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May 2016 · 1.5k
title?
you thought *** could make you feel whole again.
tell me, did it?
You thought kissing would revive you
did it?
I couldn't have been enough
to satisfy your uncountable lust.
I am truly sorry
I was not good enough
I am alone.
So are you
But we will never be the perfect two.
Serenity does not exist
in your presence
May 2016 · 276
World
the sky looks like its been painted.
The grass isn't real anymore.
The birds soar among lies.
And though nobody tries,
the world seems to have stopped spinning
This place.
This world.
This masterpiece
is nothing but a lie.
This is the confession of god.
Simulated lives,
predictable outcomes.
Its all one big
*diversion
May 2016 · 1.2k
"I'm just a kid"
with that said,
let's **** **** up
You want us to lose our minds
because we're just kids
Us kids
have a story
a story beyond Slenderman and Batman.
We live
we breathe
we abide by society,
but no one expects us
to fight back
I'm a 15 year old kid,
but I hold much more than *silence
May 2016 · 253
Issues (I've got 'em)
If you tell me I got problems,
**I'll rip your face off!!
May 2016 · 518
They're the problem
If you wanna know whats wrong with me,
just ask my Mom,
*she'll tell you that I'm perfectly fine
my parents are the problem
May 2016 · 348
Fear
False
Evidence
Appearing
Real
right?
No.
Fear is all too real for me.
I'm scared to be alone,
yet, so scared to be with people.
I fear her death.
I fear *my own

See,
I am scared to speak up
against him
I don't expect you to understand.
The reputations take over,
and
"Madness,
as you know
is just like gravity.
All it takes is a little push"
My fear is caused
by pushing
and shoving
and hitting
heartbreak, too.
fear is all so real
So don't tell me that god has got it.
Because,
I am afraid.
I am not wonderfully and beautifully made.
For real
Emotions
Acting
Recklessly.
that
ladies and gentlemen,
is the true meaning of *fear
May 2016 · 394
Time (live performance)
I sit among you.
I laugh with you whenever the teachers do something funny,
But has anyone ever wondered,
Just who I am?
Just a poet, right?
I mean,
What am I doing right now?
The thing is,
I do that too.
I neglect the simple things.
I don’t know every one of you.
But I should.
Because each of you are beautiful in your own way.
I have failed to stay positive.
So, this is my confession, I guess.

I neglect the beautiful sky,
The clouds,
And the stars.
I don’t recognize the grass,
Someone should really kick my…****?
But, don’t we all?
I think it’s time I give myself a chance to move away from darkness for just a moment
I think we need to give this time of year a shout-out
This is the time for summer,
Swimming pools and tanning under the bright, golden sun.
This is a time for celebration.
I feel so glad.
It’s been a long year,
Tons of work and little cheer.
But,
This is the last poetry session,
And it’s time for my confession.
I’ve been in the dark a little too long.
And I wasn’t brave enough to sing you all a song.
But hey,
It’s almost “next year”
And this one has been good.
Imagine it,
It’s almost summertime, baby.
Lets stop being negative
For just one moment.
Lets forget about those cp’s and refocuses,
And just be happy.
We’ve made it this far.
For me, I got three years left,
But if my brother taught me anything,
It’s that I will survive.
He’s in the military,
And I’m at school
If he can do it,
Than I can too.
It’s time to celebrate guys.
Time to celebrate each other,
The year,
And the life ahead of us.
Its time to celebrate our girlfriends and boyfriends,
Best friends and teachers.
The seniors and their achievements.
This is the time of year
To remember all that we have fought for.
The sun is shining,
Someone somewhere is smiling.
So let’s give this year a big bow,
As we walk away from the school
For another two months.
Lets hear it.
For the last poetry slam.
Yep, this is it.
(rip paper)
This is your, our
Shoutout.
this will be performed next friday
May 2016 · 324
Empire
"It's the start of the end
Surrender the throne
The blood on my hands covered the holes
We've been surrounded by vicious cycles
Are we truly alone?
The scars on your heart are yours to atone"
_____________
when you build
what couldn't be built
and you make
the impossible come true
bu lose it all
to a fool's steadfastness.
Shutting out
all to come
but running
the empire of souls.
The twists
the turns
all in between.
With an empire of souls
but no love between
This empire I hold
is like a tower
fate shall decide
whether to allow it to stand or tip
This empire I hold
can take me away.
Shall I balance?
Or abide with eternity.
Love this love which shall love it's love.
Beasting the ether with more from above.
Confusing it may sound,
it makes sense to me.
because of this empire I hold to thee
Be so careful so blasphemous it seems,
how lonely light seems to gleam.
Empire,
the one I hold.
Remarking the choice to love?
Shall I, o countess?
Shall we see eachother
in the empire of love?
Do you get my message?
May 2016 · 343
To the girl I like
she says we can't
and I guess that's okay
I don't have a choice,
but that doesn't mean I don't love her anymore.
I love her so much.
I want to melt her heart just once.
just once
I want to kiss her
just once
I want to know what it feels like
to be loved by her
though, I can't,
that is my dream,
and I don't want to let that dream be just a dream.
She is so beautiful.
Like, ****.
She is perfect.
Even when she is tired,
when she is hyper,
and...
even when stealing clay.
she is everything to me.
I love talking to her,
being with her.
Always.
I know she doesn't want me.
she can't I guess.
But I want her so bad.
I can't stop believing.
someday we could be.
But reality says,
"she doesn't like me"
I love her.
So much.
Tell me,
what can I do?
I want to win her heart,
even though she wants another guy to have it.
She is perfect.
she is perfect
I say sorry so much,
because
I don't want to mess anything up,
I always mean it
I love the way she is.
I don't know what to do about this?
I really can't do anything.
But I think,
Zach,
you're in love.
But Zach,
I really don't know if she is in love with you.
I have no idea if there is something wrong with me.
She won't tell me.
But something keeps me going.
I just...i don't even know.
I hope she knows this is for her.
I don't know if you like this,
I'm sorry
I just want you to know,
I like you so much.
Please,
just know.
*please read this,
you,
the girl I like
to her.
May 2016 · 293
truth (tenws)
coming forth about my pain
long live my oddest brain
May 2016 · 367
I wanna fix it
this body.
Im so fat
people stare in disgust.
It doesn't matter how smart I am
or the fact that I have been told I was the greatest lover.
See,
I want to go.
I want to run!
Loose all this weight,
and have the perfect body.
Lumps on my stomach
to show I did a thousand sit-ups.
I want to woo the girls
with my stellar muscles,
and live up to my male expectations.
I wanna fix it.
I wanna fix me.
Because if love depends on it,
simply said,
i wanna be loved.
But no one does.
because I'm fat
I never wanted this,
but asthma took it's toll.
I used to be,
so skinny.
But,
good things don't last I guess.
I don't understand
why my body determines my love life.
Like, really?
I wanna fix my body.
I want to be able to take off my shirt with pride,
revealing every muscular detail,
but I can't.
"fat" gets in the way.
Pretty girls,
tell me.
Why can't I be?
Tell me
what is truly wrong with me.
I'm not even that big,
but I do have a bit of a belly.
I get so upset,
when rejection is key
due to my size plea.
I can't do this.
I wanna be loved.
But I wanna fix
this fatal flaw.
Love me?
For me?
please?
May 2016 · 717
mute
that is what I have been
for 8 years.
I've been a mute.
I have been expected to take the ****
to make the impossible work,
sleep it off,
and take what i cant dish out.
Don't expect to understand me
my life's story
is really quite boring.
He  wants you to think
that I am just a perfect, quiet little church boy,
that has a demon side to him
he has lied for years,
each time pushing the mute button a bit harder.
I am a mute,
but it is time for me to speak.
He won't expect it,
he WILL regret it.
He is responsible for my scars,
and they want revenge
I'm coming for him.
I shall arrive only so soon
the dagger in his chest,
8 years of damnation
will fill his soul.
He will be muted
just as I was,
*so long long ago.
May 2016 · 548
Just don't.
dont even think about it
killing yourself
what's it really worth?
Is it worth your future children?
Your future spouse?
Your future success?
Suicide is stupid.
Im sorry.
But before you tell me that I don't understand,
let me tell you a story
I was 10 years old.
My sister was going through a hard time.
We were walking home.
We opened the door.
We walked through the kitchen and into the living room.
My sister's body laid there.
She shot herself.
She was dead.
We were so scared
I remember my hands were shaking so bad, I couldn't open the door.
The terror was so real
nothing like the movies
She thought she was taking away her pain,
but she really only passed it to us.
She took every opportunity she had away.
Suicide *****.
It isnt something  to joke about.
Please,
you are standing there,
imagining death.
please,
just. Dont.
Its never worth it.
To anyone
hang on.
Time must go on.
things have to ,
have to
get better.
You only wait.
Please,
you know who you are.
Just dont.
Dont say your sorry,
dont cut with the knife.
Dont do anything to hurt yourself.
Because in the end,
the only one who will be saying sorry
will be me
to an open casket
and I don't want that.
Just. Dont. Do. It
please help me in raising awareness
rip kailee
May 2016 · 973
disinfectant
Every time we meet
I feel like I need disinfectant.
Every time we talk,
I feel like I need to talk to the father and ask for redemption.
Every time I see you,
I want to close them shut and never wake up.
You ****** me over too many times before.
You seem to think that you can move me like a *****.
Well,
I'm not your little **** boi
You think you have such power,
***** you're nothing to me
I wish I could find
this thing you made me lose inside.
I wish I could forget
there ever was an us
Because I like it much better
just being alone.
Away from you.
You are infected,
evil,
and a nervous wreck.
Someone needs to get you a life,
lord knows you can't do it on your own.
just talking about you makes me crave lysol.
Look,
I'm sorry to be bashing on you,
but this is necessary
in order to forget
everything you ever were
You call me a ******,
but honey,
I've been called WAY worse.
I've been called your boyfriend.
And that beats any sting you can inflict.
You are the lowest of the low,
Im glad I was able to get away
cuz *****,
I wouldn't wish you upon my greatest enemy.
I seriously need to see a shrink
after you.
You caused me so many problems.
I kept going back.
how could I be so dumb?
Answer
because you made me believe you loved me,
only to drop me like a sack of bricks
I have finally gotten over you.
But the disgust still lingers
I would shake your hand and say goodbye,
*but then I'd need to buy more disinfectant
for Allyson.
...got an ex like this???
May 2016 · 678
altruism
the perfect word to describe me.
May 2016 · 3.5k
the cheesiest love poem.
roses are red
violets are blue,
but none more brighter
than my love for you
May 2016 · 252
Rest
one day
I will be able to rest my knees
on the ground my ancestors fought so hard for
May 2016 · 220
tell me
One question
*does it explode?
May 2016 · 313
A brighter poem
I am among you.
I read your poems,
as you read mine.
I give my likes
just as everyone else.
I re-post the ones i especially like
just like you
but see,
I have only just now begun to realize,
that I have neglected things.
I have neglected the bright sky outside.
I have neglected true meaning behind words.
I have failed to show my gratitude for life
I know I write dark,
that won't change
because that is how I feel
inside
But,
It doesn't mean I should dwell in it.
I need a shift.
I need to look at the bright side of things.
Like the fact that I am not living on the streets.
Or the fact that I am not a spawn in war.
I should be happy that I can (usually) eat every night,
and that I have a school that will make me learn
I have only yet to express
how this world can be so dope.
I haven't yet spoken
on my affair with the moon,
and her beauty.
I haven't talked about the grass,
and the stars
and the animals
that truly make this world what it is.
I haven't spoken about the beauty of you
in a long time.
I haven't opened the window
and let the soothing wind
blow kisses on my cheek.
The small things in life
deserve a big shoutout.
Earth is a beautiful place,
why do we feel so dark
well,
I don't know.
All I know,
is that it is time
*to have a good day
May 2016 · 436
the mirror
this wild ride I'm on
i really don't like it
this road I travel
is broken and cracked.
These memories I hold
stab my wrists.
Like I mirror,
showing everything through its body,
the world's twists and turns
and unexpected burns.
This place I live
seems to consume me.
Like a dog barks,
I cry.
seems like every day.
And I'm sorry that I could not hold it together one more day.
But its the memories that makes me scared.
The ones like this:
I can remember
going to bed.
I was so ready
to end the day.
I had just fixed my bed.
I climbed in
my bunk bed,
brother on top.
Suddenly,
I felt my leg getting pulled with an aggressive tug.
I saw his eyes
his eyes
they were studying me,
my fear induced face.
Then he swung me into my dresser.
A bang echoed through the house.
Brother crying,
mom lying
saying I deserved this.
He continued to slam
my eight year old body,
all over
my violent-infested room.
My back.
The pain.
No gain
After it ended,
I was told to stop crying,
to stop trying
Fear still invades my breath.
The mirror saw it all.
It never got to tell my story.
That mirror
has seen me cry,
and has seen me sop up my own blood.
It has seen me
burn myself
It has seen me
mock myself
and the mirror has seen him too.
Its seen all he's done.
All those things hang
on the wall above.
Mirror, liberate me.
Mirror,
free me,
from this hate infested dimension.
all true
May 2016 · 197
jk...maybe?
Bad jokes
are always the best
May 2016 · 671
what you fail to realize
you tell me you are just like everyone else.
and yeah, maybe you are
You tell me that you aren't the only one to yell.
also true
But what you fail to realize:
1. Most people do not torture their children
you have
2. Most people do not demote existence
you have
3. Most people think that injustice is real
you dont
4. Most people care about their family, and their emotions
you never have
5. Most people care about equality
you do not
6. Most people appreciate what they have
you think people owe you everything
7. Most people know what abuse is
you think everything is justified
8. Most people support their family
you have only brought us down
Look,
I know you can't be perfect.
But you have gone so far down.
You have shown me
how to be better than you.
You swear that when I have children,
I will be "just like you"
However,
my patience is more,
my love is more,
my passion is more.
You have taught me how to be nothing like you.
your own daughter,
says I am better than you.
Well,
maybe so
What you fail to realize:
**I am nothing like you
to him.
Till Death Do us Part:
By Bleeding Diamonds.
Marriage
Supposed to be the best day of our life.
Lovers hand in hand
trust stronger than the land
But after a year,
You’ve got to wonder
Is this marriage going south?
Am I scared to open my mouth?
You may start to learn
Things get bad.
Your spouse may hit you, beat you, and taunt you.
The may say they're sorry
but just wait
when everyone stops watching;
things just go back to the way they were.
That ring you wear shows the pain
and with every "I love you"
wounds open.
The emotional warfare rings on.
Those three words,
which should mean exactly as they say,
become an expectation,
you wouldn’t dare not say it back.  
Counseling is suggested,
but sorry to tell you,
some people don't change
They like to stick to their ways,
never admit wrong,
No, they never listen to the world's sad song
and blame everyone else for their problems.
How sad it must be
to be waiting for death to due you part
rather than to face the humiliation of divorce.
God pins you down saying, "You committed!"
God holds you accountable,
you are expected to stay with the "one"
but the "one" is the one who causes you pain.
The pain
people just don't see
Marriage isn't always bad
See, some marriages really are perfect,
life in the Barbie Dream House,
perfect spouse,
perfect kids,
perfect house,
Perfect car,
perfect job
perfect everything
But,
this poem is not about them.
This poem is about the marriages where abuse
has become a household term.
Kids expect mommy and daddy to be perfect,
after all
on Disney Channel they are
It’s sad how we are forced to look at statistics,
1 in 4 women will experience domestic abuse in their life time.
Men are victims of nearly 3 million physical assaults in the USA.
These things exist,
right in our own backyard.
Around the corner,
and down the block.
It’s almost like a don't ask, don't tell policy,
It’s like,
if you've been hit,
its "get over it"
and
"stop being dramatic"
"It could be worse"
But the thing is,
getting abused is not a good feeling.
It affects your body,
your mind,
and your soul
to the point where being broken is an everyday occurrence.
Abuse is abuse,
it doesn't matter what your excuse is.
It is never okay.

Love shouldn’t be fear
It should flow.
One to another.
It should be wonderful.
Love shouldn’t have to hide.
It should abide with life.
Pain was never meant for a couple.
Fists should not overtake kisses.
Love shouldn’t be shoved inside a closet,
Just waiting to be forgotten.
Love is beginning to lose its meaning.
Abuse has taken over a lot of people’s lives and relationships
Parents and children
Husbands and wives.

But, who knew it could all start,
when you gave your word,
you would stay
"Till death do us part"
going to be performed live in front of my school tomorrow!!!
May 2016 · 427
future aspirations
I want to be someone
anyone.
I want to be in front of a crowd of fans
on stage
performing
I want to
be someone
because
I have lived my life
feeling like no one
I want to prove my haters wrong.
I want to scream that I am someone
from the top of my lungs!
I want to live a life worth living
and have no regrets.
I want to live a life with love.
And fun.
I want to be a good person,
who no one will think of me as a ******.
I want to hold the mike.
I want to let my scream come out.
Spit lyrics,
and bob my head to my song's drumbeat.
I wanna make it someday.
I dont care how
because I am done
*being a nobody
truth on paper
May 2016 · 3.9k
Star wars
Star wars
star wars
What's there not to love?
Laser swords
and clone trooper hordes.
The action is thrilling,
the plot is chilling.
And everyone is just plain
badass
Starships and land rovers,
life is all in the galaxy.
The begining is epic,
A long time ago
in a galaxy far, far away...

What's more iconic?
Yoda so fly,
ain't no other franchise can try.
Star Wars,
my first true love.
Always wantin' to be a jedi,
destroy all sith
and bring balance to the force.
Almost may 4th,
May the forth be with you
there was 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, and 6
but 7?
you bringin' me to heaven
Star Wars,
*is there anything better
just reminiscing on star wars and the memories behind them.
=)
just for fun
May 2016 · 408
This situation
sometimes
things dont work out
**I hope this is not one of those
eh, eh?
May 2016 · 477
Damn
thats all I can say about you.
You are so **** nice
So **** pretty.
So **** lovely.
You are so **** perfect
I wanna love you
So **** bad
You,
I don't know how you get so **** good
at making me feel worth something.
I want to kiss you,
hold you,
love you
so **** bad.
I have gotten to the point
where I don't care about anyone else
but you
I don't know if this is weird,
I don't know if I'm going about this in all the wrong ways,
but the thing is
you won't tell me
I'd give anything to have you with me.
I want to take you to the sky.
To create our own world.
Away from heartbreak.
Away from drama.
Away from pain.
Just you and I.
I wish this love could be shared.
Is it?
Do you feel anything for me?
At all?
Am I worth you?
I wanna know so **** bad.
Like you are perfect.
You are...you
I cannot stop.
If this is what love feels like,
than I want to hold it forever.
A girl like you,
never comes.
But you are here.
You know me.
And
I
Love you.
Do you love me?
I don't want you to feel strange.
This is why I feel so insecure.
Can you see it in me?
How scared yet confident I am with you.
I feel so nervous.
Like,
what do I say?
I can't just shout out
"I love you so **** much!"
But,
Is it mutual?
I'm I truly worth you
Because you are
just
well...
****
May 2016 · 432
Start again
starting over.
A new you
New look,
new attitude
New outlook on life.
Walking down the halls,
head held high.
Until someone comes up,
knocks you down.
****.
See people try so hard.
they just wanna make it.
They wanna stop faking it.
Life gets hard.
Things get ****** up.
Why these things happen,
well I don't know.
Dark fills this place.
All we want to do is start again.
Get a better reputation.
Create a better life.
But people won't let you.
May 2016 · 272
Question_115
Do you ever get to the point
where
you just want to quit asking,
"are you okay?"
May 2016 · 293
alone
right now,
I crave conversation.
I sit alone.
Waiting for her to finish.
I sit here
hearing all conversations.
One is about football
another is about plans for this Wednesday.
I want to be talking.
I want to be apart of something.
right now
My spirits are low.
Right now,
it seems like these gray tables are going to swallow me whole
these chairs hurt.
there is a model rocket above my head.
I want to fly away in it
Zoom past the stars,
the planets
and everything in between.
I want to be one with the air.
One in the soul.
forever
I feel alone.
Alone
I wait...
still waiting
but what can I expect?
Some things are really important.
Sorry I tried to keep you,
but this feeling is why.
Woops.
So yeah,
I feel alone.
So alone.
Its noisy,
yet I feel the silence.
Dark, silent silence.
Why did god create this feeling.
Its quite ugly
this is getting repetitive.
I know.
but I cant help it
I feel alone
May 2016 · 2.6k
dab
dab
dab for the teachers
dab for the kids
dab for the ministers
dab for the office workers
dab for the police
dab for the cafeteria workers
dab for the janitors
dab for the musicians not heard
dab for the bosses
dab for the civilizations to come
dab for the respectful
dab for the nice ones
dab for the politicians
dab for the moms
dab for the dads
dab for the able
dab for the disabled
dab for the poor
dab for the mechanics
dab for the coaches
dab for your family
dab for your friends
dab for her
and for him
dab for yourself
and
dab for appreciation
be thankful for the people you may not think about
May 2016 · 1.3k
stalker
why do you follow me?
watch everything I do?
Why do you read me
when you have the wrong book?
Why do you vow to destroy me,
but ignore me the entire day?
Why do you pass me by
look me in the eyes,
but say no words.
Is this your plan?
Its working.
its working
but may I say
leave me alone
If you don't want anything to do with me,
than stop pretending like you do.
you know who you are...
May 2016 · 511
Love/Hate: the dynamic duo
May 2016 · 313
March 15th, 2015
that was the day I began here.
That day I decided to try my luck here.
Hello Poetry
google brought you to me.
I wanted a place to be myself.
A place to write,
have it read.
And I found you all.

My first follower,
Randolph L Wilson.
The moment I saw the 1
My brain blew up in happienes.
someone likes my work!
I thank you.
You brought meaning to these words.
Then the next follower.
And the next
and the next,
until today,
we are here.
You are reading this poem, and I
well I can't quite tell you exactly what I'm doing.
But,
I was born again here.
To all of you.
Even you
I am yours,
these poems are for you.
Maybe to help,
to realize,
to be happy.
Thank you for being here,
people of hello poetry
thank you,
thank you,
thank you.
I can't believe we've gotten this far,
in the last two months,
and we can only go further
**together
appreciation for all those who read my poetry
May 2016 · 1.1k
Classic man (manners)
"My name calling all night
I can pull the wool while I'm being polite
Like, darling calling all night
I can be a bull while I'm being polite"
~Jidenna
_______
Manners have disappeared.
Respect is gone.
Youth today "don't give a ****"
What happened?
Where did being nice in public go?
Youth,
this is your...our callout.
"Manners are gay"
is what they say,
but when mamma's around,
its "yes sir"
"please?"
when she leaves,
"hurry up, *****"
America has changed so much.
Rude is now the norm.
What the heck?
Why, why why?
Where did the manners go?
Why not be the "classic man"
and stick to your morals?
Being cool should not be the motivation in life,
but being the best you can be.
And shouting out slurs all the time
is not the way to do that.
Like where is your head?
Up the *** maybe?
Manners are the origins of our childhood, no?
So than why the h-e double hockey stick do we act like
that chapter of our life
never existed
its time to grow up,
really grow up
open our eyes,
and be respectable human beings
for us youth who "dont give a ****"
May 2016 · 2.1k
grades
grades
grades
grades
...
they are important.
**** grades.
Use luck.
I dont even know...
May 2016 · 247
words.
words.
powerful ****
May 2016 · 517
This is not a poem
This is not a poem,
not a speech,
not an essay
.
This is just me, talking
to you.
This is me speaking with my voice through my words.
______________
Hi,
how are you?
If you wanted to know,
i'm not doing to well.
My mind takes me places
that even I am scared of.
My dad is changing back to the way he has always been.
My mom seems to get more ****** by the minute.
I feel so tired.
Angry
In love.
woah, in love?
yeah.
I'd say so.
this girl
****.
she is so perfect.
she doesn't think so,
but she is =)
I have no idea...at all
just what it is that I'm doing.
I'm not going to try,
but I really, really want to.
But then I think,
bruh,
no.
I don't know who I am,
why I'm here.
I don't feel to good.
Alone at best.
No, I know I get annoying
and weird,
dramatic.
But isn't that the beauty of me?
Like, seriously.
I wanna know,
all the stuff that
I dunno.
Thanks for talking with me,
Zach
May 2016 · 277
115
115
115 is a special number to me.
Summer Rose, thank you.
your follow brought me the number 115.
115 is something that goes with me everywhere.
115
115
115.
This may seem ridiculous
but this is my number,
my lucky number, you might say.
I feel so HAPPY!
I reached 115.
i saw the 114,
and was like
***
its almost at 115.
and now,
it really is
...
thank you!!!
May 2016 · 959
Describing you
You, honey
You are so beautiful.
You are the one I want to be with forever
You,
You are so stunning.
Call me insane,
But I want to give you my life.
The way you are.
With me.
The way you look
At me.
I can't control myself.
I feel my heart thump.
It keeps going.
I cannot work up the nerve to say something.
I'm too scared you'll leave me.
And thats the point.
I'm scared
I'm scared that if I ask again
You will introduce me to hell.
I want you so bad.
But I know you will never love me.
I want to hold you,
To show you that I'm different
different
I swear.
I want you.
You don't understand.
I think about you every **** day.
Everyday I think about what we could be.
Am I a creep for that?
All these ambitions,
All these feelings
Cooped up inside this body I call my own.
I want to kiss you.
So so bad.
I want to feel what perfection feels like against my lips.
That is who you are.
Perfection.
I know you don't think so.
But no one thinks of themselves as perfect.
That's the beauty of others telling you that you are.
It lifts you.
And that's what I want to do.
I want you to feel beautiful,
Because you are
Describing you is impossible.
Yet I try so hard.
Can you see I'm struggling?
Honey,
I love you.
You will never know.
I wish I could tell you
I have.
Here.
Tonight.
This is it.
I love you
I,
Love
You.
So
God
****
Much
Do you love me?
How could you?
I'm me, right?
I am not worth your kiss.
But I still strive to meet your expectations.
**** for getting so close.
I wish,
My one wish
Is to have you
forever
Am I too much?
Has this gone too far?
I'm so afraid
But
Honey,
This is all I know how to do.
May 2016 · 377
Arguing with myself
My day was fine
Except for the yelling
And the tears
and the bruises
The cussing
The fussing
The overall day was bad I guess
No, no your right
I did have a good night's sleep.
I have a roof over my head
Carpet beneath my feet
And a warm place to stay
But in the place that I stay
I have to deal with abuse
Denial
I just feel off
No I don't
I feel great.
I want to get away
but getting g away could lead to uncertainty
And you don't like uncertainty
I don't
I hate these conversations
*with myself
Apr 2016 · 1.6k
Emo
Emo
you say I'm emo
just because I wear black a lot.
You say I am a queer
because I give my best friend a hug, and he just happens to be a guy.
You think I cut
just because I have scars on my wrist.
Truth is,
none of the stuff you say is true.
See, emo has become a fad.
Everyone wants to have attention.
But us "real emos" will tell you that its no fun.
I can't...we can't control when we are happy and sad,
glad and mad.
Its a ****** feeling.
I do not wear black because I worship Satan,
I wear black because it fits me
I do not wear my band shirts to be cool,
I wear them because they represent who I am.
I do not listen to rock music because I have problems,
I listen to it because the screaming helps my blood flow.
I don't expect you to know what it's like to truly be
emo
The only time you say that word,
the only time you say us
is when you make fun of us.
My hair is not long just to cover my face,
my hair is long because I like it that way.
You expect us to be like you,
but yet you rob us of our happienes.
Well,
who the **** are you to call me emo?
huh?
What do you truly know about depression.
Because your idea of depression is when you get grounded,
and my idea of depression is when I hold a blade to my neck.
You think depression is just tears,
but nope.
Its painful,
draining,
almost numbing.
This isn't even the start.
Do not call me emo,
because of what you think
because you will never know me
I won't let you get to know me
because I don't want that pain.
You are a ******,
and one of the reasons why
*I'm emo
Apr 2016 · 378
old game
Concentration
(clap clap clap)
64
(clap clap clap)
no repeats
(clap clap clap)
or hesitation.  

What if I hesitate,
to concentrate
and what if I hesitate
to love
to live
*to breathe
Apr 2016 · 275
love
the price of life
love
and it hurts
*alot
Apr 2016 · 423
this is me
"Plans, plans, plans. They always have their plans. But the problem with their plan... is that when you take an insane person to the asylum, you're just taking him home - the very place he knows best."
~joker..again XD
Apr 2016 · 3.1k
Joker
'Good evening, residents of Joker Asylum! Some of our...crazier guests have crashed the party early, and when I say crazy, I mean REAL ******. Word of warning, if anyone sees a dribbling fool barking at the moon or maybe just purring like a kitten, do your civic duty. Walk up to them, put your arm around them, show them that you care...before you wring their necks!"

"Plans, plans, plans. They always have their plans. But the problem with their plan... is that when you take an insane person to the asylum, you're just taking him home - the very place he knows best."

"Welcome to the madhouse, Batman! I set a trap and you sprang it gloriously! Now let's get this party started."
~batman arkham asylum
dont we all wish we could be like joker some days
Apr 2016 · 1.6k
T
T
T,
I want you to know.
and I don't want to be mean
but,
I want you to know.
I don't want you anymore.
Time after time I tried.
And thats the thing
I was the only one trying.
I tried to carry the relationship,
but you knew what else was happening at home.
T,
I don't think its right
the way you've been treating me.
You don't even look at me,
as if I did something wrong.
T,
I did love you
I loved you.
But notice the "ed"
Every part of me has let go.
You are not a bad person,
but the fact is
why, if you don't like me
are you following me?
Trying to see
what I'm doing.
Every day.
You act like nothing ever happened.
But sorry to tell you dear,
something happened
What did you think I was?
I could tell you what I think...
but this isn't about me,
its for you, T.
Please, just stop.
Everything.
Seriously T.
I don't want you anymore.
This is my goodbye,
*goodbye
Apr 2016 · 404
Undone
I have come undone.
My body like bandages,
a mummy roaming the earth.
I thought I was doing good
I'm fine type of thing.
I have not admitted
that I am not okay
Theres so much that I have on my plate right now.
deadlines
love
abiding
accusing
ranting
I have been in the biggest swirl of my life,
like an ice cream machine
but not so sweet
Dad is angry all the time.
Mom is tired all the time.
My sister is ****-talking all the time.
And I?
I am being depressing all the time.
No body told me life was supposed to be easy,
guess I was assuming again
My life is screeching to a halt.
I want to take a time out,
to let myself breathe
but with my life,
breaks don't exist
I want this pain to cease.
I want to seal this dilemma with a crease.
But it ain't that easy
See I walk into school
To come home
and repeat.
I expect something new to happen.
But I don't get the feeling.
****
I feel undone.
I force myself to read my life like it's a book.
But the truth is, I don't see an end anytime soon.
This novel just keeps on going
and going
and going
and going
when will it stop?
I feel undone.
I admit it.
I thought I was strong enough to handle this,
but in the midst of it all,
I now realize
*I have come undone
Apr 2016 · 1.1k
Coundown(2)
The countdown
for absolutely nothing at all
#2
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