“I wanna be a medtech and make my parents proud” - my only wish again and again

But im losing my hope
I feel so down

I feel like I don’t have a life anymore
School, review in cafe, home, repeat.

But still failed grades?
What should I do?
Every braincells is already used.
But still a failed grades?

Im losing my hope
I don’t know what to do

My only dream is be a medtech and make by parents proud
But I fail repeatedly

I disappoint myself
And specially I disappoint my parents

I wanna give up

six years in the making
put a liter of tears and toil
cost a million minutes of stress
and thousands of sleepless night

                         All will gonna be paid off tonight

six tiring years in the making
friendships come and go
but treasured ones are my four girls
been there through smooth and rough, but now

                         All will gonna be paid off tonight

six difficult years in the making
great part is learning knowledge
but the best is gaining wisdom
and the highlights are the shared memories

                          All will gonna be paid off tonight

six years of almost quitting
reason to stop believing: not found
been on the edge of farewell
few more inches before

                          All are paid off tonight

six years of hard work
none will be in vain
all the tears and pain
will turn into a beautiful gain
                              
                         When all were paid off tonight. :')