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Krizhe Ming Mar 2019
Universe is reaching out
Angels already calling

Time to go back on track
Been wandering longer
Than I should
To find pieces
Of me that were lost

Universe is reaching out
Angels already calling
I almost didn't recognize
As I started to forget
Who I am
And where I am going

Glad I finally heard
Message received
I feel like I've been seeing 11:11 (and 1:11) a lot to say it's just coincedence... And I am really glad to recognize the message now :)
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
Then she goes ahead
With untainted dreams and hopes
On her hands, she goes
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
You were a shining star
Times passed,
Memories forgotten,
Hopes gone...
Why did you fade away
Can you sparkle once more?
My friend paint with shining stars before and asked me to make a poem that fits it. Her work is full of hope but all I have that time were words of doubts and aches likes this one.
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
If tears really cleanses the heart
Then yours and mine
Probably are some of the cleanest

Life is a tearjerker, you know
Saint John Paul II once said "...Tears flows silently through the soul and cleanses the heart"
Krizhe Ming Oct 2020
These tears pouring out
Like I am the most deprived
In this world
Like I am hurt
Like I am lost
Even if I should be fine
Lesser worries
No losses
No pains

Looking at me closely
I should be okay
Should be doing good
But there are still tears
A sudden downpour
I can't comprehend

I only hope
To understand myself
Better now
This time
And again
This was a product of a sudden push to write - freely and at the moment
Do you ever feel like this? Like there seems to be nothing seriously wrong with your life but you can't feel good either.
Has this happened to you? Suddenly tearing up, feeling pained, without clear reasons why?
Krizhe Ming Oct 2018
You came
In my life
I was glad and
Welcomed you
With all I am
I loved each day
Spent with you

Then you left
With a promise
To be back
So I waited
No matter how long

You came back
So I welcomed you
Again
With little fears
That you'll soon leave
And you really did
With the same promise
I hesistated
But still waited

Until you came back
Once more
I just accepted
With little hopes
That you'll stay

You may have thought
That it can be
Just a cycle
You come and go
Whenever you want
I wait and wait
And wait
Just like that

You may have not seen
How this turned to
Ever decreasing circles
One more turn or two
This cycle of yours
Will disappear

You'll go
(And don't come back)
And I'll be free
(Finally)
Ever decreasing circles - a phrase I learned a week ago.
Thanks again Chris Russon for the idea :)
Krizhe Ming Apr 2021
What should I do?
Stop getting enchanted
How? I can't...
Too weak
What now then?
I shall admit defeat

What can I do?
I already knew
You were too much
Still I dared to handle
Now I have no choice
But to learn
How to deal with you
And these feelings
08 April 2020

The dilemma of realizing you have fallen for someone who can never be yours.
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
I'm already living in two worlds
But none of them seem real
None of them I can call life
'I want a life!' - shoutout from 04.16.16
Krizhe Ming Oct 2020
Hugged by cozy feels
Sitting by the fireplace, I
Dream of you once more
Oct. 6, 2020 - Made this for my fireplace art prompt
Krizhe Ming Oct 2018
It was the best gift he can offer
He called it quits and free her
Finally, the game is over
A short one
Krizhe Ming Nov 2018
Another day soon to end

Mind thinks back
Of what new it learned
Of memories captured

Heart remembers
Emotions felt
Moments to keep

As another day soon to end
Self tries to ponder
Is it a good day
Or a great day?
ATM: Reflecting... on my way home :)
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
In the midst
Of living
In this stressful
World of business
Full of numbers and gains

I seek comfort in music
Keep sanity thru arts
Find sanctuary in writing
And so I can breathe
And so I am still alive
This is me. I just thought of how I can best introduce myself right now.
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
I long
To be loved by you.
Would you look into my eyes
And get me drowned
In your soulful stare?
Envelop me
In your warm embrace
Lovingly... Fondly.
Caress my face
With those gentle hands,
Whisper 'you're mine'
And I'm all yours.
I will
Fall into your trap and
Swear never to escape.
Made this before as I listen to Yiruma's piano piece entitled 'Love Me'...
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
I don't love you anymore
I don't need you at all
I am happy just like this

I don't love you anymore
There's no point anyway
My heart won't beat
At the sight of you
No excitement
At a thought of you

I don't need you at all
I was always the giver anyway
My mind has forgotten
Every moment we've shared
My body doesn't miss
What it felt from you before

I am happy just like this
Without your embrace
I feel free
Without your touch
I feel much more alive
From losing you
I finally found myself

"I don't love you anymore"
I try to believe these words
Though seems unreal now
But at some point
I will, somehow

"I don't need you at all"
I erase even the good memories
As I wipe each drop of my tears

"I am happy just like this"
I'll keep telling myself
Time after time
Until the day that I wake up
Completely moved on
Looking ahead
At a fuller life anew
(07.22.18 - a gift for a friend) This is inspired by observing the moving on process of a friend whose long-term relationship ended for sometime already but still having a hard time to get over... Made this for her as I wish her the best. This is a chant of making believe. Cinvincing yourself that you are getting there, almost done very soon.
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
Looking back
Those 'good old days'
Are actually great

They were that great
To still bring smile on my face
And joy in my heart
Today
I have short memory but I am able to remember those 'good old days' and I miss them... Most of them are from my high school days. Some are from college days... I'm just glad to have those memories :)
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
I trembled
Feared that it might be the end
I panicked at such thought
I was not ready
No please, not yet

I realized
How much I wanted to live
That although life
Can be tiring and stressful
Or Lonely and painful
Although life is hard
It will be really unfair
To already have it ended

I realized
I still want to live
Just want to share how I was scared to death last week when the cab I am in was running so fast as if it's flying and I can smell the gasoline. The thought that the cab will burn or explode terrified me so much... Then I realized I don't want to die yet.
Krizhe Ming Oct 2018
Why promise the stars and moon
You can't even give your time?
Why promise never to forget
You can't even remember a date?
Why promise to last forever
When it's hard to last even a day?

Don't make your love
Sound like so grand
When you can't offer
Your heart and mind

Why let us needlessly cling on
And in the end
Makes it harder for us to move on?
Why do most people make promises difficult or impossible to keep? *sigh*
Krizhe Ming Oct 2018
A new day again
I can't get through this alone
Please be with me, Lord
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
How interesting
They treat me like I'm strange
But act just the same
We are all strange then. Which make us ordinary... not strange at all.
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
The little buds
Soon to wither
Not wanting to die pitifully
On such a sunny day
Under the scorching heat
Prayed for some rain

And it began to rain
With the still bright day
Painted a beautiful picture

Drizzles tickled each of the bud
Teased to flaunt their beauty
It rained gently
Enough to water the land
Make the flowers bloom
To a magnanimous sight

Thought it was just a soft pour
For a brief moment
Of joy...
Of fulfillment...
So they prayed for the rain
To stay for a while more

And so the rain did stay
But then never leave
For a long time

Just like of a storm
Each of its drop
Now hurts the flowers
Heavy fall tears them apart
Every time the rain
Touches the land
Flowers got more drenched
Soon they will drown
And get washed away

Yet they smile
One by one
As they face their end
They glint a smile
[Cab Chronicles, I] Some time in the end of Feb 2018, while travelling to work in a cab, rain started to pour and drops touched the window... and this poem was born.
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
So many thing there are
I would like to do
To accomplish
So much that I don't know
Which should be done first
My head is overloaded
Soon to collapse
I might end up completely
Wornout without
Fulfilling anything
None at all
I am on the edge now
Of a cliff
I wonder if I choose
To just fall
Than continue
Hanging by a thread
It is better to end
All of these
Afterall
Back again in 2017 during those really difficult days. I remember writing this in a tissue at McDo as I was eating alone. The feeling of quitting hit me real that very moment.
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
If I believe that I can do it
Will I really do?
If I trust that this too shall pass
Will it really be?

If I hope for something good
Will it happen?
If I move forward
Will I ever go somewhere?

If I try to look ahead
Will I see some light?
If I just continue on
Will everything then be alright?
Had these questions back in 2017 but I guess I still am not sure if I already found the answers now... Well I just hope the answers are all "Yes".
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
Even if as you go to work
You think of crossing the street
While the green lights are on
It's okay

Even if you go up the stairs
Up to the rooftop of your school
And stand in the edge
It's okay

Even if you happen to pass by a bridge
And ask yourself
What if you just jump there
It's okay

Even if you stroll besides the lagoon
Walk towards it
And imagine falling and drowning
It's okay

Even if you often wonder
How deep a knife will cut your skin
Or what knot is best for your neck
How long does a bullet numb your head
What pills will let you sleep forever
Or how cold will it be to lay on rail tracks
It's okay

Even if day by day
Life has been so hard to bear
That day by day
You think that ending it
Would be so much better
It's okay

You struggle
But you survive
From morning to night
Ill thoughts visit your mind
But you're still alive

So it's okay
Even if in the morning
You opened your eyes
Disappointed
That you still wake up
It's okay
See... if life is a battle
You have been winning it
Constantly
More chances will be thrown at you
Since you've managed to stay alive
Despite everything
That's what matters most
You should be proud of yourself
(09.12.18)

I've been wanting to post something like this at least once. For anyone who might need these words.
Krizhe Ming Oct 2018
You deserved to be loved
Even so much more
Than you can think of
You are worthy
Of tender care
Of profound affection

The world is just
Not that generous now
Kind of stingy
Making you feel insecure
And unwarranted affliction

But please believe
You deserved to be loved
More than enough
Soon you will see
This is the truth
Not just some consolation
Hopes this brings some comfort and hope.
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
Her heart
First turned pale
Then to gray
She let it be
Nothing mattered
Anymore
Anyway

Let it be
So she can live
[Cab Chronicles, II] 03.02.18 On the way to work... I must be feeling a bit down
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
How is it even possible
To wander so far
Get lost and tired
Only to find myself
Back where I was before?
Oh c'mon... is this some kind of a joke
**sigh**
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
Everything begins
As a blank slate
Just so is Life

Like an artwork or a masterpiece
Magnificient as it is
Like a poem or love song
Beautiful as it is
Begins in a blank slate
Just so is Life

With perfect melody
Of personalities and experiences
Variety of tunes
Of knowledge and skills
Colors burst in each blank of slate

Magnificient
Beautiful
Life will be
Tabula rasa, usually translated as 'blank slate' is a philosophical concept that means when a person is born, his mind is completely empty.
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
As the sunbeams touched my face
I close my eyes and remember you
It was warm just like this
Every time you hold me
It was this warm
Felt so alive

I remember you
I miss you
[Cab Chronicles, III] 03.03.18 It was really a nice day and the rays of sun pass through the cab's window and touches my face. It was warm.
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
Too slow in this fast-paced world
Too dumb among the smart people
Too simple yet living in complications
Am I bound to be like this?
Can I even cope up?
-2017-
Krizhe Ming Oct 2018
I often wonder
How I became
Unaffected
Emotionless
Oblivious
Guess this is how living
Turned me to be
09.11.18
Krizhe Ming Sep 2018
Tumatanda
Nang walang pinagkatandaan
Lumalaki
Nang walang kinalakihan

Tumatanda
Nang walang natatandaan
Bakit kasi di na lang ako laging bata?

— The End —