To all of you and your families! !!

BASED ON TRUE EVENTS:


One evening in the fall my mom took my brother and I to get some food..
We wanted fried chicken so she took us to churches chicken..

We went through the drive through and noticed right away that a brown chevy nova was in front of us while a white ford pick-up was behind us..

I was in the passanger seat, my mom was driving, and my bro was in the back seat..

My brother had a drink with him and he moved up in the middle of the seat to tell me and my mom something..
He spilled the drink onto the front seat and my mom and i tried to avoid getting wet..

In that 3 seconds we all noticed it at once what had truly happened..
The chevy nova in front of us was now behind us while the white ford pick-up was now in front of us..

3 seconds they switched spots.. all 3 of us noticed it.. this is not impossible if the time suited it correctly..

this means the white truck would have to reverse all the way around the restraunt while the brown chevy nova would have to drive all the way around.. i still can not explain it till this day..

There are moments of darkness in the blue light.
It feels like an unmapped expanse is wrapping around me.
I'm able to do my job to its full extent.
But now there seems to be a toll.
For so long now I have been among the stars.
Diving into their cores for new life.
But I've come to a realization what this feeling is.
My prolonged existence is the divine energy taken from these stars.
But as I take light and divinity from these heavenly bodies.
I begin their countdown toward fate.  
The dying stars are the darkness I am feeling.

The way the sun hits the leaves.. The way the shadows dance below in the wind.. The storm has passed.. but as the leaves move in the wind I still manage to get rained on.

Grassy field..

Ocean shore..

Moonlit night..

Morning star rise..

All the places where I have awaited the end.. In these dreams silence takes over all sound.. Here in these places the purples in the sky are coming slowly..

The morning star rises face to face with our old sun..
Its as if 2 suns shine the neverending day.. The old phoneix spreads its all colored wings.. The Morning star was the light egg the Phoneix came from...

The beast of fire, the firebird, Feathered dragon of the sun returns.. Its song takes over the silence.. A song of firey happiness.. The morning star rise.. This moment is mine to keep.. And I share this dream with you.. A dream of what I thought was the end.. A dream where I finally begin...

Hello John..
Mr Phantom its been awhile.."
Do you remember what I am here for?
Of course!"

Lets see Phantom, Phantom oh here it is!"
Three bottles of Jack Daniels, And two Crown royles..."
And peppercorn spice, ground pepper, salt, course salt, cinnamon, and garlic spice."

Cash or credit Mr Phantom?"
Cash."
Thank you sir always good to see you.!"
Until next time soon my friend.

Sozen, Log 1212< Earth : On my trip back I am delighted to have Earth on my path home.. I always stop by to get the best drinks in the quadtrant alongside the best food flavoring one could find.. I have not yet found any place that can make such delights!! I will arrive planetside in 12 days...

For everything a reason.  Our universe within this mind will go forth eternal.  His struggles are far from over.  The addiction was not able to corrupt him so.  His new found light was able to shine it all away.  Its then I come to a realization of who I am in all this.  I was his light all along.  And he has forgiven his self for not believing in the terror he went through that night.  I have found the memory of what happen to him. On what happen to all of us.  This memory is a lone star outside of all other galaxies that exist within.   My celestial star owls dare not venture close.  But I must return to this memory.  Because the memory is me.  I will share such a memory with you.  

On April 7th 1984, I was born.  My mother and father held me close and gave to me warmth and love.  My fathers eyes looked to me with pride and unconditional love. My mothers eyes look to me with love and endless worry.   My mothers light was as bright as any sun I have ever seen. She contained a belief  that was unparalleled by any.  My fathers light shined beautifully with a perfect balance.   One dark day my mothers brightness took her over.  She loved me so much that she did not want me to experience any form of sin and darkness.  That I could be part of an endless heaven if I was to go  while I was pure.   There was a ****** into the light that night.  A ****** that would forever grant me passage to a heaven and beyond she believed existed.  He found us that night when he got home.  It was the end of him.  It was the end of his belief.  My mother smiled at him and said she will forever be in a better place. He turned to drugs to numb the pain.  The only glow of belief he had left was not to take is own life. For there may be a chance he may be able to see me again.  And he was right.  We battled the addiction together. We believed in the light together again.   He knew then I still existed somewhere.  And that one day he will see me again.  It will be the day when he breathes in the light...  My name is Hope.
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It seem wicked and unnatural..
Something from another realm..
Yet the music it played was coming from me..
So I knew I was somewhat of the source..

I could feel it wanting my thoughts..
I could feel it becoming happy..
Darkness was smiling..
Darkness was alive also..

With any light I cast this shadow..
It plays for me music of darkness..
Notes and melodies of the shade..
I yearned to play the music inside of me for so long it awoke this musical blackness..

I became friends with it..
I gave it more and more everyday..
And at the right angle I could cast more and more shadows adding more instruments of umbra to my songs..

The best songs come from the shadows cast from candlelight..
The natural flame creates the darkess of shadows..
One is standing in front of me now playing the violin..
And another behind me playing the guitar..
While I sing the lyrics to this music of darkness..

My last Sabrina lasted for 81 days.  She simply did not wake this morning.  Failure was narrowed down to the algorithmic pattern simply losing its conformity.   I am deeply sadden at this failure as I thought I truly brought her back this time.  

Solution for problem:   Further study of Sabrina 201 is that the pattern could remain intact  if I was to add a free will process.  This would completely free her of an erratic need to completely love me. She could love me freely with no boundaries or given thoughts.

Sabrina 202 is a success!  She is so beautiful!  And she loves me!  

I followed Sabrina 202 to the market today and saw she met with another man..

My worst fears have succumb! Sabina 202 has fallen in love with someone else.

She left me for him..

I am afraid to start a Sabrina 203.  My true Sabrina loved only me.

No number.
My just Sabrina.

at one point i saw your ghost..
it was your soul..
it made me cry for but a moment..
my light brown eyes formed tear mirrors..
and i prayed that you saw your reflection in them..
even if it was just for a moment..
i still love you...

at one point i saw your ghost..
it was your soul..
it made me cry for but a moment..
my light brown eyes formed tear mirrors..
and i prayed that you saw your reflection in them..
even if it was just for a moment..
i still love you...

bring the beauty back..
to tHE LITTLE FLOWER..
it may be a random song, random moment, and a random poem..
but at times you will find the sadness of your god..
until one day he taught her how to build a galaxy..
away from darkness..
and i must say, it looked like a lightwheel dream..
so come and visit me in this dream chamber..
just find the light of the night..
if you can't fly ride a lightcycle..
come and break the curse of the serpent of the old world..
be a stardiver..
learn to moondive..
because all of you here are stars..
and i forgot to tell you the colors said H E L L O..
thank you for reading My poetry:

Gone.
For the moment I was gone.
But the colors would not let me fade away.
No matter how hard I tried I could not dream in black and white.

Forgotten..
I tried to make myself forget..
But the voices would always remind me..
They spoke during beautiful moments of music and ambient thought.

My shadows..
My shadows would continue to write even when I was gone..
They wrote on the darkness of my soul leaving behind words of light..
They answered for me even when I was gone..

I saw my hands begin to glow when I read that my Lightcycles were still filling up with souls.  Even when I was gone my shadow and Miss B saw this through.  My shadow was out building Lightcycles taking new and old souls across the cosmos.. To meet up with Destiny!  I will soon catch up to my shadow and become one once again.. Storm blue horizons, lightning rider, thunderchase dreams Ill see you soon! The green rider will give me a ride.. (S.F.C)

I open my eyes to see my dying dragon.. Dragon eyes welcome me back..  She stands up once again and spreads her silver wings.. With a mighty roar she lifts her body up into the black cloud sky.. Her wings create thunder.. She roars to the cosmos! Im sure you heard her BigM!

On this night a knight picked me up.. Told me to keep going.. to keep fighting..  I thank this knightnight..

And to the LovelyLo! Ill come back strong for you..  You are my poetry

i was finished.. i had done what needed to be done..
revenge is mine..
redemtion is defined..

my journey has been long..
everything lost..
i have no one..

i was weak..
all i had was love..
but it was no where near enough..

hate with no pity..
weakness its food..
and that night weakness filled their hungry stomachs..

i gave my soul to my shadow..
i let it take over..
it all started when my shadow said hello...

This is it.. On the otherside there will be a bridge.. Run across it and do not look back.. Run as fast as you can no matter what!

Once you reach the end of the bridge scream the chant! From there on I do not know what to tell you.. They are coming go!

As i cross over i see the bridge dad was talking about.. i run as fast as i can go.. a heavy fog begins to built with each running step.. there it is the end of the bridge! A huge beast is beyond the bridge and is waiting for me! It then takes a battle stance and waits for me.. at last the end of the bridge! the beast screams and leaps at me! I scream the chant reguardless! !!!! naidraug nogard esir!!!!

I FEEL STRANGE.. I SEE THINGS DIFFERENT.. I HEAR SOUNDS I HAVE NEVER HEARD.. THE BEAST IS BELOW ME NOW.. THE BEAST IS RUNNING AWAY FROM ME.. I SEE MY REFLECTION IN THE DARK WATERS BELOW THE BRIDGE.. I HAVE BECOME A DRAGON!

Nature's memory

  The soil touches your feet.  Heaven below. As the sky and winds play with your hair. Heaven above. Voices of leaves rustle their poems. The memory of you is not so far away.  As nature has never forgotten you even one thousand dreams away.

Never been to good at leaving.  I like to stay put. Seeing others leave is kinda hard to deal with also.  If I do leave its not for a long time.  Crazy how we can see and experence the most beautiful of places.  But you soon find yourself going back home.  My home is not so glamorous and adventurous.  In fact it is a very small town in the middle of nowhere.   But it is home. It is a place that I will always find myself going back to.  

I have seen a great deal in the stars out here.  There are not many streetlights where I live.  This makes it easier for one to observe and feel the sky above.  When I put my music on a new world is seen within this small little town.  I later find out that this little town is the center of all the universe.  Its where it all begins and never ends..

Nevermind....
Forget about this soul grind...
So much wasted energy on songs about stars..
So much imagination seep through these light scars..

Nevermind....
Was I so blind...?
I can't believe I created fractals of shadows and light for you..
I was blind and never saw things true..

Nevermind....
No more sad darkness, just shine..
I am free from all of this sadness..
I have found my way through all of this madness..

Nevermind....
Some of the time..
That I set aside for you..
I am one in my mind now and no longer two..

Nevermind....
I no longer feel confined..
Thank you for not missing me..
And showing me what I needed to see..

From the letters of my family.  Ancestors stay:  Toward the mid summer of 1986 I am the family member chosen for the stay.  There is yet to be a letter that documents a normal stay of night at the house Sirs..  But I find myself very ready for such an event.  As to why my family never breaks such tradition is beyond me.  I do not understand such trials.  I suppose it makes us feel we are important to a world that seeks out the normal viewing of life.  I welcome the stay..  I begin my first hour in reading all of the family letters written about this place.  I read under candlelight.  

The first took place in July 5th 1886:
Ben S Olvanas:

Brown deep, dream eyes sweet..
dark iris soul swim deep..
take me into your star..
shine forward and take me far..

pale skin sweet milk dream..
dark hair flows with moonlight gleam..
nightmare goddess sultry touch..
takes my flame with broken trust..

The red skies filled in with gray black clouds.  Red lightning danced from cloud to cloud as it would not thunder but instead scream.  It was terrifying to see and hear.  The shadow tree had become a forest of darkness and wicked laughter.  The leaves were made of dead pale shadow light with no shine to them.   Under the forest was a wicked darkness no light seem to penetrate.  Inside the darkness were golden eyes watching me.  Thousands of them  started to lurk and move upon me.   It was then I saw a small pillar of light at the center of all this madness.  It was the body, the person that is the vessel for the mind we live in.   It was the God I believed in.  It was the omnipresent.  Never Have we been able to meet the spirit of the person we live in.  He was space and time.  The creator.  The very universe we live in.  How was this possible.  As he walked toward me all of the golden eyed shadows scampered away.  The shadow trees turned into trees of light. The red skies cracked as blue bled back into the skies.  There were white clouds that now filled the sky and the grass was as green as emerald.  My heart beat light pulses.  It was the most amazing visual I had ever seen.  He did not see me.  Nor was he aware of the addiction he had shined away.  He simply walked on through.  Flowers of all color grew around where he had stepped.  He walked up to the final Shadow tree that was left.  He raised his hands to the sky as all the flower pedals spun around him. To him the shadow tree was nothing but a dead tree.  Storm blues rolled in and it began to rain heavily.  Tornados made of light spun around the shadow tree erasing all the shadow from it.  A tree full of flower pedals of all colors was what was left.  The air shifted in my direction as I could smell the beautiful aroma of the flower tree.  He then seem to look into my eyes.  He saw me before he awoke.  My celestial star owls sang the song of return as I awoke alongside our universe.

This light was not only beautiful.  
It was what you call heaven I believe.
The onslaught radiance sang across the cosmos.
A song about a forbidden divinity that should never occur.

No darkness there could stop it.
All shadows died and became light.  
The light crunch had taken over.
And I was the last darkness.

The balance was gone.
No darkness for the stars to roll on.
No darkness to sleep in.
Just eternal dawn and forgotten dusk.

Walking at night with no flash light..
Thunderstorms on the way.
Lightning blues color black blue..
Stars leave to someone else's dreams.
Streetlights on in the corner before dawn..
Sun rises in the storm.

I can be having a bad day.. Where nothing seems right at all.. Where Bad luck puts all its weight on my chest.. Sometimes it seems like I can't get up at all.. But what I find amazing is how all of it fades away in an instant..

It happened when I was walking down the hall and she smiled at me.. Just a smile.. LOL, wow just a smile.. Your smile melted all of that away.. That smile lit up every star in my galaxy.. Although for a moment, your smile seem to light my hope..

And so the day became better. Stuff broke down, got a flat tire, but the thought of your smile makes all that seem like hurdles for me to jump over.. And nothing more. No more naming things like that bad luck..

Every now and again there is a street light. Most my walk is done in the dark. I feel wicked things watching me from the trees. But that's all they can do is watch. 

My dog angel walks beside me fearless. She will follow me into hell if need be. She barks and growls at the wicked eyes that watch us. She chases the ghost away. 

Another street light shines over the star filled sky. As I walk on by not afraid of the dark.

I remember hearing you say that you were the lightning..
I heard you go by today..
The thunder cracked the silence for but a moment and made me smile really big!
I knew you just past by!
Its good to hear from you...

Nothing truly never ends or begins. It just keeps on going forever..
You are the continuation of someone somewhere..
And you will be the continuation for someone somewhere..
No matter how you look at it..
You are a ripple that will wave across the eternal flow of time..

Now just add blue.  Notice the atmosphere change in an instant.  Its what I see in you.  The calm and pureness that such a color creates for the soul. To look at blue brings the sense of coolness and calmness to a once nervous understanding.  The oncoming storm on the horizon is my favorite type of blue.  I cannot mimic such a color.  Mixed in with the blue white lightning that dances across such beautiful storm blues. It then creates a sense of omniscient oncoming fury mixed in with a calm soothing color that then combines a certain aspect of not being able to control such chaotic beauty. You just have to let the storm pass.  We all just need to let the storm pass.

On a boardwalk across the universe I meet with her.  For the first time and last.  I could not think of anything to say to her.  I just listen to what she has to say instead.  Her light skin and firey brown eyes warm the cold night around me.  She sips a star rain under the dim lights.  And then she smiles.  The perfect moment.  All the stars seem to fall from the sky.  The sky is full of infinite wishes.  But she is still smiling.  Nothing compares to that view.  Not even a sky full of falling stars and wishes.

Some of those streaks of blue you see in the sky are not comets are falling stars.  Someone has found their star glass machine, hidden in the darkness of doubt and despair.  They have learned to ride and balance on thought. On memories of light and imagination caught, within a star glass machine the emotion engine starts.  

Endless blue blazing fills my Lightcycle machine, lightning bird wings spread far and wide, I travel at the speed of thought to places unseen.  Across the stars and into your mind.  I find the universe and your beautiful shine.  It is all endless! All forever! Eternal memories, Infintie light melodies.

Starts off with a beat..
Sad slow and sweet..
True tones of blue..
Sad songs sing true..
Em chord strum pattern slow..
Into C and Am flow..
The sound reminds me of you..
And all that we been through..
I can see us in the rain..
With smiles and no pain..
Sun light breaks through..
And streaks the strom blue sky with a rainbow..
The air is brisk and smells storm sweet..
The puddles of raindrops cool your bare feet..
We walk to the dry creek that now has a steady stream..
We put or hands in the water and I awake from this dream..

There is a early spring flower blooming in the late winter sun..
I think they call them indian paint brushes..
Its firey red pedals shined brighter than the late winter sun..
It was the only color we saw in the new green grasses..
Green grasses brought by a thunderstorm from a week ago..
There is a small hint of spring perfume in the late winter air..
We feel her pass through us every now and again..
We continue forward on our walk to no where..
We'll go as far as we want to..
We cross a bridge with a small stream running under it..
Although full of trash it still holds a majestic beauty under this now one star evening sky..
The stream is strong creating musical water notes and songs..
A cardinal bird follows alongside us from tree to tree..
His red feathers are the only thing that has surpassed the beauty of the lone beautiful indian paint brush we came across earlier..
The night is now kissing the day away..
Time to walk back..
We will let you know what we see..

I could remember the cycle.  
I could remember the movements..
So simple yet so complex.

The series of activation protocols.
And the unknown science the brings life to them..
The Astra auras and the elemental mixtures..

The hike into the light and dark wilderness..
The other side of the other side..
The calling of shadows and reflections..

The tones of outer world..
The songs heard past the stars..
The convolution of me and my memory..

The moment I remember..
What was forgotten..
On how to combine light and darkness..

On how to Weaponize my imagination.....

I know she watches us from inside..
But us became few..
And few became one..
But I decided to stay and drink her sweetwater in the sun..

On light wings alone..
I hover outside..
I decided to stay for her smile..
And for her soul to shine..

I ignore the the warm calls from the south..
Just for a few more moments with her eyes..
My light wings brighten her day..
Even under cloudy skies..

There will be a day where I must leave..
Then I will be seen in reverie..
But even when I am not there..
Ill be with her in dreams and memories.. On Light Wings...

What I was seeing..  
Was a place I knew all to well..
It was my room..
But what I am about to describe to you was something beyond that..
You see when I put on this strange suit I could view things in their true state..
The beautiful chimes and tones I am hearing are a song I often listen to..
But the difference is that I am hearing it at 800x its natural speed..
It is beyond amazing..
The mixture of the slow music is being mixed in with how I see light filling a room..
I could see the rays of light slowly push away the darkness..
The light then seems to sit in place where the darkness once was..
Its as if I could see the darkness trying to push back but to no avail..
The light wins every time..
Only when light leaves is when darkness can take over..
I then take the strange suit off and everything returns back to normal..
Tomorrow I will go to the forest and put it on..

On my way back the sun was starting to run away around to the otherside of this blue blaze among the stars..

I had gone for one of my walks down this old country road where I live..  

The new early evening was brisk and quite cool.. My dog walked right beside me..  For any of you with writers block this is a well known remedy for such illness..  

The skies had about 4 clouds that were fading fast..  The runaway setting sun painted the sky a beautiful deep orange mixed in with atmoshere purples..  

The long road back look even more majestic under this orange and purple sky paint..  

This is how I know there are spirits and ghost that follow me about on these walks..  I truly think they are feeding and wispering to me ghostly and spiritual words for the poems and stories I write..

There is but one cloud left.. And then it happens..  It begins to rain.. Very very light rain it was.. Mixing in the rain and the setting sun was a visual I cannot begin to describe.. Although it fell lightly the rain was large enough to capture the oranges and purples that now filled in the reflecting water droplets of the sky..

I get it..  And I thank these ghost and spirits for such a beautiful visual.. Ill see you all again soon.. Or at least you will see me "smiles"

On the day I left it was 10 am Oct 2nd 2089..
I have been gone for 2 years now..
I have been on the crimson planet Mars for 8 months
I know they are going to ask, " So what was the best part of your mission."
Mars was quite amazing! I can say that I succeeded in growing plant life there and that the Earth domes worked like they were suppose to.. When the next crew gets here they will see patches of green upon green as the plant life will start to flourish.. And then the oceans will return in the next 200 years.. The strange new atmosphere of mars also sustains life in such a way that one could live for 400 years.. Its as if this planet was meant for the red blooded human race.. But although that was amazing in and of itself the best part of my mission was seeing the Earth again up close.. And then touchdown back home.. Walking out heavy toward my beautiful wife! Space is huge and full of wonder.. But there is no star that shines quite like her eyes.. A deep fiery brown that the sun is jealous of.. And then finally to hold her in my arms and smell her hair.. I smell her hair with my eyes close and find that she is my best mission ever!

On the flip side...


its to quiet.. no thoughts or words.. just at times the sound of silence beeps on through..

its to dark.. no sight or light.. just at times the red and yellow blops i see when i close my eyes.. they cascade upon eachother trying to take over.. but no color ever wins..

its to sad.. no courage or strength.. just at times weakness trying to be strong only to give up for whats wrong..

its to wet.. no sun or clear skies.. just at times a shread of light trying to see underneath this dense storm of falling mist..
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all the shades of my sadness are clear...... so i take a deep breath for a moment.. and i begin to listen, see, smile, and feel..
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the sound is beautiful.. a song plays for me in my head .. one of my favorites as i pick up the pace..

i light the candle.. a beautiful light is quite a sight.. i close my eyes and see pass the reds and yellows.. i see her, the candlelit flame burns for her..

i crack a smile.. i let go.. and i stand up.. i look forward and begin to run faster..

the storm passes.. sunlight rains down.. never giving up.. the sun seems to shine on with me.. behind me pushing me with her light.. that huge candle was lit for me.. at least today it was..

We walked through the flood waters to the green hill.  It was the only high ground around.  The sun shined down and we could see through the clear waters.. We watched the fish go by.. It was a beautiful peace..

On the far side of me was you.  I ride on my lightning bike passed Neptune in route toward home.  Its good to see my solar system.  I have been all over the galaxy.  Seen wonders no one has ever seen.  And yet none are as wonderous as you smiling at me for but a moment.  I cannot have you nor will I steal you away.  All I want is your smile. Just to see it.  Then I will ride off for the 2nd universe.  On my lightning bike made of star glass.  To see if I can find a wonder that is more wonderous than you.  I smile at the thought of me coming back again. Just to view your smile.  Because I know that even in the 2nd universe there is nothing more beautiful than you.

On starlight road.
Blue neon star sign blinks.
On my way out of this world.
Off a cliff and slingshot past the moon.

On the other side of the twilight.
I meet with you.
We walk the bridge of shadows.
Over the river of light.

Tomorrow songs.
Played on yesterday's light strings.
Lyrics of time.
And melodies of dreams.

Its not quite what you think..
The surface is as dark as night..
You can even see the stars above..
The life here is made of fire..
The birds, the lizards, the caterpillars that turn into fiery butterflies..
Even the flowers  look like stars..
The waters are made of light..
Cool to the touch..
They heal all..
And give life back..
Its then I start to remember how I got here..
Back on Earth I was asleep..
I then saw a strange light from above..
In a dream..
I stepped into the light..
And saw light angels within..
But what I thought were angels were simply the people of the sun..
It took about 8 minutes to get to the sun..
They walked with me on the surface of the sun..
To them I shined brighter than anything there..
But truly I was returning home..
I was their son..

On this island in the sky..
Above all of the stars..
I sing a song to the moons that glow..
A song about what might be below..

The sky islands are home..
Always have been..
They say that there is nothing below..
But I believe there is truly something there I hope.

That is until one night a beam of light shined..
It pointed from down under..
Toward our sky islands above..
They looked to us with wonder..

Some of us were amazed.
While some of us were scared..
Is this something good or something bad..
Perhaps there is a reason we never knew of the people below our sky land..

That late evening drive was just what I needed.  With music to keep me company and help clear my thoughts.  The setting sun created oranges and purples for my eyes to make love to.   I would pass over rivers that looked like mirrors that looked like false skies flowing below me.  I drove and I drove. To no where. To everywhere.

I can always tell when I am on a different planet..  At times much of the surface looks the same as others...  But its when the stars come out at night..  Misplaced and rearranged they seem.. The stars of someone else's sky reminds me that I am never in the same place.. The constellations all have their stories..  I call it the book of stars.. As it is never ending to all the different eyes that behold them somewhere in time elsewhere...   This star page tells me I am on Earth tonight.. Orion is the first to greet me..  I must continue on..

the structures, magnifcient beauty behold..
in silence i can hear their story be told..
long ago a race built them to sustain life..
to harness a great energy, a sort of astrial drive..

in a circle they were built..
at the center was a platform that tilt..
i stood at the center and looked to the stars..
it tilted slighly and revealed a pale blue light from afar..

or second home shined bright blue..
the structures powered a doorway through..
we arrived on earth so long ago..
driving out a race that was here before..

Out blossoms the fractal of endless colors..
Inmost to the outmost reach of the oblivion and creation thoughts..
The convolution gyre where your thought first formed..
A helix of fragments that turn into a memory..
A memory where I remember you from a dream..

It begins with a step forward..
A step forward past death..
On the other side of the other side.
With all life intact..

To cross over..
With a heartbeat and conscience..
Without ever greeting death..
Would be the birth of an Outer Angel/ Outer Demon..

We are allowed glimpses of ultimate light and darkness..
Glimpses made possible by dream..
He heard the song past the stars..
And wrote in the chorus of Outer Voice..

He star walked and dark stepped past oblivion and chaos..
Into New Universe..
Where he met The Beginning and The End..

The stars are leaving again..
Pulsars stop spinning..
Forgotten light seen again..

They were already gone..
Pulsars start spinning..
Remembered light was never gone..

Dream nebulas mix together..
Mind paint brush of the cosmos..
Colors of my soul shine together..

Portrait of distant thoughts..
Mind paint brush strokes..
Are the memories of light and your beautiful thoughts..

I'll see you again...
You were never gone..
Because you are still in my thoughts..

Painted black windows...