Some songs can't be sang by anyone
For any audience
Some songs r only felt
Some songs r only writ
If I felt it ... and wrote
And you don't get it
Maybe it just isn't
But ur isn't
Isn't a detourant for me
Ur isn't
Is a why shouldn't
We to me
If my song isn't ur song
So be it
I sang it for me and any of us like me to feel it.
It was never ur song.

How could I know you really love me
When u don't love like I do
How do any lovers
Communicate their feelings
Their truths
How can anyone trust
What another says to you
When my love
Is so different
Than any love given to you
How can I see where ur love lies
And bends
And ends
When I love like fire
And you love like wind.
We could start a blaze
Or burn out and that's it
How can any lover know
When love is resilient
Or resistant

I can't say ur a safe bet
I can't give anything to u
I can't live thru more regret
U seem to want to have fun
I just want someone
Who would love me
Someone to hold
...but u were so cold

so im here to baby sit while u cry over ur
non ex
ex cause me
I dont buy it
I won't even waste my change on it
u can't change
I won't even give u a tip
ur just a cosmic tragedy
let ur emotions
dictate ever single movement
and that's why I cant see thru the *******
sorry but I got 30/20 vision
In both eyes
sometimes in my dreams
I can see our destiny's
yet u still here lying about the present
can't u see it hurts me to see
the truth come true
it's resilient
I see a truth 30/20 vision
dat u just can't accept
or admit to
telling u the end of us  begins with you
you just can't actually be true
u just can't actually be genuine
I pity you
a tragic comedy
something outta a Shakespearean tragedy.

He is an RnB boy
He sings RnB song
But he doesnt know love
No love at all

Wake up with heart ache and regrets
With ocean eyes
Snowing on bare lips
That havent felt your kiss in awhile
Cold shoulders couldnt be more arctic
Anti-love is the game
Everyone is playing
So those of us who still have hearts to give
Wake up with nothing but aches and regrets
And eyes filled like oceans

In this life ive seen people laugh, cry and get high
Only influence standing between the right and left side
Ive felt courage die
And made love lost
Turned such chaos into neccessities
When life isnt suppose to be about material things
Not doe, not hoes, win at all cost, or by any means
Because in time those ingredients bleed
And bore wounds deep
Six feet
Ive seen six eyed monsters creep into hearts still breathing
And transplant its last beats
And beats and beats
Until beats turn into stringed melody
Strangled cries of insanity
Breathing life of normality
Of sorrow bought on black markets
Of dreams tranished
It is love life has yet to witness
Life is a tragedy
Feeling the glass is half empty
We take hits harder than dome would deem pleasurable
When we are living a fable
We run dead end to locked walls holding back dreams
Somewhere we all bare witness to unbearable things
When life is a blessing turned more of a curse
We wonder if we should laugh, cry, or get high first

When u have a small voice.
Its easy to be talked over
Im also a small grl
Ppl think im easy to walk over
I have a tiny voice
That doesnt carry in a room
I have a voice
Ppl ignore
And ideas ppl never hear
Cuz they block out my voice
And muffle my sounds
They cancel my words
And shut out my mouth
Speaking tones
Im unknown
But they dont care
They dont listen
To a tiny voice wit big visions
And grandeur dreams
But somehow they sequester everything i say
And shut down everything i speak
And they will never know me
Or the beautiful things i see
Because my words r nothing
But mumbled speech
As they talk over me and my tiny tiny voice
In your large room
Could there ever be room for me
And my voice to echo
Could there ever be....

I left my glasses at home
So i cant see ur *******
We need to slow down
The incredible speed we r moving
When we r just standing still
But
stopping is not an option
I left my glasses off
So i cant see ur *******
Written in a text
Cuz u cant face me to set it straight
Cuz ur lines r twisted
And story is fake
I had to leave my glasses at home
So i could deny ur regret
Hit snooze on ur alarming *******
U dont get
To have cake and eat it too
Who lied to u
At least it wasnt me
But... u.... ur just a story
Ur made up
We wont make up
Theres no maybe written in the cards
Maybe u should thank ur lucky stars
For me
But now i left my glasses at home
So i cant see you
And the ******* u came thru wit
And u laugh and its the worst
Funny how ur the clown
And all the jokes r all ur words

I could love you more than anything in this world and still seek a universe
Worldly possessions would never shine bright enough
To block out the dark
To outshine the stars
Drawing me to something more

I missed my chance to say farewell
You taught me more than ull ever know
I should have grabbed ur number
I should have text
I should have wrote that letter
To ur parents
To tell them
Maybe i didnt know u well
Or at all for arguements sake
But i knew you were great
And ive said b4 i can b corny
But if im serious
You were a slice of humbolt pie
And the icing on the cake
U were someone id call a friend
U were someone i respect
U taught me more than ull ever know
More than i can nor could admit
I miss u almost every day
Whenever i hear R.E.M
Whenever i remember the difference between apple juice and apple cider
The joke was in the question
They r one and the same
Ur wit was amazing
U were amazing
I lost amazing....
I never got the chance to say anything....
That u were important
That u gave me a chance
That u were my friend.
And now its to ******* late.
How could you pass away?

Ive lost in love
The only thing ive ever felt was missing
I found my complete
And happy ending
That ended just as predicted
Nothing but aches
And pains
And wishing
I had never wanted something so badly
To risk everything to get it
And i lost more than i gained
Except for the pain
I hurt and regret learning ur name
And caring at all
I should never have fall..en
All ur mistakes i tolerated
And lost my pride
In the process
I am a shell
Inside is hallow
No compassion, no connection
I dont think ill ever find another
Love to garner my affection
U were a once in a life time lesson

Ive loved u since the sky fell down
And songs repeat how i feel
Cuz even if ur not around
The feeling will last till im numb
I am reforming
Quakes in my heart lead my transformation
I am going to be
A new me
And u will be the velvet floors and cusion walls
That fill the inside
The chair the ceilings
The beams and doors
Youll be my window
My garden
My furnace burning warmth
To this newly renovated structure
That ive become
Alone
My own home

You are the stuff dreams are made of
If I came rushing up
From a fall
Down into your soul
We had one moment
That was all

You ask me about myself
But it doesnt matter
What I say
What we do
Cuz I'll fall asleep In Your arms
What movies do I like
What movie would we even complete
When ur warmth
Like a fire burning in me
Hibernating the feeling growing inside
I fell asleep in your arms
But it doesn't lay dormant
And emotions stir me
His eyes staring back at me
What is your favorite animal
Could that matter
Cuz ur warmth coats me
Like Siberian fur
And I cuddled you like a cub to mother
I fell asleep In your arms
Again
To await the next question
Do u want to see me again?
Cuz I could fall asleep In your arms like an addiction
I could never kick

I saw a fresh face
And got carried away
Swept like a stream off my feet
And into waters deep
And I didn't mean to
I just saw a smile
And wondered what it would be like
To cause such a thing
To make u laugh, see that smile
To be your one and only
Make your day brighter
I can't resist that smile
Or that face that spring rain brought new
A spring love
If only that were true
I should have kept my distance
Winds blew me to you
And you blew down my wall
Huff puff one two
Three
And all I see is you and me
I never should have lust for that face
And body to hold me
And hands to place
Where they should not place
Where I should not think
Yet about you is all I dream
I want you. I want your everything
I want you to be everything to me
You want nothing.
How insane of me to think
If only I'd never loved your face
I could forget you're not mine
A wish to never come true
I should have never let myself into you.

My summer palette
If it were perfect
Would consist of...

47 gum drop
45 tangerine twist
53 sour blast
36 thin mint
24 tranquility
97 frosted
21 cotton candy
22 not-aye girl
38 alien
18 powerline
11 black cherry
66 kool-aid
49 calabria
71 mochi
02 mocha
01 solar beam
52 stellar
41 rusty
13 always October
17 honeycrisp
55 sun-kist
99 starburst

And I would wear this palette
Proudly
For it is me
A little always October in me
And in love with a sunset
Hopeless romantic
Who hasn't reached love yet
So I reach for stars
And solar eclipse
And run miles up and down
Thin lanes of traffic
Chasing dreams
All while wearing my palette
Proud

I fell asleep to an episode of u
Where everything went wrong
It was all losses
Failures to endure
And in the end I was alone
Just as when I wake...I'll be alone
And maybe it wasn't a dream at all
It wasn't a fairytale
Made up in pink fleshy nerves
It wasn't a fable
Of grey sluggish electron matter
But it was real
So now waking up is pointless
There's no solution
No pinching the skin to see if I'm imagining
All the heartbreak
All the horror
And the guts ripped out
And hearts torn to shreds
It's in my head
And there is no bed that I can rest upon

He doesn't even know me yet
But has made up his mind
He said she is smart
She is **** and fine
Or not **** but beautiful in a simple way
I do nothing simple
And he thinks my brain waves delay
At a rate of 2.0
But really I'm like 4.3
But my grades, above average
Don't project who I be
He's already made up his mind
I'm cute plus the bag of chips
My personality takes me over the top
But I'm not simply gorgeous
Like that other girl is
I'm a lot of confusion
And disaster in my wake
I'm oceans rolling waves
Instead of calm waters of a lake
And really it's a shame
That he's made up his mind
one if us could be the one
How silly, I'm no prize
But while he's still deciding
On what one might be best
I'll be gone.
Another one bites the dust

Me and u thats two
And some **** dats three
Lets smoke these trees
You know u wanna **** with me
We could get lit
Burn higher than the sun gets
If u can make it
I never fake it
Come to this real ****
I am no basic
Ill give u mosaics
Of sativa,thc,cbds and vapors
Just light the papers
And ignite the embers
Turn this smoulder ablaze
You can get this 808
Can u feel the bass
You make my heart race
You make me flushed faced
You make me nervous
Butterflies in every space
And i could float away
Thought of u carries me high
We could be higher
So lets ignite these papers
Lets light the embers
And relax together

Letting go of what you never had
Is the hardest task of all
I wore that today with my coke cola sweater....
And a coke bottle figure
I wore it like i had something to prove
Cuz losing you is the worst newz
I recieved this year
I used to stare from afar and dream
Now i just wonder why u ****** up things
Or why i even tried
Now i try to live a lie
And try not to stare and try not to hate
Try not to love
The very shape of your face
And your smile
And your hair
And im in air
Im afloat
And today i wore my coke cola sweater
And a coke bottle figure
With a little missing you
And it was the hardest thing to do
U used to be a daydream
Now youre just misery
And u try your best to inflict the most pain
Im just insane
Youre doing nothing
AND im not a thought on your mind
I never got an ounce of your time
When all you did was occupy mine
You were a movement
So i wore my heartbreak
And a coke cola sweater
With a coke bottle figure
And it was the hardest thing to feel nothing at all
For you.

Its been so long....
I already cant see your face
We shared a name
You were a partner in crime
And i never snitched
Never disrepected
And u did the same
Ill always miss you
And the times we had
Shootin the ****
Damon....
if i let this part of my life go....
how long until you're just another faded memory
How long before my brain turns dementia on our memories
And i forget everything...

You agree
When you want to shout, curse, and swear
The Almighty....answer this weeping willow
Made of concrete air
Of unfeeling movement
You cower behinds browned bodies, montezuma minds, and your license
Power to go as you please, be as you please, please help me to see
The inner child trapped in mordant cornerstones, and sitting on your own weight
To grasp the folly by the throat and twist him into existance
Not so much absolution
In agreement with other fancies
Prayers unanswered
Dwelling on ginger hands and knees
In ******* when his course has never enter into being....real
Or really close
His path to plunge thick into purple passionate trance
His path askew from my own
Though a followed trendy line
A drink
When it makes your journey into trees, and speed, and gluttony
A laugh
When scorned mouth spewed and sput into russet wounds already *****
A smoke
When it clogs your memory into patchwork and quilted thoughts unwoven
Youre unspoken!
You agree?

Coffee blotched wool woven seats
Impassive solidarity on your ***
Dank rapidness
Screeching scream let loose as we transend
Through bleak blackness
Thoughts stream
"Wisdom teeth dont make you any brighter"
"But Starbucks coffee makes my stomach..."
...turn left
Stale air in my every crevasse
The doors to the train open
Crowded shuffles between aged avacado quiescent places
Those weary may rest on, float on
Shallow jolted perfume
As cucumber melon intoxication erupts
On undetermined destinations
Aspiring poets gaze
Out into the open world of
Twinkling city stars
On curved paths
On dipped forks in the road
"All passengers must exit"
Crowded shuffles between aged avacado quiescent places
Those weary return home

If i told you everything i wrote
When i was in poetry
I wonder what would cross your mind
Would i?
Would i be crazy and obsessed
Would you think my lyrics were
Over the top, extra and way too ******
Or would you get the hints
Take a leap
Give me a reread?
If you knew the things i said in poetry
Would you understand
Would you finally give in
Could i move that statue
Could i get the real you
Im always real me.... im sure u can see
Is real me the problem
Try me in poetry
Im more relaxed
Im more expressive
I might call you my *****
But at my best thats what love is
Or if you knew
I wanna feel you all over me
Like the heat of a shower
And ill devour, devote, dote on your every inch
And i mean every inch
I kinda worship u
I kinda lust for you
Aint that a sin
And your so religious
I mean so delicious
I been on a search for delicious
And u turned up only 1 on my hit list
Your one of one
In a million
And if you knew this
I wonder what would you think
Would me in poetry be enough
To reach me to
Whatever is haunting u
Whatever holds u back
I often wonder what i lack
Besides you
Youve seen my eyes on you
All over you
And i smile at your smile
It makes my day brighter
Its spring in the winter
When im near you
**** i wish i knew u .....better
And you knew me
In poetry

If all i get to do is stare
Im kinda ok with it
Because your look is just right
Im simply really feeling it
Your leather jacket and cocoa skin
Id wonder where you came from
Cant just be heaven
And i get corny with you
Cuz u make my brain weak
You make my senses storm
You take my heart to its peak
So if all i get to do is stare
Im kinda ok with it
Because your style is just right
I gotta say i really dig it
The long hair and built, chiseled face
Id wonder where you got that height
But its obvious, perfectly you were made
And i cant help but stare
When you come my way
I got to be just right
Hoping you dont miss a day
So if all i get to do is stare
Im kinda ok with that
Because your smile brings fire
Sends chemicals outta wack
Your smile melts my shelter
Walls it breaks and cracks
And if all i get to do is stare
Im kinda ok with it
Because your presense is enough
I gotta say i feel your aura
**** and reggae are in order
Id wonder where you got your cool
But its obvious im simply into you
So if all i get to do is stare
And play this little game
Im kinda ok with it

We are all poets
We all spit it
One time or another
We all **** with words
And sometimes commit ******
We all are poets
In a sense
When our words turn luscious
And resemble hymns
When our words inspire
Awakening angels and sometimes demons
We are all poets
I have no doubt
Ive been spoken to
And felt
The words so deep
Touch wounds stitched up neat
Touch hearts last beat
Make heart skip beat
And repeat
And i know it
We are all poets

U need a real one
I am that
I am that which will not react
To others persuading
But will be contemplating
Our universes pulsing
And expanding limbs
And open canyons
And oceans floor
Rivers cascading
Rift and pull
U need a real one
I am that
I am that which will have ur back
Ill molten steel
Ill perform the ****
Your protection
Ill be your best friend
And your lover
And your fan
Ill be in ur corner ill be in the stands
You need a real one
I am that
I am that which will be forever
Loyalty is a treasure
If u measure me.... 34 25 36
Im not just tryna make your hit list
Im not just tryna be friends in dis *****
Im not tryna be put on the sidelines
Im tryna be in the inzone
6 digits
And the extra point
Ill make
I could be yours. Im for the take
Take down, take out, taken status
Please get at this
You need a real one
I am that
I am that which you lack.

I have already invested to much thought into u
Maybe i messed up first but never thought id b into u
Or u into me
I wonder sometimes if u feel anything
Anymore
Or if u ever gave an ounce
So i could pick your brain like grounds
My coffee
I want to seep u and drink u into me
Are you into me?
I guess only time can tell now.
Invest in time now
Or is that too much
My schedule doesnt permit me to give *****
If u wont give back
Meet me at the half
I wanna know if when i fall youll catch
I wanna know if when i fall youll react
I invested too much thought into it now
Too much fluid
Too much time
Thinking ill end up happily wasting my life
Like usual
Usually no plan
But i like investment you're gonna have to give me half
Of everything listed
Thought, time, feelings, commitment
Only u can gift it
so give it
Or dont
But make up your mind
I just dont wanna waste both of our time

Dream of u holding me
You are the warmth on my back
As the dark desends
I jumped outta a lucid dream
I felt your heat
Touch my tattoo
Felt like your limbs gripping
Like legs twisting and arms stretching
Maybe its cuz i was faded
But i remembered
The warmth
Your fingers on my chest
You and me at
A cross road
Even if this is the red giant
Even if this is the bursting of molecules
Even if its the strangling of the fire
The dampening of emotions
Or melting magnets
The curtain call
The end of it all
Your body was at rest
And your heat
Was once again my comfort
As the darkness desends
And eyelids became heavy.

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Super Secret Crush
SUPER SECRET CRUSH

A summer breeze
The sun's kiss
Yes I'll pucker
Yes I'll buckle
Cuz saying the truth is
That we are both wonderful beings
You are a beautiful being
Whose sights I'd like to see
And vacation in you're atmosphere
And lay away in your mind
I wanna pick the fruit
Only if you don't mind
Crush
You're always the one just out of reach
Like a dream lost to the sun's peak
A horizon that graces my cheeks
But the warmth only settles so deep
I want a blanket
That wraps round
Maybe you could wrap round
My shape, what I'm tryna shape
Is a mental picture all I'll get to taste?
Crushed
It's always that one that's just an eye shot away
I can't shoot the bullet
But its still fun to play
Our secret game
Until it's not a game
Until it settles into some real thing....
Endgame
Maybe just a flame
Between us...
add the fuel?
But we don't
We won't
WhY does that super secret crush always feel so unattainable
Yet so close you can feel
The electricity about to strike
The Storm lurking
Brooding inside
I wouldn't mind this rain
Soaking inside my veins
And you could do the same
If you took the reigns
We could be so close
So so close you can taste it
Smell of fresh pools
In the basement
And I know I should know better
But something about you is making me senseless
And baby I could care less
If it ment I could get to you
Get to you
Like I'm driving reckless
Like I have no patience
Cuz I could grow old with you
With you I am senseless
With you
Its a secret
Super secret crush

I don't wanna miss the handshake to change my life.
I don't want to miss the smile that will change my mind
I don't wanna miss the clues on the map to the treasure chest
I don't want to forget how near and dear silence is
At the movies
Silence your phones, mouth, and all movement
Silence the noise
With my kids
Whose silence creates a mountain of fun
On their end
With a teen
When silence speaks mountains
I don't want to wonder what mountains are forming.
What storm is growing
Inside my teens mind
I don't want to miss the world of unspoken communication
To wonder
What you see do u understand
A look , a tone, a gesture of the hand
A look in their eyes
What is there
Happiness, anger, loneliness, despair
Is this even understanding or just perception
Is this listening to perfection
What is that?
Can you hear the sound not made with words
Tense shoulders, head lowered
Observed silence
Is this intention or intentional emotional sequestration
And yes it is a question
Because I just can't miss the world of unspoken communication.