I need to finish the story for convenience I have the original Aftermath to be read first on the bottom What was not stated in Aftermath was my concern for my writing you can’t write with two legs Screaming when I got to the hospital my kidneys were of a concern eight alieve three times a day about Thirty aspirins something like Tylenol didn’t count them no relief my mistake I would bang my ****** leg Against the wood of the desk that would make it crazy for a few seconds so I finally had to stop for over Two months well the devil won it seemed when I talked to my cousin I was at eighteen thousand reads a Little while let me break in here for a second I know I’m talking about numbers it isn’t ego if I come in Contact with any of you in any setting and I pass you by with just a glance I am your sworn Godless Enemy I have just joined the cruelest damnable assassins Hell has ever released on the world I know What awaits the lost even the Apostle Paul worked fervently because he knew the end cost of God’s Holy severity can I do less I look but I take in all manner caring thoughts but without fail I am led to that Future now no one even gives the last day a thought I will put this in as an excerpt this is the dream I Had when I was seventeen or it starts this way your life began in the great head waters at Eden they will End at the mouth of eternity. I was given a view into the celestial I was just a teenager while a sleep this Dream came I looked into the heavens and saw two great wheels made of stars the hands of God started To pull the wheels down as I continued I knew what was occurring God was stopping time. The wheels Stopped then God turned to the seamless darkness grasped it and started to lift as he did it tore away Reveling the bright true world of the spirit that was before hidden this was alarming since I hadn’t made My peace with him Not long after this I was seventeen working at the refinery I just walked out of the Boiler room into the section that was known as the flathead when a voice said time is finished all life and Its concerns flowed out leaving me with the greatest sadness other men standing by laid down their Tools and started milling about mindlessly on this wise in some manner this will happen all over the World the great enterprises so important to man and society will halt government rule and authority Abolished in an instant majesty and power will take the reins the river previously known will be Empowered its first charge make the deserts bloom as a rose…
And I take the liberty to insert I am a person of deep feelings to make the case I wrote two pieces for Roberta Merrifield’s birthday sorry your flowers are late then I forgot your card this was talking about Her friends as flowers each of them need to go to their door and imagine nine hundred people standing There reading about their lives that are filled with grace and beauty and earthen treasures that are in Vessels of clay but to see them truly you will be speechless so I return to the numbers so it was Eighteen thousand a little later when I couldn’t stand the pain any longer I called my retired preacher Uncle and our pastor brother Russell I explained to them about being whipped and my writing had to be Shut down it was thirty five thousand reads then so keys were stilled my lifeline to needy souls was at A deadly stillness so then two months later I wrote fourteen pieces bringing the total to four hundred And fourteen pieces and then Gods love demands the his heart be represented this is the one I am Pleased about the most I wrote a piece called the mirrored pool over four hundred souls read this I’m Sorry this is too important to excerpt it in you are not obligated to read I leave that to your discretion
Mirrored Pool Wonder for all the hurts First I knelt just to see my reflection then the depths started to reveal first the flowing thoughts were Restrained and then a bubbling seemed to dislodge from greater depths hard truths churned with Violent twisting but the motion made it impossible to turn away there were great large white clouds From depths then even above the pool they rose fourteen stories high the sensation was you were Standing outside clear air intoxicating views the pulse of many were throbbing in your ears their Thoughts and dreams were known and their sorrows were weights that pulled you from the heights It was a colossal game of tag and you were it first reaction fear then the appearance of bundled gifts Broke down the fear it was promise in different sizes that met the required needs it was like a divine Warehouse had just made a delivery there were cards with names and writing gave clarification tears And smiles intermingled then the outer knowing postulated the difficulty the puzzle an enormous Streaming that was now congested and it was beginning a vortex all was understood now human thought With doubts was pulling the answer into this destructive hole where was one to find the lever to stop This action that would disallow was the answer to touch the water bring the finger to my lips possibly A blazing thought would occur that would strike the mind no all that brought was words that had the Letters jumbled they made no sense unless there is a special book that is alive in it the letters and words Are already set but they cover every act in the human condition the broken can pour over the pages You won’t find thorns to repel your efforts there are thorns but they will speak and assuage your hurts At the most basic and needed levels the points of your hurts will begin to dissolve from your eyes to Your mind this inward rush and power will dislodge even spears driven deep by enemies carried for Years you searched in vain over sad and lonely paths and days now you journey is at an end thorns of Suffering for another produces profound power and mercy go in peace beloved one another bears your Burden now maybe words cut you at depths you can’t even identify what if there is an antidote in a Book you pick it up with trembling hands your body tingles from the knowledge that this is ancient texts It will have a revival of appreciation in this world of texting but with gentle fingers and eyes that glow With respect as you see the wisdom and the love cannot be denied you leave the world you know and With total abandonment you swim in this sea of words until the your tears spill on this rich world of Words those cruel barbed words that pierced tender skin and have bled internally all of these years Begin to dissolve with stories and accounts of betrayals then the swells love and mercy you read about Restoration not always found after apologies are given but the teaching of forgiveness strikes a cord You have been made free from your prison the tangles of life are great as a great black cloud it hangs Over head many are its troubles this isn’t mild but the disruptive made to strike and pierce deep the Hidden that steals the morning blessing while other feast your hunger and unrest only enlarges a Tormenting unquenchable fire a slow burn this is a forest being burned at the thermal level the hidden Roots a slow process destructive but not so visible agony torture I have seen men crawl in war or fire Fighting that where all else is lost you will know greater thrills than any other living soul with the Desperate and those heavy burdened unable to stand a word will flow it puts out fires and gives The luxurious buoyancy heaviness changed to joy the bouncy laughter every outward blast attack The enemy launches is within its pages they are repelled overwhelmed by love you suffer unduly If you don’t hold this fortress this informative book of stratagems that have made everyone a victor Who has ever found themselves at their wits end no place on earth has a contingency plan though it Will make the greatest claims all is just empty air when life as it too often does ***** the very air of life Out we practically are unconscious but this help this rescue is activated by one name it’s not just a book But the word is a person what a pool you will find what a reflection will engage you beyond your hope To imagine just say Jesus all will be total peace your heart will know no more sorrow peace will surpass Sorrow love will disallow the specter that was once a constant it will disappear it will return to the Darkness from which it came stand in this newness totally free abide by still waters as the good Sheppard stands by bless you
So the success against the evil one stands like this while he body slammed me the number of Souls touched has risen to sixty three thousand five thousand while I was in Braidwood so I Thank the father whose love and concern never wavers by Christmas I am hopeful I will reach A hundred thousand if I make heaven I don’t want to see you at judgment and hear you say the Words of that old song he knew I was lost but said nothing to me!!!!!!!!!!
The Aftermath Please read this to see in my limited way I want to show you your true worth and value and you will see what the devil never can get. This is what I would stand and testify in church but what I have to say is lengthy here it can be read or Not I would first say this to love souls is agonizing it comes with pain and great tears I went to the site Where they started the church years ago on my Grandma Brown’s front porch as I set there I pleaded With God to help me make a difference I turned and looked down the old street that held so many Memories of course Tommy and Elise and Glena are the only ones that remain but I looked farther That’s when God moved wave after wave of hard rocking sobs that lasted for thirty minutes or more And after getting back home some will say this is foolish and I’m the first to know we can’t take the devil On by ourselves but overcome with emotion I turned from the computer and spoke to evil its self that I Was declaring total war for souls this is what it has cost me so far at the time I had one open wound on My shin above the ankle two appeared directly above the first one then one to the side and then I knew What was to come because I have sleep apnea I sleep in a recliner I knew the sores would ring my leg And they did you can’t lay your leg out on the ledge with open wounds with nerve endings screaming Then it jumped to my other leg so that was the first volley when I write I get lost time doesn’t exist many A time daylight would surprise me coming through the window then the onslaught increases I go to the Hospital I got there in early afternoon they got me in the room at ten thirty but just before a lady comes In and takes my blood pressure it is close to perfect and then she comes back in five minutes and tells Me take these three blood pressure pills trusting her I take them well about twelve or one they come Into and take my blood pressure they had driven it down to seventy over thirty and plus my first Experience with morphine I was sick and strangely loopy I wasn’t in the bed I couldn’t lay my legs Down and no one else was in the room only one bed I did set at the end of the bed with it all the way up In the back I put my head on it and slept comfortably one funny they have it posted call don’t fall I didn’t Do this on purpose but when I was pulling the drawer out of the stand it came out with a wonderful Crash Steve the male nurse made record time from down the hall at the nurse station he lunges in the Room it wasn’t humpty dumpty just the drawer I couldn’t tell if he was relived or ticked off then it was Their shot back over the net intravenous antibiotics five days needed a doctor from disease control to Release me then there version of cons scarring kids with tales about prison to keep them messing with Drugs scared straight now was scared healthy I walked out the same as I walked in I got a bill for thirty Thousand well at least I didn’t have a bad heart then it was eleven weeks at the wound center this was Where I met as I lovingly call them my healing angels they finally got all twelve open sores to close then for the rest of the problem it was six weeks three times a week forty five miles to and from hundred Degree heat every day you have to pay a hundred and seventy dollars yourself for the compress wrap Material then you turn around a pay for compress socks that insurance doesn’t cover least the inside is Pure silver so missed the Olympics but I got silver in fact every six months I will get silver again this is Kind apropos I asked the compress wrap therapist where Lymph edema comes from and I will spare you The pictures but the infection and lymph edema pictures even grossed me out but interestingly the Therapist said an ancient king in Israel had the disease hello devil no cure just mange it from now on This is the biggest cut of all someone else has to put them on I have always been called a free spirit Try to take off on your own and what say hey stranger would you put these on my leg it’s like trying to Put a baby squirrel skin on a full grown body the therapist does speeches internationally with a doctor From India she asked permission after taking pictures to show the audience I wouldn’t want to see that Show give the devil his due he is good at being bad I crossed swords with him he rampaged all over me I didn’t include everything I have gone through and that doesn’t include my poor wife but I am profane Corrupt undone should I speak to you of such great things as eternal verities matters that involve where You will spend eternity there is the cleansing of the word the cleansing of changing my corrupt nature to His by the spirit but know this no one will ever approach or in any way defile the very ones that as the Finest gems will be placed in his Holy diadem this takes the cleansing of suffering and brokenness with The heart Broken for souls and the most necessary of all this nature that is too much like the evil one That’s what he doesn’t get the more he beats up on a person he is doing God’s work of purifying the Most elemental evil that must be scourged if I touch you it has to be purist intentions of holy deign We are awash in the lowest dregs dare I say quick sand only holiness can enable us to traverse this Killing place of a dark and ever turning evil that compounds itself the devil will never lose the majority On The Broad way that leads to destruction but there are the blessed few that stop and say oh no this is Not for Me I was his child and I will be again thanks for the load you made me bear serving you devil now Only Love will be the weight I feel it comes by a great price of God Himself and His people
I need to finish the story for convenience I have the original Aftermath to be read first on the bottom What was not stated in Aftermath was my concern for my writing you can’t write with two legs Screaming when I got to the hospital my kidneys were of a concern eight alieve three times a day about Thirty aspirins something like Tylenol didn’t count them no relief my mistake I would bang my ****** leg Against the wood of the desk that would make it crazy for a few seconds so I finally had to stop for over Two months well the devil won it seemed when I talked to my cousin I was at eighteen thousand reads a Little while let me break in here for a second I know I’m talking about numbers it isn’t ego if I come in Contact with any of you in any setting and I pass you by with just a glance I am your sworn Godless Enemy I have just joined the cruelest damnable assassins Hell has ever released on the world I know What awaits the lost even the Apostle Paul worked fervently because he knew the end cost of God’s Holy severity can I do less I look but I take in all manner caring thoughts but without fail I am led to that Future now no one even gives the last day a thought I will put this in as an excerpt this is the dream I Had when I was seventeen or it starts this way your life began in the great head waters at Eden they will End at the mouth of eternity. I was given a view into the celestial I was just a teenager while a sleep this Dream came I looked into the heavens and saw two great wheels made of stars the hands of God started To pull the wheels down as I continued I knew what was occurring God w