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Sep 2021 · 2.4k
Ako Ang Tula
Leslie Jade Sep 2021
sa rami ng tulang nilikha
panaghoy ang tila namamayagpag
emosyong natatakpan ng mukha
ay patuloy na binabagabag

madalas ay natatapos sa lungkot
madalang na naguumpisa sa saya
bawat linyang kataga'y puot
tila walang dinudulot na ligaya

sa daang salita na kayang bigkasin
nasaan ang malalambing na parirala?
sa bawat boses na nais kalasin
kailan ang araw na maaabot ang tala?

May dalisay nga ba sa mga letra?
May pag-asa nga ba sa mga talata?
muli nga bang darating ang saya
sa paggising ng bagong hiraya?

Marahil ay unti-unti, hindi bigla-bigla
yayakapin nang mahigpit, dahan-dahan
upang ituloy ang naudlot na sigla
upang magmistulang sarili ang tahanan

Gaya ng dapit-hapon ay manlalamig
ngunit sa bukang-liwayway, gugunitain
sarili ang maging unang daigdig
pagkamuhi ay tuluyan nang palayain

kaya't sa bawat salitang isusulat
yakapin ang letrang namumukadkad
darating ang araw na muling pagkamulat
masisilayang muli ang ligaya sa paglipad
May 2021 · 1.1k
Sakto
Leslie Jade May 2021
Gusto kong gumawa ng kanta
pero hindi ko alam paano sisimulan

Gusto kong magsulat ng tula
pero hindi ko alam ang tamang salita para magsimula

Gusto kong kumanta
pero hindi ko kayang abutin ang mga gusto kong awitin

Gusto kong sumayaw
pero wala akong lakas para humataw

Gusto kong gumuhit at magpinta
ngunit hindi ako kasing galing ng iba

Ang dami kong gustong gawin at aralin
ngunit hindi ko magawa
dahil ang daming kulang sa akin

Ni hindi ko alam kung may iaangat pa ba ang talento ko
Baka hanggang dito nalang kasi talaga ang kakayahan ko
Baka nga naniwala lang ako sa ilusyon na magaling ako

Kasi ang totoo ay hindi ako mahusay
Hindi ako matalino

Sakto lang ako.
May 2021 · 296
What Is Yet To Be?
Leslie Jade May 2021
The matter of things and how it came to be
In the mere sight of the plight of a bee
We grasp with the thought of thee
Of how uncertainty became a plea

If I stand on earth, what shall my use be for?
Answers to pleas, keys to the door
Nothing is definite, like a shore
Yet we continue to voice and roar

And that’s the beauty of human nature
The things we know are no sheer stranger
Still, There is thus far greater than common scripture
And the search for truth would be an adventure

Behold, the power of doubts arises and upholds
It waits, in self, and for the world it unfolds
And for the records of millions, it withholds
The continuous and further truth-seeking in refolds
Nov 2020 · 147
How I wish
Leslie Jade Nov 2020
How i wish you could have lived a longer life
How i wish you could have lived the life you deserve
How i wish you could have lived your life without being deprived of
How i wish you could have lived a life of your own
Feb 2020 · 158
The Call
Leslie Jade Feb 2020
Here it goes again
Flowing through my vein
Leaving me in disdain

Insecurities are coming
Anxieties are humming
Sadness is thumping

It rings in my head
Feels like in an endless thread
Whispers I should be dead

Nights full uncertainties
Full of silenced profanities
Drowned in my own vanities
Feb 2020 · 156
Survival of Existence
Leslie Jade Feb 2020
Most of the time,
i hate myself for pushing away
the people around me

Yet a lot of times,
i hate myself for caring too much
about people

I blame myself
in everything
that has been happening

It's as if I myself,
being born,
is already a mistake

I wish
I could motivate myself
to push through

How I wish
I am enough
for everyone

It's as if
I'm always pleasing myself
to other people in order to survive

Yet in the end
Who would dare to save me
If I myself cannot heal my soul
I know it's not too much of a poem. I just need to express my deepest anxieties away from my system for a while. I hope y'all would love this one. And hey, I'm back again :)
Dec 2017 · 371
Please
Leslie Jade Dec 2017
i am not okay
when will you ever notice
my mind is whirling
screams are silenced
i fake a laugh everytime
i get irritated from time to time
the blame is all on me
it's hard to be happy i guess
you try to talk to someone
but somehow you become voiceless
the pain is within you
no pill could ever relieve if
please save me
please; before i do something
everyone will regret

please.
Dec 2017 · 941
A poem for you, nae sarang
Leslie Jade Dec 2017
An angel as pure as gold
once have lived, stories unfold
screams in pain in a silent night
everyday is a struggle for a fight

left the world as if it was the key
drowning on a seemingly endless sea
tried and fought to survive the race
but never knew the ending phase

your smile was the best of all
everyone, including me, would fall
but none of us knew your pain
crying day by day with the rain

i wish you nothing but joy and peace
enjoy the clouds of heaven with bliss
i love you dearly our precious one
rest in His embrace; know that you've won
It has been a day since the tradegy happened.;I still can't believe that our brave kim jonghyun had alredy passed away. It was tough for him. I know. We know. But how I wish I knew it sooner. You've fought a great battle my dear. No more silent cries. No more pain. Please be happy up there. Guide your family as always. Support SHINee in every activity and decision that they would do and embrace every shawols who are going through a tough time accepting all of this. I love you dearly, our kim jonghyun. I will fight. I will try. I will do my best. I promise. Rest in Peace my love. This is for you.
Dec 2017 · 2.2k
Ilusyon
Leslie Jade Dec 2017
sa bawat minutong lumilipas
tila may pagkakataong napakabilis
ngunit pasakit dibdib ang pagkabagal
Ang paligid ay nagmimistulang kawalan
Hindi napapansin sa kahihintay
paghintay sa oras na muli kang mangusap
paghintay sa pagasang magtatagal lahat
paghintay sa katagang "babalik" lahat
Lumilipas ang gabing puno ng katahimikan
tanging pagbigkas mo lamang
ang siyang gigising sa diwa
Subalit tila ang paghintay ay walang patutunguhan
Hanggang sa unti unting nang sumuko
pagasa'y nawala
paghihintay ay natigil
hiling ay naglaho


*itigil na ang ilusyong ito.
May 2017 · 737
if you ever ask me
Leslie Jade May 2017
if you ever ask me
how great my day went by
do not dare to listen
for it will all be lies

if you ever ask me
when was the last time I laughed
make me smile then
it has been ages since I had it

if you ever ask me
how extraordinary my life is
turn your back and find someone else
my life has never been as exetraordinary as theirs

if you ever ask me
where did my old self go
dont come find her
she has already been lost
It has been months since i last posted so here you go
Jan 2017 · 656
the cycle
Leslie Jade Jan 2017
it's pounding, thumping
screams rumbling, but unheard
darkness eats the light she is seeking
unable to talk, move, think
why is this back again?
slit, slit, slit, slit, slit
she doesn't want to
but how could she escape?
"help me" are words that are tied
everything was senseless
no one lends, no one hears
depressed she is again

*help me
Oct 2016 · 569
that was before
Leslie Jade Oct 2016
day time, it was you
Even night time, it was you
You seemed like a glue
But that was before

Every song compliments you
The rythm, the beat flows
Your name, oh how beautiful it is
But that was before

night full of sorrows
Days full of delusions
Mind full of chaotic thoughts
But that was before

now, the rythm; the beat halts
Strange it is, but overwhelming
Finally! I'm no longer strangled
and that was after i free myself

From the before i didn't know
Would be a lovely *after
woooaaah after 2 months of hiatus!
Aug 2016 · 340
Reality
Leslie Jade Aug 2016
as mysterious as the universe
the two individuals' vague fate
millions of stars hold secrecy
even us couldn't fathom
even our destiny has its own

maybe gravity was meant to pull us down
not to pull us apart from one another
for us to walk closely, talk deeply
make delusions of our own
to be aware of the genuine truth of life

maybe gravity gave us the chance
to create impossibilities; fantasies
for fate has its own ways & plans
will it be satisfying? or tormenting?
let the pull slide us away, up to where we should be
Aug 2016 · 562
au revoir
Leslie Jade Aug 2016
you shared your thoughts, I attentively listened
you laughed & joked, with no doubt I smiled
I let you burst out what's inside your mind
and take a ride with your imaginations

but that's the thing, I did what I did
what a friend must do, when he's in need
of someone to listen, to share with
a friend he could linger to, to laugh with

but deep inside, something's aching
is it jealousy? hurt? huff?
it's like there is something missing, what is it?
maybe the old us before things get difficult

we were talking as if we have our own world; before
but everything has already changed
you've had what you deserved, & I'm proud
but everything has its compensation

for your happiness, what lies between us faded
we parted ways, slowly; painfully
and to get things worse, I've disappointed you
and everything we've built, fell down

now, how will we ever go back the way we were?
Will it really come back? the memories?
Or I would only face these inevitable changes
and let you be happy with someone else?
Jul 2016 · 980
If ever I die
Leslie Jade Jul 2016
If ever I die, tell them to put a smile on my face
I want to see how I would look like if I had felt bliss
Let them see the girl they wanted to see
Not the one who’s been hiding all her life

If ever I die, let them all visit me
The ones who have forgotten me, damaged me
I’m giving them the privilege to gaze at me one last time
& think all the possible things that are haunted memories

If ever I die, do not dare shed a single tear
For all you have given me is a mournful life
The blame was always on me
& all I did infront of you, you always misinterpret

If ever I die, let me wear a pure white dress
So that at least as I lay,
People would think I had a happy journey
& forget a disgrace child like me
Jul 2016 · 612
10:17 pm
Leslie Jade Jul 2016
it's as if fate has already decided
you & me will never have an epitome
is it agonizing? yes.
How long? Uncertain.

As I gaze, you are stunningly amazing
but that perfection cannot be paired with someone
as flawed as I am
and that's why we'll never be
Hey it's been a while since I've made & post a poem. It's because class has already started on our country but at least I had an inspiration & that's how I cam up with this.
May 2016 · 785
taste of life
Leslie Jade May 2016
15 year ago* ...
when she first felt the taste of rejection
when her father didn't show any affection
towards his family, & left them with no connection

9 years ago ...
he came back with flowery promises
& they believed, but it diminishes
back then, it was all worthless

5 years ago ...
her classmates start gossiping behind her
faking smiles infront of her
humiliating her when she turns

4 years ago ...
when he transferred school but faced the same perosnalities
heard different & painful stabbed profanities
left with no one to hold on

a year ago ....
she knew the word wrist & blade
knowing it could be the aid
for everything that has been made

Now ...
she's facing the obstacle of life
don't know if she could still handle
the pain it was giving her
or should she rather die
to be numb once again,
to run from the thornful road of her journey?
May 2016 · 810
pot full of thoughts
Leslie Jade May 2016
a scenery comes in your mind
picturesque, but can be forgotten
pen and paper are all you've got
what are you waiting for? Jot it down!

gloomy, elation, rage any theme
there are lots of pictures inside your head
Don't waste any time, use it wisely
and enjoy the ride of rollercoaster ideas
This is kinda different from my other poems but i hope you get the idea.
Apr 2016 · 702
hollow
Leslie Jade Apr 2016
an abyss full of loathe
full of falling debris, full of ache
emptiness within her soul
filled with nothingness
Apr 2016 · 1.4k
Still into you
Leslie Jade Apr 2016
remember when we used to talk
underneath the pavements we walk
delusion has crept my vision
yearning like it's another fiction

pacing through cherished moments
painful it is, but I am blinded
art full of flaws, full of dents
replaced by wonderful beads

electrifying feels for you
longs and can never be diminished
journey of sufferings
reminisce, but will never fade
Apr 2016 · 1.6k
A letter: To him
Leslie Jade Apr 2016
it's been years since I met
A guy I thought worth admiring for
Didn't realize the possible outcome
If I pursue these uncontrollable feelings

Everytime I lay & think
I would say, "Finally, I've moved on."
But it would always turned out as a lie
And let me continue anticipating things

I cannot tell that I've fully forgotten
The happiness & pain that lingered
When I was falling in love with you
What if I tell you I still am?

To you, whom I fell in love with
Always know that this mere tingling feel
Will always adore  you
Even though you'll never look at me

*the way you look and feel for her
Mar 2016 · 860
Too late
Leslie Jade Mar 2016
the damage has been done
all the memories can never go back
the way it was

it will take time to heal
a heart full of patches & stitches
that suffered & sacrificed much
Mar 2016 · 398
Poetic poet
Leslie Jade Mar 2016
Words of chaos & ecstacy
filled with pure intensity
can be fathom from deep fantasy
Oh! mind of incredulous clarity
Mar 2016 · 1.0k
Epitome of a genuine love
Leslie Jade Mar 2016
a heap of vehement thoughts
rumbles & together falls

the agonizing heart
will dost be thou art

profanities turn into sweet sound
all that can never be pound

feelings were adamant
thyself shall rise from the fall
just trying to use new found words but yeah hope u like it
Jan 2016 · 621
pursuit of nothingness
Leslie Jade Jan 2016
isn't it painful?
how all your bricks fell down
the strength you've built
all become nothing?

when you needed support
but people chose not to
it's painful, to see how they crush you
all your efforts becoming worthless

you wanted comfort
but you chose to be silent
cares if they need
supports when they're in pain

isn't it painful?
how useless you are
no matter what you do
you will be who you should be
Dec 2015 · 387
darkness
Leslie Jade Dec 2015
creeping through the depths of mind
haunting your restless thoughts
embracing thy warm body
whisper words you never wanted to hear
Oct 2015 · 365
dearest you
Leslie Jade Oct 2015
oh my dear star light
you shone so bright
and as time passes by
I weep deep! & cry

as the waves go splash
a queer nerve it crash
my love, how blind you are
to ignore me even from afar

I'll forever keep this
and watch you vanish
slowly from me
eternally from my feelings
I hope you do understand my poem
Oct 2015 · 747
misunderstood
Leslie Jade Oct 2015
how could you tell her
things she wouldn't want to hear
don't you know she'll eternally remember
the words you've already said, dear

oh how oblivious you are
to think she was making things
like having thoughts & scars
just to please you

don't worry, she isn't
she just wanted to be free
but she's hopeless as she could be
so she stares at the ceiling, feeling naive
Sep 2015 · 838
All alone
Leslie Jade Sep 2015
Stop! She's hurting
Everyday all she thinks about is dying
She doesn't want to hear anything
because she would always end up crying

Her mom doesn't understand
she had nothing, including her dad
everyone around her is mad
not knowing they're the reason why she's sad

they're so fond of humiliating her
including her dearest mother
she always hides on a corner
isolating herself, thinking it will be over


She had nothing left, but the blade
it's her bestfriend & her aid
all the sufferings temporarily fade
with her blood dripping when she laid
Hi I'm new and this is one of my poems so ya

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