You are my wolf
As I'm your moon,
You howl at night
So I shine upon you.
Have you ever wondered about us?
How our miseries blend?
I scar upon my weary soul
To heal your withered veins.
I am the lonely moon,
And you're the lonely wolf,
Lonely is what makes us lovely
Let us love our fragile souls.
I'm the silent watcher
To all of your thoughts and prays.
I am the quiet whisperer,
Yes, I hear you call out to me everyday.
So tonight, my love
Let us write our stories to the stars.
Let me shine upon you,
And let our love guide us so far.

Some scattered ink
Let me think,
If I want to write this or not.
Write about our story
Or maybe how it ended, I think I forgot.
Some blank pages
Let me imagine,
If I can picture your silhouette like before.
Eyes closed and everything went dark
Inside of me you left a mark
No, I would rather forget thy voice and chores.
With a piano in front of me,
Or the guitar strings held in my hands,
I don't want to play those tunes anymore
I might get lost into your neverland.
I know I won't be able to break free,
I will blend into thy illusion
And drown again within your delirious dreams.
And I won't wake up anymore, because I know I can't.
As I lie to myself that I will forget you,
Your remembrance is what I really demand.

I've been on the verge of falling in love with you,
Yes, I wanted to surrender my soul and its hue.
Yet I ceased my emotions and break through,
Because I know this time
Oh! This time you would break my heart that's been falling for you!

Yes, I'm a dreamer of thousand dreams.
I don't settle for one vision but I love to explore what's in front of me.
Yes, I'm as free as the abundant sky above us.
I fly off to wherever I want and I see how the color changes all around me; just like the evening sky.
And I'm an observer of thousand faces.
I read their minds and I try to understand their perspective even though they seem so strange,
So wrong,
So wonderful
Or maybe so dark.
I'm a withering soul.
I blend in within the crowd and I see the misery in their eyes.
The desperation is killing them
Yet that's what they call living life to the fullest.
Believe me, I'm a human.
And I bleed, too.
Even though the obstacles of life is wrecking me,
I still find my way through.
I'm what all of you are
I'm what all of you desire to be.
I'm the dream,
I'm the sky,
I'm as tired as all of you,
Yet today, I choose not to die.

By the time you reach here
I'll be drowned within the waves,
My body will dissolve under the earth
But my soul will fly far far away.
By the time you look for me
I will disappear into the dark,
But you can look for me in the sky
As I become your favorite shooting star!
By the time we say our goodbyes
And I'll appear in your lonely nitesky
But when it's time for dawn to break in,
Look for me through the rays of sunshine.

Oh my, spread love
Don't let the flowers die tonight
Oh no, let it flow
Shade the tears up right.
Teardrops under the shade of rain
Or the fire that's burning within
Let the flames turn out
Into the oblivion of nothing.

By this window, I sit and ponder
No, there is no wall between my soul and the world, I wonder.
'Cause my eyes wander in places that the walls can't hide,
My endless dreams come true in those silent nights.
I dream of a road, so green, so mild
And the wind touches my soul as I quietly walk by.
I dream of a place so happy and serene,
I'll sit there for a while to find happiness within.
I dream of people full of life, less sadness
I'll greet them in my world,
Oh! Breathe in the essence of liveliness.
Still I dream and dream,
By this window and a wall in between
Yet in the darkest of nights,
I find myself lost in paradise
'Cause paradise is hidden underneath our scarred skin.

What is it? Oh! What is it?
The question lingers in my head
Hours after hours,
I lie awake in my bed.
I see the sun come up
And I see the sun go down,
With the sunshine I fake a smile
With the sunset I let myself drown.
What is it? Oh! What is it?
Is there anyone to hear my sound?
Tell me, oh! What is it
That's eating me away,
Why is my soul nowhere to be found?

Yet another night of dismay,
Falls upon the land of the tortured
And they pray,
May this night be over
And the morning brings the light,
Not only to a world that's ending
Not only to a soul that's bending their knees
To the torturer,
The omnipotent,
The ones who called themselves God;
And torture poor souls until they're afraid,
And weakened,
Hopeless and blind
To hold the freedom of sunshine.
And now they surrendered themselves lest they should die in misery.



The weakest of them are now covered in mud,
As an example of defeat.
"You must know where you stand,
Fear my presence
Obey my commands!
'Cause I hold the power
Against all of your freedom,
Be my slave,
Dare not to withstand."
But they do.
They stand together every time,
Hoping for a day to come
Where they will grow out of this mud,
And their blood will collide into the sea,
As an example of great sacrifice.
They will bloom like the sunflower facing the sun,
"The sun is our freedom,
We might break, we might fall
Nevertheless we will ever run.
Because we believe in one true God
Who created us,
Who wants a better world
Filled with good souls,
Where peace exists
And so does redemption.
We surrendered our souls
Not to rage wars
Or to stand over the pile of dead bodies and their ashes.
We served our spirit
To create a world as pure as heaven.




Heaven exists only for them
Who serves for good,
Who loves wholeheartedly
As every human should.
Hell exists for those,
Who claims to be a saint
Yet deep inside they are
Just a soulless sinner,
Burning in their own ignited flames.



So tell me,
The great rulers of the world,
The ones who called themselves God
And promised to make a better future,

How long would you deny
The slaughtering of thousands of men, women and children
In the name of betterment?

How many lives would it cost to make a better world where peace exists?
Where happiness is not only a memory but reality.

How long would you hide under the coat of your power,
Claiming to reach heaven
When you're only one step away from hellfire?

Is this how God brings peace upon the face of the earth?
Or is this how God arises to put an end to this despairing world
To all of these miseries.


The tortured souls and the torturers,
The deceased and the despised ones,
You must know, you must prepare
Because the end is near.

What does the world look like?
Through a homeless person or a nomad's eyes.
Is it a world colored in black and white?
Tell me, how long do they survive.
What does the world look like?
Through a guilty or a sinner's eyesight.
Is it a world filled with beautiful lies?
Tell me how miserably and desperately
We, the holy souls wish for them to die.
Tell me, oh sacred souls!
Have you lived their lives?
Have you ever wondered for once!
What does the world look like?
Oh, how blindfolded we are,
And how miserable inside.
We thought we lived in a better world
But we judge a sinner's sin,
Yet we hide away our endless vice.
We fill our mouths with lies and filth,
We believe the truth is what we disguise.
Oh scared souls! You blindly claim,
You deserve to live better
While sinners and nomads burn in flames,
When you ride for heaven
Because you are a saint,
The sinners must walk to hell,
Because they are the society of shame.

I have a fear,
A disease you may call it,
Whenever there's soothing silence
I fear of tormenting violence.
I suffocate,
There's lack of air in my soul
Whenever you leave me here,
Darkness consumes me whole.
I fall and break,
Now there's a scar inside of me
Whenever I try to ignite my soul with light
I'm burnt out of flames,
I can't breathe.
You may call it a disease
You may laugh about it inside.
But dear,
Have you ever fought your own demons?
Tell me,
If you ever won
Against the darkest parts of your life!

Shattering silence into the void
As raging thunderstorm hits within,
The swirling wind whispers tonight,
We hear breathlessly a melodious hymn.
As our naked souls collide;
No more, my love, we flee, we hide
Tonight I'll blend into your skin
As you drift into my reckless eyes.
Those eyes I crave, I fall, I wreck!
Yet your heaving mirage diminishing my soul,
Blinking I wander, I seek, I break.
"How long until this ends, my love?" As my desperate soul prolonged to hear.
"As long as the storm lasts." He sighs,
Our hollowed senses shivered with fear.

The universe said that I will change,
My heart shall break, I cannot mend
As pure as I'm inside
Just a kid of five,
I laugh away their words, I shall be the same.
My friends would say that I will change,
Distance might break us, only the memories will remain
As youth flows through me
Just a girl of thirteen,
I ignore their words, I shall be the same.
My parents would worry, did I really change!?
A reckless mind inside, a wrecked heart in pain,
As frustration invades my spirit
And I'm just a girl of eighteen,
I break down and cry
I claim that I've gone insane.
I told myself that, "You have changed,
You have a broken heart that will never mend."
As lost I was, I look for a way
The universe conspired against my soul,
And I know I've failed to stay the same.
"So what? You shall break free and find your soul!" Said a voice from deep within.
As overwhelmed as I was,
Just a girl from the past,
I find that kid inside of me again
And embraced all my fears of change.

I called you once or twice, yet the phone kept ringing,
And nothing more but my sighs
Filled my dark room with shadows clinging
I wanted to tell you, tell you what's left unsaid
When you left my doorstep, my silence filled the hollow you hate.
You wanted answers I couldn't give
I couldn't shade my tears for you then,
For you I tore myself and died and lived.
Vigile my soul, agile my eyes
Weakened by the agony, a fragile heart dies!
Let me tell you, my love
Tell you what I felt for you.
I felt the sunshine, the moonlight
The thunderstorms raging through.
I'm fragile, let me go.
Your heart still beats, but mine beats no more.
I wanted to tell you, how I die
And even death can't do us apart
Filling your heart with abundant cries.
Don't you cry when I leave, I will though
If you love me, you'll let me go.
I call you no more, my heart skipped a beat
I'll love you till the moonlight shines
Even in new moon, soon enough we'll meet.
Pained my soul, I couldn't let you know,
How much I loved you, even my fragile heart loved you so.

You're like a blade cutting me deep
Sharper edges push in my skin
As I silently bleed.
Hush! They shall not know thy crime
How you severed my heart into pieces
Crushed my soul in your darkest chime.
Melodies I felt, as you sang to me those nights
Oh! Little did I know thy music was just a false dream
An illude filled with your eternal lies.
As thy deceitful promises kept scarring my delicate skin,
I silently bleed and drown in your memories
Enchanted in thy shadowy dreams.

It's not the dresses we buy
Or cut our hair short and dye.
It's not how we get new glasses or chains
Do we really know what of us truly remain?
No, we do not change by appearance
We only change from the core of our hearts,
No, we never reveal our real beauty
But we wear a beautiful mask.
It's about the masks we wear
It's about the lies we share,
So nobody must know what hides beneath these faces,
Is there anybody left for me to care?
It's been so long I've been wearing my mask,
I can't tell who I am now
Or who I really was.
Was I a painter?
Was I writer?
Or a dreamer perhaps?
Or did I come from nothing?
And to nothing my spirit will collapse.

An eternity ago
I built a home for you and me,
I forgot how it looked in real
As it was just a lonely dream.
Didn't I tell you about it?
Oh, maybe I forgot that, too.
But with an ache inside I remembered,
As the dream was just a dream,
Oh, my sweetness! So were you.

Life goes high,
And life goes low.
In between we're the feathery souls,
We fatuously flow.
Where we'll stop
We do not know,
We are the lights of heaven
We vibrantly glow.
A little up we fly
A little down we go,
Too late to catch us in cages
We are the birds of gold.

I've lost
And I've found,
All those faces circling me around.
I've lied
And I've tried,
To hide my face beneath the ground.
They walked into my life
They've walked right out,
I told myself, "It's okay"
"What is lost, was lost before it was found."
I weep
And I sleep,
Only to dream a life better than my own.
I hide
And I died,
Too late, with regret
Those faces still circling me around.

No, I do not fear losing you,
I don't shed tears because I've been hurt, too.
It's only your love, so pure, I fear
I might burn, I might drown as I draw you near.
No, I am not afraid to love your enlightened soul,
It's my darkened spirit, I fear
That will turn into ashes when you try to hold.
Delicate you are, as sacred as the raindrops from the clouds,
Corrupted I am, a demon hiding inside of me, I doubt.
So no, I do not fear losing you because I love you,
I fear of vanishing into the darkness,
As I desire for you to love me, too.

Tick tock of a weary clock
As the old man counts his days,
How harsh, oh time you are!
To seize my time and phase.
Haven't you had enough, old man?
Haven't you made memories that matter?
Those memories are what killing me more,
Yet I wanna live and live
As the tick tock ceaselessly mutter.
Tick tock, oh deadly clock
Can't you stop for a while and let me live?
Says a blessed man, with a life so blissful
Time can't grip your pleasure and heavenly bliss.
Oh time! So slow
Why you lingering to pass,
As my aches burn and flow?
Says a lonely boy, so pallid in youth
Such wonder youth was the time to wander and grow.
Dear child, why so pained?
Time moves along, as your scars will show
Wake up! Your delicate skin will be scarred
As your youth will start to grow.
Oh time, you've taken my shine
When I was just a child of glass,
Fragile yet lucid in heart, and the world was profoundly mine!
When worries didn't keep me up at night
I've dreamed of places I'd roam
Yet woke up, realizing I've grown up and frighten to death, where shall I go?
Where shall we run, oh time?
When one's heart is devastated
Yet another's heart is divine,
Tick tock, says the weary clock
I'm tired in a pleasing way, too,
Yet I quench and flow, in silence I vow
To worth every moment of thy lives and hues.

This is a ghost town we live in
Where every soul has tasted death.
Every eyes have shed tears of wry
And every joy slowly vanished and wrecked.
This is a strange town,
Where people regret for not being loved
Where every hello leads to a goodbye,
Yet every memory lives within their soul.
Why is this town so void, so hollow?
Filled with darkness, where every soul follows,
Why, dear child you're filled with sorrow?
Nevertheless you break in bones, lurking behind horror.
This is a town we all live in,
Where we shall taste sweet life
Either drown or survive the eternal pain.