I don't know what to believe in,
Or if I believe in anything at all.
But the only thing keeping me alive,
Is the fear of life after death.
Or is it just emptiness that will consume my soul.
No pain or punishment,
For taking my own life.
I feel the loneliness destroy me.
Filling my mind with thoughts of suicide.
Searching for a way out,
While longing for a reason to stay.

This pain is so unbearable,
I'm writing on my skin.
My whole arm feels numb,
I didn't think it'd get this bad again.
I'm painting with my wrist,
In only the color red.
Because each deep little thought,
Can only come out unsaid.

My mind is so twisted,
I'm mixing lies with facts.
I'm not sure who to trust.
My heart or my head.
They're spinning me around,
As if it's life or death.
Each direction will cause pain,
But somehow,
One will still bring something to gain.

The sunset is fading,
but my eyes are on you.
Running your fingers across my arm,
tracing my tattoo.
My head resting on your chest,
feeling your every breath.
As your face leans closer,
yesterday fades away.
Our lips meet,
and the pain no longer stays.
Your tongue dances with mine,
speaking only to me.
Because even in the silence,
I can still hear you speak.

I miss you the way my lungs need air,
After holding my breath under water for too long.
I crave the feel of your hands,
To be as close to my skin,
As the water I'm swimming in.
I risk opening my eyes,
Expecting to see your face.
But you're not there,
And the saltwater stings my eyes.
And then I start to drown,
Remembering, I don't even know how to swim.

I've never felt your touch on my skin,
But my body craves it as if without conversion it'll collapse.

Your lips have never brushed against mine,
But I can imagine the taste,
Sweetly sublime.

I couldn't stop staring that night,
You were so close,
I should have leaned in.

The way you looked in my eyes,
I was so distracted by your voice,
Transporting my heart into yours.

I couldn't think straight,
Looking back now,
I see my mistake.

I should of pulled you close,
Creating music with our lips,
Our bodies finishing the lyrics.

What did you do to me?
I don't remember falling,
But I can feel the bruises.
And now that the pain is here,
You're nowhere to be found.
I've fallen into the void,
It seems I'm lost forever.
I dream of your face,
Longing for your embrace.
Emptiness consuming my soul,
And shattering my heart.
I'm forgetting how it felt,
To just be close to you.
My eyes are drifting shut,
Slowly losing myself into the abyss.

It's already 2AM,
But you're always awake til then.
All I want,
Is to hear your voice
But it's been three whole days,
And I haven't received one word.
Tears keep swelling up in my eyes,
But I hold them back for the sake of my heart.
I think I gave it to you by mistake,
My chest is aching for it back
I fell in love with your mind,
And I'd love to see you just one more time.
I still see you in my dreams,
As if you were standing right next to me.
But when I sleep,
I don't hold back.
I'm not to shy,
To speak the truth.
And you're not walking away,
No ones begging for the other to stay.
Because in my dreams,
I'm the Queen
And you're right there with me,
Being crowned King.

I'm really scared to fall,
I can't sense the traps anymore.
You just seem to be fooling me a little to well.
The way everything about you,
Keeps pulling me in more.

I don't want to give into my feelings for you,
But perfection is rare;
And I can see it on you
So I'll bat my eyelashes,
And take things slow.

But I can't make any promises,
Because if you get to close;
I'll forget about being shy,
And lose all control.

Your lips brush against mine,
At first soft and sweetly.
But as you lean in closer,
Your kiss grows even deeper.

You explore my body,
Like a lost island you've been searching for.
My eyes giving you permission,
Whispering it's all yours.

Your hands strip away my insecurities,
Replacing them with your warmth.
Close enough to feel the beating of your heart,
It's speaking softly with mine.

No fear or pain when we're gently pressed together.
Our bodies reminding us of the real meaning of love.

And as we lay side by side,
Drifting to sleep.
Your arms wrap around me,
In the soft place I can be.

He's disappointed in her,
she's falling even deeper.
He witnesses the side effects,
of her new dangerous addiction.

His eyes filled with concern,
he pleaded with her to stop.
He doesn't understand her pain,
and slowly they drift apart.

She still feels broken,
from when he destroyed her heart.
She tries numbing the pain,
with such a short-lived high.


But her heart wants only thing,
and she can't bare to worry him.
Even though he's the cause of this nightmare,
she'll never let him go.

Is a heart ever truly locked away,
or can it slip through walls just waiting for someone worth taking a chance for.
Risking exposure to the type of pain that most of us were wired to run away from.
Now some of us,
we’re a lot more ****** up in the head.

We see the heartache before it comes;
but the sweet rush of ectasy from holding the right person’s hand,
is always worth the torment that follows.

Leaving us broken and scared,
because we still haven’t fully grasped what are minds our capable of doing to our bodies.

Place your hand on my heart,
Can you feel my pain.
My darkness is overwhelming,
But you scare it all away.

I don't think I'll make it through this time around.
I can already feel the walls of my heart breaking down.
It's my own fault for getting attached to you.
I should of known it was to good to be true.

Clinching my fist,
On the verge of tears.
Trying everything I can,
To shake these fears.
I need to be numb,
I'll take any pill.
Anything that will help,
I just don't want to feel.

Hoping I'll awake,
And it'll all just be a dream.
So I can escape from this nightmare,
And diminish my hearts scream.

I don't just want to feel your lips against mine;
     I want your tongue teasing me,
     Your teeth biting me,
     And your breath warming me.

I don't just want your fingers to please me;
     I want one enterwined with mine,
     While the other leaves fingerprints all over me,
     Searching for the sea.

I don't just want your body pressed with mine,
     I want your hips moving slowly with me,
     I want to be handled so roughly there's left over
     evidence the next morning,
     I want to fight for control til I'm pinned to the
     bed and left at your mercy.

There is no one way I imagine ******* you.
But each one will leave us exhausted and satisfied,
And I don't plan on being very patient.

It taste even sweeter when the blood is running down my arm.
Every sip I take,
I welcome the blade more.
I've missed this pain,
The familiar touch so welcoming.
Comforting me like an old friend.
I won't neglect you anymore,
Because giving in has such a sweeter taste.

No one gives me the pleasure you do.
So close to insanity,
But I cut the demons away.
Drowning away the emptiness that keeps dragging me down.
The darkness becomes stronger everyday,
consuming the very essence of my mind,
While I slowly drift away.

Why am I here,
When no one wants me.
Why do I live,
When you just shot me.
Why would I forgive,
When you won't say sorry.

I can't stand to become that person again.
I can be strong as long as I keep this blade close to my skin.
Locking away each deep little thought.
Accidentally remembering the ones I forgot.

The darkness is a consuming the very essence of my mind.
Searching for the light, but I'm becoming more blind.
Coming to terms with who I crave to become.
Stripping away any remaining innocence, immorality impossible to overcome.

Not yet,
It's still too soon.
I'd prefer for my heart to start right in my chest.
It craves to be mended,
Each shattered little piece.
No longer broken,
And finally set free.

But imprisoned by fear,
It cages itself.
Leaving the key,
Only eighty beats from its hell.
For any heartbreaker to stumble upon;
Without noticing the true power,
My heart can commend.

For every petal that falls,
She loses a piece of her soul.
But she continues to smile,
Even though she'll never be whole.

He'll pick away at her flower,
As she avoids the abyss.
But she'll risk it all,
Just for a kiss.

Her heart is now bare,
No longer protected.
But he leaves her in tears,
Just as she suspected.

You are a piece of art,
crafted with the most valuable materials.
A sword forged from perfection,
with blood stained tears;
from the times you had to stab your own heart.

I'll become the blacksmith,
crafting over dents to help you become whole again.
Using my own veins,
to stitch together every open wound,
you've left untouched.

A poet never really stops writing,
only sometimes, we lose the strength to write it all down.

But when we write,
we spill our hearts upon the pages.
Every ink filled line,
giving full access to our minds,
for whoever dares to read them.

I apologize for the tears and blood stains,
sometimes my pen reveals too much.
As I close my eyes,
and my hand glides across the page,
my soul speaks to me in the best possible way.

I wish I was an artist,
But my tongue is creative enough.
Dancing across your lips,
Creating the image in my head,
Breathing it to life.
Daring me with your eyes,
Your craving just one kiss.
As your lips brush against mine,
Barely close enough to even exist.

Use the gap between your teeth to help you breathe.
Because once your hands touch my body,
You won't remember to come up for air.

With your hands on my waist,
So lost in your embrace.
Our bodies,
Speaking softly together.
Whispering in the dark,
Pulling away,
Only when our lungs are desperate for air.

I keep thinking about your eyes,
Every time I made some smart *** remark,
You'd always give me that same look.

Your glance shows me confidence,
As if you knew I was falling deeper everyday.
But your mind tells me how insecure you are.

There's so much beauty in your soul.
My mind searches deep into yours,
Longing for more than what we have now

To be kissed by your lips,
Every day and night
As I open my eyes
And as I fall asleep;
Is something I crave.

To lay in your arms,
On bright sunny days,
And even the stormiest of nights;
Is something I dream of.

But as sceptic as I am,
I truly believe;
That one of these days,
You'll belong to me.