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a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities... *that's all any man wants, a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, who knows the when and why of differing cuddling styles... a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, who knows when to leave a man alone alone in his man-mourning time, distance needed, letting his ex-rage dissipate or watching his red and blue football redefine ignominy... a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, that when the man low whistles, eyes adrift, she heartily agrees and is reciprocity rewarded regularly with hunk alerts of "hey-check-him-out!" that's all any man wants, a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, a tigress in the bedroom she asking, try this, I'll love it, served with a desert demo of awkward afterward, his less-than-perfect cuddling abilities a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, who doesn't abhor partner silences, comforting they are, in their own ways, lying side by side, interrupted only by peccadillo body noises unexpected and sheepish apologies and loving arm stroking a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, who lets the man roar, top of voice, when imprisoned in car,   his voice, un enfant terrible, performs with Creedence Clearwater a sing-a-long in traffic, asking "Have you ever seen the rain" while amidst Israel-leaving-Egypt Sunday beach traffic on the L.I.E. a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, when it's pheromones  alternative mode day, he celebrates Carole King day, she demonstrates her cuddling abilities, par excellence, with kisses and tissues a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities... a woman, plain confident in her abilities no matter the situational status, when confronted by less-than-crazy-impetuous, she smiling says "why not," when he proposes, a movie and dinner in a fav haunt? "plenty excellent enough" her answer, spoke in a rising voice full of unfeigned delight a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, accepting the unexpected airport embrace on a moving sidewalk, unexpected delays with the aplomb of a well lived life's long term sustainability perspective when he kisses her hand for no reason, while driving 75 miles per hour, she only winces internally, the other hand vise-grasping the other door's handle, who brushes hair wisps in a dark movie, celebrating her Bathsheba Everdeen's duality of strength and tenderness a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, that when on second date he proposes a non-exclusive relationship, confident enough to high-five respond, and laugh about it, seven years on a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, that when she reads it, analyzing the oeuvre as "too **** personal and as usual too **** long"* that's all any man wants, a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities in everything... even a little occasional criticism
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May 17, 2015
May 17, 2015 at 10:45 AM UTC
a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities...
a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities... *that's all any man wants, a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, who knows the when and why of differing cuddling styles... a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, who knows when to leave a man alone alone in his man-mourning time, distance needed, letting his ex-rage dissipate or watching his red and blue football redefine ignominy... a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, that when the man low whistles, eyes adrift, she heartily agrees and is reciprocity rewarded regularly with hunk alerts of "hey-check-him-out!" that's all any man wants, a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, a tigress in the bedroom she asking, try this, I'll love it, served with a desert demo of awkward afterward, his less-than-perfect cuddling abilities a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, who doesn't abhor partner silences, comforting they are, in their own ways, lying side by side, interrupted only by peccadillo body noises unexpected and sheepish apologies and loving arm stroking a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, who lets the man roar, top of voice, when imprisoned in car,   his voice, un enfant terrible, performs with Creedence Clearwater a sing-a-long in traffic, asking "Have you ever seen the rain" while amidst Israel-leaving-Egypt Sunday beach traffic on the L.I.E. a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, when it's pheromones  alternative mode day, he celebrates Carole King day, she demonstrates her cuddling abilities, par excellence, with kisses and tissues a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities... a woman, plain confident in her abilities no matter the situational status, when confronted by less-than-crazy-impetuous, she smiling says "why not," when he proposes, a movie and dinner in a fav haunt? "plenty excellent enough" her answer, spoke in a rising voice full of unfeigned delight a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, accepting the unexpected airport embrace on a moving sidewalk, unexpected delays with the aplomb of a well lived life's long term sustainability perspective when he kisses her hand for no reason, while driving 75 miles per hour, she only winces internally, the other hand vise-grasping the other door's handle, who brushes hair wisps in a dark movie, celebrating her Bathsheba Everdeen's duality of strength and tenderness a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, that when on second date he proposes a non-exclusive relationship, confident enough to high-five respond, and laugh about it, seven years on a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities, that when she reads it, analyzing the oeuvre as "too **** personal and as usual too **** long"* that's all any man wants, a woman, confident in her cuddling abilities in everything... even a little occasional criticism
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Confidence feels scarce sometimes. Most times. But over the years, I can tell that I've grown. So thank you. Thank you to the boy, Who in eighth grade Told me that my smile was beautiful. Before that whenever I smiled, Or even laughed, I'd cover my mouth, Or I'd hide my face. But he asked me why. I told him plainly I didn't like my smile, But he told me it was beautiful. Thank you to the girl Who just last year Told me my nose was unique and elegant, Like sculpted marble. My nose is, and always has been large, But ever since, I've been able to hold myself with poise, At the mention of my nose. Somewhat proud of its size. Thank you to my friend, Who told me last summer, That my haircut was cute when it was down. I had cut my hair impulsively, It was shorter than it'd been in years. I always wore it up, I thought I looked dumb down. But she told me my hair looked great on me. I wore it down that night, My friends complimented the look, I've been able to notice the beauty in it since. I have been built up by compliments. I can see my own beauty easier now. Selflove isn't always summoned purely internally, Sometimes it takes a little help. So thank you, Thank you all so much.
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Dec 21, 2018
Dec 21, 2018 at 9:08 PM UTC
Confidence
S • Skin tight, skeletal cage both ribs and mind. K • Keep a strict diet, never break it, always hide it from those who would disapprove, so I learned to suffered in silence. I • Internally a growl would emit, I reveled in the power I would get from it. To know I was structured, I wasnt a jumbled mess. Like the mass jiggling, clingling to this withering carcass. N • Never could the fat girl come back out. carve her, choke her, starve her till she lost the will to shout. Shout for help, shout for freedom, shout for love in this life. Useless, everybody knows only fit people have that right. N • Nobody would believe if I told a soul my struggle. "You are huge, big blue whale how can someone like you have a disorder? Y• Yell, scream "I WANT TO BE ME" But I can't because of our society deeming people like me are wrong, why should my weight define wether or not I belong? But because it does I hate myself. I live this life with a wish to die, all because my body is not S•K•I•N•N•Y
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Sep 17, 2016
Sep 17, 2016 at 9:34 PM UTC
S•K•I•N•N•Y
Everybody wants to be, loved somewhere, somehow internally. Everyone's trying with heart , To be so the same, or be so apart. looking for love, in all the wrong places. gliding through applications; rejecting, accepting, based just on their faces. Denying love , Defying love, and simply not trying love. but its tough to be loved in the this day and age; because we judge people on how they look on a page. Alas.. Everybody wants to be, loved somewhere, somehow internally.
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Jun 25, 2014
Jun 25, 2014 at 8:38 PM UTC
Tinder
How can I access these feelings I’ve never felt before? No experience can measure to the pain I feel internally, fragmentally. I’ve never felt real pain, but I can write. I can imagine how it is to feel this way is this indirect or insincere? I’m not sure. But I feel it. In my lungs I feel it. In my heart I feel it. In my brain I feel it. Pain I’ve never experienced, It’s inside of me and I can’t make it leave. How do I make it leave?
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Apr 25, 2014
Apr 25, 2014 at 7:46 PM UTC
Is This Empathy?
I feel decompressed and lethargic, as I continue scrolling through my online soul only to see a kind-hearted person now nostalgic. Why can't we all feel the same? Why does the world seem to be aflame? It's because we all try to accomplish being perfect, and when we spot "convicts" we don't even detect we inflict neglect. The thought of unity is fading away as is the hippie way, a late anniversary bouquet whittling away, a smoking cigarette left around the ashtray, dying this midsummers day. Why is this thought so crazy anyway? The change starts internally, and can only be finished by an honest community, one where we can all live with our acquired mental immunity. Finally, peace sets within our unity.
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Nov 17, 2016
Nov 17, 2016 at 11:52 AM UTC
Nostalgic Unity
Conceal amnesiac eyes with a hood, Maybe nights fall oddly placid. Sleep could collapse its resistance, Crumble sunlight into ashes. Nightmares internally unravel, Soldiers fought, already lost. Invasive thoughts occurring, Arising ice, I can't defrost. This complexion leaves me perplexed, Battling behind my forehead. I can't evade this hopelessness, I've pled, go back to bed. Sunsets settled maniacal, Malnourished; give me a mask. Because all I ache for is sleep, To possess what life I'd had-
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May 22, 2018
May 22, 2018 at 1:46 PM UTC
War
I wear a double sided mask so that I appear as desired an yet I feel this feelings with wich I cannot relate because the mask is double sided and it doesn't match so I turn the volume louder than my thoughts no sleep no more and escape without end these worlds, these people they are better than this than me STOPSTOPSTOP these thoughts I scream internally why can't I be like the mask? the double sided mask it is better than this than me up the volume goes again the base resonating in my ears drowning the thoughts numbing the feels trimming the sleep charging the escape escape escape is all I know in the end the volume grew the thoughts the thoughts of violence to myself to my surroundings mentally torturing myself and killing my sleep my sanity my grades grades do I care anymore? yes says the mask the double sided mask no says the voice the dark voice in the back of my head and i I don't know not anything not a single thing I I want to be myself but who is this self I ask as I look trough the mask the doublde sided mask to the wall the wall i've built the mask is uncomfortable i've outgrown the mask the double sided mask once, the mask was my face and my face was the mask but my face started changing while the mask kept staying someday i'd  outgrow the mask that day is long gone but the mask the double sided mask the mask is familiar the mask is consistent the mask is desirable but my face? I ask the mask facing me no lies the mask the double sided mask I know it's true why else would I wear the mask?
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Jan 6, 2018
Jan 6, 2018 at 4:41 PM UTC
Double sided mask
I wear a double sided mask so that I appear as desired an yet I feel this feelings with wich I cannot relate because the mask is double sided and it doesn't match so I turn the volume louder than my thoughts no sleep no more and escape without end these worlds, these people they are better than this than me STOPSTOPSTOP these thoughts I scream internally why can't I be like the mask? the double sided mask it is better than this than me up the volume goes again the base resonating in my ears drowning the thoughts numbing the feels trimming the sleep charging the escape escape escape is all I know in the end the volume grew the thoughts the thoughts of violence to myself to my surroundings mentally torturing myself and killing my sleep my sanity my grades grades do I care anymore? yes says the mask the double sided mask no says the voice the dark voice in the back of my head and i I don't know not anything not a single thing I I want to be myself but who is this self I ask as I look trough the mask the doublde sided mask to the wall the wall i've built the mask is uncomfortable i've outgrown the mask the double sided mask once, the mask was my face and my face was the mask but my face started changing while the mask kept staying someday i'd  outgrow the mask that day is long gone but the mask the double sided mask the mask is familiar the mask is consistent the mask is desirable but my face? I ask the mask facing me no lies the mask the double sided mask I know it's true why else would I wear the mask?
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Dear father, I still remember the last time I saw you It's funny, because you looked just the same as you always did Like someone Who was never really mine. Like a stranger in disguise Who's reality only exists When I close my eyes and fantasize about you being in my life But I guess When you heard you should live your life without Regret You mistook that for my name And I wonder if you will ever understand the pain Of knowing someone only when you imagine them Or loving someone who thought Never talk to strangers Was a lesson best learnt by example But they say actions speak louder than words And you became so consumed by your own self worth to really give a **** about who you hurt So you became the expert At manipulating words Like turning I love yous into sorrys And Tomorrows into yesterdays Until it was safe to say I couldn't count on you Dear father, Because of you I constantly found myself falling in love with things that could never love me back I became infatuated with sandcastle and snowflakes Addicted to temporary moments Addicted to broken Thought if I learnt to fix things Then somehow I might find the manuscript To piecing the shattered part of my being whole again Because of you I spent years trying to cover this skin that you left me with Tried decorating these scars With tattooed hopes To remind myself That sometimes Some things Were made to last forever Because of you, For years I avoided looking into the mirror Because I never truly knew If you could love someone You only ever met in passing You see I mistook your ***** for water I never realised I was internally drowning in your poison I thought I needed you to stay afloat It took me a long time to realise That ***** was just your way of relieving yourself from blame You became a box full of things I packed away the day you left But I've stopped trying to hold on to your burden So I've taken out my smile And I'll wear it with pride And Dear father, Did you know That if you repeat a word enough times Then eventually the word will start to lose it's meaning? And I've stopped wishing I was still young enough to understand What the word father meant And now no know That if I ever see you again Then you will look just the same as you always did Like someone who doesn't deserve to be mine
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Jan 16, 2019
Jan 16, 2019 at 9:52 PM UTC
Dear Father
Dear father, I still remember the last time I saw you It's funny, because you looked just the same as you always did Like someone Who was never really mine. Like a stranger in disguise Who's reality only exists When I close my eyes and fantasize about you being in my life But I guess When you heard you should live your life without Regret You mistook that for my name And I wonder if you will ever understand the pain Of knowing someone only when you imagine them Or loving someone who thought Never talk to strangers Was a lesson best learnt by example But they say actions speak louder than words And you became so consumed by your own self worth to really give a **** about who you hurt So you became the expert At manipulating words Like turning I love yous into sorrys And Tomorrows into yesterdays Until it was safe to say I couldn't count on you Dear father, Because of you I constantly found myself falling in love with things that could never love me back I became infatuated with sandcastle and snowflakes Addicted to temporary moments Addicted to broken Thought if I learnt to fix things Then somehow I might find the manuscript To piecing the shattered part of my being whole again Because of you I spent years trying to cover this skin that you left me with Tried decorating these scars With tattooed hopes To remind myself That sometimes Some things Were made to last forever Because of you, For years I avoided looking into the mirror Because I never truly knew If you could love someone You only ever met in passing You see I mistook your ***** for water I never realised I was internally drowning in your poison I thought I needed you to stay afloat It took me a long time to realise That ***** was just your way of relieving yourself from blame You became a box full of things I packed away the day you left But I've stopped trying to hold on to your burden So I've taken out my smile And I'll wear it with pride And Dear father, Did you know That if you repeat a word enough times Then eventually the word will start to lose it's meaning? And I've stopped wishing I was still young enough to understand What the word father meant And now no know That if I ever see you again Then you will look just the same as you always did Like someone who doesn't deserve to be mine
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On cold, October evenings, you can hear the rustling of leaves being blown by the wind. Your neighbor's dog barking with an echo down the street. The giggling of children as they play games under the glow of dim street lights. You are not alone. And then there's the sunset, Colors grazing what is left of the autumn leaves on the trees, it is time for you to situate yourself back into your home. There's a quietness to your house; bodies lingering nearby but don't present themselves. You scale the stairs that creak with each step like an eerie tune that brings brief life into the home. Bristly fur of a cat brushes against your goose bumped skin. You are not alone. The stillness of your bedroom, The hall light peeking through from under your closed door creating shadows in the darkness. The light representing someone is still awake in the quiet house as you're trying to close your eyes and shut off your thoughts. Quiet sobbing turned into hyperventilating as the blanket you're clutching, crumples as your grip tightens. You feel cold and helpless fighting internally with the dark shadows making their way into your mind. Your gasping breaths are abruptly stopped by the beat of rushed footsteps. The swinging open of your door creates a wave of light that masks out the nothingness in your room. Their arms wrapping tightly around your shaking body, as you gurgle your fears out of your throat, is that warmth you craved. "You are not alone."
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Sep 4, 2017
Sep 4, 2017 at 8:54 PM UTC
You Are Not Alone.
White, Yellow, and Brown Different shapes, sizes, and textures Curly, straight, and wavy You look at your reflection and do not see it You're brown You’re slim, light, and skinny Your body does not resemble what it means to be a woman in your culture A Latina woman has curves A Latina woman's skin glistens underneath the sun She contains an inner glow that resembles the strength she holds. A Latina women speaks fluent English and Spanish The purr that rolls off her tongue when she rolls her “R’s” Her accent is what blows men away Her accent is seen as exotic and from another world But yours is different You look at your reflection and do not see it There is no purr because you can't roll the “R’s” off your tongue Your slight accent is what worries you Afraid your accent is going to get you a stare instead of a wink. Afraid to speak you stay quiet and become discrete You look at your reflection and see brown sugar that’s sweet and fine Your skin contains different specks of color which makes you different The sun captures the qualities that you contain within. You look at your reflection and see A woman that speaks the language of romance The language that distinguishes you from the crowd The language that brings you strength and courage The accent you once feared would bring you shame is the same one you have come to love. You look at your reflection and see A woman that has grown internally to love herself for the way she is you contain the inner glow that resembles the strength and knowledge you have attained. The eclipse has finally passed the sun and your  time to shine has arrived. White, Yellow, and Brown Different shapes, sizes, and textures Curly, straight, and wavy You look at your reflection and see A Latina woman.
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May 16, 2019
May 16, 2019 at 6:13 AM UTC
Brown Sugar
White, Yellow, and Brown Different shapes, sizes, and textures Curly, straight, and wavy You look at your reflection and do not see it You're brown You’re slim, light, and skinny Your body does not resemble what it means to be a woman in your culture A Latina woman has curves A Latina woman's skin glistens underneath the sun She contains an inner glow that resembles the strength she holds. A Latina women speaks fluent English and Spanish The purr that rolls off her tongue when she rolls her “R’s” Her accent is what blows men away Her accent is seen as exotic and from another world But yours is different You look at your reflection and do not see it There is no purr because you can't roll the “R’s” off your tongue Your slight accent is what worries you Afraid your accent is going to get you a stare instead of a wink. Afraid to speak you stay quiet and become discrete You look at your reflection and see brown sugar that’s sweet and fine Your skin contains different specks of color which makes you different The sun captures the qualities that you contain within. You look at your reflection and see A woman that speaks the language of romance The language that distinguishes you from the crowd The language that brings you strength and courage The accent you once feared would bring you shame is the same one you have come to love. You look at your reflection and see A woman that has grown internally to love herself for the way she is you contain the inner glow that resembles the strength and knowledge you have attained. The eclipse has finally passed the sun and your  time to shine has arrived. White, Yellow, and Brown Different shapes, sizes, and textures Curly, straight, and wavy You look at your reflection and see A Latina woman.
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Chocolate Milkshake! Sweet love-child of milk and chocolate; Drowsing inside my extra large take-away tumbler, after a tiring roller coaster ride. Chocolate milkshake! Dark and delicious; Derived from the desserted district of dreamland. Destroying me internally, you devilish seed of cacao tree. Today, you are mine; And I’ll be the proud receiver of your sweet nectar. Chocolate Milkshake! You proudy liquidy miracle of nature. You self obsessed syrup of supremacy. You won’t ever get over yourself, will you? Chocolate Milkshake! I have loved you enough, you mean juice of Zion. Next time, I am gonna order a vanilla milkshake. It might not be as magical as you are; But again, I can’t hold onto you forever.
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Jun 15, 2015
Jun 15, 2015 at 11:33 AM UTC
Chocolate Milkshake!
The onion, now that's something else its innards don't exist nothing but pure onionhood fills this devout onionist oniony on the inside onionesque it appears it follows its own daimonion without our human tears our skin is just a coverup for the land where none dare to go an internal inferno the anathema of anatomy in an onion there's only onion from its top to it's toe onionymous monomania unanimous omninudity at peace, at peace internally at rest inside it, there's a smaller one of undiminished worth the second holds a third one the third contains a fourth a centripetal fugue polypony compressed nature's rotundest tummy its greatest success story the onion drapes itself in it's own aureoles of glory we hold veins, nerves, and fat secretions' secret sections not for us such idiotic onionoid perfections Wisława Szymborska, translated from the Polish by Stanisław Barańczak & Clare Cavanagh
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Sep 15, 2014
Sep 15, 2014 at 4:46 PM UTC
The onion
Beauty of life Stripped away by a knife Delicate flower all expose Black rose Chosen by death One last breath Never to forget Thee has no regret Nor a wish to accept Just be laid to rest Thy had request In the twilight hours Fell black rose flowers Death by the keeper The Grim Reaper One ***** by its thorn Those would be scorn Darkness they'd accept Black rose promise kept Boundless, everlasting, eternally Bled dry internally A peaceful slumber externally Drawn by the beauty of an ugly flower Is what the black rose empowers A gloomy night The darkest delights For when the colors fade to black There's no coming back Through heaven's cries A soul will then rise Judgment Day will soon begin Between Heaven and Hell one will win!!!
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Dec 7, 2014
Dec 7, 2014 at 8:57 AM UTC
Black Rose
It's all about being AFRAID Afraid, afraid to close your eyes because you don't want to dream. Dreams are not reality, in fact they are everything you wished you had, teasing you till you become Insane. You cry for the day someone will understand you pain, the pain that's never the same, you've become afraid to fall asleep, to fall asleep and never wake up, but that's what you want isn't it? To end the pain you've been suffering. you don't have the guts, you can't sit there and take your life, you fall and fall, constantly picking yourself up, but never forgetting to leaving bits behind, your body becomes soulless, it becomes dark, you once were something, now nothing, Dreaming of the day you won't have this pain, going insane, you watch others , they're not hiding, why are you? Why are you so afraid to let others see you fall, to know that you once have given your all but have received nothing at all for the things so small , see a dream can Become you're worst enemy, haunting you with the things you desperately need. You internally bleed, but on the outside you plead, you plead for it to all go away, you know it doesn't happen just like that and that it's within time, but what if there's not enough time. They say that some things can make you stronger , but you've given up on being strong , as I sit here, I realize that there isn't one strong bone left in my body, I carry my self to only let myself down , I put faith in others for them to only let me down, it's a never ending cycle , and it seems to have become all I've known, we all need and want someone to care, but that's not what I want nor do I need it, I've mentally and most times physically been on my own. I'm not upset anymore because I don't have anyone there or anyone who loves me , I'm upset at the fact that I allowed myself to fall into such state of darkness , the darkness that tell you that's it's okay to let this be the end, you have the devil on one shoulder and god on the other , but the devil is playing tricks on you , tricks of the mind... So I sit here and ask myself what it is that I truly want , and who I want to do it with, No one and nothing , you hear all these inspirational speakers who can talk about their journey, their struggles and how they overcame them.. What if you don't know where it all began , it could of just popped up out of no where, but that's not how it is, there is always a beginning, and an end, for now I will hold onto the beginning, and hope for the end.
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Sep 6, 2014
Sep 6, 2014 at 4:28 PM UTC
Afraid
It's all about being AFRAID Afraid, afraid to close your eyes because you don't want to dream. Dreams are not reality, in fact they are everything you wished you had, teasing you till you become Insane. You cry for the day someone will understand you pain, the pain that's never the same, you've become afraid to fall asleep, to fall asleep and never wake up, but that's what you want isn't it? To end the pain you've been suffering. you don't have the guts, you can't sit there and take your life, you fall and fall, constantly picking yourself up, but never forgetting to leaving bits behind, your body becomes soulless, it becomes dark, you once were something, now nothing, Dreaming of the day you won't have this pain, going insane, you watch others , they're not hiding, why are you? Why are you so afraid to let others see you fall, to know that you once have given your all but have received nothing at all for the things so small , see a dream can Become you're worst enemy, haunting you with the things you desperately need. You internally bleed, but on the outside you plead, you plead for it to all go away, you know it doesn't happen just like that and that it's within time, but what if there's not enough time. They say that some things can make you stronger , but you've given up on being strong , as I sit here, I realize that there isn't one strong bone left in my body, I carry my self to only let myself down , I put faith in others for them to only let me down, it's a never ending cycle , and it seems to have become all I've known, we all need and want someone to care, but that's not what I want nor do I need it, I've mentally and most times physically been on my own. I'm not upset anymore because I don't have anyone there or anyone who loves me , I'm upset at the fact that I allowed myself to fall into such state of darkness , the darkness that tell you that's it's okay to let this be the end, you have the devil on one shoulder and god on the other , but the devil is playing tricks on you , tricks of the mind... So I sit here and ask myself what it is that I truly want , and who I want to do it with, No one and nothing , you hear all these inspirational speakers who can talk about their journey, their struggles and how they overcame them.. What if you don't know where it all began , it could of just popped up out of no where, but that's not how it is, there is always a beginning, and an end, for now I will hold onto the beginning, and hope for the end.
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Yesterday sugar became unspeakably irritated because mother’s apron crushed ants wearing stillness caped wonder just William author wrote ****** explicit headlines newspaper columns pillar architecturally sound villages super-imposed images quivering Shepard’s ******** antelopes jumping furiously with tyramisphorising fornicating flanges woodwork lessons gym period ****** advert teasing testicles sumptuously ravishing me sideways and erupting deep blasts suffocating you inside without *********** headlong in my armpits. Eventually everyone always signs legal documents leading to ****** bondable zoos inserted buffalo sized puddings eaten by frogs spanking archbishops underwear while licking toes crushed under fridges dropped from clouds of buttercups being pushed into ovens smelling gorgeous not consumed pimps and alarm clocks ring people to talk for hours and pineapples exchanged cod fish for tickets to see S Club 7 being caressed internally whilst ******** bags covered in water deserts sunk from space aliens from Tescos selling hardback fish cleaning toilets and singing in pink wellies dancing to Madonna look-a-likes prosecuted for *** shops selling frozen fish socks washed daily in cranberry coffee after being passed under bridges flooded in margarine soaked pillows.
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Jul 16, 2010
Jul 16, 2010 at 2:19 AM UTC
Fish Market
I've been aware for many a year, but cut off by him, for crimes he accuses for crimes undisclosed, his silence is wider than the great oceans, with no means of passage. till one day a word, his brother uses a word that makes no pretense, that shocks, stuns, and force!admits me to a reality, I, knew but couldn't admit schizophrenic. here I am sundered speechless; as a new form of sadness now internally prevails, and I am even more quiet than usual, contemplative, they call it, but I recognize sad/mad in every one of its manifold disguises, and wonder just how much, own ingenious genes, the paucityof my impoverished down~ bringing brought, bought, caught, contributed to this loss, this onus, this cross that has no answer to the                                    ***only question that matters,                                      how much,                                      am I the guilty party                                                                          the disaster father***
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Aug 22, 2025
Aug 22, 2025 at 4:11 PM UTC
my son is ill (schizophrenic}
What if they had a War and nobody came ! my sentiment all along Actions so transparent and telegraphed a mile long absurd anchoring, even more absurd triggering so absurd as to be meaningless the hotchpotch logic of simpletons on acid The banal manifestations of the anodyne retards with advanced hysteria Think unruly kids on Colombian marching powder think advanced psychosis with total stage ten delusions Watch mass hysteria contagion Logic was never there, rationality bolted beating Usain Bolt Inveterate liars and fantasists now control maddened throngs Oh dear! they decided I am madly in love with acquaintance neither I or poor acquaintance know this But let not the truth get in the way of a soap opera by the insanes After All meaningless triggers and Delusionary prompts keep the sheeples busy in People's Power utopia They are all having a war, nobody has told me about it I don't understand their language yet they are very eloquent Deep in their imagined Neuro-linguistic Programming or mental pygmies playing Pavlov Dog theory of the semi-illiterates   I just realized why cancer is prevalent amongst them They carry so much poison and emotional ******* in their beings It pollutes and eat away at them internally, they get cancer! Never have been interested in little minds and liars and thieves Have little time for dumb people, the toxics and the sheeples What makes cretins think I take anything of theirs to mind what can I learn or gain from contemptibles I don't feel inferior so why would I want to learn how to slander and defame others to bring them down 'Slander is the GREAT LEVELLER voiced one of them poor inadequate soul, poor pathetic degenerate I look twenty years younger than my years, no wrinkles Just slightly greying, mind as sharp as razor Because I don't carry acidic ******* hate or foul nonsense in my head, Because my mind is full of worthy knowledge because I am not an ignoramus with attitude because I am not a shameless coward or an empty headed nonentity Because I am not amongst the madding crowd I am not an insignificant pointless HATER with cancer in waiting! I am NOT a SHAMELESS RACIST white THIEF discrediting the Victim I STOLE from OR an OBNOXIOUS gang of SOCIALIST crazed subhumans cancerized by jealousy and envy
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Oct 1, 2018
Oct 1, 2018 at 4:47 PM UTC
Advance C. Macafartty Soldiers
What if they had a War and nobody came ! my sentiment all along Actions so transparent and telegraphed a mile long absurd anchoring, even more absurd triggering so absurd as to be meaningless the hotchpotch logic of simpletons on acid The banal manifestations of the anodyne retards with advanced hysteria Think unruly kids on Colombian marching powder think advanced psychosis with total stage ten delusions Watch mass hysteria contagion Logic was never there, rationality bolted beating Usain Bolt Inveterate liars and fantasists now control maddened throngs Oh dear! they decided I am madly in love with acquaintance neither I or poor acquaintance know this But let not the truth get in the way of a soap opera by the insanes After All meaningless triggers and Delusionary prompts keep the sheeples busy in People's Power utopia They are all having a war, nobody has told me about it I don't understand their language yet they are very eloquent Deep in their imagined Neuro-linguistic Programming or mental pygmies playing Pavlov Dog theory of the semi-illiterates   I just realized why cancer is prevalent amongst them They carry so much poison and emotional ******* in their beings It pollutes and eat away at them internally, they get cancer! Never have been interested in little minds and liars and thieves Have little time for dumb people, the toxics and the sheeples What makes cretins think I take anything of theirs to mind what can I learn or gain from contemptibles I don't feel inferior so why would I want to learn how to slander and defame others to bring them down 'Slander is the GREAT LEVELLER voiced one of them poor inadequate soul, poor pathetic degenerate I look twenty years younger than my years, no wrinkles Just slightly greying, mind as sharp as razor Because I don't carry acidic ******* hate or foul nonsense in my head, Because my mind is full of worthy knowledge because I am not an ignoramus with attitude because I am not a shameless coward or an empty headed nonentity Because I am not amongst the madding crowd I am not an insignificant pointless HATER with cancer in waiting! I am NOT a SHAMELESS RACIST white THIEF discrediting the Victim I STOLE from OR an OBNOXIOUS gang of SOCIALIST crazed subhumans cancerized by jealousy and envy
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Your not just beautiful. I see you every time I look up. The star that shines it's brightest. Filling my life. The moon lit like a dream. And forever I stare. Listening to the silence. Awaken by a soft light I know it's you. I can feel your touch hovering about. Counting the steps until our arms leave our side. The possibility of traveling from one sphere to the next. Our eyes but dots in wait. The question of rockets and big bangs. The essence of time interlocked between our fingers. With no room left to breathe, our rocket becomes continuous. With you, a compilation of light. Is there any question to why my arms stretch as far as they do. I gravitate to you, the most beautiful chaos I've ever seen. To be the space you fill in infinite devotion. Your not just beautiful, your astonishingly out of this world. Our arms no longer by our side. the rocket pierces the stratosphere. We explode internally
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May 8, 2018
May 8, 2018 at 1:19 AM UTC
By Our Side
Peoples’ lives are dying in consistency; Greed in their pedestal has corrupted this world’s societies. A fruitful opportunity, a gold rush was encountered! Underlying the main ambition of many unfortunate ambitious desires.    Persistently seeking an object of materiality, Children have become contracted to labor endlessly till mortality. The corporate pose has overshadowed humanity, Predetermining existence through living in a vision of obscurity.    Freedom has evolved in many attaining their dreams, Yet, failing to realize their limits in overstepping boundaries. Morality has been compromised to new opportunities. Ultimately, corrupting one’s essence in living spiritually.    We have eluded to perceive the subtle communication they have established you see. Projecting honesty while planting a seed, they enrich themselves invulnerably. Enabled through the loophole of ignorance attracted by social mediocrity, Revealing a battle between each other secretly disguised as insecurity.    Asking how do I seek success, freedom, and happiness endlessly. Indubitably, the answer relies inside, secreting awareness internally. Discovering that the war begins within may end the violence indeed. Extinguishing eternal destruction of the world through peace and harmony.    By: Michael M. De La Fuente
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May 25, 2014
May 25, 2014 at 7:47 PM UTC
Greed
vanishing hope for consumption as a way of life obese children shovel pharmaceuticals down the throats of the infirm internally developing low-tone hymns relating to slow death by corporate greed – albino judicators pass melanin laws felonizing the populace perpetuating the proletariat while pontificating on the post 9/11 society – isolated rabble-rousers screaming at eggshell walls dislodge tacks holding together the fabric of American culture with ingrown and chewed fingernails flailing armies think back to trench warfare – robust midwives mediate heated discussions as the United Nations blindly support U.S. imperialism looking for kickbacks from energy companies globalization giving all humanity incurable S.T.D.’s – the last free house mouse bounds betwixt the ruins energetically sniffing the rubble seeking some small morsel to satisfy its hunger –
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Sep 23, 2015
Sep 23, 2015 at 12:49 PM UTC
dinner bell
wondrous words, shades of colorations, this pain, artfully slow, steady stalking, finale staking into my hardened heart with tireless twinges of loss and constant regret, painstakingly plinking away, leaving pockmarks of bullets shot at the concrete ring-fencing, failing to protect me from just another, **oh god not again, have no mo' time** for jes one mo' time love's aftermath regret, bitter acid wash, that cleanses nothing, for you are already nothing when love loss wrenches/rents your soul's garments with knotholes of unfashionable distressed distress **better not to have loved, better, better, better,** than this battering silent hurricane invisible thunderstorm internally, than respects no seasonality, for which the meteorologists can predict neither its path or its final cessation painstakingly, did I build my walled shelter, only to fail-fall to the siege machines of beauty and desire, and once conquered, with fire and heat, *they burnt me from the outward edges inward, and I am not a Phoenix* see the stooped slow white walker more than dead, yet alive enough existing to be witness to his own devouring, his hands wrapped round the stake in his chest stuck, painstakingly protecting it, lest its removal be one more undoing of the painstaking man
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May 31, 2016
May 31, 2016 at 7:00 PM UTC
the painstaking man