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273 · Sep 2018
вℓα¢к мιяяσя
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
May I trip on purpose,
Fall into strength,
Get back up into confidence,
And stride on my glory.

There's a mirror I look into that's as black as my pupils,
I can only look as far as my eyes can squint...
before they close.

I come to realize that I see nothing. Just darkness. I can't see cracks, or colors, or hopes, or dreams, or anything.

Even in the dark of the mirror, nothing reflects back on me...
Maybe it's all just me...
In my head...

Or maybe, I can see...
yet this entire time I've been blinded by me.

What if I have only seen what I think people see when all I see are the weapons that can be used to hurt me...

Trying to protect me by hurting myself first never really worked anyway.

So when I trip on my shame,
and I fall because I've been cursed lame,
And I can't get up cause I'm weighted by the chains,
Let me crawling tell you something...
Never stop crawling if you can't walk.
269 · Dec 2018
Untitled
EmperorOfMine Dec 2018
This looks like a dream I once had...

Too peaceful to be a nightmare.

Too somber to be a daydream.

I don't like this feeling.
It's deja vu,
I've become sad.

At a distance is a silence,
A drop in the soul,
It's something truly bad.
267 · Aug 2019
Hollow, be Thy Name
EmperorOfMine Aug 2019
This sorrow, unforgiven, Hollow, be thy name.

The screams, they come, the pain has won, as cursed and filled with aggression.

Give me today some mercy instead, and forgive me my debt, and I might just feel better.

And please change this sensation, and make hope believable.
266 · Sep 2018
Thought Trash
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
Came back from work today...I'm not allowed to fix any mistakes
All I keep doing is thinking and thinking and its driving me
down
down
down
into the full yet empty darkness settling down
comforting the silence
and yet Ive never screamed louder
crying in a distant commotion
confused about my own morality
tragedies happen every day
and yet I'm not happy
You can't expect me to be smiling
Depression comes and goes like your shadow
Gathering all the thoughts you have and then molding them into a weapon
shoving them down your throat
suffocating until you croak
over
over
over
game
over
.
.
.


then theres a light
shining above you
begging you to step back in
the weight on your feet
pulling you into a darkness without end
how did this all begin
when will this ever end
end
end
end
e..
n..
d.....


s o m e t i m e s
o u r
m i n d
i s
a s
p a p e r
t h i n
a s
o u r
  *s o u l
Words pile up like *****
263 · Oct 2020
GraveCrawler
EmperorOfMine Oct 2020
Who would have known what was meant to be
Some could call it alone, but some would call it free
With all the bodies falling, formed into their ghost
Away they go, to never be as close
Alone again upon the deep blue sea
Amount of trust to fall into deceit
I wish i never made those deals
I wish you all knew how it feels

For every tomb, there is a ghost in there
And sometime soon, they blend into the air

And that's what this all ends up being
Crawling the graves of the lost beings
262 · Feb 2019
Jester Of all Suits
EmperorOfMine Feb 2019
I passed my hat
There was a Jack
I knew I'd have a better Job
The Jack will bow
I rid a cow
Went down to join a raging mob
There stood a king
Next to a queen
Attempting to keep them all calm
I threw a card
I know it's mean
I mean it slid out of my palm
Lined in metal
Sliced off his head
I threw more cause it's just a game
They hopped and chopped
It's called hop-scotch
No one wanted to soon be lame
I found his crown
And fled the scene
My choice of paint is always red
Hear, hear, your king
You better sing
Or the new game will be you're dead
No care the place
I'm there, i'm pleased
That's how I came to gain some fame.
There's isn't peace
But let us feast
I wear my smile like your pain
I'm called Jester
Of all the Suits
Because I equal to their might
Call me a freak
You sad pipsqueak
But all will know that I can fright.
262 · Aug 2021
Crystal Jail
EmperorOfMine Aug 2021
Behind the cell of a crystal jail
We talk about our lives in hell
I call upon you to come to me
But every time our union fails
The signal must have interception
Or else it was never meant for us to come together
People use to praise these crystal jails
But I really feel our lives before them were better.
So don't you forget about me
Because this story has been written before us
I meet you, we fall, you float and I ball
The only embrace I have is for impact
And you'll have another person you'll be with in no time
Almost like we never met on these crystal jails
Forever a haunting memory on my end, and a mistake on yours
But don't you forget about me...
Because when you had no one, I was there
Or maybe you should forget...
set me free
258 · Aug 2018
Friend
EmperorOfMine Aug 2018
When did thunder ever sing?

There, such a melody screaming through the ceiling.
When did clouds ever start to cry?

Such a high, the world goes blind.
Little dreams from distant lights.
In the sky, there are many wonders.
So with dark, there will be frights.

Still in the ice where you may ponder.

How did we ever get so bold?

Minds expanding in this shelter.
Evergreening life, so old.
This world we lean on like a shoulder.

May we grow with it as one.
Let not this world have a war.
Might it maim us all or none,
Nature's realm, our friend, for sure.
Are we Nature's friend, or is Nature OUR friend?


Let us hope we are one together and fight to keep some kind of calm.
EmperorOfMine May 2018
They're scared
You know who
It's the monsters
This is true

Watch them suffer
Smile more
They deserve it
Watch blood pour

Don't be scared
It's their fault
There was peace
We were taught

It is gone
Yes it is
They took it
They are wrong

So they burn
Like they should
No one lives
There's no good
;)
255 · Aug 2018
One of A Kind
EmperorOfMine Aug 2018
Sometimes I stare through my window.
My reflection looks back at me.
Why do I sit all by myself?
No friends in such solitary.
Though I don't hate being alone.
I think it will drive me insane.
Why can't I be good on my own?
This life is like a cloudless rain.
Light wipes away all of my tears.
I see my shadows disappear.
I guess this means I'm not alone.
Good, cause that's something I do fear.
I always wanted a soulmate.
Sometimes I want it way too much.
I can't help getting so **** green.
It's when I see some couples touch.
I'm still alive, a shocking thing.
I never thought I'd live this long.
Now my hope is the next best thing.
I hope my life's not something wrong.
Maybe I will see happiness.
May he smile down onto me.
I can't really think much further.
I couldn't say what I would see.
Sometimes my life is like a dream.
Blowing away so silently.
Not that that's bad, it isn't so.
One day I will be truly free.
253 · Apr 2019
World's Tension
EmperorOfMine Apr 2019
There's that lingering tension
Think this restriction's commissioned
Feel that strong impending doom
Coming for us on a mission
Some of us shrug it all off
And other's bulk up and guard
Can't decide what we should do
But we know we cannot charge
Are we to wait for defeat
Will we have some type of chance
Or should we just go retreat
This isn't our type of dance
This feeling doesn't feel right
As if the world might explode
Yet for some reason, I grin
Who knows what the future holds
252 · Dec 2018
Light Demon
EmperorOfMine Dec 2018
Tell me when the light burns.

When you do, it's my turn.

I won't coat my pain in your sugar.

Just because you see reality's triggered.

I'm going to light this path of pain.

Reveal the demon that looks just the same.

Not all evil lurks only in the dark.

Did you not know that the light, too, can hurt?

Words aren't only valued when they sound sweet.

So when I tell you the hard truth, it's said for you to keep.

It's out to relate, something that's shied from.

A risk for the worst, but the worst has already come.
EmperorOfMine May 2018
I'm no popstar

I can't make you dance

I have no rhythm

But that isn't the plan

Have you noticed...

We are chained down

Staring up at...

Demons on the ground

As we shout out, help

Who comes rescuing

I've not seen one

I've seen nobody, nobody

To come help me or you

Watch them turn their eyes from the view

Once you realize that they knew...

That this would happen soon

But no one comes to help

They'd rather keep to themselves

But why spew lies for your health

You say this but act that

So let us get to the POINT

If you want, go grab a joint

This right here's about to get deep

Please sit down, you'll need a seat




We're in a motion picture
Trying not to have a seizure
Crying with a smiley face
We look like a mental case
Rapid noises make us crazy
Drowning from the depressions
Money's been powerful, lately...
I've been feeling pretty stress

You come home, sit down
You used to laugh but now you frown
You can't get up, gravity-bound
You lost your words within the sound
As time moves on, you see the waste
The blood of souls that lost their way
And first comes lust and then our wants
Before our needs that we should hunt
But what's the fun in being good
And what's the good in being wise
I watch this all play out often
I see faces morph with lies


As everyone dies
And We start to cry
We wish we could fight
But we choose to fly
Away from the war
No way in for peace
A gate to the heavens
But you'll need a key
As fire does grow
And evil has bloomed
We love to mask it
With music and soon...
We won't get to hide
The light starts to shine
Exposed to the truth
Scattering in rooms


If you got this far

Just heed to my theme

We really need peace

It's not what it seems

There puzzles of course

Can makeshift our dreams

A system's been made

Our being will fade

Your choices have power

Someone does get paid

Your soul is at war

To you, it may bore

Someone holds your hand

The other ignores

They both want you still

Though who will you choose

I wonder who feels

The best into you
251 · Oct 2018
aMUSEd.
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Leaves aren't appreciated until they're dying.
.
.
Even if they were, you wouldn't know.
.
.
After death, harsher death comes...and yet it's the most beautiful silence you can ever have.
.
.
Sometimes the sun can be too hot, and sometimes the air can get too cold...but people walk in the snow in shorts and bathe in the sun.
.
.
How can you envy someone else who envies you and not see the ignorance?
.
.
Why do people feel obligated to yell when they don't understand things...
.
.
Why do we spend so much of our time trying to make mistakes that we know we'll regret and hate afterward?
.
.
If there is no God, then what is God?
.
.
Why do we excuse our wrongs; pretending our wrongs are for the benefit of another when it is never...?
.
.
We've enslaved something that was wild until it obeyed us...but sometimes they get unstable too.
.
.
Why do we spend our lives to spend our lives with money; where did this value go wrong?
.
.
Why do people always look for the wrong in something and the right in something, but no one looks for what's logical on the other side?
.
.
Why does it hurt so much to be alone...and it hurts so much to be surrounded...?
250 · Apr 2019
question
EmperorOfMine Apr 2019
if
im
not
deep
enough
happy
enough
sad
enough
intelligent
enough
qu­iet
enough
funny
enough
black
enough
white
enough
gay
enough
stra­ight
enough
masculine
enough
feminine
enough
strong
enough
edgy
e­nough
poetic
enough...






am I enough...
:/
250 · May 2018
вyѕтander!! ¯◡¯
EmperorOfMine May 2018
It's okay to pretend someone's suffering is rightfully deserved...

If you act as though they deserve it...

But if you're going to say this is at all true...

You should shut your mouth. When. Your. Turn. Is. Due...


ᗰᗩYᗷE ᗯE'ᖇE ᔕᑕᗩᖇEᗪ, OKᗩY?  

ᑎOT EᐯEᖇYOᑎE Iᔕ ᗷᖇᗩᐯE Oᖇ ᑕOᑌᖇᗩGEOᑌᔕ...  

ᗷᑌT ᗯᕼY ᗪO ᗯE ᖴEEᒪ ᔕO ᗪᗩᗰᑎ ᗰᗩᗪ...  

ᗯᕼEᑎ IT Iᔕ ᑌᔕ TᕼᗩT'ᔕ ᗷEIᑎG ᒪEᖴT ᗯITᕼ ᔕᗩᐯᗩGEᔕ?


Like a bystander to someone's mischief...

Whether a poem or a movie...

The fact that you feel sourness when ***** serious...

Your help over the choice to avert your eyes...

That is what will be soothing.
247 · Oct 2018
You Have to be Pretty
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
A wish may come and then it withers.
A bird can trance one with their feathers.
All of all, the ocean quiets.
A song for somber chills of silence.

Living in a lightless zone
Where'd everyone go?

Falling leaves may color the sky, color your eyes.
Broken blue seas, shattered glass lies, never ask why.

Don't you know what's life for a ghost?
A life where you are there but alone.
A moth gets crushed for being ugly.
Don't hurt me
A world where you have to be pretty.

Living in a lightless zone
Where'd everyone go?
246 · Mar 2019
If Snacks Could Talk.
EmperorOfMine Mar 2019
All those nights Giddy on energy
Just to get treated like a loose and ***** penny...

Limited mindset made you think there's plenty
I'm not like your pile, I'm rare to the many.

My cost may lack profit
My value skyrockets
I'm not high on ego
Your eyes left your sockets
I've given you your chance
I'm the limited edition

Cause I am my only
And you've made your decision.
244 · Jan 2019
Dark Smile
EmperorOfMine Jan 2019
Shadow figures latch aboard
A roller coaster in the wind
A sudden stop, an abrupt plot
A sly smile drenching with sin
The lights are gone, wave off your mind
Blackout and dazed, now that's a sign
It's Deja vú forming again
When will we know when this will end
244 · Jan 2019
┴rip Mǝ
EmperorOfMine Jan 2019
Falling from the ceiling,
Sinking deeper into stone,
Calling laughter like a demon,
Waiting until my souls gone,
With the sky up in the clouds,
A piece of peace a king would dwell,
Like a moth dressed like a sheep,
A prey for prey in living hell,
Dancing demons singing sadness,
Holding faces till they've calmed,
Sipping poison from jade glasses,
Tying knots with loaded bombs,
It's a lie full of our assets,
We've made hope in broken faith,
Sip the poison till i'm drunken,
Hold me till I lose this daze,
Trip, Confuzzled, Discombobulated, LALALOOPSIE, Dazed
EmperorOfMine Jun 2018
Oh, what a day this day, nothing around but just decay.

I wish upon the stars above that I could change what I could say.

As brim and blaze consume the ground, the storms smoked eyes swallow the clouds.

For life has dimmed to light that fades as heads fall off to sharpened blades.
Groaning they go, wither in woe, putrid the air, what else we know?

Music of guns chiming in sync, warning the skies, hearts start to sink.

Life in a hell made from mistakes ironic like nails in a cake.
The season of a world-ending -- Coming Soon
240 · Aug 2019
ᑕᗩKE ᑭOᑭ
EmperorOfMine Aug 2019
Plucked me from a pool of plenty,
Previewed perfect, sweet, and pretty,
Swallowed whole by a silhouette,
I'm not easy, but what a good guess,
Cracks upon the board you've set,
Not a pop of cake to digest,
Never was somebody's snack,
The addiction you've made because you're obsessed,
I am still a kind of treat,
Just not one that's sold, wrapped and made for your deceit.
239 · Jun 2020
Year of The Fallen
EmperorOfMine Jun 2020
Stones; collected by the lonely,
Gripped, forgotten, until they're one with their bodies,
Held with regret, hoping that their actions reset time,
Rewind; a pause in time set into motion when they're blind,
Kindly following their fate, toward, in line,
No crime like living accordingly to what was given to you,
Lacking the resources to live, a limitation unacceptable,
Surging little fires everywhere, losing control,
Capsizing that within the power, how do you feel?
How does it feel to feel out of control,
Linking all wrongdoing to the under controlled,
Bold; making out the obvious in pain the villain,
Smoke rising, the war isn't over, because you've yet to see it,
This wasn't meant to be a war, nor an argument, but a call out,
We challenge the monsters that stand up when we've fallen;
We will sing till you repeat our words subconsciously,
And once you realize what you've done,
It'll only be a matter of time when the silly game you made,
It's a game that you lost, and it's a game that we have won.
We are undefeated. Determination inevitably makes us winners.
234 · Sep 2018
Best Season
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
Shifting colors overnight
The singing sounds like many seas
A neutral feeling in the air
For now, we can't feel any breeze
And as the pumpkins start to show
At night their smiles start to glow
The air becomes a sudden crisp
This is the best, that's all I know
230 · Jan 2019
Three Musketeers
EmperorOfMine Jan 2019
This isn't about religion but acknowledge good, bad, & "you".

Let's rephrase them as:

Soul
Sin
&
"Self"

There are three soldiers.
One looking forward,
One looking backward,
And "One" looking Up.

Soul stared ahead and exclaimed, I can't see the end.
Sin sighed, I see where we left, but there is no answer.
Self stated, "The sun will go down soon. We need to find safety."

As the three wandered this long and wide path, surrounded by large amounts of wildlife and nature, they saw no place that they all deemed safe to rest.

This led them to their argument.

Soul, We should rest forward, in the fields, vulnerable, but free. No one would think to check the most obvious area.

Sin, No one will have to check. That would be handing ourselves over. We should hang back, in the jungles. We will have to be vigilant, but we will blend in.

Self, "Both are bad. Both certify our death. One makes us an easy target to the main enemy. The second one makes us a target to many enemies. We should follow the stars. The brightest star will lead the way before dawn. We will be victorious, but only if we keep our head up."  



Why did they all die in the end?
229 · Sep 2018
Stranded
EmperorOfMine Sep 2018
When did crying become funny?
Why did rain become the preference to the sunny?
Why am I so distant and all alone?
Why do all the bridges I make go?

It's not like...

I'm a m o n s t e r.

They act like...

I'm a b o t h e r.

It's not right...

Why they'd leave m e.

I must fight...

The demons e a t i n g.


I get afraid when,
I only see the darkness overlaying the important picture.

Who would be laughing,
When all is lost and the feelings you have go numb?

When did this life,
Become a game for a monster to seek as if we hide?

Walking Disaster,
A rollercoaster that you'd never want to ride.



Sometimes we get stranded,
Our soul may break inside...
You're not reprimanded,
If you had the choice to reside...
Try to see both hands in it,
They both have a use in all this...
They've taken us for granted,
It's us that they will truly miss...
228 · Mar 2019
Internet Effect
EmperorOfMine Mar 2019
If
All
It
Took
To
Be
Satisfied
Was
To
Have
Someone
Acknowledge
Yo­ur
Soul
And
Care
About
You
Then
Honey,
You
Won't
Ever
Be
Satisfie­d
Online
227 · Jun 2018
ιт'ѕ тιмe
EmperorOfMine Jun 2018
ᴡʜᴇɴ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴏʏꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ɢɪʀʟꜱ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴡᴀʟᴋɪɴɢ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴛʀᴇᴇᴛ
ꜱᴏᴍᴇ ᴍᴀʏ ʟᴀᴜɢʜ ᴡʜɪʟᴇ ᴛʜᴏꜱᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ᴄʀʏ ᴄᴀɴ'ᴛ ꜱʟᴇᴇᴘ
ᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴀʟʟ ᴋɴᴏᴡ ᴛʜᴇ ᴛɪᴍᴇ ɪꜱ ʜᴇʀᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴄᴏᴍᴇ
ᴛʜᴇ ꜱɪʀᴇɴꜱ ʙʟᴀʀᴇ, ɪᴛ'ꜱ ɴᴏᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴄᴀɴ ʀᴜɴ.

ᴛʜᴇʏ'ʀᴇ ᴀʟʟ ꜱᴏ ꜱᴄᴀʀᴇᴅ ʀᴜɴɴɪɴɢ ꜱᴄᴀᴛᴛᴇʀᴇᴅ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ʙᴜɢꜱ
ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴘᴀʀᴇɴᴛꜱ, ᴡʜᴏ ᴄᴀɴ ᴛʜᴇʏ ᴀʟʟ ʜᴜɢ
ɪᴛ'ꜱ ʟɪꜰᴇ ᴏʀ ᴅᴇᴀᴛʜ, ɴᴏ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴘʟᴀʏɪɴɢ ʜɪᴅᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ꜱᴇᴇᴋꜱ
ꜰᴏʀᴇꜱᴛꜱ ᴅʀɪᴠᴇɴ, ʀᴜɴ ᴀᴡᴀʏ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ᴛʜᴇ ꜰʀᴇᴀᴋꜱ

ʟɪᴛᴛʟᴇ ʙᴏʏ, ʙᴀɪʟᴇʏ, ᴅᴀɴᴄɪɴɢ ɪɴ ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴀɪɴ
ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴀɴʏ, ʜᴇ'ꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴛʜᴀᴛ'ꜱ ꜱᴀɴᴇ
ʜᴇ ᴅᴏᴇꜱɴ'ᴛ ꜱᴇᴇ ᴡʜʏ ʜᴇ ꜱʜᴏᴜʟᴅ ʜᴏʟᴅ ᴀɴʏ ꜰᴇᴀʀ
ʟᴇᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ʀᴀɪɴ ɢʀᴀʙ ʜɪꜱ ꜰᴀᴄᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍᴀꜱᴋ ʜɪꜱ ᴍᴀɴʏ ᴛᴇᴀʀꜱ

ꜰᴏʀᴇꜱᴛ ᴅʀᴏᴠᴇ, ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴇʟꜱᴇ ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅ ʜᴇ ɢᴏ
ᴄɪᴛɪᴇꜱ ʙʀᴏᴋᴇ, ʙᴇᴀꜱᴛꜱ ᴘʀᴀɴᴄᴇ ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ᴀꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ꜰᴏᴇ
ʙᴀɪʟᴇʏ ʟᴏɴᴇ, ᴡʜᴇʀᴇ ᴀʀᴇ ʜɪꜱ ᴍᴀɴʏ ꜱɪʙʟɪɴɢꜱ
ᴅᴇᴍᴏɴꜱ ʟᴀᴜɢʜɪɴɢ, ʀᴇᴀᴘɪɴɢ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ᴀʟʟ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅᴇᴀʟɪɴɢꜱ

ᴛʜᴇʏ'ʀᴇ ᴀʟʟ ᴀꜰʀᴀɪᴅ, ᴄᴏᴡᴇʀɪɴɢ ꜰʀᴏᴍ ʟᴏꜱᴛ
ᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ ᴛʜᴇʏ'ᴠᴇ ᴀʟʟ ᴄᴏᴠᴇʀᴇᴅ ꜰᴀᴄᴇꜱ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴀᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴇɪʀꜱ ꜱʜɪɴᴇ, ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛʜᴇ ᴅɪᴀᴍᴏɴᴅ ᴅᴜꜱᴛ
ᴡʜᴏ ᴡᴏᴜʟᴅ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴋɴᴏᴡɴ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ᴍᴏᴏɴꜱ ᴄᴏᴜʟᴅ ʙʟᴇᴇᴅ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴛᴏᴏ
ɴᴏᴡ ɪᴛ ɪꜱ ᴛɪᴍᴇ, ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴛᴏʀɪᴇꜱ ꜰɪɴᴀʟʟʏ ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ.
What genre?
226 · Mar 2019
Two Faced
EmperorOfMine Mar 2019
The dark smiles back
Because I am its friend,
Though silent I breathe
I am a deadly hand,
And just like the sea
That sits next to the land,
The weight I can make
Can crush your soul like sand,
But I'm no demon
So don't fear me as such,
Just heed my warnings
Don't get bold with your touch,
Cause you will just know
When I start to smile,
What you'd call normal
Will soon become wild.
●○
The light smiles back
Because I know what's planned,
Yes, soundly I sing
I am just doing grand,
And just like a wing
The might want to expand,
I may have the flight
To fly to the dreamland,
But I'm no angel
So don't think me as such,
Hear what I'm saying
And it won't be too much,
Cause you will just know
When I start my singing,
The present you know
Will meet awakening
226 · Mar 2019
Ambiance
EmperorOfMine Mar 2019
The cooling color of this deep yet bright blue light, highlighting the shimmering cement on the ground

The cooling atmosphere, coating relaxation underneath my eyelids as I sink away into this place

Descending into the space of stars in the warmth of the dark

Silent yet soothing, shifting into a noise like no other

Heavy as the snow, i'm buried in its ambiance
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AfsloRIkxDE
225 · Oct 2018
FearCry
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
What do I do now...?
I need someone right now.
Please don't make any sound.
I need someone right now.

A tsunami of hardships rushing tremors of blessing into my
tornado spinning life.

A kiss of misfortunate fates attached to overwhelming shaking I can't do this alone...

A silent churned catastrophically composed orchestra overloading my senses.

What do I do now...?
I want someone to hug now.
A wanted soul wants to be found.
I need someone here right now...
224 · Mar 2019
Jenga
EmperorOfMine Mar 2019
Don't pick
And Choose
Your words
Like Jenga
Or you
will reap
their brittle
foundation.
224 · Oct 2018
Composing
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
He sits in a shadow composed, unthawed.
Drove to live apathetically...
He hears a whisper right by his ear,
Don't be emotional, my dear.

A lonely path he'd like to fill.
There's no reason to fight alone.
He hates feeling like he's a tragedy,
Doomed to live on his own.

A chill of many unknown ends,
Surrounded by a sea of eyes,
No one noticed his fragile heart,
Yet he remains to simply cry.

He glances through the room he's in.
Looking for unknown predators.
A troubled past will do that, so...
Easily torn by just the wind.

Composing minor destruction.
Lucid chaotic construction.
How must he live in such a world,
That spits a path to combustion?

With many minor injuries,
His life may seem to wilt and bleed.
A cast of iron stained on him.
Choked by that life's sharp thorny weeds.
221 · Oct 2018
What Do You Want From Me
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
Leave me be if I tell you that I'm alone,
Yet you tell me that it's cause I don't explore the crowd I can see...

You don't know what it feels like to be made a jester when you are a king...a queen...something of higher royalty...

No, this does not mean that I have vanity,
though this does mean that I don't know what you want from me...

I'm tired of it always being MY fault...when all I did wrong was listen to the wrongs you were taught...

You aren't helping me if anything, really.
You're one of the things destroying me, silly.
219 · Jul 2021
New Form
EmperorOfMine Jul 2021
Erupting from the clash of change, I have a new form

Like a light overcome with a holy heat, I deflect the coming swarm

With my smile of an assuring peace, I see that I need no longer fear

A coming to collisions of conflicts end, I get to see serenity is near

a spark of this newfound change, as the prophecy's written

I fell in love with my truest husband, consumed by the love-smitten

It is now that I get to sing, and dance with no need of old shame

I can drop all of my baggage, for, in this new form, I'm not the same

cologned in senses of miracles, I hold no previous traumas

Releasing moving emotions of turmoils past, I seek no dramas

I can say that I can see, especially, I have a new and beautiful form

gazing on me, with a light of countenance, i don't hurt by any storm
219 · Nov 2018
Meaning
EmperorOfMine Nov 2018
Do I have a meaning?

Sometimes I feel like I am without value. Like the pockets on women clothing. I sometimes irritate people, like the nat trying to say hi to your eye.

It's easy to tell someone that they mean something when you don't understand the meaning behind the questions..

I am not asking if I can be defined.
I am not asking if I am at all valuable.

|I am merely asking whether or not I hold any significance in the grand scheme of existence...|

Am I going to be a family member that held no power in my voice, no motion in my hands, no pathway with my feet, no story with my eyes?

Won't I be a beautiful poem of history? Or am I doomed to be a fading memory...?
217 · Jul 2019
My Emotions Bully Me
EmperorOfMine Jul 2019
Never really had a bully bigger and worse than my emotions.
Come as a friend, shift into a demon, pour so much sadness into me
I
Could
Drown...

                Such a scary enemy, my emotions can truly be. Playing tricks on me...am I the kid?
Playing tricks on me.

Thinking thoughts that thwart the trail
Blocking bypaths because bullies behave brashly

All these puzzle pieces sinking my mood quickly uh-oh

Constant circle back to him, causing my fear oh no
No wonder I cower when my emotions bully me.
215 · Apr 2019
Glum
EmperorOfMine Apr 2019
If hallow bones could make me fly I'd go so high,
I'd break the sky
But here I lie, upon my bed, staring so far inside my head,
wishing that I could just be dead,
hearing the things that I once said,
Rapidly falling into a sea, as black as coal and misery,
avoid me like I am the plague, I lack the energy to even beg.

I just want to go back in time, to give my mom a hug, in person and not in just in my mind.
214 · Apr 2019
Ghost
EmperorOfMine Apr 2019
I just want you to ask me if I'm okay.
But when I tell you my heart, you look away.
Don't get nervous when I try to disappear.
I just don't know what it is that you fear.

If diamonds are in the rough,
Then I guess our connection is full of them.
Our genre is a heartbreak if this was our final film.
It's like we're playing a game to find out what to say.
But if you don't see it, my voice has left me today.

I just want you to help me not to decay.
But you act like i'm a fire to your spray.
As Autumn sheds its leaves that fly through the coast.
I just can't help feeling like i'm a ghost.

I just can't help...feeling like i'm...a ghost.
213 · Jun 2020
Contempt; Intrusive
EmperorOfMine Jun 2020
Painful is the feeling I experience when I hear the songs you left me with.

I heard someone laugh the same laugh that you did...and I felt my heart sink.

I often ponder you, wondering why I ponder you, but to no avail, I've yet to gain that answer.

It's the bite of bitter experience that I sink before; what did I do to need to go through such trivial...*******?

That's a repetitive thought that dances through my mind.

I sometimes wonder if I am blind, or if maybe I've gone crazy, but lately, I feel like I've been simply trying to decode this puzzle our scenario has placed on my heart.

I'm no longer looking for closure; it was never promised. I am looking for detachment, because I feel less human the more I'm reminded of your existence.

I hope, somehow, this is something I will laugh at in the future.
210 · Jul 2019
Describing My Demon
EmperorOfMine Jul 2019
Ever had the urge to sneeze but just when it was about to come out it doesn't?

Ever sneezed and it hurt because it was too hard, so sneezing wasn't as nice as it usually is?

Sometimes you ever eat something so good or do something so bad for the sake of "good" but regret it later?

Ever wanted to cry or scream or just....nvadjknajnvsknv, yet your body didn't seem to agree?

Ever looked in the mirror and realized the person you were looking at isn't the same person you once innocently acknowledged as you when you were younger?

Ever think about the fact that your reflection is looking back at someone else with far worse than any strangers judgment?

Ever smiled in someone's face when you wanted to die, just so that you wouldn't **** their mood?

Ever just chewed on food but didn't dare swallow because you were too fat to deserve to eat for the day?

Ever had them whispering in your ear how worthless, valueless, pointless and otiose you were?

Ever been so drugged up on depression that the only thing you held as truth was the poison you'd willingly swallow called mental abuse and pessimism?

Ever wanted to scrub your skin and erase its color, paint it darker, perm your hair straight no matter the chemicals, fry it to fro no matter the damage, hurt yourself with self-hatred, wanted to just cease to exist because you feel like at least your family for once would actually get along or care about someone if you were gone, because you're not what they got to control?

Ever just silently suffered and forgot?

Ever went through some traumatic experience and was forced to "let go" because no one else cared?


Felt any pain or discomfort reading this?


Well, that's my demon for you.
4:57 AM
210 · Jun 2019
Poem
EmperorOfMine Jun 2019
Reflections reflecting on repeating patterns
A symbol of limbo and curses ever after
From calling and crashing a story to tell
Of a boy who was trapped inside of a hell
But the hope seems to flicker and this day it did shine
His year would be something, one of a kind
And there would be good days and some gloomy ones too
But the boy found some wisdom and interests that grew
So that boy that would never see this circle ever end
Had to hope somewhat harder so maybe he'd win
Though that story is moving, the end is away
Taking Time on vacation, but will come someday
When it does we will wonder and ponder with fear
May that boy have his passions and years be endeared.
209 · May 2018
·ˇ· ǝɹǝɥʇ oןןǝɥ
EmperorOfMine May 2018
I just want someone to relate
But all I am left with is awe
Don't look at me like that
Like I'm strange
Like I'm stupid
Like I'm not worth it
I care about what you think
I care about you

But is that my fault
Or is it yours
I still love
I still fight
I have hope
But this world
It tells me to let the good go
Treat myself
and only myself
But at the same time
Treat everyone else
As I want to be treated

How can you be such hypocrites
How can you smile with your false teeth and plastic eyes
How can you look down on me
When I am but natural
I am human
I am not an android
But why is that a bad thing
No one is perfect
I am not your trophy
I am not your garbage
Do not look away
Do not run to your comfort

You think you deserve peace
You think you deserve comfort
Who do you think you are
Don't close your eyes
Don't cover your mouth
Don't plug your ears
Listen to me
See me
Speak to me

Run into your phone
I dare you...
Walk away
Hit me
It'll make everything better, huh
Or is that what they've programmed you to say
You think you're so clever
You think you're better than me
Well here's the news flash
You're just like me

Matter of fact
You are me
So look out of the mirror
Take of that plastic smile
Wipe away the makeup
Stop acting
You can do it
You can smile without the fake teeth
You can laugh without the recordings
You are strong without having to be prideful
Cocky


Be humble
This isn't to make you feel good
This isn't even about you
So why did you make it about you
Cause 'you' is in it
Or is it because you can relate
Step away from the mirror
Participate
Shut it down
207 · Dec 2018
Possession
EmperorOfMine Dec 2018
There's a rage so potent within me that just fades and goes somewhere else.
I wonder what happens to it.
I can be in the most bitter state, yet I never hold a grudge...
I just forget.
I mean, I remember, but the tension reforms into fear.
Sometimes I'll stop in my tracks, and I'll smile as wide as I can, and my eyes would shift from stoic to...
a glare.

I've had thoughts of wrath, malice, and pure chaos...an act against my character.

I wonder what demon this is attempting to change my sanity.
What's attempting to paint me into something scary?
As I've gotten older, my memory has become younger.
It's gotten harder to remember things, yet I remember things from the distant past...
I wonder how that comes to be...

I'm being possessed by something truly scary...
But no one can see me.
And when they see me...
They avoid me.
There's nothing wrong with me.
I've held on to friends...
But one thing that is true, they all end up leaving.
It's not because of me.
I don't know what this is...
But I can see patterns...
And that's how this demon wins.
205 · Nov 2018
Pretty Boy
EmperorOfMine Nov 2018
Do you know your worth
Beneath the raven's wing
Do you know you're hurt
The pain that you will bleed
As pretty as they can come
Yet as hurt as they'll ever be
You're a pretty boy
A pretty boy
A pretty toy
And you'll know just what that'll mean.
205 · Oct 2018
If Only
EmperorOfMine Oct 2018
If only

He would see me as worthy,
maybe i'd change his life for the better,
make October happy again...together.

If only

That butterfly would land on my shoulder...
change on me; bring me glee,
set me free.

ıʄ ơŋƖყ

You would smile sometime...
Compliment that (wo)man that's scowling into nothing,
as (s)he walks in h(er/is) bluffing.


Maybe, just maybe...

It will be the only act needed to set some of these wings free...
205 · Oct 2020
October
EmperorOfMine Oct 2020
I don't know if I'm ready for what you are about to do to me
will you **** me?
Fear filled, I'm handcuffed to the misery of the past.
Nothings meant to last, but losing people...it's the glass
filed underneath my feet, weak and underappreciated...

The consecutive destruction provided every year, on this month,
I find it harder to cope with, and maybe...I'm not supposed to cope

Maybe, maybe you will destroy me.
I can feel myself becoming unsteady.
204 · Aug 2019
Glumbug
EmperorOfMine Aug 2019
Sometimes suddenly, I feel dejected.
Ejected from my previous emotion and rejected by any positive concoction.
Somehow, abruptly, I feel embedded in the thickest soot of sadness, heavy ashes of gloom suffocating my heart and all of its assets.

Sometimes I get bitten by a glumbug, and a blue sky could turn gray, I could be known to be the talker, but have nothing to say. My mind doesn't mind being a bully and having it's way...as if my soul began to rapidly decay.

I'm glumbugged like spontaneously combusted, explosively sickened by this destructive construction. Depravity shaking and waving in motion, corrosive to my life and the future that's open.

Potent, its bite, the glumbug. Random, sudden, terrifying. Like the chilly wind that death carries, or a gut's intuition; like a sign of misfortune. What an awe-inducing contraption.
203 · May 2018
¬_¬
EmperorOfMine May 2018
Don't get picky
Don't act all high and mighty
You think you're enlightened
Well, I don't see you changing the world
But I do see you drinking tea as it burns before your feet
So forget you, since you've forgotten love
202 · Feb 2019
Fated by It's Name
EmperorOfMine Feb 2019
It was just a bonfire,
what you and I had,
just right by the house...

Did it have to be so bad?
For our first time,
I tried to stop it,
But it was like you wanted us to have it,
so broken and sad,
but it was what we needed to bond and to have a good laugh.

But that bonfire sparked embers up and coated the deep blue starry sky,
Making futures and fates I could wish for throughout the night...

You'd think that all the ambers up would cool out in time,
That everything would remain to resume just fine...

But near my home,
Was an amber of sparking ambition
Like fate sent it out,
Was it on a mission,
Powering through, didn't have decisions...

Lit my home right up over,
Just by slipping through a vulnerable crack,
So much for thinking that I could just live with you then
But I didn't know that you'd turn your back...

A meek and crushed me alone
Nowhere to look but at what I've sown
So I built some walls around my house
I thought my tears could stop it
But i'm just a mouse

From fire to now burning
That's when this experience brought me some pain
Here's a short version of my story
Of how a crush burned me in flames
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