I want to be loved by you**
Were the lyrics sang by Marilyn Monroe

I wondered whether I should've told you these words

But then again you won't take me seriously

But that wouldn't stop me from loving you

'Cause loving you is an activity matter in my life

And so I wish that you would feel the same for me too

If I had told you these words, would something have changed?

This is the part of the story
Where the hero and his damsel realize each other's feelings
But what if we change it a bit
The damsel loves the hero
But the hero already has another
Quite a shocker for a damsel
Though love finds its way
It cannot be the same
Knowing that there once was another
The damsel let go of the hero
And set off for her own story
This time
The part of this story is that
She is now the heroine

Though I forgot about you
Somewhere I feel know you
A part of me says I know you
Maybe it could be that
What the mind forgets
The heart remembers

I turn my head to your face
And what I see is sparks
I never really understood what it means to fall in love
But is it alright
If I fall in love with you?

As a person I know
You're usually awkward
And most likely weird
But when you turn serious
My impression of you turns different
I've never seen anyone like you
I never thought you had this side of you
But seeing you like this is foreign to me
I've  become attached to you somehow
And I can't seem to put much into words what I think about you for real

You have your way with words
That I get distracted
No matter what time it is
I come to think of you
I try to not think of you
But you just come up and show your face
How can I ignore you
When you're such a beautiful soul

"Why are you always by my side?"
Why wouldn't I be by your side?
"Why do you always have that smile on you?"
Why wouldn't I smile?
"Why do you always say you love me?"
Why wouldn't I say I love you?

Why I do all this?
Because it's all for you.
Because I'm your lover.

I don't know what to do when I'm in front of you
I tend to get nervous about your every move
I don't mean to be so tense
Just want to know what must be done
My heart shakes because of you

I try to act different when you're around
I don't want you to hate me
I really like you
How can you shake up my heart furiously?

Sometimes, I just have the urge to curse at you.
But I just can't say it .
Obviously, I'm scared of being scolded.
But I really want to hit you with a truck
And say "goodbye"  forever to you.
But it's not that simple.
Especially that you're close to me.

As a fangirl
I go through these daily encounters

Looking at your pictures online
Listening to your music
Watching your shows

Whenever I see your face
A big smile is placed on mine
I get this feeling of hype
That I can not even understand

Sometimes I hate this side of mine
But for some reason
I can't remove it from me

So I appreciate this side of mine
And look forward to what else is in store

I was given choices
Of whom I want to pick
You weren't one of them
So I chose none
'Cause even if the choices were better than you
They can't be the you who I know

I already proved I'm innocent
Yet you say I'm guilty
Sometimes I don't get you
My mind's messed up
And it's all because of you

The sun that shines through the window
Is what I hate most during morning
Waking me up eventually
Wishing it was still night
The dream I had of you last night
Was something I was hoping for
For me to be in your arms
Kissing you goodbye
But all that was in a dream
A dream that ended
Because of daylight

You were curious as to what lies in store
But when you started I was more curious about you
You were a natural
A talented and bright person
I was lucky to have taught you
But my luck ran out when you became far away

You were first a friend
But now a lover
You used to call me by "Hey!"
But now you call me by "Bae"
I'm still getting used to it
But I'm glad we've stepped up

Look at me now
Look at who you've stumbled upon
I was once a weakling
But now no more
For those who've trampled upon me
Shame on you
'Cause I'm no longer a joke
And now you are

By the time I grow up
You will no longer be my hero
Even if you were once
Someone has your place now
But that doesn't mean you're not in my heart

I know they're just your friends
And I know that they don't mean anything to you
But even if you say I'm yours
Should I be jealous of others?

I love you too much
That I can hate you
That I can cry about you
That I can worry about you
You're too much to handle
But the one I love most

"I love you"
Just kidding
Neither is it "I hate you"
I don't have feelings for you
So stop holding on
And move on

Even if I make you sad again
She's there to protect you
I'm no longer by your side
So don't let me keep holding on to you

For just one day
Let me love you
I'll show you what I've got
I'll take you to another world
Let's be together

I tried to say
But it was too hard
When I had the chance
It was far too late
You were gone away

I feel so tired
when I'm not inspired.
Mind's got no fuel
it feels cruel.
I need to make
at least something fake.
The exploration of my mind
is what makes me find
the best of the world
and creations are swirled.

The thought of you laughing
is just simply ridiculous
'Cause you won't be laughing
in a sweet moment
The time my revenge
will come out fresh
Shall make me avenge
for the jokes you've played on me

Though he won
He got bad views
Though he lost
He got good views
The world anticipated
Locals let down
The world saw it
As a fight worth watching

I need you
Why did you leave me alone?
I need you
Was everything really nothing?
I need you**
You're my everything

There are times I want to die
When I don't even know the reason why
Could be depressed
While my feelings suppressed
But that's not it
When I don't even know s*
But life is hard
So I gotta keep guard
Of the journey ahead of me
So I won't just let it be

I got frightened
By the movie's end
To where I screamed loud
It reached the cloud
Some parts where funny
It was kinda sunny
But most were scary
No signs of being merry
The fatality it had
Made me sad
Wishing I'd never go online
But I'd always whine

You were a dog
And I was a cat
We'd play catch
Almost everyday
But one day you stopped
And I was confused
But it was a trick
I shouldn't have bought.

You are annoying
For you are toying
This mind of mine
Or the other minds of nine

Stop being silly
'Cause it bothers me really

I hate you for it
I don't seem to like you one bit

Thirteen years young
I always ponder.
What likely would it be
  best for me.
The world on my hands,
The decisions I make.
I hope to get over
all the nonsensical plays.
And get on to life
with an amazing gaze.

I lose my mind
To the question
"What is love?"
Thinking of it everyday
I don't know why
It's complicated
Love is complicated

The day we went stargazing
I remember what you asked me

"What do you think of me?"

Of course
I thought you were amazing
Someone I can rely on
Someone I hold dear

I asked you the same question

You thought of me as the stars in the sky
Shining brightly
Light for the dark

You told me I was the light to your heart

The words you spoke
Feelings rushed over me

At that moment
I knew you were the one
My one and only

I am your star
And you'll be my sky

I know I've done bad to you.
I know you can't forgive me.
Yet I'll tell you,
  "I'm sorry", anyway.
But do know
I love you.

No matter what.

When we say goodbye
  doesn't mean we won't see again.
Not for a while.
Not forever.

When we say goodbye
  it means farewell for now.
We'll meet again.
Someday.

How should I say this
I'm a bit strange?
Nope, not a bit
To be exact.
Just entirely strange.
But the strange is my nature.
The weird is my home.
Insanity is my sanity.

One day,
I'll get to the other side.
One day,
I'll be able to see you.
One day,
I'll be able to say,
I am yours and you are mine.

Could it be
You're asking me
To go on a date
With you?

Perhaps, you are mistaken.
I'm not that easy.
But,
so shall I accept your request.

At first it was okay
But then it became all gray.

To simply put,
it was a disaster.

But I found something better,
the effort you put into the date
is something I've come to admire
And now you've become my desire.

Do not cower
For I'll be your power
Your strength and guidance
For your absolute brilliance
Even if I stumble and fall
while you're having a ball.
You are my only one
Even when you are gone.

The secrets I keep
are deep.

I'd say
it's better to keep it at bay.

But you insist
And now you can't resist

The girl who was once a stranger
is now a danger
To You.

Inside these walls
is a girl afraid.

She does not trust.
She does not hope.
She does not believe.

But one day,
A spark of light came down on her

The walls that hid her
came crashing down.

Her eyes were opened
To a place of new beginnings.
A place were she can start fresh.
A place she can call freedom.

I no longer care about us
You're the one who threw me away
If you wanted it for us to last
Then make it so
So I can believe you

When you think about it,
It's not us
Travelling on this world
on a bus.
It's the world
travelling on us.

It  revolves at us
And look for clues
For everything that involves us
And even the blues.

Though one may hate it
But it can not be changed
Because this world
is just full of strange.