My heart was found guilty
Of witchcraft by my brain
He dragged her and beat her
Spewed his hatred for her
Tied her to a wooden stake

My brain couldn't comprehend
The magic of my heart
Why she never wavered
How she always loved
He started this persecution
Because he couldn't understand

I always felt her growing
Beautifully and powerfully
With every beat she won me over
All I did was want to protect her
But my brain called it heresy

My punishment was to watch
As he burned her alive
I heard the shrieks of hope die
The smell of her love stung
My nostrils and it haunts me still

I walk around pretending
As if nothing had ever happened
My brain condemned me to live
This life without my heart
Without the love and only
With the memory of that night

Every day I burn like she did
As every day I hate like he did
I was unable to convince him
That she just wanted to love
But my brain was too afraid
Of the powers of my heart

Arriving in a lonely dark room
In which my misery loom
Unpacking a suitcase of doubt
No windows nor any way out
I take off the coat that protects me
It was made of your laughter and glee
Now I settle atop of this bed
Supported by things that I dread
I took the path that lead me here
For love and joy was all that I fear
I will forever live in a room full of sad
When I ran away from the good that I had

It kills me to think of your innocence
In how you loved everything
In your belief that everyone was good
Then I barged into your life
Ruined you in ways unimaginable
I swear I loved you but I couldn't show it
I tried to tell you I was broken
But this pride wouldn't allow me

I can't apologize and I can't console you
I restrain myself from trying to see you
You'll move on and everything will be okay
The memory of me will be nothing more
Then a blemish on your perfect skin
My perfume will no longer intoxicate you
It'll blend with your scent and attract everyone
You'll find someone deserving of your love

I will cover every part of my body in shame
Hiding the scars left by your loving touch
Strands of my hair that twirled on your finger
Grey every day losing their pigment
I can smell you everywhere I go
Like a stain that set and cannot be removed
Your whispers of promises and happiness
Are now haunting voices driving me insane

I'll continue to be made of rotting material
With a memory of love I never deserved
You'll be this glorious human being
Who realized never to settle for the worst

If only I were lonely
Maybe then you could hold me
Never looking for forever
Let us never lay together

I bury my face in the pillow
While the pillow smothers my dreams
And my dreams devour my heart
But none of this can be seen
When it's covered by my sheets

They lied to me when they said that sticks and stones break bones but words don't hurt

I found that your words have branched and rooted within every splinter in my bones and the ache is nagging and constant

It's the guilt your words caused that weigh like boulders on my shoulders and every step causes a new fracture

Sticks and stones don't break bones but the weight of your words have crushed me

Heaven is around her
If she only knew just how beautiful she was
Maybe she would've never felt like a blur
If she only knew just how sorry I was
Maybe then she would live again
Instead I wallow in all things we could've been
I can't live like this

Little inexperienced girl
Wanted to eat the world
But it swallowed her whole
It won't return her
Until she's nothing but bones

I became the crutch you leaned on
Supporting the weight of your pain
I put a cast on your heart
When it became too battered
I became your most sturdy stilt
To help you move on
Until you felt better
That's when you left me
Never did you ask if I sustained injuries
While I was nursing you back to health

Endless love
Held on fingertips
Waiting to caress your cheek

Confession of love
Lingering on my lips
To dance with yours they seek

I can't understand how everyone sees
Clear blue skies at which they wish to gaze
Under its trance and relax wasting the day
I can only see sapphire skies seducing
The clouds to willingly depart the day
And I need to rush to get up and run
To love and to conquer and live
So that I may come back and sing for all
A few lullabies to console your longing
For the hopes and dreams that you couldn't
Follow while you were staring at the sky

I refuse to lay around with all the rest
Viewing serene blue skies and conjuring up
Endless dreams and make believes
Because all I see are sapphire skies
Burning the time in a day with intensity
Melting away my dreams simultaneously
I must rush out into the world and experience
And accomplish the aspirations I had
Then I can return and sing lullabies
About all the beautiful things I remember
So that you can end your sobs
When you think of all the time you wasted

You see blue skies and day dream
I see sapphire skies and act and react
My lullabies will speak of the journey
The destination and the reward
Your state of dreaming will be
Manipulated by your remorse

I am the queen of what ifs
Sitting on a throne of could've beens

My fears are my loyal subjects
Escorting my dreams to the gallows

My ambitions are now prisoners
To my court of procrastination

I, the queen
Reign over all of this regret

I desire to explore your land
Sweep through with only my hand
It's this unquenchable yearning
In my core uncontrollable burning
Devour me with your gaze
Lips meet lips set me ablaze
Calm me as you cave my walls
Increase my high as this night falls

To the world you're just a rose
To me you're my one and only
You weep because you don't feel loved
You ask to be held so I hold you tightly
Your thorns cause my blood to spill
I try not to think of the pain it causes
I hold tighter and you cry louder
And nothing seems to make you blossom
And this may not be worth it for me
But you still ask to be loved and held
But I do it and you can't recognize it

Baby don't run and hide
Just sit a while by my side
Say anything you can
Talk about what a vile human I am
I'll listen just to hear the sound
Of the only beautiful thing I found

Speak of how you want me to die
For god only knows I often try
But I remember what I'd miss
Like spending time with you like this
I've made mistakes time and time again
Yet your heart I've managed to obtain

Maybe we can begin to reminisce
And I'll lean in for a weary kiss
You and I know I can't behave
Our relationship I seek to save
Let's press more on this issue
So the sound of your voice can continue

Stare intently as I speak of my hell
And I'll apologize for how you fell
For me long ago and into my arm tonight
Your body beside me what a beautiful sight
I know I'm toxic and this is contagious
But my love for you is outrageous

Please let's stay like this for a while
Accuse me and put me on trial
You know how I can deceive
Rules and regulations I'm willing to receive
Just to have enough time to finally say
That from you I'll never stray

Enslave me for I wish not be free
Do what you wish and ravage me

Relinquish my freedom my only treasure
I'll trade it all to drown in this pleasure

I succumb to all of your fantasies
Create art from lust with our anatomies

I'm here dealing with the memory of our love every day
It feels like a pinch begging to be caressed until the pain is eased
But there is no physical area to be relieved
The ache is deep within and you left it behind when you walked away

In all the lives we've met and in all of them we fall in love
this kismet adoration has created a knot in time
no matter the bodies our souls inhabit
we will find one another and love
and love
and love
and love eachother every time we meet
the era we're in or the life we live will not matter
we will find one another like a recurring dream
happening every time our bodies seek rest
every time our minds seek peace
for every instance we are apart
our incessant hearts will cry
cry so loudly each time we lose one another
their cries will continue on until heaven hears this echo of foreverness and does this feeling justice
allowing for us to love freely and to love whole heartedly and to love
and love
and love
and love to the point where time becomes insignificant
because the seconds no longer look forward to being witness to the hours
they will beg to become witness to our love
and love
and love
and love everlasting

A pin drops in the middle of Time Square
but no one can hear it
A grain of sand shimmers in the desert
but no one is there to see it
I am by your side hopelessly in love with you
but you don't feel it
So the earth turns like it always does
The seasons move along as scheduled
And those three things go forever unnoticed

Good and evil rage inside of me daily
                It's normal, I know
But the collision between the two is loud
             So loud, it torments me
  I'm afraid that evil will gain full power
            And I'll be fine with that

If you were a beautiful thought, I would hope you were conceived in my mind

If you were the most awe-inspiring work of art, I would wish to have been the artist

If you were the finest jewelry to ever exist, I would want you on me forever

Everything about you is beautiful

Maybe they'll excavate underneath my temple
To find the beauty lying beneath the destruction that life has left
Let my worshippers know that I forgive them
For when they pillaged my temple they set me free

To her, silence was comforting, alcohol was numbing and loneliness was all consuming

She often times scared away her nightly slumber  
Her thoughts grew louder and more chaotic with every tick of the clock
She let her past mistakes consume her
Rummaged internally for answers to her actions that led her here
Lying on a mattress which sat on the carpet of a rundown apartment
Alone

To her, silence was comforting, alcohol was numbing and loneliness was all consuming

She kept eyes open all night looking and thinking and drinking
A lot of drinking to seize the thoughts that drowned her
She traveled back in her dormant state to find events she wished had happened differently Dreamt up memories where she never walked away
Or where she refrained from saying something in an outburst of anger
She was haunted by
Everything

To her, silence was comforting, alcohol was numbing and loneliness was all consuming

Her thoughts had begun to agitate her being Transforming her mind into a whirlwind of anger and helplessness
She sat up at the edge of her mattress with the palms pressed tightly against her eyes, shaking her head in a frenzy
Her hands migrated to her hair, gathering a hand full and pulling
Eyes stung with the tears that began to surface  She took hasty steps toward her counter in search of a bottle to console her for the night
The only thing that put an end to the chaos was
Alcohol

To her, silence was comforting, alcohol was numbing and loneliness was all consuming

I could draw parallels
Between you and nature
In your beauty and grace
But it's hurricane season
And your anger grows
Threatening to sweep through
Destroying every fragile piece
That I have glued back together
So I'll hide from you
Because I fear I won't recover
From your beautiful wrath

Beauty is fleeting
It's very misleading
Expectations never meeting
Forceful in greeting
Her heart I'm seeking
She says she's needing
Room for her breathing
Made her my everything
But she's always leaving
She just isn't seeing
The friend I'm being
I'm left here bleeding

My soul has started a rebellion
Against all the things I know
Because I laid eyes on you
My heart was dormant for ages
Now every fiber in my body
Rages inside until I lose myself
And decide to never live without you

He says "let's go back to my place"
So she follows in strides right behind
Her smile illuminates the path they take
And she feels like she can do anything by his side
She asks "do you love me?"
He nods and grins with malice as he touches her face
His eyes are as dark as his intentions for the night
The still darkness and saten sheets bare witness
To her loss of innocence
Lying in bed regretting her actions
Leaving her feeling empty in her own right
She asks "do you love me more now?"
Her outstretched arm is met by his indifference
He says "please lock the door behind you"
His laughter echoes throughout as she leaves in tears
At least now she knows
He was never worth it

I am an erupting volcano
Spewing passion
Spewing rage
Burning those nearby
I erupt
I burn
I die
My ashes will remain
Asphyxiating those nearby

I would like to paint my life with your love
So that everything looks as beautiful
I want to delve into a pool of your scent
To find the origin of the wonderful intoxication
I need the passion you demonstrate to me
Be injected and course through my veins
So I can boast that your fire burns within me
Allow for your smile to reside in my visual cortex
That way, your happiness is all I will ever see
I desire for you to become the essence of faith
So I can say I am fully inspired by you
Enlighten and extricate this encaged heart
Just like the day liberates us from darkness
I will keep your presence in my chest
And say you are the ***** that keeps me alive
With every beat and every pump
I gain more will to live and to love

When I'm done with this body and leave in a hurry
I don't want you to cry nor to stay up and worry
Don't be sad, you know how easily I bore
Your love shook and rattled me to my core
In my departure the last vision I'll see
Is of you smiling right back at me
Do know I leave only because I must
That our love transcends all I want you to trust
When I'm done with this body and start a new journey
Remember that your love is engraved deep within me
Goodbye for now

Your lips are the match
Engulf me with desire
This flame is our lust

Seeing your face is a constant reminder of my greatest fear:
To love endlessly without expectation
And receiving it fruitfully without apprehension

I can count by twos or i can count by tens
But i think we'd all be gone by then
I can brush away every strand of hair
But we find ourselves struggling for air
I can close the gap between us with a kiss
But you are still not the one I miss

I can count by twos or I can count by tens
But I'm sure you would have left again
I can beg and plead to get you back
But it's easier to have you pack
I can pinpoint the changes I should've made
But necessary attention to you I never paid

I can count by twos or I can count by tens
But I'd rather not think of the who or when
I can say something to make you believe me
But I'll never get over how my true love deceived me
I can promise to make this relationship grow
But you know I just want you to go