Hello Poetry
Submit your work and get some sparkles! Create free account
"backroads" poems
Don’t forget to get away every once in awhile, To lose yourself in a book Or in the woods behind your home Ride your bike into the sunset, Sit on your front steps and count the cars passing by, Lay on your roof and gaze up at the night sky, Drive along backroads with the windows rolled down Listening to nothing but the sound of rushing wind I hope you take the time to be alone, To sort through the cluttered shelves of your heart I hope you take the time to be silent, To close your eyes and just listen I hope you take the time to be still, To quiet your mind and experience the beauty Of simply Being In a world that tells us we should always be Connected, on the go, and doing something worth sharing, I hope you know it’s okay to Disconnect, slow down, and keep some memories Between you and the moment you shared it with.
0
Sep 1, 2013
Sep 1, 2013 at 9:53 PM UTC
Breathe
Finding a lover is effortless for some people. They only want a few things: Someone attractive, kind, funny or rich. But I desire something so much deeper. I want an intelligent mind that wakes up thoughts in me I didn't realize were hibernating. I want to converse, analyze and debate without being conscious of the sun rising and falling between our words. I want to make a witty remark at a coffee shop so he can reply sarcastically just for me to jab back immediately and for him to comeback back playfully until we're both laughing stomachs shaking spit flying the whole store staring and we leave without coffee I want our hands to stitch together perfectly like two lost puzzle pieces; one found under a couch cushion one found inside a junk drawer. The rest of the puzzle has already been thrown away but these two pieces remain and they fit. I want to fall in love together then together fall in love with art, museums, songs, poems T.V shows, radio jingles, greek food, backroads, our mutual hatred for pop culture, doing the dishes (as long as he washes and I dry) wrong turns, piled up laundry, life. Just fall in love with life. I want to hurt with him I want to save the world with him I want to meet, see, understand and experience all that is foreign with him. I think it will only take us meeting and it'll only be history and happiness from then on. It's just a matter of if a love like that could ever be and if a love like that could ever be for me.
0
Oct 3, 2017
Oct 3, 2017 at 11:35 PM UTC
Why I'm Single
i like informality beer straight outta the bottle pizza for breakfast wearing a shirt 3 times before washing it doing dishes by hand reading old birthday cards   stayin up til 2 even though i have to be up at 8 bonfires backroads gettin lost on the way to a bonfire because i took a backroad going to a bar on a tuesday night and kissin a stranger because i'm drunk and lonely and through the years i've aquired a taste for whiskey on lips. and.. wasn't that always the point?
0
Feb 16, 2018
Feb 16, 2018 at 12:34 AM UTC
informality
It isn't a game. But one can definitely lose. There are no competitors. Yet self comparisons fog hind sight. Leading to more dreary backroads that the world forgot about. It was fun for a little while. Telling yourself that you threw away the world and not vise versa. Was truly the greatest lie. One that grew into actual belief for a time. But found that the greatest hell. Is watching your paradise burn. Bound only by disbelief. Dumbfounded. It's a shame that when you lose everything. Somehow your mind is the only thing that stays intact.     As if those aspects were programmed into humans in preparation for it.. And happiness got the short end of the stick. Then to further rub dirt into the wound we create hope. By means of pursuit. Shakespeare knew the questions. And left it up to everyone else to answer. Only as generations pass. We couldnt be further from any resemblance of an answer. Let alone know the question has already been proposed. Writers play with this notion and yield no two pairs alike. Lifes most important knowledge sadly can only come from experiencing it. But with the world in such a desensitized state. The fear of stagnation is becoming the only real possibility. Preposterous? No Predetermined the moment we chose to let others choose for us. There is no freedom. Only sacrifice. Right.
0
Aug 27, 2017
Aug 27, 2017 at 4:22 AM UTC
Further
In the backroads there's a legend By the old black hanging tree That this is the old crossroads Where the devil comes to me There's nothing near, it's barren But the tree and an old rope It is dark, and bleak and distant And all devoid of hope Is this the famous crossroads where the devil makes a deal It depends on what you're willing To trade and get his seal There is a tale of Johnny Who played and won his bet He beat the Devil at his game But, the Devil does not fret For every Johnny that is lost A million more are signed Just look around the world and see They just so easy for to find The pious and believers Pass the tree and it's ok But, the souls who wish to trade up Feel a reason for to stay The Devil hears their pleas And he comes up to their side He brings along the contract And then he takes them for a ride Deals are made for money and deals are made for fame It doesn't matter to the Devil He's the ruler of the game You'll get your wish regardless In trade he gets your soul The only thing you need to know Is that you are no longer whole A contract is a contract And redemption sets you free But, to doublecross the devil Isn't easy as you'll see Johnny beat him fairly And the Devil said that he Will come and grab a million more By the old, black, hanging tree.
0
May 7, 2013
May 7, 2013 at 12:20 PM UTC
The Old , Black, Hanging Tree
Let's go grab the money Hidden in the Christmas Tree Shoppe mason jar with the Frosted stencil designs, Ornate and resembling flora. Let's take that money, The three separate wadded ***** of once crisp Green pieces of paper That somehow reach the Arbitrary total of one Thousand, three hundred and Twenty dollars and Fifty lonely cents. Let's take that 1,320.50 And go see the desolate Stretch of sprawling Humanity deferred between These hiked peaks and the Dangerous mountains Separating the west From the rest. Let's go there! Let's go there! We'll make it across, Be sure of that, Be sure of nothing But that! Let's use the remaining Seven fifty To buy some Seven Eleven sustenance To have while We walk backwards Down backroads edged With the encroachment Of the wild back into Negative space some Long-ago engineer Carved and paved. Let's tell the driver of This beat-up Time-worn down Overcast grey Buick LeSabre That we can pay her Ten dollars to replace The juice necessary to get Us back to our sick aunt's House in Poughkeepsie. At the gas station We'll tell her to stop Real quick And hope she leaves the Auto to go Pay the schlup at The teller's booth And jack the beater And hope we won't Have to bolt Again if she doesn't. Let's call my cousin And find out who will give Us four hundred dollars for The stolen used parts store And take that four hundred And buy: Two (2) greyhound tickets to get us Back to our ****** apartment In Stamford: 64.50 American Three (3) damp-bunned flimsy Beef patties glued between Pieces of government-issue Yellow American cheese With all the fixins we please: 3.24 American One (1) zip of dried out Seeded and stemmed breaks From the boredom of Our own conscious Processes: 120 American if lucky At least eight (8) servings Of amphetamine based Pressed little buttons Of confused energy: 200 American One (1) bouquet of Red yellow and oranges Mixed on the petals of Your mother's favorite Species: whatever's left American.
0
Oct 2, 2012
Oct 2, 2012 at 12:40 AM UTC
--Vacation--
Let's go grab the money Hidden in the Christmas Tree Shoppe mason jar with the Frosted stencil designs, Ornate and resembling flora. Let's take that money, The three separate wadded ***** of once crisp Green pieces of paper That somehow reach the Arbitrary total of one Thousand, three hundred and Twenty dollars and Fifty lonely cents. Let's take that 1,320.50 And go see the desolate Stretch of sprawling Humanity deferred between These hiked peaks and the Dangerous mountains Separating the west From the rest. Let's go there! Let's go there! We'll make it across, Be sure of that, Be sure of nothing But that! Let's use the remaining Seven fifty To buy some Seven Eleven sustenance To have while We walk backwards Down backroads edged With the encroachment Of the wild back into Negative space some Long-ago engineer Carved and paved. Let's tell the driver of This beat-up Time-worn down Overcast grey Buick LeSabre That we can pay her Ten dollars to replace The juice necessary to get Us back to our sick aunt's House in Poughkeepsie. At the gas station We'll tell her to stop Real quick And hope she leaves the Auto to go Pay the schlup at The teller's booth And jack the beater And hope we won't Have to bolt Again if she doesn't. Let's call my cousin And find out who will give Us four hundred dollars for The stolen used parts store And take that four hundred And buy: Two (2) greyhound tickets to get us Back to our ****** apartment In Stamford: 64.50 American Three (3) damp-bunned flimsy Beef patties glued between Pieces of government-issue Yellow American cheese With all the fixins we please: 3.24 American One (1) zip of dried out Seeded and stemmed breaks From the boredom of Our own conscious Processes: 120 American if lucky At least eight (8) servings Of amphetamine based Pressed little buttons Of confused energy: 200 American One (1) bouquet of Red yellow and oranges Mixed on the petals of Your mother's favorite Species: whatever's left American.
Continue reading...
89
My ears keep popping every time I swallow. There are rolling green hills with tiny winding backroads, Small houses dotting the land like the freckles on your face. There is fog, slowly swimming through the trees. The blue mountains on the horizon are calling my name. I think I am home.
0
May 10, 2013
May 10, 2013 at 8:07 PM UTC
Freckles.
*love is a rhythm i choose not to edit burning serpents in syncopated tones stolen vibrations from conquered nations i am amazed at slavery's undertones doomsday hypothesis insufferable hypocrisy is this the way we are meant to perceive reality's final throes perhaps a last attempt at infatuation another insurgency toward our situation there is music in the millipedes 1,000 feet stomping on the hot pavement midday heat is burning the gentlest of trees and yet saving lives of anteaters in need grief is complete and not wasted never jumbled by threads of frailty insipid lipids deftly crawl upon caterpillars shoulders starry eyed soldiers sold to the streets in shivering brokenness i am madness incarnate the west is a spectacle of insubstantial lunacy if you wish to conquer this reality 
open your heart and kiss the feet of kindness blindness is worshipped as if it was wisdom sincere victims of another’s prison simpler lives define simpler times keepers of the rhythm keepers of the rhyme i dine on salamanders and supine slivers of the moon’s heartbeat fault no one but yourself gifts are wealth i am salt and sulphur is the mother of the soul loose cannons explode she rode the wild shadows and took the backroads all the way home infinite living history his memory serving beauty forever for a lifetime i am looking for truth in shattered space and respecting the face of the ancestors self aware shades of solidarity harvested by hands made light with clarity is this music is this meaning her openness is our healing this majesty surrounds us all resolve to rise and your bound to fall small instances of randomness daily semantics are happenstance you graduate from school with a bouquet of flowers that rot in the morning’s splattering of paint as garbage heaps resist *********** issues of power and surface tension i am dreading the exceptions give love now or move out of the way stay awake and aware while sadhana is beckoning to us all*
0
Feb 23, 2017
Feb 23, 2017 at 2:58 PM UTC
love is a rhythm
*love is a rhythm i choose not to edit burning serpents in syncopated tones stolen vibrations from conquered nations i am amazed at slavery's undertones doomsday hypothesis insufferable hypocrisy is this the way we are meant to perceive reality's final throes perhaps a last attempt at infatuation another insurgency toward our situation there is music in the millipedes 1,000 feet stomping on the hot pavement midday heat is burning the gentlest of trees and yet saving lives of anteaters in need grief is complete and not wasted never jumbled by threads of frailty insipid lipids deftly crawl upon caterpillars shoulders starry eyed soldiers sold to the streets in shivering brokenness i am madness incarnate the west is a spectacle of insubstantial lunacy if you wish to conquer this reality 
open your heart and kiss the feet of kindness blindness is worshipped as if it was wisdom sincere victims of another’s prison simpler lives define simpler times keepers of the rhythm keepers of the rhyme i dine on salamanders and supine slivers of the moon’s heartbeat fault no one but yourself gifts are wealth i am salt and sulphur is the mother of the soul loose cannons explode she rode the wild shadows and took the backroads all the way home infinite living history his memory serving beauty forever for a lifetime i am looking for truth in shattered space and respecting the face of the ancestors self aware shades of solidarity harvested by hands made light with clarity is this music is this meaning her openness is our healing this majesty surrounds us all resolve to rise and your bound to fall small instances of randomness daily semantics are happenstance you graduate from school with a bouquet of flowers that rot in the morning’s splattering of paint as garbage heaps resist *********** issues of power and surface tension i am dreading the exceptions give love now or move out of the way stay awake and aware while sadhana is beckoning to us all*
Continue reading...
56
The water on the ground Is no longer fake, As I take a look in the rearview. Huh, I’m crying. And it’s in this moment I take a second To accept the fact                   I miss you. Oh how I wish I’d known, Before driving These backroads   alone My heart and soul Are objects of old, And bigger                           Then they appear. That this pathway to heaven Gripped by desert horizon Was just escape for a women Who cannot function And is blinded                           By fear. Well, that’s life. I tried. Goodbye. I ride. Until the end of time,                           My dear.
0
Jan 21, 2023
Jan 21, 2023 at 9:42 PM UTC
These Backroads Alone
You three believe in creating scarcity, NOT union. You build HOV lanes for your luxury cars, caring less how efficient they are. They roll royce cross your game board, fuming trails of money. Bell Atlantic bought Madison Avenue, you bought all the properties. Now tenants can't avoid the traffic or the noise of an internet rolled in palms and diced spiraling to speed limits ... ... ... ... and red highways ... ... ... ... and orange traffic cones that block hybrid cars, already swerving to avoid bankruptcy. We STOP the STOP people STOP moving, our preamble crumbles to a STOP, becoming a eulogy — an ideal dumb to power trippery, after Time Warner and Comcast merged, allies on opposite sides of the game board. Verizon, Comcast, AT&T; together you own pretty much everyone but Fox and Disney, (yet have invested in them heavily). Verizon, Comcast, AT&T; your oligarchy is NBC, Universal, CNN, Warner Brothers, and now FullScreen, family-friendly nepotism that inbreeds bearing deaf drones bored of flying, over Why Beyonce is a Feminist. or Why Ferguson was racist, media's offspring just keep clicking, the headline genocide victims basking in concentrated lamps for a sliver of attention. Verizon, Comcast, AT&T; Now you want the backend buffering, bulging eyes and emptying pockets of those Spocked into believing, hyperspeed was ever necessary. No choice when the exits are slow and there are no backroads. Verizon, Comcast, AT&T;, offspring of the Bell Atlantic Company, we will not let your ****** populate the internet. Call it Capitalism, but your playing Monopoly, yanking the carpet underneath to the wood of Tyranny. You shamed Bell's invention by stringing together telephone internet, and entertainment companies until you could be lazy. Monkeys who spent millions to shriek at government parties about the communication machine, a system downloaded so slowly, we did not act on cons piracy theories, when Amazon made online shopping so easy. Dear Internet Service Providers, so called ISP's, WE ARE DONE playing Monopoly. Our collective voice will shout blasphemy on your streets, hashtagged net neutrality, till you're counting pennies. So empty your Washington banks cause it's 3 a.m. and no ONE is winning.
0
Nov 6, 2014
Nov 6, 2014 at 3:09 PM UTC
Dear Verizon, Comcast, & AT&T,
You three believe in creating scarcity, NOT union. You build HOV lanes for your luxury cars, caring less how efficient they are. They roll royce cross your game board, fuming trails of money. Bell Atlantic bought Madison Avenue, you bought all the properties. Now tenants can't avoid the traffic or the noise of an internet rolled in palms and diced spiraling to speed limits ... ... ... ... and red highways ... ... ... ... and orange traffic cones that block hybrid cars, already swerving to avoid bankruptcy. We STOP the STOP people STOP moving, our preamble crumbles to a STOP, becoming a eulogy — an ideal dumb to power trippery, after Time Warner and Comcast merged, allies on opposite sides of the game board. Verizon, Comcast, AT&T; together you own pretty much everyone but Fox and Disney, (yet have invested in them heavily). Verizon, Comcast, AT&T; your oligarchy is NBC, Universal, CNN, Warner Brothers, and now FullScreen, family-friendly nepotism that inbreeds bearing deaf drones bored of flying, over Why Beyonce is a Feminist. or Why Ferguson was racist, media's offspring just keep clicking, the headline genocide victims basking in concentrated lamps for a sliver of attention. Verizon, Comcast, AT&T; Now you want the backend buffering, bulging eyes and emptying pockets of those Spocked into believing, hyperspeed was ever necessary. No choice when the exits are slow and there are no backroads. Verizon, Comcast, AT&T;, offspring of the Bell Atlantic Company, we will not let your ****** populate the internet. Call it Capitalism, but your playing Monopoly, yanking the carpet underneath to the wood of Tyranny. You shamed Bell's invention by stringing together telephone internet, and entertainment companies until you could be lazy. Monkeys who spent millions to shriek at government parties about the communication machine, a system downloaded so slowly, we did not act on cons piracy theories, when Amazon made online shopping so easy. Dear Internet Service Providers, so called ISP's, WE ARE DONE playing Monopoly. Our collective voice will shout blasphemy on your streets, hashtagged net neutrality, till you're counting pennies. So empty your Washington banks cause it's 3 a.m. and no ONE is winning.
Continue reading...
109
You told me that day, "The girl I knew would never" and filled the rest in with everything I've done The girl I knew would never listen to rap or country music The girl I knew would never have driven down the backroads going 70 .  .  .  80 . . . 90 ... 100 .. 110 The girl I knew would never think about themselves first The girl I knew would never put their needs above anyone else's The girl I knew would never wear such revealing clothing The girl I knew would never been comfortable sharing their thoughts The girl I knew would never feel sorry for themselves The girl I knew would never feel comfortable in their own skin The girl I knew would never stand up for themselves The girl you used to know hated themselves The girl you used to know was taken advantaged of and walked all over The girl you used to know hid their true self The girl you used to know would have sacrificed anything to satisfy you, even herself The girl you used to know cried every night The girl you used to know hurt herself when she couldn't feel anymore The girl you used to know could never stand up to you I'm glad you never really knew that girl And I'm glad she became me
0
May 14, 2021
May 14, 2021 at 12:16 AM UTC
The Me You Used to Know
a hug that smelled like last summer. 'you didn't have to drive all this way for me' it took me two hours on the backroads because the freeway is scary lost in neighborhoods where everything looked the same, rows of shiny white teeth. it never crossed my mind to miss it.            how do his eyes burn impossibly blue,            even under the awning? 'the thing is, i had to' he understood, he understood just then that i was the girl he loved second best and a sore loser always eyes the trophy cravingly before walking away small.             'i'll miss you' whose to say? i'll take silver & wonder if he ever wrote to              the other redhead.
0
Feb 16, 2011
Feb 16, 2011 at 11:37 AM UTC
Tanner, now in France
i kept anticipating blocked off entrances and handwritten out-of-order signs over gas station bathroom doors that are rusting at the corners because each time i got in my car that smells like sweaty dog and lavender i found a reason to turn around i convinced myself that the green lights were not meant for me only backroads and passenger seats the sun was not there when i kept going the sky was full of grey and i could feel the rain in my chest; i didn’t need it to be a perfect summer day i just needed to believe that i had enough light within me to make it through
0
Aug 10, 2018
Aug 10, 2018 at 4:48 PM UTC
when i kept going
i am a passenger free to roam on the east sides of redundancy and table manners flower markets thrive on dawn skies arranged as tourist spots the baker's fair selling eggshells cracked on cobblestone soup meatpies sold out too soon appleseeds scattered for birds i sweep them all up and see patterns grow on my skin let it not be said i did not try, i did not do for too soon the the heat covers the shade as well and not even the acacia can go without thirst fill my cup with honeydew milk and add bittergourd and salt i can let philistine warriors come from the backroads and enter the frontlines if only to join you
0
Mar 18, 2016
Mar 18, 2016 at 12:25 AM UTC
morphology of heresy
She has a shaved head that reminds me of a crooked-smile-ex; that choked on cigarettes and words too contrived, painted in a negligence for humanity and a belief in uninformed nothingness. Her body curves like backroads I've been lost in. Skin as pale as an eggshell, I'd imagine she'd shatter under the olive robe she calls a dress and bounce under the kickstep of organic flats. Eventually she will become too much of an idea, she will evolve into a misogynistic poem, and if I were to imagine her naked, guilt would flood our fleshly- alcohol-stained-continents, angry between every slur, loving between the shadows of phantoms I once knew.
0
Jun 26, 2016
Jun 26, 2016 at 3:05 PM UTC
Between the Shadows
I am alone I walk the lonely backroads not sure where I'm going, but i know i've gotta go. this is not wanderlust it's merely broken trust i kick the dirt beneath me, and watch a cloud form from the dust. I knew my father left us I knew my mother cried but it seems i never really knew the hurtful reason why. my long blonde hair is what sent him there to whatever town he lives in now; i guess having a daughter made him scared. I am alone I walk the washed out, broken roads not sure where i'm going, but i know i can't go home.
0
Jul 15, 2013
Jul 15, 2013 at 11:01 AM UTC
Abandonment
I accost daylight, reviling in the promiscuity of the waken world Come, be absent with me, enjoy the splendor of the famine The only pleasure we’ll allow ourselves is that of a despondent heart As we weaken the bonds that chain us, we’ll destroy ourselves How can I rationalize my desires, their innocence shames me To be reprehensible, oh such a glorious way to be We ran through the streets encased in neon luminance You, with your hope and rebellion Me, in awe of you This truancy, this desolate homage to backroads and swindled affairs It leaves a longing to wear her fur coat, my makeup soiled beautifully Those nights of dreams, and dreams, and dreams, resurrect disenchanted As I lay aching, biting the the cold steel for the knowledge of ones price The nullity welcomes a confusion, searching for a fragment of familiarity Wanting and wishing back the stale taste of the endless mornings I’ll bring with me the calm, the reassurance of futile worth The length is calculated, the smirking clock relishing in his dismal pace We trade the dampened moss as the stars scoff at our ignorance They whisper, piercing the darkness with their reminder three moons, alas three moons
0
Feb 11, 2013
Feb 11, 2013 at 5:46 PM UTC
Untitled
Gravel, dirt or old blacktops cruising around, not many stops through a pasture or tunnel of trees backroad therapy sets your soul free Driving around, might even get stuck No high dollar cooler in back of my truck Just an old igloo, full of beer on ice Drink them to fast for that yeti price Backroads and beer Nobody else here No cops around Jamming country sounds Just me, my lady, my old red heeler Flip channels, check score, cowboys and Steelers Blanket and a picnic behind the seat Pull over in the shade for an afternoon treat Might stop at the creek for a skinny dip Squeeze her tight and kiss her lips Chasing each other and splashing water Keeping cool as the evening gets hotter Backroads and beer Nobody else here No cops around Jamming country sounds Mountains blue, pop the top This is so fun may never stop Out in the country is the place to be No suit, no tie, completely free Ol red starts barking, sees a rabbit Pull over, he jumps out to grab it The chase is on, we watch and see Reds tongue is flapping but rabbit ran free Backroads and beer Nobody else here No cops around Jamming country sounds
0
Sep 18, 2016
Sep 18, 2016 at 10:59 PM UTC
Backroads and Beer
Racing through backroads You watch as stars appear as if from nowhere. Freshly born, newly created Made only for you and him to know. You don't know where you're going But you'll go anywhere with him So you aren't worried. Anywhere he goes immediately becomes a good place. He drives far too fast through unknown townships If you can ever call them that. But it's still dark enough there that you just Stare out the window; you put your arm out to feel the night. You stop in a dirt road Abandoned, for all intensive purposes. Lay on the hood and watch the stars As if it's a PG-13 romantic comedy. He gives you the stars And you have nothing to give in return So you just try to take in the universe. You just want to reach out and touch it. And as you leave you watch the stars disappear Fading back into the city lights. You wonder if the universe holds a funeral for a dying star You wonder if this has all been orchestrated by the cosmos.
0
Aug 2, 2010
Aug 2, 2010 at 8:57 AM UTC
stargazing II
In the finer lines of my Mother's eyes where backroads lead to secret tears much is spoken when one explores the map that etches those many years expressed in smiles and subtle stares when the world is harsh and cruel calm washes through your tested soul that stings of ridicule in the finer lines of my Mother's eyes life's riches are retained and the wells that feed her loving child through those eyes are sustained
0
Jan 3, 2016
Jan 3, 2016 at 10:39 AM UTC
The Finer Lines
Visions of light waves do not suit me And your groups of smirks make me uneasy I'd rather light candles deep in seclusion Or spin with my mind until I am queasy Your shoes are fine but I'd never buy There are no backroads in my book I've never been quite dulled to understand The admiration of masses in just one look Maybe perhaps I am a cube A simplistic shape of many dimensions And maybe perhaps you are too Two cubes coexisting with separate intentions
0
Oct 25, 2013
Oct 25, 2013 at 2:48 AM UTC
Cube
Page unwritten hand never to be played. Outcasts sitting at center stage. When you never showed love. It's no need to question why no one ever stayed. And you never wondred and new better to ask. Cause people grew tired of the game. And you of the mask. Deep emotin with which like overgrown children we play. Gone in a second. Was it love or just another day. Torn sails endless flow. Blocks and miles.citys and backroads. Like any flock we scatter. Only to lose track the futher we go. Dellusion speaks well amoungnst friends. You see it's the last farewell. But with truth in are thoughts everyone pretends. Are you okay everyone does ask. You give a expected reply. And slip into oblivian slowley fading behind your mask.
0
Feb 10, 2010
Feb 10, 2010 at 5:38 PM UTC
The Mask We Choose
If there is one thing I won’t ever forget, it’s the feeling of almost. The overwhelming sensation of wanting to cradle love in my hands like a newborn child and craving desperately to grasp it with a resilience that echoed in a prism of colors that screamed “I will never let you go.” But he always seemed to slip through the spaces between my fingers, as if he had a soul coated effortlessly with butter. Gentle enough to allow me to graze my fingertips against it, never vulnerable enough to let me in. With time I’ll forget the rush of flailing helplessly into the depths of his eyes. I’ll forget the numbness I felt tracing imaginary pathways down the curvature of his spine, backroads along the ridges of his hands. I’ll forget feeling the closest I’ve ever been to flying, as if I’ve been tied down to a railroad and freed just seconds before my potential demise. I’ll forget the resonance of our favorite songs and the slam of back doors and how none of it even mattered when I was with him. We were relative, limitless, the kind of unrequited love that leaves your knees shaking, your breath stuck in your throat, a permanent cycle of bracing for impact. But loving him wasn’t enough. I craved an understanding that always felt unfulfilled at dusk, always being left with emptiness and an ever-growing gap that felt incomplete. I wasn’t flying, I was falling. I wasn’t loving, I was chasing. I let him memorize the way I liked my tea and the titles of the books that I could reread over and over again until I realized that the best parts of me had been given away to a stranger. The shadow of a person I thought I knew, but only ever understood a fraction of. An enigma. A lonely intrigue. Another almost. I’ll forget the silent scream that reverberated in my throat when I realized that he could look at me and feel nothing at all. An absence. A wasted chance. An impending goodbye. I’ll forget everything except our last exchange of glances and the pivotal decision I made to change my promise of “I will never let you go” to “I almost loved you.” The moment I decided to leave behind our masterpiece, our canvas of watercolor love now left to ruin in the rain. -m.g. “Almost”
0
Aug 6, 2015
Aug 6, 2015 at 10:13 PM UTC
Almost
If there is one thing I won’t ever forget, it’s the feeling of almost. The overwhelming sensation of wanting to cradle love in my hands like a newborn child and craving desperately to grasp it with a resilience that echoed in a prism of colors that screamed “I will never let you go.” But he always seemed to slip through the spaces between my fingers, as if he had a soul coated effortlessly with butter. Gentle enough to allow me to graze my fingertips against it, never vulnerable enough to let me in. With time I’ll forget the rush of flailing helplessly into the depths of his eyes. I’ll forget the numbness I felt tracing imaginary pathways down the curvature of his spine, backroads along the ridges of his hands. I’ll forget feeling the closest I’ve ever been to flying, as if I’ve been tied down to a railroad and freed just seconds before my potential demise. I’ll forget the resonance of our favorite songs and the slam of back doors and how none of it even mattered when I was with him. We were relative, limitless, the kind of unrequited love that leaves your knees shaking, your breath stuck in your throat, a permanent cycle of bracing for impact. But loving him wasn’t enough. I craved an understanding that always felt unfulfilled at dusk, always being left with emptiness and an ever-growing gap that felt incomplete. I wasn’t flying, I was falling. I wasn’t loving, I was chasing. I let him memorize the way I liked my tea and the titles of the books that I could reread over and over again until I realized that the best parts of me had been given away to a stranger. The shadow of a person I thought I knew, but only ever understood a fraction of. An enigma. A lonely intrigue. Another almost. I’ll forget the silent scream that reverberated in my throat when I realized that he could look at me and feel nothing at all. An absence. A wasted chance. An impending goodbye. I’ll forget everything except our last exchange of glances and the pivotal decision I made to change my promise of “I will never let you go” to “I almost loved you.” The moment I decided to leave behind our masterpiece, our canvas of watercolor love now left to ruin in the rain. -m.g. “Almost”
Continue reading...
9
Can we jam, brothers and sisters? Dare we meet at the impalpable chat room that exists beyond our third heaven? Dare we to speak in tongues and timbres, our skin taut across hollow shells, our veins strung across cadaverous bodies? I'll grab my drumsticks if you grab the guitars, and there's somebody on the bongos slappin' the skins with zealous fervor-- where my tambourine girls at? Don't worry, I haven't forgotten our forlorn hero sitting behind the keyboards-- Tickle me those ivories with pious hands and aching fingers, shake em down sweet Jerry Lee! And so we begin-- I lay down the drum beat that bops heads and scatters feet, and the bassman always on top of things slaps and slides and skips and sizzles hot diggity dog! I hear that sweet guitar scream and moan, praying for death under hazy lights and we all coast with eyes rolled back into our skulls and torpid lips drooped open over slack jaws. Not a word is said from a human voice, we speak through hands and feet, basking in colors eking from every kick drum stomp and the desperate wail bleeding from amplifiers. Feedback sings and screams, fighting the silence we taunt and hold at bay. Around every corner the colors trail coursing through our vesselious bodies propelled along the dizzying venture. We somehow spot every pothole and take detours, embarking down backroads and backalleys-- We can turn the wheel, but don't think for a moment we know where it's going. And the mirror's have all vanished, we know not from where we came. Someone shouts from the discovery as we exit a phrase to enter serendipity, toying with destiny, clay in our hands, stretching out the ****** perennially-- We laugh as the gods try to remind us we are Man. And the screams and the moans sensing the ****** is getting close so there's a crescendo I ramp up the tempo ahhhhhhhHHHhhhHhHhHhHHHHHhhhETERNITY IS NOW AND WE HOLD THE KEY TO HEAVENS GATES AND TIME STANDS STILL AT HIGH NOON IN THE TOWN'S SQUARE WHERE TRIGGER FINGERS TREMOR AND WE SPEAK TO GOD ON HIS PRIVATE CHANNEL COMING THROUGH WORN SPEAKERS CELESTIAL CREATURES IT WOULD BE SACRILEGE IF WE WEREN'T SUDDENLY SO HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY So I say again, brothers and sisters, can we jam? SO I SAY AGAIN, BROTHERS AND SISTERS, CAN WE JAM? SO I SAY AGAIN, BROTHERS AND SISTERS, CAN WE JAM? So I say again, brothers and sisters, can we jam?
0
Jul 10, 2016
Jul 10, 2016 at 12:39 AM UTC
Jam
Can we jam, brothers and sisters? Dare we meet at the impalpable chat room that exists beyond our third heaven? Dare we to speak in tongues and timbres, our skin taut across hollow shells, our veins strung across cadaverous bodies? I'll grab my drumsticks if you grab the guitars, and there's somebody on the bongos slappin' the skins with zealous fervor-- where my tambourine girls at? Don't worry, I haven't forgotten our forlorn hero sitting behind the keyboards-- Tickle me those ivories with pious hands and aching fingers, shake em down sweet Jerry Lee! And so we begin-- I lay down the drum beat that bops heads and scatters feet, and the bassman always on top of things slaps and slides and skips and sizzles hot diggity dog! I hear that sweet guitar scream and moan, praying for death under hazy lights and we all coast with eyes rolled back into our skulls and torpid lips drooped open over slack jaws. Not a word is said from a human voice, we speak through hands and feet, basking in colors eking from every kick drum stomp and the desperate wail bleeding from amplifiers. Feedback sings and screams, fighting the silence we taunt and hold at bay. Around every corner the colors trail coursing through our vesselious bodies propelled along the dizzying venture. We somehow spot every pothole and take detours, embarking down backroads and backalleys-- We can turn the wheel, but don't think for a moment we know where it's going. And the mirror's have all vanished, we know not from where we came. Someone shouts from the discovery as we exit a phrase to enter serendipity, toying with destiny, clay in our hands, stretching out the ****** perennially-- We laugh as the gods try to remind us we are Man. And the screams and the moans sensing the ****** is getting close so there's a crescendo I ramp up the tempo ahhhhhhhHHHhhhHhHhHhHHHHHhhhETERNITY IS NOW AND WE HOLD THE KEY TO HEAVENS GATES AND TIME STANDS STILL AT HIGH NOON IN THE TOWN'S SQUARE WHERE TRIGGER FINGERS TREMOR AND WE SPEAK TO GOD ON HIS PRIVATE CHANNEL COMING THROUGH WORN SPEAKERS CELESTIAL CREATURES IT WOULD BE SACRILEGE IF WE WEREN'T SUDDENLY SO HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY So I say again, brothers and sisters, can we jam? SO I SAY AGAIN, BROTHERS AND SISTERS, CAN WE JAM? SO I SAY AGAIN, BROTHERS AND SISTERS, CAN WE JAM? So I say again, brothers and sisters, can we jam?
Continue reading...
56
and the smoke is the warmest thing this night. you light my cigarettes, and i want to kiss you. i can't i can't i cant. you. once. it was. but we were both so broken. we couldn't feel it. it clicked in my heart, like the flint in your lighter, sometime after it became forbidden. maybe because it is forbidden? maybe because it is trust? because i could always trust you. because you never ****** me over. because. you listen. and i listen to you. i trust your judgement. i know you won't let us fall off the cliff, fall into the ditch, get addicted, get caught, break. and you know, because as i drove erratically, i told you, only half meaning to. and you know that nothing can come of it. forbidden. would hurt. i think i just want you to know that you're worth. . . "it was good." "we'll just leave it at that." and we do. and today. i avoided the us. but it would have been good.
0
Feb 8, 2010
Feb 8, 2010 at 8:17 PM UTC
the backroads