Oh slower!!
Slower!!!
My dear blood
Dont rush i dont wanna do this fast.
I wanna feel it,
Every ounce,
Every droplet of red rushing out of my body screaming her name,

Within a closed Casket lies my head weary and dread where i rest all my thoughts and finally free myself from the torments of my haunted long lost love,
For i know my love wasnt fickle,
But for her It was just my love not hers.

What i had wasn't perfect,
It never had to be.
I just loved the way it was,
For it laid perfect on its own way.

No it didn't **** me but something inside me died,
maybe it was the part of me that you exposed to the world,
maybe that's the part that i didn't realize that even a person like me  could be capable of,
oh dear ,
you showed the devil what love could actually be and just when it thought you were real
you vanquished in the vandalized sanity of this insane stage with the mere actors in it.
So yes something that was a part of me died and
i am always grateful to you for you being the one person to show me what i was capable of .
You will be the one and only person who will ever know that even a devil
had heart that was
capable of love.

Sometimes it all boils down to
knowing when
to give up.

Sober up pal you ain't living forever.

For Its a curse that i bare witness to and cross that I owe for letting the sheep's that are gutted for its shallow thoughts and fleeting distractions. I wish, I could unsee all that I see. I wish, I saw no pattern. I wish, the bigger picture was forever hidden and be gutted as one among the many.

I am caught in the Cadence of your breath.
Your Decadence melts my soul as if It was yours.

I wondered as prisoner of this soulless grave roaming around on the wake of light and falling down on the drapes of night.

Will I ever feel the warmth of your breath or the gaze of your eyes which is more than enough to dream of for a thousand lifetimes, more than enough to be your prisoner for eons and ages to come..?

Breathe as i bleed,
Drink as i drown,
Dream as i die,
Sing as i sicken,
Leave as i love,

                 But dear love, please learn to
Love  someone who loves you as much as i did.



P.S: I Love You, forever and beyond.


                                          Yours lovingly,
        The one who misses you the most.

What is the point of living?
What is the purpose of life?

If death was the ultimatum then what's the point of being born?

Maybe we are too small to speculate it.

Maybe we will get extinct before we know it.

I kind of believe nature. Nature had decided to hit the reset button 5 times. Now the sixth i don't think nature had anything to do with corona

Its just us,Humanity as a whole paying for all the sins that we committed or its just another game by the underworld to  profit the hidden communors and crème de la crème.

Either way humanity doesn't deserve to be alive, for all the resources that we have and all that we salvaged in the few thousand years, we just rotted to become worse than what we were.

This
is
not
the
way
how
my
story
ends.

Never hesitate to look back for your scars hold reason for the way you are and the way you will persist to be

Embrace your past for it has the power to shape in everything about your future

Love isnt the same for everyone.

The highest level of sanity is achieved only when the mind percieves the inevitable regardless of how insane it sounds.

Still burning for the scars that we never planned on having,
yet dreadfully dreaming that it was all worthy of having.

Around a thousand faces
Among a million smiles
Across a billion miles
I still find my heart weary of Your lies.

Walks and strides all around an'd amidst the crowded streets and lonely roads where she will never be seen.

She came unasked she disappeared in a stead.

Sometimes I stay angry and quiet for losing my happiness but then I wonder how could someone ever get angry about losing something they never had then I end up being a lot quiet as like ,














.

I am lost in the vortex of space and
You are the Void,
That chokes and wraps and reeks me around until I break.

You love me in my dreams and haunt me in my days and
yet All my hope remains awake.

I am dead to one and known to none
for my love and hate to you will remain adrift
bleeding in the void of space.

Love doesnt give you power
It is the feeling of acceptance of being powerless. You cannot have control thats what love is all about.

The ability to putforth all your vulnerabilities in front of one person believing that they would not misuse it.

She thought ignorance was her virtue of command over everyone right until he showed her what real ignorance feels like.

I loved the way i lost my soul to the simplest girl that slew my still delicate unscathed bleeding heart.

Somehow I knew you were gonna break me, bad!!
yet my heart never had the heart to choose otherwise.

The Construct is Malleable.
The absolutes are undefined.

What we reap isn't what we sow.
Nothing is True.

For everything is right in its own accord.

I am a star for i shine bright and all planets and moons encircle me,

but i will never have  anything close as like the Earth beholds the Moon.

For my love and wrath burns the same.

The dread star dreams solitcitously to see if serene calm ever witholds him.

Its not what our bodies lose when we die, its entirely the only thing that we risk when we choose to fall in love.

Love may be bright and beautiful but its also the one thing that can make everything ugly and broke. Kingdoms Men and all of creation bleeds before the surreal feeling of love.

Cringe and vile being
Sad and Sarcastic. No one will ever fathom whats beneath my skin for i exist without a soul.

You will never know the scars my heart bears for all it had shared it did always dare to shrink a bit now i am not sure if theres a heart left.

For my soul that burns in thy Decree
For thy gates of Hell that awaits my arrival
For the song of hades that drags me to hell'
For the wrath of Amun that Plunders my Veins
For the spree of Ra that burns my soul,
For all of me that wanted to reach the field of Reeds,
Faded Away ..!
Away with her smile

Why do you do what you do and if that why justifies the very reason for your existence from yours and truly just your perspective among the grand scheme of randomly existing things accross an immeasurable universe whose secrets bare no witness, then we'll there's nothing more that anyone could say dear friend, you are already at peace.

Would you look into my soul and sell me a savouring lie?

Could you break my heart that's shattered beyond a thousand pieces?

Should you stoop into the depths of my soul,you ll never find your way back.

What did I do to bring forth such an unbound agony and unending pain?

I cared.

My love might not be a two way street but sure as hell i knew she was the one the moment i realized what all of my heart ever craves was just to see her wiggling somewhere happily on the surface of this rock. ^_^
She is the one that i would never forget.
She is the one who i would  always be longing for.
She is the one who slipped right through my hands.
She is my one and only.

Everything you touch,
Everything you feel,
Takes a toll on your Soul.

Weep and wither on the edge or the crevice
The Deep and Dark devoids all the same.

Cry and Love all you want but in the End
All you get is all you Take.

The still-beating heart that stopped once,
Thumped ardently.

The rigid cold wrap of Death's embrace
withered fictiously.

A soul forever trapped in its own darkness, found light in a space that never knew dawn's caress, a vibrant love that defied oblivion's address.

I am quite unsure if the universe conspired or was inspired by our depth for each other, But I know with unwavering certainty our souls were destined to meet,

A cosmic dance orchestrated by hands unseen, forever our hearts will beat.

Dear God,
I am sorry, for hurting myself.
I am sorry, for blaming her for all my sorrows.
I am sorry, that I couldn't find the strength in myself to let go her,
To bare the sight of her being in love with someone else.

I realized that its okay that she is not in love me. I realized its good that she is in love with someone who makes her happy.
I am truly happy that she is happy.

I know you'll have something in store for me, I am gonna forgive myself for all the pain that, I put myself through and I am gonna do what makes me happy. I am not at peace now but I am sure I will find it someday.

PS.
A withered Soul.