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aphotic blue May 2020
π‘‡β„Žπ‘’π‘Ÿπ‘’'𝑠 π‘›π‘œπ‘‘β„Žπ‘–π‘›π‘” 𝑛𝑒𝑀 π‘™π‘–π‘˜π‘’Β β„Žπ‘Žπ‘£π‘–π‘›π‘” π‘¦π‘œπ‘’π‘Ÿ π‘šπ‘’π‘šπ‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘¦ π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘Žπ‘ π‘’π‘‘Β 
π‘šπ‘œπ‘ π‘‘ π‘’π‘›π‘“π‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘”π‘œπ‘‘π‘‘π‘’π‘› π‘‘β„Žπ‘Žπ‘‘ β„Žπ‘Žπ‘π‘π‘’π‘›π‘’π‘‘, 𝑏𝑒𝑠𝑑 π‘‘β„Žπ‘–π‘›π‘” 𝐼'𝑙𝑙 π‘’π‘£π‘’π‘Ÿ π‘‘π‘Žπ‘ π‘‘π‘’
π‘‘β„Žπ‘œπ‘’π‘”β„Ž π‘‘β„Žπ‘’π‘ π‘’ π‘‘π‘Žπ‘¦π‘  π‘€π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘’ 𝑏𝑒𝑖𝑙𝑑 π‘‘π‘œ 𝑏𝑒 π‘Ž π‘˜π‘’π‘¦ π‘‘π‘œ 𝑠𝑒𝑑 π‘šπ‘’ π‘“π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘’
𝑦𝑒𝑑 𝐼 π‘π‘œπ‘’π‘™π‘‘π‘›'𝑑 π‘π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘‘π‘–π‘π‘‘ π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘π‘œπ‘ π‘‘ π‘‘β„Žπ‘Žπ‘‘ π‘Žπ‘™π‘™ π‘œπ‘“ π‘‘β„Žπ‘–π‘  π‘€π‘œπ‘’π‘™π‘‘ 𝑏𝑒.

π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘ π‘Žπ‘‘π‘›π‘’π‘ π‘  π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘”π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘‘π‘  β„Žπ‘Žπ‘£π‘’ π‘ π‘™π‘œπ‘€π‘™π‘¦ π‘‘π‘’π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘  π‘šπ‘’ π‘Žπ‘π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘‘
𝑖𝑑 π‘žπ‘’π‘–π‘π‘˜π‘™π‘¦ π‘‘π‘Ÿπ‘–π‘£π‘’π‘  π‘šπ‘’ π‘–π‘›π‘ π‘Žπ‘›π‘’, π‘‘β„Žπ‘Žπ‘‘ π‘ β„Žπ‘Žπ‘‘π‘‘π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘  π‘šπ‘¦ β„Žπ‘’π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘‘
𝐼 𝑗𝑒𝑠𝑑 π‘€π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘‘π‘œ π‘“π‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘”π‘’π‘‘ π‘π‘Žπ‘‘ π‘šπ‘’π‘šπ‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘–π‘’π‘  𝑖𝑛 π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘π‘Žπ‘ π‘‘
𝑏𝑒𝑑 π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘“π‘Žπ‘π‘‘ 𝐼 π‘π‘Žπ‘›π‘›π‘œπ‘‘ π‘“π‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘”π‘’π‘‘ π‘ π‘œ π‘“π‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘’π‘£π‘’π‘Ÿ 𝑖𝑑 𝑀𝑖𝑙𝑙 π‘™π‘Žπ‘ π‘‘π‘ .

π‘¦π‘œπ‘’'𝑙𝑙 π‘›π‘’π‘£π‘’π‘Ÿ 𝑏𝑒 π‘Ž π‘šπ‘’π‘šπ‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘¦, 𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝐼 𝑀𝑖𝑙𝑙 π‘›π‘’π‘£π‘’π‘Ÿ π‘”π‘œ π‘Žπ‘€π‘Žπ‘¦
π‘‘β„Žπ‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘’π‘”β„Ž π‘ π‘‘π‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘šπ‘  π‘¦π‘œπ‘’ π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘Žπ‘β„Ž, π‘€π‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘‘π‘  π‘€π‘œπ‘›'𝑑 𝑏𝑒 𝑛𝑒𝑒𝑑𝑒𝑑 π‘‘π‘œ π‘ π‘Žπ‘¦
𝑏𝑒𝑑 π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘“π‘Žπ‘π‘‘ π‘‘β„Žπ‘Žπ‘‘ π‘Žπ‘™π‘™ π‘šπ‘’π‘šπ‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘–π‘’π‘  π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘’ π‘›π‘œπ‘€ 𝑓𝑖𝑙𝑙𝑒𝑑 π‘€π‘–π‘‘β„Ž π‘π‘Žπ‘–π‘›
π‘šπ‘Žπ‘˜π‘–π‘›π‘” π‘šπ‘¦ 𝑒𝑦𝑒𝑠 π‘π‘™π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘Ÿπ‘¦ π‘Žπ‘›π‘‘ π‘‘π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘˜ π‘€π‘–π‘‘β„Ž π‘Ÿπ‘Žπ‘–π‘›
π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘šπ‘œπ‘ π‘‘ π‘šπ‘’π‘šπ‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘Žπ‘π‘™π‘’ π‘šπ‘œπ‘šπ‘’π‘›π‘‘π‘ , 𝐼 π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘Žπ‘™π‘™π‘¦ π‘šπ‘–π‘ π‘ π‘’π‘‘ β„Žπ‘œπ‘›π‘’π‘ π‘‘π‘™π‘¦.
𝑏𝑒𝑑 π‘ π‘Žπ‘‘π‘›π‘’π‘ π‘  π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘’ π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘œπ‘›π‘’π‘  π‘‘β„Žπ‘Žπ‘‘ π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘šπ‘’π‘šπ‘π‘’π‘Ÿπ‘’π‘‘ π‘ π‘œ π‘π‘™π‘’π‘Žπ‘Ÿπ‘™π‘¦.

π‘†π‘œ π‘Ÿπ‘–π‘”β„Žπ‘‘ π‘›π‘œπ‘€, β„Žπ‘Žπ‘›π‘”π‘–π‘›π‘” 𝑓𝑖𝑣𝑒 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑑 π‘œπ‘“π‘“ π‘‘β„Žπ‘’ π‘”π‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘’π‘›π‘‘
𝐼'π‘š β„Žπ‘Žπ‘›π‘”π‘–π‘›π‘” 𝑏𝑒𝑑 𝑖𝑛 π‘Žπ‘π‘‘π‘’π‘Žπ‘™π‘–π‘‘π‘¦, 𝑏𝑒𝑑 π‘€π‘–π‘‘β„Žπ‘œπ‘’π‘‘ π‘Žπ‘›π‘¦ π‘ π‘œπ‘’π‘›π‘‘
𝐼 π‘˜π‘›π‘œπ‘€ π‘‘β„Žπ‘–π‘  𝑖𝑠 π‘šπ‘œπ‘Ÿπ‘’ π‘‘β„Žπ‘Žπ‘› 𝑗𝑒𝑠𝑑 π‘Ž π‘Ÿπ‘œπ‘π‘’
𝑖𝑑'𝑠 π‘›π‘œπ‘€ π‘šπ‘¦ 𝑒𝑛𝑑, 𝑖𝑑'𝑠 π‘šπ‘¦ π‘œπ‘›π‘™π‘¦ π‘‘π‘–π‘šπ‘’ π‘šπ‘Žπ‘β„Žπ‘–π‘›π‘’ π‘œπ‘“ β„Žπ‘œπ‘π‘’.
May 2020 · 236
aphotic blue May 2020
-read from bottom to top

stop hoping for the future
gaze for the stars and don't ever
stop hating yourself
please, I tell you
you’re truly a humiliation
don’t ever believe that
you shine in my eyes and mind
because you really, as a person,
change me on who I become
never be scared to
make yourself torture in hatred
not in a million years you'll try to
be the epitome of perfection
because you will
be forever loathed by many
never believe that you will
always be the person I loved
reminisce the memory and  
be the detestation in my mind
don't every try to
convince yourself that you are a treasure.
-read from bottom to top
May 2019 · 309
aphotic blue May 2019
at first,  I embraced euphoria
the overwhelming desire of being free
seeing the skies so stunning
hearing the rhapsodic humming of birds
such as that,  I roamed halcyon earth
but deep down,  I hanker for passion
found a person who gave so much memories -
the blazing heat that touches my skin;
whenever I shred,
there's she who filled the emptiness
then I started feeling so alive;
as she stares at my lovely eyes
as she unravels my clothes --
and starts making love
As I gasped for air and fell inlove with pain
the morose agonies was my light
and paradise became my darkness
whereas,  my demons were placid,
it possessed me for I embraced their torture
and started feeling so euphoric in pain
I can feel the promise of pain
that she won't leave, she will stay.
May 2019 · 379
May 2019 · 301
lost soul
aphotic blue May 2019
i always told her that this isn't love
we were just seeing two empty doves
floating above our minds to control
to change the fate of lost soul

we were both enraptured with greed
just turned into monsters to bleed
is it wrong to love similar to you?
or is this a sin to be true?

both doves had weep for many days
while sensing the heat in so much blaze
our demons inside began to get lost
such until our fate wander and crossed

she is art,Β Β unique, a dire perfection
chained in lust but devoured by affection
she is heaven-sent, a tormenting angel
who agonize thyself and put into spell

we we're lost souls force to meet in lust
shattered in pieces and thrown in disgust
struggling beyond the things undiscussed
but I left her because of the people I trust
I want her to know that she's my biggest regret
for losing her was my death to forget
please don't steal my work, this is made from my heart.
Oct 2018 · 845
the wicked flower
aphotic blue Oct 2018
a flower with perfection blooming every night
with a sweet-scented smell but averse to light
she was a wicked flower on leaving a strange mark
withered in sun's rays but lived again in the dark

the wicked flower, loathed the sun's heat and gleam
everyday, her petal wilt and looses one as it seem
roaming in distinct grounds, digging up any mess
but the guilt of the providence gave an erroneous guess
her petals travelled and noticed the sun's heat
burning her in flames and crumble into sheet
the moon never came back, as the flower is dying
one by one her petals brawl and endure the vying
the flower wail in gloom, ignited by the blaze of the sun
she thought about hope but never come into one
she was the wicked flower, died because of the light
and never breathe again because of the fright
Mar 2018 · 268
aphotic blue Mar 2018
if you want someone to talk to, i'm always here
Mar 2018 · 1.2k
aphotic blue Mar 2018
you are my sunshine in my darkest cloud
you made my heart flutter amongst the crowd
you are my rainbow after my melancholy's rain
you still made my eyes twinkling tho i'm in pain

you are my only hope my love in times of despair
those exquisite memories of ours, i planned with care
you are my undying love in this ruthless earth
love me forever for we're destined since birth
Dec 2017 · 456
aphotic blue Dec 2017
a mortal, unfortunate, unwelcome to earth
for he holds the sword, and never rebirth
in this first life of his, still on agony
waiting for his bride and prayed for the deity
to remove the sword that was pierced on his chest
just to stop breathing and be on a rest
yet so unlucky, because of this futile punishment
alive yet experiencing the sensation of torment
only his bride can change the prophecy
moments had passed, but it was a catastrophe
his bride can’t remove the sword
so the goblin insisted that his bride is absurd
the deity appeared and spill out the honesty
only true love can change the present reality
the wife fell inlove truly with the goblin
yet, death is following her within
they fought death and the power of the gods
hope were the only miracle behind those odds
but the unexpected has brought something strange
the girl died so the future will never be change
the goblin waits hundreds of years for her wife to come back
until now, he waits and waits for her wife to come back..
the story was taken on the kdrama called "goblin" yet i changed the ending. full copyright for the story.
Nov 2017 · 546
Blue Moon
aphotic blue Nov 2017
our time had differences,
but we still have time to confess
our feelings that is full of oppressed
but you still love me, I guess?

it's evening in our's, morning in your's
dinner in our's, breakfast in your's
different countries but similar emotions
we're a couple but surrounded with oceans

you're far but still i can feel you beside me
the way you touches my skin in my own fantasy
the way you caresses my cheeks like we're in reality
i'm dreaming just because i love you baby

but i want to wake up in this kind of dream
this is kinda unhappy in this type of theme
i want you now to be my girl officially
please answer me 'yes' maybe?

if you're not yet ready to answer my query
i will court you everyday just to prove you my loyalty
i am dignified to make you euphoric
i love you, please answer me real quick...

if your expecting a lot of efforts from me
i'm sorry but i can only offer you my heart baby
I love you so much baby
like a blue moon, that will be an infinity

lastly, you must be confused why the poem is entitled blue moon
it means there's a forever existing in our's soon.
Nov 2017 · 244
aphotic blue Nov 2017
flowing water inside circles
those pain inside shapes
once a fighter of her own maze
but died because of the tempting gaze

she wanted to control the sensation
yet, it was burning her like flames
it seems to feel like an addiction
but it was a challenge to be insane

glued of waters and can't even run
battles in the maze was a tempting one
she wanted to escape but the crowd says no
so the water outside circles never tried to flow
it was written since ..
Oct 2017 · 434
Lacuna of Belle Γ‚me
aphotic blue Oct 2017

Someone's POV
Oh Bell Áme, can I offer you deep affection?
where you and I can ****** with full compassion
the euphoria invisaged with my own prophecy
believe me Belle Γ‚me, you and I will have infinity

You expect me to believe your own authority?
where you can judge humans and let them die instantly
you're a demon, destroying the earth's humanity
but let us try being naughty
so you can suffer my demonic mastery

Belle Γ‚me's POV

oh little human, confident of slaying my strategy
that evilish egoism trying to destroy me?
oh well, well, well. let's see who's the first one to fall inlove
give me your heart and you will fly like a dove
look at me human, fall inlove with me and be my man
for i am a demon who have the plan
for changing the world on how it begun
Oct 2017 · 439
Lacuna of Belle Γ‚me
aphotic blue Oct 2017
Translation: Missing part of a beautiful soul

can i have my control on anything my king?
block that fear of thy and deem the life i could bring
i am enthusiastic on destroying the whole humanity
trust me, i'll you show you the life with glory

the sensation of magic and the foolishness of any mortal
i said don't look at me in the eye so you can't enter the portal
that's the only gate to make you in demise without mercy
no one will see andΒ Β no one will pity

one by one i will show you how powerful Belle Γ‚me
you'll fall for my charm and be killed with my slam
the killer me as Belle Γ‚me without any notice
no one grasp the logic, so everyone will be punished
Oct 2017 · 396
Lacuna of Belle Γ‚me
aphotic blue Oct 2017
An introduction to the poetry.
Translation: Missing part of a beautiful soul

alluring young lady born yet cursed
with the ability to make emotions at worse
she was force to be the eye of the devil
hurt the inoccent and be thy rebel

she said once that 'don't look in the eye'
but one has the courage to exert but didn't die
unpredicted matter ensued rapidly
then the revelation itself changed the prophecy

a mortal risen and asked the soul
for affection and the inner you had stole
the magic that can turn thee into something magical
a real life warmth and thou art as a phenomenal

but the soul demanded to change the whole history
would she refuse the devil and accept the redamacy?
it says, 'missing part of a beautiful soul'
can moral fight for her and achieve his goal?
Oct 2017 · 419
Midnight Phantom
aphotic blue Oct 2017
i roam around ***** brains
thinking that they aren't clean
i soak them horrifying imaginations
brought them to my scary world

they're frightened but i never spared
they need punishment 'cause they weren't scared
all they did was to distract humanity
those ****** hypothesis that brought them to theory

i am a ghost travelling your brain
reading all your thoughts, cleaning all the stain
all the conscience remain
i will make it blank, i will make it plain

for i am the midnight phantom,
i am scary and filled with gloom
but why human your infamy of the earth?
i prayed for the gods, that you'll never be rebirth
Oct 2017 · 228
aphotic blue Oct 2017

As flower,
very ugly
don't think that you're
from losing your mind
once more on the cold floor
don't glide
die now
said he.
aphotic blue Sep 2017
stop living your life like you're in some kind of movie
where you don't need to make effort to change somebody
maybe it isn't what happened where you are in the urge of living life
you need to make decision though it's difficult as it is a strife
the need to accept the fact that a decision can lead to some conclusion
where guilt, hatred, and confusion are not required for prevention
climb up the ladder without the stairs, where flying is part of your mind
where you can keep in your history that life is blind
make that living on to something above imagination
though it's hard to take stairs, you need information to change the situation
trust yourself and never into somebody's relation
since it can distract and make the decision into some explanation
Sep 2017 · 219
aphotic blue Sep 2017
❝ everything is made from everything else
to the geniuses who made my existence complicated
to the humans whose destroying earth
to the sun whose bringing gleam across stars
it all circles around the finite life people lead
regardless on how we live, we breathe the same air
maybe in some kind of situation we encountered gold
but in actuality it's just a metal whose goal is to sense greed
for the mortals who craved for wealth
look them in the eye, ask the deep pockets.
if money is rolling, would they be pleasured?
start asking questions until they struggle to perfect your life
there must be a reason why you hide away from the ground
those forces are merely an illusion
they create cruelty to make people escape the realm of reality
tell me, why are you craving for wealth? ❞
Aug 2017 · 3.1k
aphotic blue Aug 2017
Maikli lng ito, hindi mahaba kagaya ng pasenya ko. Tamang tama lang kagaya ng pagmamahal ko sayo. Parang kape lang yung tipong kahit malamig na, wala na yung init, gusto mo paring tikman dahil gusto mo siya, masarap, matamis kahit malamig. Kaylan kaya babalik yung init na nararamdaman ko habang hinawakan ko ang iyong mga kamay? Hindi marahil sa estado ng puso ko, malalim ang determinasyon kong maghintay. Saludo ako sa katatagan kong kahit sa saya at pighati hindi ko man lang nasubukang ibigay ang puso ko sa iba. Sapagkat alam kong kahit hirap na hirap kana, alam ko na darating ang araw na tayo ay malulumbay at hahanapin ang bawat isa. Subalit habang ang oras ay dumadaan, ako'y nag-iipon ng tapang sa katawan. Iniisip na niyayakap mo ako at binulungan, hindi paaasahin gaya ng ginawa mo saakin noong nakaraan. Ngunit ano pa nga ba ang aking magaggawa, kung sa una pa lamang ng ating pagkikita ako ay nagmamahal ng isang tala. Kung pwede lang sanang bigyan moko ng isang pagkakataong baguhin ang lahat ng pagkakamaling nagawa ko sa nakaraan. Ang mga pagkakamaling nananatiling nakaukit sa puso't isipan, ako'y nagdadasal na sana sa isang sandali tuluyan ko itong makalimutan. Hindi ko lubusang maisip ang sakit na dinaranas mo sa mga oras na iyon, sa mga tangang desisyon na iniwan kita para magbago ang intensyon. Intensyong akala ko ika'y nagkagusto saakin dahil ako'y naghahabol sayo, sadyang takot lang akong baka sa isang saglit ika'y biglang maglaho. Ilang beses na akong nagbuntong hininga upang mailabas ang lungkot na aking nadarama sapagkat dati ako yung pinakawalan, ikaw ang nahirapan. Tapos sa kasalukuyan, kabaliktaran ang aking nararamdaman, ako yung nasasaktan, kahit ikaw yung aking iniwan. Gusto kong lumapit sayo ngunit sa tuwing gagawin ko ramdam ko ang 'yong paglayo. Ano pa nga ba ang aking magagawa? Kung ayaw mo na saakin di na kita pipilitin. Isa lang naman akong taong mahina, ginawa para ika'y mahalin.
aphotic blue Jul 2017
una sa lahat marami akong katanungan
lalo na sa araw ng iyong pag iwan
kahit isang taon na ang nakalipas ako parin ay nalilito
tuwing sasambitin ko ang iyong pangalan ako'y nanlulumo

aking napagtanto kung ang iyong ani saakin ay totoo
totoo nga ba ang lahat at minahal moko ng husto?
isa pang katanungan, bakit moko ginaganito?
hindi pa nga tayo sa gitna, bakit natapos na agad ang kwento?

bumalik sa aking isipan ang bawat salitang iyong nasambit
isa doon ang iyong inalayΒ Β na "mahal ko ito'y isang awit"
ngunit isang araw ako'y nakaramdam ng kaba sa dibdib
animo'y malayo pa lamang ay akin ng narinig
inalayan ko ang aking bisig, sa sobrang lakas ng iyong tinig
hindi ko alam kung sa paraang ito, pinapakita mo ang iyong pag ibig
gusto kong isigaw ang aking himig at ipadama lahat sa aking bibig.
ako'y tumakbo ng tumakbo ng di alintana ang paligid.
gusto kitang gisingin o idaan lahat sa panaginip
bakit mahal ko, umuulan naman aking mga mata
ikaw naman ang dahilan kung bakit ako ay nagdurusa
bigla akong pumikit at tiniis ang sakit
ngunit sa aking pag gising kailanman hindi mawawaglit
ang lahat ng mga salitang iyong nasambit.
aphotic blue Jul 2017
this girl never thought that I wasn’t her king
expectations in the first place that I wasn’t lying.
believing me all the untruth I was saying
I know she’s hurt, but tough, still smiling

honestly, it’s part of the plan making her cry
but the truth is I don’t know why
maybe she’s just acting, so do I
but what if, this is real and not covered with a lie?

would she accept me as a whole and drunk in love?
begging for happines and kindness above
seeking for kisses in every mourning dove
wondering about the present if this is true love
Jun 2017 · 379
aphotic blue Jun 2017
Is she the only who felt jealousy on desire?
the girl who always gazed on the boy she admire.
that perfect moment when she hides behind the spire
everytime a girl appear, her world transpire.

but the funny thing is, the boy asked her
β€œWhy are you looking at me all the time loser?”
the girl’s face distorted with rage and anger
but unexpected occurrence happened so faster,
the boy became a prisoner
the girl became a lawyer
the girl fights back with that simple answer.
you really can’t predict what happened after
the boy sits down without power,
he gave up everything and no one’s seems to help him better.

so who’s the person who felt desolate now?
the boy who became a bully?
or the girl who changed his personality?
aphotic blue Jun 2017
there was a girl I met recently,
she said she wants to hide her true identity,
so I didn’t ask her name actually,
I ask, β€œDid you do something not capable on our locality?”
she nods and changed the topic directly.

Months passed and people babble behind our backs
they we’re individuals who wear hoods and jackets coloured black
those times I really feel weird about what’s happening
I didn’t opened up to her and yet still examining
about this weird girl who continued talking
even though I wasn’t listening
to her story as a human being.

We talk as friends, talk comfortably as companion,
day-to-day we talked about our vivid imagination
if both of us reach our dreams and ambition
we would still be friends same as the introduction?

But something weird happened while I’m dreaming
the girl I met died at jumping on a tall building
she died, her head hits the ground on collision
I screamed in fear and dialed her number in full confusion

But no one answered.

I woke up stretched arms, what a long dream.
Jun 2017 · 375
aphotic blue Jun 2017
I woke up at midnight exactly 3am,
without holding any lucky gem,
I thought I would be so frantic roaming around
suddenly, I was enchant when I heard a captivated sound.

I followed the noise not long enough, I’ve found
A magical singing deer dancing on the ground
both my two feet move forward and my heart expound
when different people appeared made me astound on the background.

Is this wonderland am I seeing?
Is this really earth am I standing?
Is this still air am I breathing?
I look upon the growing lights, becoming
more intense during evening.

I don’t wanna go back to sleep and wait for morning,
my life wants to feel the wonderland I am having
maybe I was just dreaming of becoming a king
on this fantasies kingdom I am watching.
aphotic blue May 2017
In reality you’re just and ugly beast,
without exception on eating immensely feast.
You’re ugly, You’re fat, you don’t have big breast.
you’re so different,you’re so displeasing,
I prayed for your demise and other people atleast.

I saw you crying every moment,
I grinned watching you’re every movement,
Hoping for your permanent judgement,
waiting for you to loose your confident.
I want you to experience such load of lament
you don’t belong here, since you’re different.
Aren’t you tired of the bully,
Who attacks you violently?
Do you want to experience the life,
of grief frequently?
Do you hope for a death abusely?
carefully, you should live normally.
but you’re accusing us dangerously
So we will never stop being a bully.
May 2017 · 332
aphotic blue May 2017
A girl I met was very lovely,
The way she dressed is like a midst of the galaxy.
Her eyes shines to me so perfectly,
But we didn’t know she hides her true personality.

Suddenly, she talked to me anonymously,
She asked me If I want to be her friend temporarily,
So I answered her a yes directly,
we talk comfortably, she believes to me proudly.

Suddenly, moment passed and she told me about her anxiety,
I was so shocked and I don’t know how to react normally,
Despite of her ability, to act ambiguity
I was so impressed of her avidity
She thinks without problem and lives gracefully.

That girl became part of my life shortly,
But, I was so thankful to God I met her like destiny,
Despite of her story and beyond belief history,
I really idolized her for not giving up so easily.
May 2017 · 9.5k
aphotic blue May 2017
Minahal mo ba talaga?
O naawa ka lng sa kanya?
Tinigil mo na nga,
Kaso umiyak sya,
nagbago yung isipan.
Binalikan ng walang dahilan.
Tapos ngayon ika'y nalilito,
Kung titigilan ba ang panloloko.
Kaya mo ba syang saktan ng buong buo.
Mawala lng yung nararamdaman niya sayo.
Isipin **** mabuti yung gagawin.
Hindi ba sya masasaktan pag ika'y aamin?
Malungkot, luluha sya ng di inaakala
Tingin mo ba ang gagawin mo ay tama?
Kung ikaw ay aking tatanungin.
Kakayanin mo bang magmahal ng iba ng palihim?
Hindi ba sya magagalit pag sya'y iyong paglaruan?
Yung tipong nahuhubog kayo sa kasiyahan.
Pero yung totoo, katotohanan ba yan?
Hanggang tawa na lng ba kayo
Wala na lng ba talagang mangbabago ?
Subukan **** sabihin yung totoo.
Baka maraming masusubukang bago
Apr 2017 · 742
Silent Soul
aphotic blue Apr 2017
You know that feeling

Like you're not really there?
I was just looking at you intently,
But in reality you aren’t everywhere

Your just a fictional character,
I was just writing a letter
Like in your story I was just an interruption.
Making your life above into imagination,
Going beyond reality and aback fiction,
It is really hard to accept the explanation,
That you really caught my attention,
And living in the world without definition.

I enjoyed the compassion in your expression,
I can see in your eyes the love through confession,
Kisses we’re so deep I can’t accept the intension,
I’m going to our link in such devotion,
In being loyal and obsessed in our condition.

You know your like stars, I can’t reach.
Like everything in my world I was bewtiched.
Everything was so fantasize,
Everything was really emphasize,
Seems real but not,
But what can I do?

Begging to an imagined character to come true?
Everything was so perfect, Everything want’s to pursue.
But everything wasn’t real enough to believe.
I realize that’s the only relieve, I can retrieve.
I want to accept the fact that this is just a silent soul.
But I can’t sad to say, I can accept this as a whole.
Apr 2017 · 972
Obsessed with Death
aphotic blue Apr 2017
The beating of my heart seems lethally severe.
Full of misery, heart aches and fear.
Every pleased moment materialize, disappear.
T’ll my agony ends,
You didn’t know how I love you so sincere.

I am waiting for my life to end,
Holding back my mortal friend.
13 times where I was about **** myself,
Still wanting back the door to be open,
Everyday that’s the only thing I wanted to happen.
Yet my heart is still misshapen.
If you could comeback in any moment,
I would probably end up being permanent.

It is but one path, one direction

But this should lead to many other questions
It is really annoying if your just in my imagination
I perceived no other option,
Just to received so many disturbing attentions
Cause I know this is the only solution,
To make our story start up with the right position.

I hope you already know how hard my situation
I know there’s a gap in our correlation,
I know we will end up with no definition
Because of the difficulty in our affection
Yes, I want death with no confusion
Since, that’s the only thing who can make
Our story in no frustrations
Right Decisions,
And go back to introduction

Please help me death,
Please help me to go underneath,
Now I can forcibly cut my breath.
And now I can leave earth.
Apr 2017 · 925
Inspired by her death
aphotic blue Apr 2017
I just murdered someone I adore,
Now I realize, I can’t handle this anymore
Right now, your stuck in my brain
Everyday a pail of tears I gain every pain.

Reminscing those memories made me feel guilty,
But, why did I did that with my own curiousity?
Yes I am crazy because of my mentality.
But right now I want to come to you for infinity.

Am I going to hell for killing someone?
That darnedest things made me my life done.
Yesterday, tomorrow, I’m living with lonliness
Stuck in a room begging for happiness.

In reality, I want a time machine to happen
So that our love can be deepen
I want to say sorry for having you killed
IΒ Β Β Β want those promises to be fulfilled.
Yes, I have my life too regretting,
Everyday I think I am too intimidating
I hope my sorry’s can be acceptable,
But I assume it will never be because of those troubles.

I am aware, that day for you we’re too scary,
Realizing that you have to much injury
Just because of my abnormality
Hatred, guilt, aroused, personality
Our story ends within a seconds
Blood and tears falling, with no response
In this world, where I’ve been,
I just want to rewind all those unseen
At the age of sixteen.
You didn’t know how horrible my story.
So please don’t judge me because of my history.

Right now, so proud of holding a gun.
With you I can start with so much fun
I looked at your eyes, didn’t know how it begun
So please come to me honeybun

Last Phrase β€” I love you t’ll infinity.
Apr 2017 · 1.2k
Gentleman’s Dignity
aphotic blue Apr 2017
In that exotic locale, where we met
Never expecting, but so may prepared banquet
Past times when I didn’t even know you,
You aren’t even my favourite asset
I can’t imagine, your now with me
From being shy and timid, changed in being coquette.

Holding both hands while walking,
Jerking, joking, and loving,
We talked just like a couple,
But realizing I am in the state of frienzoned
In being friends, Everyday warzoned
Because of hoping and begging in a state couplezoned

As a gentleman’s dignity, I will do the very best
So that we can love in very deepest
In every relationships, I will answer every test
So that t’ll infinity our link will never be the failest.

Woke up early in the morning with embrace
To never stop gazing at yourΒ Β gorgeous face
Yes, everyday my kisses we’re too misplaced
Anywhere I want, even though your already in grimace.

I want to see you walking
In this memorable thing
In front of the altar,
Walking slowly with gentle
strumming of guitar,
I want to hear you saying β€˜I do’
When the priest started saying
and I said β€˜I do’ more than I Iove you .

For better, for worse, for richer, for poorer
I love you as gentleman’s dignity
Having this serious matrimony,
Without difficulty, and experiencing this simplicity,
Now you are in my property, with my own security
I will provide you full priority
If you love me with fidelity.

Without guilt and anxiety,
Please love me so dearly,
In facing this perfect matrimony,
We can’t be judged since we are already in legality.

I will guarantee my loyalty,
I will be faithful with my own dignity
Until we reach the age of ninety
Playing naughty and having infinity.

— The End —