I couldn't find the right words,
Nothing seems to make sense.
All I can think of is when we were together,
There's no dull moment.
We had our fun, we had our time.

But my friend I want you to know,
Burdens are lighter when carried by two.
If you need somebody to comfort you, just call my number whenever,
Cause I'm always here for you, day or night.

Happy birthday my friend.
I want you to know, I want you to hear
I love you so dear,
And you complete me, that’s no lie.

no matter what you do
no matter how hard you try
sometimes no amount of effort
can prevent you from losing
the people you wish to keep

it hurts because you cared
more than you should have
it hurts because your heart
is brave enough to love unconditionally

don't be afraid of the hurt
don’t run away from the pain

in the midst of chaos
you’ll cultivate the peace
after the distraction
you’ll rebuild yourself

If we can make it through December
Maybe we'll make it through forever
'Cause all I want for Christmas
Is you and me to fix this
If we can make it through December
Every New Year we'll be together
Baby, all I want for Christmas
Is you and me to fix this

It hasn't been the greatest year
But through thick and thin we made it here
Just keep holding onto me
And I'll hold you
But we made it through the hardest part
And I followed you, the brightest star
I just wanna be where you are
Right where you are

i wish
i wish
for love like this
a love like summer
being kissed by the sun
a love like winter
hugged and covered with snow
a love like night
being lit by the moon’s glow

i pray
i Pray
that this never fades away
many claims of being in love
but non of them ever stay

i hope
i hope
i rely in our love
i rely on your heart
i wish, i hope
i pray we never part

Am I selfish for wanting you?
Even if you don't like me.
Am I selfish to wanting your time?
Even if you don't care about me.
Am I selfish for pushing myself to you?
Even if you really don’t care.

I wrote you many poems
You said, you like it.
How about me?
Do you like me too?

She’s too special in her own many ways,
Even a blind man can see it,
Her smile, Her laugh, the way she talks,
Even her annoying little voice,
All of it makes her unique,
And her uniqueness makes her special.

They say “life is too short, do whatever makes you happy”
Clearly they’re not afraid of dissappointmenting someone.
Cause I do!
My goal is make them happy even if it makes me unhappy.

But my question is if all that matter is they’re happiness,
How do I get the chance to be happy and they won’t get to be disappointmented?

why dreams is hard to achieve
specially if your just average

i know from the beginning
i'll fail
but here i am still feeling like a failure
why am i crying
why am i so disappointed

i failed
what do i expect from me
i am expecting this  out come from the very begging
but secretly hoping the opposite

maybe
its wrong for me to dream high
im not a hard worker
i am not brainy
i should expect less from me

i am not like them
i should dream less
expect a bare minimum

Its been months
Since the day i saw you,
Those smile combined with your eyes
A perfectly created like a painting
That amazed me every time

But today the painting start to moved away
Until my eyes cant see it anymore

It was wrong hoping that you would stay forever
It was wrong wishing that you would not leave
It was wrong wishing that you would love me too

I am blue,
I feel blue,
Can someone please save me.
Someone

He's favorite color is blue
His obsess with the color blue
To the point that
The feeling he feels is blue

I met you with a broken heart inside you,
And I promise myself that you boy will never be broken again.
I gave you all my love,
A love more than anyone can imagine,
I gave you my whole heart, every free time I got
Even my soul, I gave it all to you.
But I guess every story has to end. right?
Because when she came back,
You throw me away,
Like I was nothing to you.
You throw my heart away and left.
Thank you for the broken heart you gave me,
That once yours.

Im in my own house but i cant breath
Im with my family but I can’t be who i am
I wanna go out
Jut a little while to be me
The be the real me
To breath
Cause im suffocating
And getting depressed
Day by day
I can’t breath
I need air

I can’t breath with you around
I can’t breath seeing you with other people
Hugging other people
Kissing other people
Flirting other people
I can’t breath
But i want to be with you
I want to keep breathing with you around
I want to live with you around
I want to keep breathing because of you

He was like a cigarette
I know he's bad for me
But it feels so good
What can I do, am already addicted
And I knew I should stop
Just like that
I cant stop

I feel it
My lungs, my heart
Its crying begging to stop
But I cant
I cant stop
I'm loving it
I'm loving him

Even though it's hurting me inside
Its addicting
The feeling and the pain

How can I stop my demon,
When my demon is myself.

Im the demon of my own story
And there’s no way to stop it.

Maybe that’s why I hate myself so much
Because my demon and I are one

Im not sure if i already have moved on
But i saw you in my dream
I don’t know what does it mean
If i just missed you or you’re thinking of me
But im happy
Im happy that i saw you
Even if it was a dream

I don’t know if I already have moved on.
But I saw you in my dream
I don’t know what does it mean
I don’t know why your in my dream
But im happy
Im happy that your in my dream
Because i got to see you
Even if it was all a dream.

I found myself,smiling.
Staring at my phone,
While waiting for your replies.

I smile bitterly,
When I realize you’re not gonna reply,
All the feelings that I’m hiding dies.

Can you help me,
I’m drowning in my own feelings

We’re both right for each other,
But we met in the wrong time,
At the wrong place.
Maybe one day we’ll meet again,
And everything will be perfect.
But for now,
I want you to know,
Your my favorite regret.

you’re going to hurt yourself
holding on to the same hands
that pushes you closer to heartache

Every single day in this quarantine
My thoughts are eating me alive
I don’t know what to do anymore
Im breaking
Day by day my thoughts are getting worst
Im in the peek of giving up
Everyday my depression is getting worst
Im crying and screaming for help
Deep inside

I’ve been thinking that i can love you better than her.
But someone told me if im better lover than her,
Why is that she is in your arms right now and not me?

But i still believe that i can love you better than her. Just give me a chance. One more chance.

he texted you right?
claiming to miss you
claiming to care
even though he’s rarely there
those lies cause confusion
he chose himself
but you always choose him
a lack of love that kept you hurting
forcing yourself to fix something
that was never working

he texted you right?
only because he’s bored
*****, tired of the person
he left you for
claiming to love you
but that’s the same man
who left you to **** someone
ignore his messages
and he’ll text somebody
with the same old lines
the same old lies
the man doesn’t deserve your love
sweetheart, open your eyes

This is my last poem for you
And i swear this is the last. I promise

You know me, im not the kind of girl who gave up so easily
If I want something i will do anything to have it
But in this case i should stop.
Even if you are the one that i like.

I don’t wanna lose you
But im hurting you more than showing my love
And that’s not what love should be

If letting you go makes you happy
Im willing to do it without any hesitation
Because that is love should be.

I love you and I want you to be happy
Even if it doesn’t include me anymore.
Maybe someday (just maybe) our love story has a continuation
And it has a happy ending.

Loving you is easy
No need to learn it
I just felt and knew i love you
It didn’t took me years
It just second of a conversation
And i already new
But why is that
Unloving you is hard
I have to learn it
It took me years and i still love you
Even google have a wrong answer
Is there a way to learn to unlove you

stop chasing things
that make you lose yourself

he never told her why
but somehow
she already knew

understand that you tried your best
and that will always be enough
even when others are incapable
of appreciating it

don’t be his second opinion
don’t be the one he calls
when no one else answers

the heart lingers
in the hand of those
incapable of keeping it safe
and i’ve become one of those people
who fall in love with lies
that sound like the truth

i wish you loved you
as much as you loved him

Im in my own house but i cant breath
Im with my family but I can’t be who i am
I wanna go out
Jut a little while to be me
The real me
To breath
Im suffocating
And getting depressed
Day by day
I can’t breath

You hate me being stubborn, So i change
You hate me being needy, So i change
You hate me being friendly, So i change
You hate me being “one of the boys”,So i change
You hate me being party goer, So i change
You hate me being clingy, So i change

But I realized you don’t love me
Because if you love me you won’t change me, you’ll love everything about me

Your with me but I'm not me anymore
I lost myself because of you
And because I don’t wanna lose you

But not anymore
I won’t change myself for you anymore
It’s your choice to accept me or to love me
I won’t change myself now because of you

There is a reason I said I'd be happy alone
It wasn't because I thought I'd be happy alone
it was because I know if I loved someone
then it fells apart
i might not make it
its easier to be alone
because what if you learn you need love then you don't have it
what if you like it and lean on it
what if you shape your life around it  then fells apart
can you even survive it?
that kind of pain
losing love is like dying
the only difference is death ends
this, it could be forever

you're too good for me
i know it and i think you know it too
i should get out of your own way
it's wrong for feeling this way
deep down i know it
there's no happy ending to this story

i'll walk away
no looking back
but before that
im going to say it
for the first time and probably the last
there's no stopping me

its ok if you don't feel the same way
i will smile every time you'll smile
i will laugh every time you'll laugh
but if you ever find yourself looking for me
i'll still be here
waiting for you

Tell me you love me baby,
Please, tell me all you need is me.
Tell me everything i wanna hear,
Even if it was all a lie.

Cause right now, all I need is you
I feeling so down,
And all I need you baby.
Can you hear me?
Im calling your name so loudly.

Telling you to comeback
Just even for a months
Just until im ready to let you go

I want a love that is really mine
Love with no fear
Love whole heartedly
I want a love that never ends

Stop texting
Stop calling
Stop making me feel special
Just stop
Stop saying you love me
Stop lying

Life is like a business world
You need people
But you can’t trust them
You can only do is grow big
And maybe someday
You can stand on your own
So no one can hurt or disappoint you

My depression is getting worst
Im around with my family
But i wish I don't
I can’t be who i am when I around them
So here i am writing
Writing what i feel
Telling about what i feel
Because im about to snap

They say I have everything.
The moneys in my account
The expensive things
The boys and the parties
But why do I feel like a lonely girl?
I feel so alone and empty
But I make them believe I have everything
Like what they always think.

Dad look
I am good at taking care my sibling
Would you look at me now?

Dad look
I have perfect scores in all of my tests
Would you look at me now?

Dad look
I'm good at volleyball
Would you look at me now?

Dad Look
I'm already in college
Would you look at me now?

Dad Look
I graduate with honor
Would you look at me now?

Dad I'm getting tired now
Look at me dad
What do you want me to do?
For you to look at me

People can’t live without love
Living means nothing if you have nothing to love
But love is scary
Specially if the person you love doesn’t love you back
Love is scary
Because if you love someone they also have the right to hurt you as hell

The marriage is over for a decade
So why keep trying
Why bother to saving it
Why don’t you give it up
If your hurting again and again
I just don't get it

Life is so unfair.
I can give the love you all deserves but all you can see is her.
So I wonder, is she loves you right,
I wonder if she’s giving you happiness you deserve,
I wonder if she hold your hand in public or even kiss you in public,
Is she introduce you in her family.
Cause all of that, I can do it for you.

Don't you see?
I want you to show me
Not to hide me

Don't you hear?
I am begging

I want you to say I am your girl
Not to whisper in my ears
But say to the world

Don't you feel?
I am belittling myself
Everytime you say I am your childhood friend

What should I do?
For you to be proud of me
For me to be enough
For you to be contented

I am yours
Is that not enough?