there are days
when i sit in daze
in my mind, on repeat
a phrase
is it a phase
or is it the start
of a maze?
i look for ways
to get out unscathed
it doesn’t work, not always

It used to hurt
to think about you
but now I smile
because I knew you
for a while

You came as a surprise
And made me realise
that on earth there’s paradise
I just have to look in your eyes
and feel how blessed am I

I think of you very often
of what could have been
if I hadn’t left back then
We had a great between
I think of how it all began
and how it had to end
You are the only has-been
that would have been
more than it had been
were we given
more than a min
I can only imagine!

Your loving gaze
Like sun rays
Thawed my cold heart
I thought I was falling apart
Nothing made sense
Until you touched my hands
How could that be?
Such power over me?
I looked into your eyes
In mine you saw the whys
But what I saw in yours
Took away my fears

you reached me from behind
i felt the weight of the grind
i wanted to scream and i did in my mind
not because i wasn't inclined
it's just been a while we haven't twined
where we were partially blind
and yet perfectly aligned

A hint of spices
In his meat slices
His hackles rise
He's ready to scythe
The imbecile
Who ruined his appetite

Don’t call me a poet
For only out I let
What you bet
Would never set
me free and yet
here I am - a Juliet
who may not forget
but lives in no regret

You've always been different from the rest
And that's why, to me, you'll always be the best

despite my mess
you gave me your best
until my eyes rest
i'll remember your kindness

how to love
how to hate
you taught me both

the less I say
the more you lie
the more you play
the less I sigh
the more you betray
the less I cry
why don’t you go away
I’m not going to ask why

know that i still think about you
maybe not every day but i do
i think of what could have been
had i been too hasty at nineteen?
i guess we won't ever know
unless we give it another go
people say don't look back
look ahead and don't lose track
but you're part of my story
you're a chapter i can't just bury

With soft kisses
He reduces my ire to pieces
Stacks them in little parcels
Embellished by beautiful tassels
Sends them flying like peaceful angels

We were two peas in a pod
Trying to beat the odds
Because we didn’t pray
to the same god
People called us frauds
But couldn’t they see
they were as much flawed
as us two broads?

I wish I could write down
how you make me feel
but I’m scared I’d go back
to it every now and then
and remember...

one was a knife cut through  
two is a dream come true
three will be a pretty hot stew
four - now that’s far too many boo

Not that I need it
but when you say it
I believe it
better than when
you don’t say it

You took my trust
smashed it to dust
You fed me lies
with brazen eyes
You took my heart
then ripped it apart
You bore a hole
into my soul
Should I continue?
Or is it enough for you too?

Trying to break out of the mould
that our society has imposed
I don’t want to grow old
with a blindfold

The sun shines brighter
when we are together

The stars look sharper
when my head rests
on your shoulder

The rain falls slower
when, skin to skin,
we touch each other

I smile wider
knowing there’s no other

but then I remember
how oft you falter
what’s on your mind?
I wonder

in the sea of love we fell
we didn’t swim very well
we looked for a lifeboat
maybe it’d keep us afloat?

but we wanted much more
once we reached the shore

for eternity
we weren’t meant to be

we knew forever was not for us
we didn’t even have to discuss
we squeezed out what we could
and moved on like we were good

I read their words
and realise they also live
in some of the worlds
that I thought were only mine

the journey to my truths
started with too many lies
that’s how I know
yesterday’s pain
and today’s sorrow
will be tomorrow’s joy

You lived in my teenage dreams
Nothing has changed, it seems
Your face always dominates
Every time my mind illustrates
You’re still stuck in my head
Even when my heart lies in a new bed

To me you were everything
To you that meant nothing

All this time
I thought
our souls reached
out to each other
But I now realise
it was our circumstances
that got us close
and as time moved on
you did too

numerous times
I’ve thought of
the many times
you didn’t care
enough to
check on me
for old times’ sake

I can’t imagine loving another
Let alone living with another
So let’s make us last forever

No matter how many times
the voice in my head comes up
with reasons to leave
my heart whispers
“Stay. Don’t give up.”

i float in the air
and let loose my hair
every time you stare
like i'm the prettiest mare
you have in your lair

Time hasn’t been kind
to what’s on my mind
especially you who I find
hard to leave behind

My heart didn’t break
But my belly did ache
Fear gnawed my insides
Ain’t no one to brave the tides
But me, myself and I
I could no longer deny
I know he rues the day
He left me for another lay
I saw the signs
Didn’t I tell you
I’m good at reading
between the lines?

I didn't think twice
for which I paid the price
Aiming for new heights
I now select my fights

despite your presence
i feel the absence
of your mind
maybe it's a sign
i feel it in my soul
and my toes
are we reaching
the end of you and me?

How easily you’ve moved on
As if the pain was none
Yes, I wanted to be alone
but not for too long
Maybe it came out wrong
I never thought we’d be done
As quick as a hit-and-run

How easily you’ve moved on
As if the pain was none...

"You are beautiful", says the mirror.
My mind sneers, "Here's another liar."

As easily as the sun sets every day
I wish I could break away
From you who are holding me prisoner
From you who promised me happy-ever-after
The gold has finally faded
and I now feel jaded  
I believed by staying I was strong
but now I know I’m so wrong
I need that first step
that’s the only way I’m going up
By leaving you behind
Banish you from my mind
Remove you from my heart
A new life I’ll start

I try to escape from the rhymes
But they find me between the lines
Words jump out from conversations
My trigger to articulated aspirations
I promise them a new sentence
Some agree with reluctance
While you are building castles
I'm writing down time capsules

gone are those summer days
when blood rushed like wine
our skin turned brown
'coz the sun never went down
but now it feels like
we're stuck in winter
didn't even know who
changed the picture
the sky turned grey
and the cold has crept in

I don’t want to live with regrets
They’ll bury me before I’m dead
But sure, I’ll take some secrets
Where I’ll be finally laid to rest

If there was a better half of me
It could only be you and no one else
Don’t you know I am my best
Only when you’re next to me?