Larry Cook was a crabby old ******* almost as bad as the ******* he caught and sold off the waters on Knotts Island North Carolina.
Every other morning during the season he was up at the **** crack of dawn and on the water either pulling or baiting pots.
He worked hard, he drank even harder.
He was back at the marina went and sold his ***** paid his crew and hit the bar like clockwork.
If he made it home was never the question, now if he it made into the home most nights was.
He lived in a nice old house his neighbors thought he was a freak.
And he thought they were all a bunch of stuck up yuppie *******.
He passed out on the lawn.
But he didn't give a **** for it was his lawn to pass out on.
He sat there on his tail gate one morning after a good ******.
His next door neighbor just glared.
He cracked a beer and just laughed.
The neighbors seven year old kid walked up to him.
Larry Cook hated kids.
And they always seemed to be drawn to him for some ****** up reason .
Like a **** house cat.
Course Larry never hated ***** although that never quite seemed drawn to him like ******* kids.
The kid just stood there staring.
Larry just kept drinking his beer.
“My dad says you're a nasty old drunk.”
Larry just looked at the kid and almost laughed.
“Yeah that really hurts cause I thought me and him were always friends.”
“Really that's weird because he hates you Mr Cook.”
Larry cracked another beer.
“So what the hell you doing over here shrimp.”
“Really seems like you're also a bit ******* as well.”
“You shouldn't use that word Mr Cook its offensive.”
Larry saw the kid’s mother step out on the front porch.
She had a look on her face as if her little bed wetter was speaking to the Devil himself.
“Well Frodo I believe you're mother wants you.”
“She thinks you're crazy.”
“Most women do.”
“She said that's why you're wife ran off and left you and cause you're a drunk.”
“Bobby stop bothering Mr Cook.”
Bobby's mother called out.
“Looks like the warden's calling kid.”
“Well Mr Cook I guess I better go.”
“Yeah **** for brains come back and visit when you can’t stay as long.”
“Mr Cook I don't think you're so bad aside from sleeping on the front yard and hating everyone.”
“Yeah thanks and tell your mother even though she’s a uptight *****, I still think she has a great *** and thanks for not drawing the blinds last night.”
The kid just looked at Larry oddly and shrugged his shoulders.
“Okay well talk to you later.”
Larry learned a lot of things from his conversation with the kid that day.
He only passed out in his back yard from there on out.
From my book .
Smoking At The Gas Pumps .
As I have moved to publication and fulltime editing I still always remember where I really first began pushing my scribbling out there .
This page has been all I had when the nights seemed eternal and the storms seemed many.
It bled my truths .
It brought me those I loved, and helped push them away as well.
I have rode the winds and crashed into the rocks .
Embraced self destruction captured every lie and bared far to many truths .
I guess this is all that's left .
So I will end it , where it began .
Now this page holds my last truth.
She said .
"It's me or the bottle *******"!
I admired the view of the door as it smacked her on the *** .
She hit the road and me I simply hit the bar .
Played some songs on the jukebox and didn't say a word to the folks around me .
Drank till I passed out and realized the **** storm I was in the very next morning .
She was gone and I was left here alone.
Without wheels and only a lone beer in the fridge .
Well no one ever claimed I was smart .
I wonder if she could turn round somewhere in Kentucky .
Pick me up a bottle then bring that pretty little *** back meet with a smile at the door.
Run into these open arms .
Embrace those lips and face those tears .
Then sit her down hand her the money and take my bottle and
tell her thanks before I slam the door in her face .
Whiskey heals all wounds .
And as for you my dear have a safe trip .
I am not around much I been busy recently having a book published by Alien Buddha Press .
Once is now available on amazon
A Cold Beer Beats A Warm Heart
Pick up a copy today its sure to give you a distant buzz .
I had become what most yearn for.
Anyone can want what they truly do not understand .
You never know you like something until you finally get a taste for what it truly is .
My plate is full these days .
Every line has a direction and it becomes more mechanical by the second.
People laugh at me less .
Some envy .
Fools often hate what they themselves could never do.
They think what I forged in fire somehow was handed from the Heavens.
The tattered edges now refined .
It took a toxic environment and a lust for its release.
I didn't cheat my self indulgence .
But I **** sure scammed myself about happiness.
I worked for this plain and simple.
I stayed around till I had proven a fluke is one thing I wasn't.
If your waiting for a encore .
You have to let me finish first .
She always loved the ocean .
And often she drug him along although he hated the the sand .
Frank was never much of a beach person but it was beautiful with her always .
"Why won't you marry me "?
She asked as they sat together upon the shore.
"Come on Beth didn't you get enough ******* form your last marriage "?
"He was a ******* but your the one I was supposed to marry I made a mistake ".
"So now your looking to make another "
Frank replied laughing .
Beth was not amused .
She was always in love with him and Frank knew full well he was not with her .
She was fun in small doses .
She was great in bed but eventually you had to be able to communicate .
Beth was the sort that never stopped talking and seldom had a **** thing to truly say.
Susan always plagued his thoughts .
Because she although a ***** was the one he could not forget.
There was something in the silence they shared .
She was gone and so was it .
And now he simply drank to forget and wrote **** to fill the space and grab publication.
"You know I love you so what's the deal dude"?
" Look sweetheart it's never going to happen so maybe its best we not continue to do this anymore ".
And with that it was over .
Beth cursed him out and stomped off .
He watched her as she vanished over the dunes and faded from his life .
She would be far from the last to say goodbye .
He grabbed the last beer from the sixpack.
Listened to the waves crash into the shore .
It was empty peaceful and perfect in everyway.
Then Frank thought to himself .
He hadn't taken his car .
And he had left his phone on the dash of Beth's.
As he walked over the dunes he viewed the parking lot and as he figured Beth was nowhere to be found .
He viewed the little shops all were closed except for a little bar called the Riptide .
He laughed to himself .
For he may be stranded but least he was far from alone .
Any port in a storm beats standing outside in the rain .
The place was packed but it served cocktails .
Least he wouldn't die from lack of thirst .
And maybe a beachcombers existence would suit him for awhile .
Beth would find another much like Frank would always land on his often unbalanced and drunken feet .
He had a lot of practice .
The night had only just begun.
I am not around here much anymore but being a full time editor a well as published writer keeps me busy .
But still I will always be around .
Stay crazy .
The sun was bright and the breeze was nowhere to be found.
I sat alone but that wasn't a bad thing.
The peace I needed was not what a average man desired .
Most of those I knew had lovers , wives, family's , jobs that paid well and destroyed there souls all the same .
I had no responsibilities some thought this wrong.
I had once had a woman.
I in truth had known the comfort of many.
I loved one she no longer thought the same.
I never settled for something else when I could have that which I desired .
I didn't know freedom we all have our boundaries.
But sometimes alone in the silence I knew a peace few ever could .
I had the page and that was good enough for now .
Now if only I had a cool breeze and a cold drink then you probably wouldn't be reading this.
For life is always best lived not written about.
This was simply a pit stop and nothing more .
Tonight like any other you won't say goodnight.
I won't tell the truth and you won't dare to ask.
The message will be lost behind the laugh and I will just bury myself with yet another illusion.
Truth is simple people are not.
We somehow missed the point and connected just a little to late .
Crossed lines burned at the edges.
You can't plan life it just happens.
And the worst fools never allow themselves to know if it was anything worth a **** to begin with.
We can't live never knowing in fear of falling flat upon are faces.
It seems the closer you become the further the delusion grows .
It is sad what a person can mask in fear .
Another night passed .
Eventually there won't be a second chance .