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Ikaw ang alaalang nais kong ibaon sa limot —
Ang kalimutan ka ay kalayaan ko.
Ikaw ang larawang sana’y kumupas na
At handa ako kung anayin na
Ang mga sandaling kasama ka.

Sa tuwing pumipikit ako’y
Dinadalaw mo pa rin ang aking isipan
At maging sa panaginip,
Ako’y tila binabangungot
At magigising nang bigla ang aking ulirat.

Ang bawat patak ng luha’y ni hindi na masukat
Gaya ng ulang walang himpil na pagbagsak.
Kung sana noong una’y binitawan ka na agad,
Sana’y hindi nagdurusa ang puso kong pagod na.

033124

I told you I would no longer write for you —
That I won’t hide it in series of poetry anymore.
I was old enough
And I know it’s no longer trendy
I write you letters but I don’t send it anyways.

I wanna tell you how much I cared
To let you go as God says so
At first, I was so scared losing you
As if you were “mine”
Though I never had this “thing” with you.

Honestly, I was left with no choice at all —
I thought you’ll wait for me
Just like what you’ve promised.
But maybe words were just empty words.

Hey, I’m sorry that you got tired of me
I was crazy to let you go without even confessing.
You’re too early and I was too late
But it’s kinda unfair
Coz I believed everything you said.

I know I hurt you too
Many times, you told me you’re no longer at peace.
I hated myself for hurting you
But I have to let myself heal and bloom once again.

The connection I had with you was different
I thought I’m already “home” when I’m with you.
But I never had the chance to cherish everything…
It was the last time, but I haven’t said anything.

The pain within me was more than my emotions,
You’re not just a piece of me
But being with you for a short span
Was like staying where I want to be.

I had so many questions in my head —
But the answer I get was you moved on already.
Seeing you around makes me forgive you
And leads me to forgive myself too.

I ain’t perfect —
But this connection has lapsed
And I have to leave this page.