Need no *****, need no drug,
what I need is just a hug.

Boring routine, unexciting WFHs,
Sitting all day on computer,
just gaining weight and cursing China,
puzzled head coding and solving bug,
what l need is just a hug.

Missing the taste of Biryanis,
all those extra cheese pizzas,
above all that exotic street food and chai,
Even a simple bottle of beer.
**** this Virus is a real ****.
Need no fast food, need no *****,
Still, what I need is just a hug.

I need you close,
I need you here,
just beside me near,
spread your arms, cover me like a shrug,
I just need the warmth of your hug.

ohh baby,
why can't we dance,
why can't we meet,
why can't we go out for a treat.
why can't we just travel,
for I want to see you dazzle.

why can't we hug,
why can't we kiss,
feel the morning dew bliss.
yes this wait is tough.
let's hope this Virus gets soon burried.
so we can reunite and get married.

In an important discussion going about,
usually I tend to zone out.

Speaking in a meeting,
attending a client call,
even in a friendly discussion standing tall,
when my girlfriend blabbering on issues so small,
I tend to zone out all.

When It gets boring,
I feel like dozing,
too lazy to make stubborn people mind's restoring,
I stop explaining,
keeping to myself abhorring.
that's why I zone out, everything just ignoring.

Does that happens with everyone, I seriously doubt!
But yeah sometimes I tend to zone out!

It's crazy how we yearn for people
who don't appreciate the efforts we put in for being with them, doing everything in our hand to make them happy.
And
At the same time,
ignoring the ones who are with us already,
doing their very best to make us happy.

As we grow old,
we build these walls around us,
a protective conservative envelope,
of
not trusting anyone easily.
Afraid to open up,
share our thoughts,
be friends with someone new.
Keeping it to the least,
friends only for own selfishness,
just for the mutual benefits.

Its not bad,
for we cant trust anyone easily,
living in a big city,
where every one is looking to prey on someone.
use others for their own benefits.
after being betrayed in love and friendship,
it makes sense that we stop trusting people.

BUT

Have we lost all the hope too ?
to get a good friend again ?
to find a true love ?
to open up to the other people ?
and share and talk our heart out ?

***** to be betrayed,
but
can't just hide behind the walls and be afraid.

Don't cry, keep your eyes dry,
Don't curse yourself, for its not your fault,
Don't overthink, just halt !
let the time heal the pain,
Just sit tight, your hard work won't go in vein!
Trust me, God has better plans, keep your spirits high!
and just don't cry!

I feel alone,
But,
I don't wanna be.
I pushed away people,
Who loved me.
It's in my nature,
That I can't see.
Then I get alone!
BUT
I don't wanna be! :(

Dear heart!,
please calm down!
it's just a text from her,
doesn't mean anything.
Please take it easy,
steady and queasy.

Had this discussion before,
Last time drowning in sorrows,
broken apart in pieces,
trapped in Band-Aids and stitches.
that sharp pain, felt like a heart attack.
Can't see you in that shape again.
Don't act like a clown!
and please calm down!

Sure she's nothing to say,
same old crap and foul play,
just some what's ups and fake concerns display.
You are gullible and innocent,
her words are your stimulant.

You will cry again and crack,
so let me handle this attack.
just sit back uptown!
and please calm the **** down!

We tend to push people away to get our own personal space,
And then
we cry of loneliness.

It's been a month,
Since I have published a thing,
I miss poetry, want to write but
Motivation is missing.

Guess I was keeping busy,
Out of ecstacy,
Just skipping the feelings,
Life goals em focussing.

Weird but em actually missing those days,
When feeling depressed my heart bleed
Unable to sleep and my words speak.
Soaking pillow and her memories peak .

I am an introvert,
Please leave me be.

I don't speak non-sense,
I am shy,
Chill my own way,
Like my own company,
Than rather be in yours.
So please leave me be.

Please manage to understand me,
I am a few words man.
Won't give a **** to explain myself either,
Nevermind what the people think,
just leave me be!

Who said what!?
When the team party is!?
Who's that new girl in the office!?
Who's ******' whom?!
Don't care!

Need no body,
Gonna be kickin' alone,
Better be lonely than hurt,
So leave me be!

It's not like I would die without you,
But yeah, I'll forget to smile,
Get lonely,
Probably cry every night till I fall asleep.
But don't you worry darling,
I'll survive.

I wiped em' off,
still they keep flowin'.
My white pillow is almost soakin',
need a remedy to this pain.

Don't know why but crying feels good.
Letting your anger out.
Shedding off your ego,
Introspecting,
I guess these tears are the holly water,
Which is gonna purify my soul.

You are the real saviour,
You guys keep me kickin',
Your unexpected texts bring smile,
Your weird memes, and boring morning messages annoys me,
But yeah it feels good to have those,
For at least there's someone who have not forgotten me.

Calling just to hear my voice,
Not just for your mean purposes,
To share your story,
You share your dark secrets,
Trusting me to keep em' safe.

I may be busy sometimes,
Not able to be in contact.
But I want to let you guys know
You all mean a lot.

Thanks for being there for me when my ex left,
Thanks for bringing me that cake, when I couldn't be home on my birthday.
Thanks for hanging out,
For dealing my tantrums and sticking around.


THANKS
For I would have been gravely alone without you!

We are all alone,
On our own,
Life is all about finding someone,
And trying not to be lonely!

Thought I was over you but,
little things keeps reminding me of you.

The way used to take that bite off my sandwich, pretend it wasn't you.
When you used to divide our favorite biryani, keeping more for me.
That wrist watch of yours with no second hand.

When you used to try on my new jackets,
Then refusing to take it off anytime soon.
Loving everything that I gave you,
Collecting gifts, roses, even the wrapper of the first bournville  that we had together.

You ain't here to try on my jackets no more,
To sneak a bite off my sandwich,
To practice that couple salsa dance with me.
To ride with me in perfect weather.

I see you in every girl I know,
Everything around reminds me of you.
Never thought I would miss you this much,
But I ******' do.
Wonder IF YOU STILL MISS ME TOO!!

Love is complex than I thought,
She is in, but I am not.

Started as a casual one,
Like Netflix and fun.
No strings attached, no trust,
Just satisfying each other's lust.
Would go out chicken and *****
Gift tees , guitar and those Nike shoes.

Now things have gone a little too south,
She texts, she calls all the time,
She feels, she fights all the time.
She says this is love about.
But, I am in total doubt.

Never wanted it to turn out this way,
It started casually in the month of may.
We have come so far and now it's all gray.
Difficult to leave, difficult to stay.

I do feel for her,
I do adore her, but it's not love anyway.
Don't know what I feel,
But not ready for a relationship in any way!

People are disgusting,
They'll hurt you in
meanest possible ways.
They'll misunderstand you,
judge you!

People are disgusting,
Don't talk to them much,
Just keep it in optimum touch.
They'll treat you like a ****,
If they make a mistake it's no Biggie,
If you commit then it's a major felony.

I choose Netflix instead,
It does Judge my interest,
Shows me the best watchable result,
Better are the characters and stories
Than fake people and their hollow lies,

I choose Netflix
for my 'Me' time,
To avoid fake friends and their self centered
conversation,
Except these characters and stories ain't real like people,
To wipe my tears and hug me when em alone,
But
They ain't gonna hurt me either.

I am done,
I think I have had enough,
Enough of the fake feelings,
And false relationships.
Enough of hurting someone innocent,
Enough of getting hurt by someone unworthy.
Need no favour from anyone,
No love, enough of the lust,
Just someone whom I can blindly trust!!

From your straight hair to
the outfits you wear,
that black leather shoe pair,
even the "no makeup" makeup flair.
Everything about you seems perfect, I swear!

Your sweet fine face and my feelings resurrect,
supercilious smile with power that anyone may deflect
even the cute pimple on your face that eject,
moreover the positive vibes you reflect.
****! everything about you seems perfect.

The way you smile,
eyes almost closed, hiding teeth quarter mile,
my heart skips beats for a while,
the way you tie up your hair in that quirky style,
your eccentric figure and that side profile,
orotund low voice gonna put me on trial.

Upbeat personality and attitude you project,
Girl everything about you seems just Perfect!

Stressed ?, Tensed ?, Frustrated in a blow ?,
Go to desert, beach, hill or a mountain of snow,
Sure, plan a trip, better make it solo.
Be free, feel the thrill, fear, love as you go.
Travel to unknowns, meet strangers say hello.

Feeling hurt?,
Stretch a desert,
Feel the sand,
Slipping through your hand,
Realise everything isn't in your control
A camel safari make it a goal.
Experience the culture, mix with locals
to rediscover yourself.

Are you in pain?
Head to mountains,
Altitude will test you in every way,
Your petty issues will go stray,
Try trekking, feel the snow,
Chilly breeze upland it blow,
Challenge your limits.
Trivial issues but mighty mountains digits.

When in doubt,
A beach you scout,
Feel the tropical sun,
Respect the relentless sea overrun,
You surf, sail and try the ****** fun.

Go beyond, challenge your limits,
Experience the miracles of nature,
Subside your pain, let stress be a bygone,
Rediscover yourself in the far unknown.

Today is not my day , I feel low,
Just not in mood, doing everything slow ,
Too tired to work in office, let me go,
Got a client call to attend though.

Its just one of those day,
when nothing goes your way,
people make fun of you and crap they say,
I feel lonely ,I feel stray.

Don't know the reason ,
May be it's her memories' prison,
May be it's that girl's AWKWARD situation,
Or may be it's just this chilly dry season.

Got some cold and some cough,
May be it's just in my mind stuff,
But yeah today life feels tough,
Whatever but yeah I feel low , I feel rough.

When it hurts to move on
Just remember the pain
You felt hanging on.

I don't hate you for
Not loving me anymore,
I hate myself now ,
For still loving you...

We have come too far she said,
too late to get back together,
But is it?

Been 9 months 9 days since we broke-up,
Stupid of me to let you go,
But my love for you has never been low,
Same feelings ,same me
but it's not the same you,
We have come too far she said.
Have we really?

You got a new bf ,
I am still alone ,
Not because I have no options,
But they don't make me feel the way that you do.

I accept my mistake yes i do .
Deep inside I am still waiting for you,
We have divine connection yes it's true,
My heart still groan ,
When I miss your skin and bone.
It's too late she said .
But is it?

YES it is,
I have tried enough,
I have cried enough,
It's time to let you go.
accepting you ain't coming back.

Please come back again...
For my wounds have healed.

Everyone has felt it,
Every has been there done that,
Heartbreak , separation, breakup
People have felt it all.
have they become smart or dumb?
They don't fall in love no more.

Hi hello , club ,fun ,thrill
Movie fun, Netflix and chill,
the culture of ***** and pill.
Few weeks thing then new person and skills.

Same is what I have been doing,
Don't wanna continue like this,
I wanna feel the new bliss,
Wanna feel alive again,
I want to fall in love for the first time again.

I felt something,
Beating in my chest,
I thought I would never feel that again,
After that break up, but i did.

Her slim figure, that face,
It's her mistake,
Her smile , her hairstyle ,
That side profile,
It's again gonna put me on trial.

Don't wanna go down that lane again,
I am afraid to fall in love again.

We only love once in our lifetime,
Others are just to forget the very first one.

It pinches , stings,
It demotivates you ,
It makes you feel humiliated,
Rejection!

Spoils your mood,
Make you regret of your actions,
You wish you have never gone for it
in the first place,
Rejection!

It's okay to be rejected,
Be patient, stay calm,
Because God has planned someone/something better than you assumed.

Finally someone different,
someone beautiful focused and confident,
Has an elegance and a magical aura,
Saw her first passing by when I was reading quora.

Her face is a delicious treat,
Whenever I see her my heart skips a beat,
She looks pure, she looks innocent
kinda shy, her smile is my stimulant.
she loves writing, what a coincident,
Has a decent sense of fashion,
discovered writing blogs is her passion.

She smiles less often,
Looks pretty worried most of the time,
Maybe because it's a new place for her,
or maybe something else,
Yeah, She does speak less,
She seems like a mystery,
Wish we match a great chemistry.

I want to know her more,
I want her to know me as well,
I am interested I wanna tell,
For now, I just wish she is single as well.

On her, my <3  got stuck,
gonna give it a try, Wish me luck! ;)

I am not ready,
not yet prepared,
I feel nothing,
Not yet over her,
Shez still inside me
You please don't love me.

I won't treat you well
Won't give you much importance,
That would hurt you ,I know,
Don't come closer you will grow,
I have her bits inside of me,
Please don't love me.

You call a lot,
You text me all day,
You do care a lot, I know,
I have disease of getting bored inside me,
Please don't love me.

I am too bad to deserve you,
My heart is too broken to put all pieces back together,
I have felt too much that I feel nothing for you,
There's a void inside me,
You please don't love me!

Can I call you ?
I miss your voice.
I miss our long calls.
I want to hear you say my name.

Can i text you ?,
unblock me!
I feel so alone.
I feel so foolish.

Can you come and see me ?
May be for the one last time,
Or Could you please hurt me some more,
And give me something to move On.
:(

We cling to memories,
As if they define us,
But they don't.
What we do actually defines us!

In the sun,
We will find our passion.
In the sun,
We will find our purpose.
In the sun,
We will know what truly matters.

In the moon ,
We will get comfort,
In the moon,
We could get wasted.
In the moon ,
Our senses get shady.

Just enough moments for myself.
Not too much that I feel lonely,
Not too less that I couldn't
Introspect,
couldn't do the things I crave,
Couldn't play that guitar,
Or couldn't watch that series I love,
That I start losing myself.

not too much that I tend to be lonely,
Tend to overthink things that ain't
in control,
Tend to miss that ex that cheated on me,
That I have no one to share my feelings.
That I couldn't sleep .

Yeah I need it ,
Not too less,
Not too much,
Just enough to satisfy my lust.

I write to express,
Thoughts I can't suppress,
When something makes me depress,
When things happen in excess
Feels good to pen down, I Guess.

When I am alone,
I get in my own zone,
When my heart groan,
When I miss her skin and bone,
I write words expect them to make perfect tone.

When I am in a long Uber ride,
For sleeping I stride,
For you when my heart cried,
Writing something I tried.
Rhyming I applied.
This is how I write.

When you don't have it,
You feel the urge,
It might be just an infatuation,
You want it at any cost,
You see nothing else greater,
Nothing else precious.

It could be a person ,
It could be a thing,
Or some place you wanna be,
Or some future event you want to get to.

Now when you have it,
You don't value it much,
Ignore it for your simpler lust,
Its there, for you it doesn't matter,
You feel you deserve Something/someone better.

Value whatever you already have
Love people in your life,
Cherish every moment,
Be thankful to whatever you got,
Live life to the fullest.
CHEERS !

I stand in the middle of the road,
Gazing past the path I have traveled,
The path that's yet to be measured.
Wondering how I have changed from a kid to a teenager and then to an adult.
Introspecting my progress,
thrilled for new ways to discover.

I stand in the middle somewhere.
Afraid, excited and hopeful.

I see you here,
Just beside me near,
Your soft voice I can hear,
Whispering my name in my ear.
I am drowning in your memories.

I hear your laughters,
I can hear you crying,
Still remember your hugs,
Your surprise kisses,
Beautiful scene of you making your hair,
Baby em drowning in your memories.

I miss your stupid face,
Your innocence and that grace
That slight grin,
Beautiful little chin,
Those perfect hair,
You making that stare.
Baby em drowning in your memories.

I loved you then,
I love you now,
Doesn't matter if you ain't near,
Losing you , I have no fear.
But yeah em drowning in your memories.

My head aches ,
I can't sleep,
Her thoughts never stop,
Imagining things that I should have said,
Things that I can still do , to get her back.

She texted she wanted to come back,
She made me believe she is not happy in her new relationship,
She wanted old Me back she said,
But took a complete U-turn when we actually met.

I want these thoughts to fade away
I want to give up trying,
I want this ache to stop,
I want to sleep like a baby,
I just don't want to wake up ever again. :'(