i've carried life inside me
yet find it a mystery
life that is
an odd quiz
one with questions
and no explanation
am i to only bask
and not ask?

Of poetry
and prose
his words
remind me
Every time
we talk
I bloom
like a rose

Kiss me like there
won’t be a tomorrow
Hug me that from my
bones seep out all sorrow
Love me in wild ways that
even blushes my shadow

I love you too much
and that’s certainly a crime
because you don’t love me as much
and that’s my punishment.

before you came it was hell
with you i'd hoped it'd go well
but it didn't last, the spell
all you've left behind is a shell
on it i will no longer dwell
consider this as my farewell

Between cups of kisses
He and I put back the pieces
Left by past lovers
Out of caprice
Aborted missions
We carried fissures
Regretting old wishes
He and I swore, no more guises
Only sweet promises
For every sunrise
That blesses our eyes

Just like good times
bad times end too

i prayed for sunshine
but all i got were storms
were i patient enough
i’d have seen the rainbow

one day
I’ll wake up
not caring
whether or
not you care

nothing like a
good cup of tea
while the clouds
bellow like an angry sea

The bitter truths I’ve survived
The sweet lies I’ve lived
I still carry on
Like the hands
Of a clock
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not a lot to say
nowadays
but my mind doesn't
mind replays

my heart doesn't beat
as fast
as it used to
in the past

i see my eyes
in yours
we hide behind
closed doors

so much left to
say
and yet we'd rather lock
it all away

our paradise
was built on
white lies
and compromise
yes, we lived through
grey skies
but we didn't realise
in our eyes
the truth lies

I don’t do moon and stars
I’m not good at metaphors
I’m not what you call a romantic
That said, I’m no less enthusiastic
When I give, I don’t count
And when I take, there’s no discount
Don’t question my kindness
Don’t look for my weakness
By your side I’ll stay
As long as you don’t stray
You’ll be mine
Until ends time

Not that I can’t
but I simply won’t
until you can
then I shall...

he opened the cage
and let me out
only to catch me
in his clout

I must have grown wings
captured within your arms
because I’m flying even when
my feet are planted next to yours

I live in a body that’s no longer mine
You shouldn’t stress, you look fine
Friends tell me from time to time
I add to my water half a lime
I look for weight busters online
My hips still choke my waistline
It costs me a pretty dime
every day when I’m on lunchtime
Riding farther from my knees is my hemline
Surely there’s another way to cloud nine?

To let it all go
and let it all flow
before I lose my glow
he adds as if he know
I need to take a mo
for I to further grow
Over to him I tiptoe
and I say, no
I’m not chasing rainbows
I bloom through tornadoes

I was perhaps blind
or maybe too kind
I let on my mind
you and your hind
for time undefined
I now feel confined
so strength I must find
to leave you behind
for my peace of mind

you came
you saw
and you left

i cried
i stayed
and i conquered

Your chapter still remains unwritten
Not because you’re forgotten
You come to mind too often
I just don’t want to share you yet
You’re the one I want to hold
on to for the longest

In vain
I wait
for the clouds
To shed its rain
A bent brain
My heart in twain
Vervain
In my vein
I let disdain
Eat the pain

For him my heart races
Wearing nothing but laces
I wait for his embrace
It’s written all over my face
I want to go places
No airs and graces
I want it all in uppercase
‘Tis time to unlace...
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Our love, I foolishly hoped, would be pretty simple
For down my spine you’d always send a tender tickle
But you and not I turned out to be blithely fickle
The day you said goodbye, I got to see pure evil
In eyes that were once alluring if not readily sinful
I silently cried because my heart then you did *******
The forever you promised somehow became a mere wrinkle
In the future that I now have to explain in past participle

The freedom
To be awesome
To be my best version
is borne out of inspiration
Pushed by motivation

As I simply gawk
At a flying flock

On graceful wings
Against heavy winds
They soar and spin
My heart sings
At this magnificent sighting
Must be God’s blessings
To us all, human beings...

We used to eat from the same plate
because besides being best mates
we were soul mates
There were some that did speculate
On us being so intimate
We would laugh at their spate
After all, how could love turn into hate?
An answer I'm yet to postulate
Because that's one question I'm still trying to assimilate

i’m scared to pray
even when things
don’t go my way
i know I’ll pay
for the times i stray
i keep pushing
it all away
thinking ‘come what may,
He’ll still give
me another day’

you'll never go any higher
if after every time
your knees fold under
you don't get up as a fighter

even though you’re no
longer in my heart
you are still on my mind

You only care
when I lie, bare
on your bed
my legs spread
you shout, honey
I’ll make you happy
but we both know
all you want is a blow
until then you’ll pretend
that you care until the end

Of a brewing silence
and buried emotions
we’ve built a house
walled with doubts
our interior decor
layered with rancour
Scattered ornaments
cloak our armaments
Oft engaged in aphonic wars
We rack up our scores in
crystal-clear jars

Of course I want to be read
She wrote that, I want it to be said
I’ve got so many stories in my head
Few I’m proud of, many I dread
I lie down at night in my bed
threading words worthy of a spread
Oh, by the way, my name is not Zed

ignorance is what my mind seeks
when i learn of the secrets he keeps

What does your daddy do?
He got rid of his working shoes
When he does not snooze
He listens to old tunes
While his tea brews
He reads the news
He likes to cruise and take in the views
My daddy is cool.

What about your mommy?
She's busy, busy making money
Take a break honey, says daddy.
I'm still young, she gets cocky.
Give her a ***, she'll make a curry
Ask her for a penny, she'll buy you a pony
Witty, sassy, finicky, pretty and many
More to add to her personality.
Let me end her story
Before you say I love her more than daddy.

withered flowers
my heart in tatters
there goes my forever

My love was free
Unlike yours, on a spree
To collect any she
Willing to trust thee

I swam in high seas
I climbed tall trees
I walked on hot coals
Walked out of black holes
I betrayed my demons
They gave me good reasons
I snatched awards
Not for rewards
And now I stand in front of you
Feeling brand new
Heart on my sleeve
You best believe

hand in hand
our feet sinking in sand
whilst on the beach we stand
the cool breeze lulling us into dreamland

but it’s not a dream
we are not on live stream
i see in your eyes the same gleam
as a silver sea kissed by the moonbeam

You lived in my teenage dreams
Nothing has changed, it seems
Your face always dominates
Every time my mind illustrates
You’re still stuck in my head
Even when my heart lies in a new bed

Oh resilient heart o’mine
You know you’ll be fine
We’ve loved with every ounce
He was nothing but a louse
Let the pain run through our veins
because I know we’ll love again

Don’t bury your love under a pile of words
Many battles had been won with swords
I’m not saying you should be like warlords
But get out there with all of your cards
It’s not a game you play to collect rewards
The only things you gotta **** are your own guards
and finally speak of what is in your heart

what’s the point of us
when we have all but trust?
we couldn’t convert lust
what we thought was a must
and now all that remains is dust

“Drifted apart”
were two words
we’d never thought
would apply to us
You said, “Never!”
and I said
“Never ever say never”.
You laughed. I shrugged.
Now we’re worst than strangers.
We don’t even say hello
to each other.

whilst many are
waxing lyrical
about the moon
and the stars
i'm hugging trees
i'm rolling on leaves
if you want to know
how much i love you
look at a tree
how it still gives
even when being
cut down

I finally stuffed my qualms
in my oh! so sweaty palms
I walked up to you
and I said I do too

Never looked back
Anyway it all looks black
I only see colors
since touch did our fingers

You want me
to be the me
when we first met
Don’t you know
that she is now dead?
I buried her
as soon as
you killed her