyed the fun as
Twisted metal,
Earth runs red,
Laughter now screams,
The fun is at an end,
Hiding from the noises
Seeing things not meant to be seen,
The swing, moves unaided
Back and forth,
Forth and back,
The rain fell near by,
Pushing the swing,
That the children no longer use any more.
Aug 2, 2014
Aug 2, 2014 at 5:32 AM UTC
I wish I could communicate
The thoughts inside my head
Without opening my mouth
There’s just far too much to explain
Inside this crazy mess
Why can’t you figure that out?
I’m chasing the evasive,
Navigating unaided
And every day’s a struggle
Battles raging deep within
I can’t run but can’t give in
It’s a war I cannot win
I feel like giving up sometimes
Taking the easy road
Letting the ghosts come for me
But at times there’s fight left inside
Stubbornness takes a hold
Things will get better, you’ll see
I’m chasing the evasive,
Navigating unaided
And every day’s a struggle
With evil creeping closer
It’s around every corner
And just will not blow over
I’m searching for finality
In lieu of happiness
That never did arrive.
I’m done with all this agony,
Fear, pain and distress
Is it time to say goodbye?
I’m chasing the evasive,
Navigating unaided
And every day’s a struggle
Battles raging deep within
I can’t run but can’t give in
It’s a war I cannot win
Dec 16, 2016
Dec 16, 2016 at 4:23 PM UTC
What do you do?
What do you do?
When only one can live
And it has to be you
All you can give
If only you knew
What it would take
What you would have to do
Who do you trust
What do they mean
Would you **** if you must?
Can your hands stay clean?
What of humanity?
This is insanity
The countdown begins
The beginning or the end?
Memories are faded
But there was blood and gore
Violence unaided
Who are you anymore?
Lives were traded
Battles evaded
Camps raided
Doors barricaded
Blood cascaded
Light was shaded
Became the animals we were
Machines of death
Never did it occur
As we stole a breath
You and I stand apart
Waiting for the violence to start
All it takes is a little time
A little push, a little crime
And teeth are barred
Claws where hands used to be
You didn't make it far
Not from me
I am the best
You all could see
Last of the rest
Last to breathe
But I never was the same
I still see so much red
I know it was just a game
Still I feel the dread
Killed countless names
But it is I that is truly dead
Nov 7, 2013
Nov 7, 2013 at 1:08 PM UTC
I
We lost the art of brand new sight,
of sleep unaided in dreams of flight,
when tendons grew
our hopes diminished,
we set to flame
all the books we had finished.
We faced childhood's end upon the start
of routine pain and a world-weary heart.
When sadness grew
without a good reason,
we viewed happiness
as just a passing season.
We felt parents weep upon our shoulder,
experienced loss but never grew older.
The passing of time
has kept you away,
but upon my first kiss,
I shall ask you to stay.
II
Our father was a lion buried under the mound
in the jungle grass of our garden. When trains
passed by at night, we roared our father's calls
back to him. We always felt we would meet him.
In boundless energy, we would climb the tree,
scale the back-alley car-park, parading maladies
as a badge of honour. We were going to be
astronauts, playing football on the moon.
There was no time for debts or tomorrows,
only the taste of sugar and plastic mints.
A long soak in the bath was a punishment,
with nothing but dirt to wash away.
III
I think of you in comfort
as I open unfamiliar doors,
as I fall in love with a photograph,
as I find myself sleeping on floors.
I think of you in solace
when waking up is hard,
when love has been reduced
to the print of a greeting card.
I think of you too often
as I dodge another bill,
as I waste a field to play within
and settle for the windowsill.
Sep 10, 2014
Sep 10, 2014 at 6:39 PM UTC