I’m missing how it used to be How you’d seek me out like a little puppy The sparks flying between us like fireworks Anticipation building as we engaged in conversation
Then it finally happened on a steamy summer night The curiosity we had about our bedroom manners Discovered in an instant moment of gratification Our bodies tangled as mouths and tongues tasted one another
But as expected things fall apart We’ve slowly morphed into distant acquaintances You pay me a visit only when you need to vent As I listen in silence about the woman you love and hate
Laying wide awake in my bed Thoughts of you take me over Pleasing myself at the thought of your mouth Gifting wet kisses to that sweet spot
You can’t deliver your message to my face That this short lived connection was just that Ceasing your exploration of me and my body Our association has reached its final stop
I searched for reasons through all these years and now it proves me all so wrong. All of that hurt, so many tears, and what was it for? It's all gone. I thought you better, I thought you changed, I walked the extra mile, all for a lie. Just to be fooled one more time. You use people to get what you need, you use them just as it suits. And then you drop them as if they were used toys To find new objects for your joys. I thought you better, I thought you changed, and if the world would know me story you would look very lame. This is no goodbye This is no farewell This is simply you don't deserve me anymore
remember that you were the one that wanted to be friends You asked me, Can we please, Be friends? but then something in you changed, you went back to your old mean ways, And it still hurts you know, seeing you avoid me like I have ******* lepracy, when we dated, Everyone told me to leave you; He’s too short, He’s ugly, He’s a liar. But I didn’t I cared about you, and I stayed because I loved you, but apparently the feelings weren’t mutual,
today, someone sent you a picture of me, and you said ew, but once before you used to smile whenever you would see my face.
Everyone is living their fairytale While I’m living in hell Come back to me already Let's make this right Mend this hole and close it tight No one has to ever know The deep cuts created The harmful words spoke Let’s go back to the way things were Before you shattered my heart Before everything between you and me fell apart
One of these days I will be on deck, put pedals on my boat Low it down the deepest streams And you will watch me as I slowly sail away Towards the ocean, underneath a stormy sky Floating ahead of the hightest tides There I will dive in with everything that I am Wash away your promises and love notes Feed your rebukes and blames to the sharks Then one day I will return, not for you 'Cause I will not know a thing about you but I will notice you if you dare try to take advantage of my Amnesia
This is a note to self: I will never come back to you, despite your changes. I lost track of who you were before I even left, so let's be these strangers.