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"profanities" poems
Born into a world of deception, Embraced in a life of abuse, Tormented by a state of abandonment, Betrayed by parents of youth. Destroyed by words of profanities, Tortured without excuse, Alone in a house of misery: Torn, battered, and confused. Compelled to a life of insignificance With their endeavors never seen, Their family — a false reality, Alone with only their dreams. Assaulted with no explanation By parents who destroy with their hands; A child bruised and broken Can only dream of oceans and sands. Alone in a world with no one, Their voice never heard nor seen, Locked in a room of obscurities, Waiting for death to set them free. Violence speaks to this child With no escape to be seen. Alone in this house of tragedy: Withdrawn, suicidal, and unseen. © 2020, K. Saitta
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Nov 11, 2020
Nov 11, 2020 at 4:01 PM UTC
A Child Alone
When he left my mother told me something. She said it's okay and this will pass He's nothing compared to you But as I laid there On my bedroom floor In the room where he claimed me Where little girl dreams were shattered I didn't believe her Instead I screamed about how I hated life How he left me like dust on my fingertips Like the ash of my burned down home Two weeks later and I'm a shell Of who I was Of who I am Of who I'll ever be My ribs poked out like piano keys Just waiting to be played And my collar bones Oh they were waiting like glasses Glasses expecting hard liquor That I of course drowned myself in The day her name left his lips I was done for I wanted to become nothing but earth and essence. But my best friend cradled me She promised I would find love again That this hurt, no matter how bad it is, Will only be temporary I didn't believe her So I rebelled against them all It was only me 4 months later and I'm sitting in the car My best friend sits beside me I'm genuinely laughing And she looks proud Then she tells me how he's talking about me. From my big black boots My infatuation with peaches To how I harbor guitar pics on every inch of my body. I relapse into him immediately I wanted him so bad 6 and a half months later and he tells my best friend That he hates me My name swims out of his mouth on a raft of profanities. But it didn't hurt as much as I thought I think I grew Little by little I became the new girl The one that writes again and breathes the air a little deeper than the others. 6 and half months plus 3 days I caress my fingers over my body The shower beats down on me "I want to be your friend" I whisper to myself. He was nothing but a thunderstorm But I am more than he I am the sun The moon The stars I am the heavens I am the thing everyone revels in And I made it through hell and back And now I can finally say goodbye
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Dec 4, 2017
Dec 4, 2017 at 11:15 AM UTC
Tales of a Universal Girl and a Thunderstorm Boy
When he left my mother told me something. She said it's okay and this will pass He's nothing compared to you But as I laid there On my bedroom floor In the room where he claimed me Where little girl dreams were shattered I didn't believe her Instead I screamed about how I hated life How he left me like dust on my fingertips Like the ash of my burned down home Two weeks later and I'm a shell Of who I was Of who I am Of who I'll ever be My ribs poked out like piano keys Just waiting to be played And my collar bones Oh they were waiting like glasses Glasses expecting hard liquor That I of course drowned myself in The day her name left his lips I was done for I wanted to become nothing but earth and essence. But my best friend cradled me She promised I would find love again That this hurt, no matter how bad it is, Will only be temporary I didn't believe her So I rebelled against them all It was only me 4 months later and I'm sitting in the car My best friend sits beside me I'm genuinely laughing And she looks proud Then she tells me how he's talking about me. From my big black boots My infatuation with peaches To how I harbor guitar pics on every inch of my body. I relapse into him immediately I wanted him so bad 6 and a half months later and he tells my best friend That he hates me My name swims out of his mouth on a raft of profanities. But it didn't hurt as much as I thought I think I grew Little by little I became the new girl The one that writes again and breathes the air a little deeper than the others. 6 and half months plus 3 days I caress my fingers over my body The shower beats down on me "I want to be your friend" I whisper to myself. He was nothing but a thunderstorm But I am more than he I am the sun The moon The stars I am the heavens I am the thing everyone revels in And I made it through hell and back And now I can finally say goodbye
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—for Mariel She sells 2 sole paltas beside street vendors who whistle at crop-top-clad girls, spewing profanities complete with broken English. She has four girls hungry at home. They dream of science, stars, constellations that spiral and sparr with particles that make us what we are — interrupted by howling dogs, the 5 AM tamale man, and stray **** crows. Amid dust-clouds of Zona D, the sun arrives over the peak Luis claims once exposed his innocent eyes to an angel: one tale of faith raised on culture come undone presently. Poet Andrea Gibson writes, “I said to the sun, ‘Tell me about the Big Bang.’ And the sun said, ‘it hurts to become.’” At dusk, Mariel takes a Combi out sixteen stops from Quince, up 302 steps to a turquoise shack and a red rose garden, and plants avocado seeds at her toes. Poco a poco, se anda lejos.
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Apr 4, 2015
Apr 4, 2015 at 10:59 PM UTC
"Little by Little, One Walks Far"
A head, gnashing and screaming Forgiving my unknown hospitality Pretty is weakening I'm a fatality deemed Obnoxious is my scene The mocking and mimicking comes easy for me No secret, I envy the earth's energy Depressed, sitting in my fancy dress Shoving and tugging with desirable credibility I ravish my personality Amused? As I show my tender meat bleeding Kissing, authentic generosity A bit suggestive Confidence in deranged descriptions making others nervous Excuse me, I must leave my head is blistering, Popping, Gushing and oozing profanities Dented durability, consume me I love the fact I'm lacking Becoming one with the barbaric queen
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May 28, 2016
May 28, 2016 at 1:06 AM UTC
Broken isn't cute
Trying my best to do a job And follow rules set in place And peoples attitude And entitled egos im supposed to just take Because hey “The Customer Is Always Right” To give service with a smile Even to the one screaming profanities To reward bad behaviour And give in to such insanity   But hey “The Customer Is Always Right” To be nice to the creeps That come in every week I already told you The answer is no! So please leave me alone But hey “The Customer is Always Right” What happened to honor? Dignity and Respect? I’m horrified at the lack there of I know im not the only one
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Aug 9, 2018
Aug 9, 2018 at 3:01 AM UTC
The Customer is Always Right
Baby Panda You called me A pussy-bitch When you woke And I smiled In response Baby Panda When eating Fruity pebbles With almond milk You croaked like A frog, croak Over 20 times And got up To spit in the sink Excessive saliva In between Each bite I asked you why You croak wha? I smiled And say Never mind Baby Panda You ran to me Sobbing as if The world was ending My socks!!! No more clean **** I forgot To dry them You pace Uncomfortable As you're forced To go barefoot *Feet **** For longer Than an hour Baby Panda I return to You're stash Of a room And picking up Your pajamas I smell an Accident Of both sorts Soiling your Clothes sorry Red faced you enter I smile and Remind you To let me know Next time And not to Throw it on the Wooden floor Baby Panda Socks on smooth Shoes tied with Quadrupled knots You head to your Room, radio blasting Some radio talk Station about comedy Until 8:21 rolls around And you run Like a bullet To the bus outside Our house I smile as you yell BUS IS HERE No matter what room I'm in Baby Panda I worry for you The second you walk Out the door Because you have such Big, terrifying emotions Yet a small filter On your words, thoughts Of your own body Despite the fact That you're turning Into a real teen Before the summers end Baby Panda I wish I could help In ways I cannot I can't read your mind Though you think I should Know how by now I can't make socks magically Not hurt, or have people Not get ****** When you randomly shout Profanities When your last conversation Was regarding food And I can't Stop the madness that Overtakes your body Every time you get ill Physically, mentally But Baby Panda I love you now And always will
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Feb 8, 2018
Feb 8, 2018 at 12:07 AM UTC
Baby Panda (Autism/PANDAS)
Baby Panda You called me A pussy-bitch When you woke And I smiled In response Baby Panda When eating Fruity pebbles With almond milk You croaked like A frog, croak Over 20 times And got up To spit in the sink Excessive saliva In between Each bite I asked you why You croak wha? I smiled And say Never mind Baby Panda You ran to me Sobbing as if The world was ending My socks!!! No more clean **** I forgot To dry them You pace Uncomfortable As you're forced To go barefoot *Feet **** For longer Than an hour Baby Panda I return to You're stash Of a room And picking up Your pajamas I smell an Accident Of both sorts Soiling your Clothes sorry Red faced you enter I smile and Remind you To let me know Next time And not to Throw it on the Wooden floor Baby Panda Socks on smooth Shoes tied with Quadrupled knots You head to your Room, radio blasting Some radio talk Station about comedy Until 8:21 rolls around And you run Like a bullet To the bus outside Our house I smile as you yell BUS IS HERE No matter what room I'm in Baby Panda I worry for you The second you walk Out the door Because you have such Big, terrifying emotions Yet a small filter On your words, thoughts Of your own body Despite the fact That you're turning Into a real teen Before the summers end Baby Panda I wish I could help In ways I cannot I can't read your mind Though you think I should Know how by now I can't make socks magically Not hurt, or have people Not get ****** When you randomly shout Profanities When your last conversation Was regarding food And I can't Stop the madness that Overtakes your body Every time you get ill Physically, mentally But Baby Panda I love you now And always will
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The empty air has a bitter tone When it bites at my fingers And yells profanities in an unrecognizable tongue. It stings when it sings. It has an aberrant gait And a detached mien, This lack-of being. The tempest’s strides jounce its overly-wide shoulders; Its prominent brow sends an antagonistic shadow Cascading down its lip and jaw. This active silence whispers age-old secrets Its fingers tousling the amber leaves Of my autumn’s long-dead trees. The sound resonates, And this taunting, all-knowing, Omnipresent, nonexistent-but-still-there wind Smiles at my naïveté. Weary under the weight of the world And the smog of self-importance. Its eyes are clouded with grey rain, Its teeth sharp with a bitter resentment; “I’ve disliked you since the 1700s,” it breathes, Throwing an airy, acrid gaze at humanity. (“I’m sorry, but it is you who made me this way, With your scornful industrialization.”) Its eyes are frigid, piercing, Wicked, yet reserved. Cruel in their taunting assumptions, Yet, In those forget-me-not eyes I found the sky.
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May 8, 2010
May 8, 2010 at 5:36 PM UTC
I Can't Hear it Anymore
WARNING *Extreme use of profanities and Gods engaged in an **** of lust Apology in advance for any offence caused* SL At Freyja's Table ******* Gods everywhere ******* here And ******* there They ******* **** and ******* **** Some ******* clean Some ******* muck They **** in heaven And in **** in hell Cupids got them under his ******* spell With ******* arrows in their ******* hearts ******* priests ******* tarts ******* freaky super powers ******* torrential golden showers The ******* sparks ******* fly ******* ****** in their eyes ******* Eris causing troubles ******* Bacchus blowing bubbles ******* Sif is ******* Thor More and more   On the ******* floor ******* Gods everywhere Tied up with their golden hair Freyja clears her ******* table Grabs any God that she's able And ***** and ***** And licks and ***** ******* breathless Who ******* cares ******* Gods are everywhere Discarded robes that lay beneath ******* horns and clenching teeth They ******* *** They ******* squirt They *** again Until they hurt Steaming bodies Sweaty hair ******* Gods are everywhere
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Aug 12, 2014
Aug 12, 2014 at 11:11 AM UTC
At Freyja's Table
How strangely coincidental, it is, how nothing inspires you with age, that a shy, withered leaf parting sedentary waters, is dewy-eyed dead yet unconsciously graceful; such profanities of nature, no longer expands your soul like a burgeoning bubble which whisks you to write carelessly-composed poetry over forgotten dinner plates.... it's a tragic symphony of desperate piano keys, a blurring condition of blacks and whites, age, and nothing but overused, age, is. And so on lonely train journeys, you craft a smattering of shorthand poems, about how crackled, aged people on trains only have capacities for whimsical jokes, and nothing but dear, dear whimsicality as life's gilded philosophy, when their bodies are no longer covered with magic leaflets of hand-strung poetry, for they are barren, and if gods were gods of stanzaic hymns, they'd open bloodless wombs of literary nymphs, or so boldly believed, the aged once-artist say.
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Mar 18, 2015
Mar 18, 2015 at 9:25 AM UTC
Metamorphosis
**** them all I'll wear what I want and my nose ring too that principal ***** is scared of me anyway she looks every direction except mine I try to walk near her in the hall so she'll see I've busted the dress code she's good at getting really engrossed in a conversation when I'm near like the waitress at Applebys that looks right through me when I wanna order people are so good at looking right through you it's scary I can't look through anything I see it all I see my footprints on the sidewalk fuckin' followin' me I see fuckin' atoms splitting I see all the colors of light in the air but sometimes I just see black I go to fancy department stores just to pull out clothes and let 'em drop nobody fuckin' looks at me except they're wondering if they'll have to call the police maybe someday they'll have to call the police then they'll see me maybe for the first and last time **** them all sometimes I walk behind someone and grunt at 'em I giggle when it scares 'em but they always step aside and don't look at me I just keep walking with those footsteps followin' me and those colors turned to black in my eyes I do like the **** who knocked me down that time instead of steppin' aside I like him fine at least he saw me at least he looked at me when he punched me even if he did give me a nosebleed and I lost my ring tore it right out of my left nostril and now there's a fuckin' scar the janitor bandaged it up for me so I could go to class I love that janitor dude he's fuckin' awesome he gives us *** and has a black cape hangin' on his wall we can put on if we're in that kinda mood it feels good to wear that cape like Captain Fuckin' Invisible sometimes it takes the black away sometimes the *** brings the colors back I'd rather skip class and smoke *** with the janitor but we're reading The Metamorphosis now that's a fuckin' great book a fuckin' nobody who becomes a monstrous vermin overnight nobody's gonna forget that that's for sure I wonder if Kafka locked himself in his room like I do I could turn into an insect and no one would know since they don't look at me well if they do look they don't see me anyway I guess I am a vermin to them the principal who doesn't wanna see me and my sister who pretends she doesn't know me at school and even my mom who only looks at me to make sure I'm not wearing profanities on my shirt **** that fuckin' big huge vermin fuckin' creepin' up behind you and grunting and nobody even sees it comin' that's a giggle right there nobody sees it comin' 'cause nobody sees me nobody sees me at all
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Dec 17, 2012
Dec 17, 2012 at 4:06 PM UTC
Captain Fuckin' Invisible
**** them all I'll wear what I want and my nose ring too that principal ***** is scared of me anyway she looks every direction except mine I try to walk near her in the hall so she'll see I've busted the dress code she's good at getting really engrossed in a conversation when I'm near like the waitress at Applebys that looks right through me when I wanna order people are so good at looking right through you it's scary I can't look through anything I see it all I see my footprints on the sidewalk fuckin' followin' me I see fuckin' atoms splitting I see all the colors of light in the air but sometimes I just see black I go to fancy department stores just to pull out clothes and let 'em drop nobody fuckin' looks at me except they're wondering if they'll have to call the police maybe someday they'll have to call the police then they'll see me maybe for the first and last time **** them all sometimes I walk behind someone and grunt at 'em I giggle when it scares 'em but they always step aside and don't look at me I just keep walking with those footsteps followin' me and those colors turned to black in my eyes I do like the **** who knocked me down that time instead of steppin' aside I like him fine at least he saw me at least he looked at me when he punched me even if he did give me a nosebleed and I lost my ring tore it right out of my left nostril and now there's a fuckin' scar the janitor bandaged it up for me so I could go to class I love that janitor dude he's fuckin' awesome he gives us *** and has a black cape hangin' on his wall we can put on if we're in that kinda mood it feels good to wear that cape like Captain Fuckin' Invisible sometimes it takes the black away sometimes the *** brings the colors back I'd rather skip class and smoke *** with the janitor but we're reading The Metamorphosis now that's a fuckin' great book a fuckin' nobody who becomes a monstrous vermin overnight nobody's gonna forget that that's for sure I wonder if Kafka locked himself in his room like I do I could turn into an insect and no one would know since they don't look at me well if they do look they don't see me anyway I guess I am a vermin to them the principal who doesn't wanna see me and my sister who pretends she doesn't know me at school and even my mom who only looks at me to make sure I'm not wearing profanities on my shirt **** that fuckin' big huge vermin fuckin' creepin' up behind you and grunting and nobody even sees it comin' that's a giggle right there nobody sees it comin' 'cause nobody sees me nobody sees me at all
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**** you It sounds so bitter coming from a mothers mouth If I have a daughter I will only tell her sweet nothings about how wonderful she is, how beautiful she is and I will never spew the profanities that you've shouted at me because I want her confidence to be as high as the skyscrapers that just skim the clouds so she knows that nothing is the limit Darling, I will tell her, if someone thinks you're too big for them then they obviously don't have the equipment for the job anyway instead of tagging along on a shopping spree where the only thing I tell her is how that top brings out her belly rolls and how that skirt shows her love handles, I will handle her with all the love I have I will promise her that I will never say I told you so especially when her first love cheats on her and she comes to me in tears wanting nothing but a hug, I will supply the chocolates, the rom-coms and teach her that the only men you need in life are Ben & Jerry If I have a daughter, I will never compare her to her brother, I will never brag about only one of them to people I meet on the street, I will never tell her that she should be more like him because he's perfect at everything she's not without even trying...I will tell her she's good at everything I will say she's the best at having the worst coordination, like her mother, I will tell her she's the best at being who she is, I will tell her she is the best at stealing my heart away every time I look at her So thank you Mom...for teaching me what not to do, for showing me how to break down your daughters confidence, thank you for teaching me what a hypocrite is, thank you for all the 'I told you sos' and thank you...for teaching me how to be a mother
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Jul 6, 2013
Jul 6, 2013 at 11:32 PM UTC
Thank You Mom
**** you It sounds so bitter coming from a mothers mouth If I have a daughter I will only tell her sweet nothings about how wonderful she is, how beautiful she is and I will never spew the profanities that you've shouted at me because I want her confidence to be as high as the skyscrapers that just skim the clouds so she knows that nothing is the limit Darling, I will tell her, if someone thinks you're too big for them then they obviously don't have the equipment for the job anyway instead of tagging along on a shopping spree where the only thing I tell her is how that top brings out her belly rolls and how that skirt shows her love handles, I will handle her with all the love I have I will promise her that I will never say I told you so especially when her first love cheats on her and she comes to me in tears wanting nothing but a hug, I will supply the chocolates, the rom-coms and teach her that the only men you need in life are Ben & Jerry If I have a daughter, I will never compare her to her brother, I will never brag about only one of them to people I meet on the street, I will never tell her that she should be more like him because he's perfect at everything she's not without even trying...I will tell her she's good at everything I will say she's the best at having the worst coordination, like her mother, I will tell her she's the best at being who she is, I will tell her she is the best at stealing my heart away every time I look at her So thank you Mom...for teaching me what not to do, for showing me how to break down your daughters confidence, thank you for teaching me what a hypocrite is, thank you for all the 'I told you sos' and thank you...for teaching me how to be a mother
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The subtle words spoken were not subtle.. The soft touch was not very soft.. ****** profanities never heard? Yet I climb this mountain under your river I dive from the loudest intersection into a reality pictured only by you..
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Feb 11, 2012
Feb 11, 2012 at 2:59 AM UTC
Hypocrite
I cannot be seen with a pear. Not in this environment. Where opinions torment And my affections lay dormant. My view of you is tainted What was once reasonable restraint Is now repulsion and complaint. I am sorry, dear friend. But I cannot stand the sight of you. I wince at the thought of what we used to do. No more Frank. No more Dean I want my memory wiped clean. I cringed when I remember the times you touched me. The smack of lips is the worst. From my mouth profanities burst. It is a shame to think that of my first. It was pleasant at the time. But I have to draw a line. Now I bare the burden of these visions in my mind. Your smell still lingers. That stupid ring on your finger. No wonder we were terrible swingers. I can bare to text. but I refuse to sit next to you. I am sorry to say Away from me you must stay. I don't want to see you anyway. I could never be seen with a pear. Because I'm superficial and I care About what people think. No, it's not fair.
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Oct 18, 2014
Oct 18, 2014 at 2:42 AM UTC
I Can't Pear the Sight of You.
You hold me close as I cry Telling me that this may be my first heartbreak But it won't last forever I think back to the constant arguments Complete with screaming, lies, and name calling But these are not the names that flew around the playground No these are much worse: selfish, irrelevant, useless There were no profanities but they weren't necessary You got your point across just fine Telling me that my feelings didn't matter, this was about you But I'm the selfish one right? And you do so much for me how dare I not show my appreciation You say that you deserve respect from me But I lost that several verbal beatings ago This is not the abuse that people give you pity for But I wouldn't want that, you thought I was already looking for pity I threatened to leave and you threatened your hurt feelings And every time I walked away You somehow drew me back with your 'love' So I looked you in the eyes and said 'He wasn't the first person I loved and thought loved me too. Because, dad, my first heartbreak was you."
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May 18, 2014
May 18, 2014 at 10:37 PM UTC
First Heartbreak
there are holes in my body where i was pinned to the stars my voice cries out to eternity begging for silence don't tell me i'm overreacting when my eyes are bloodshot and blackened when i'm clutching my knees as i shake screaming profanities and nonsense and numbers and how dearly my soul misses the galaxies it's travelled when i'm begging for peace whilst waging a war against the dissonance of my thoughts don't tell me i'm overreacting when fever dreams are my only escape
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Oct 14, 2014
Oct 14, 2014 at 12:29 AM UTC
the light at the end of the crematorium
The absorbent two-ply quilted southern sky was soaking up the pre-dawn rays as we were pushing our broken green four-wheeled machine southbound on Bruce B. Downs taking up the curbside lane Our shirts were becoming stained with humid profanities despite the fan blade traffic throwing a slight breeze We were slurping brackish blacktop steam from the air plodding like the Hillsborough toward our destination My mind was already sauntering back toward a broken green futon sitting in the section-eight, eviction evaded, apartment Out the window cross-bred ducks were lording over scrawny, pseudo-feral worm host cats for which the knockabout neighbors kept a litter box outside
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Jan 20, 2011
Jan 20, 2011 at 6:45 AM UTC
The Hell with the Rabbits; All I See Are Gray Squirrels
Listening to them Arguing Swearing at each other She criticizes his every move He can't do anything right He screams unforgivable things at her She cries And he never cries But he leaves For hours Grudging Clearly upset I inherited her inability To ever let things go And when I get angry Just like her I scream profanities And say what's on my mind Letting it all out I also inherited his grudging nature I never forgive I leave when I am furious And I don't come back I never accept an apology I never give one either Both traits I inherited From each of them respectively Are horrible characteristics Will I be twice as bad When I am married If I am married Will I fight like this Say hateful, awful things And never say I love you anymore? I don't want to end up like that I know it won't be sugarplums and glitter I am not that delusional But I believe I can make an effort To keep the romance Alive Even when I have promised forever And I hope My relationship Never descends To what they have because what is worse than hurting to one you are supposed to love?
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Dec 6, 2014
Dec 6, 2014 at 10:57 AM UTC
Listening to them fight
[9: 15 p.m.] for some reason, my ribs ache when i think of you they feel incomplete like gaps in between teeth empty spaces where a heart should keep pumping   then i imagine you next to me and it skips a beat or maybe two [10:32 p.m.] normally it's the chase that gets me most thrilled i heard once that lions sometimes hunted for the hell of it but i can't seem to find heaven tangled in these phone lines it is better to back down before i get myself wounded or even worse [10:49 p.m.] tear stains seem more permanent than ebony ink so i wrote you a song on the tip of my eyelashes but you couldn't remember how to read the music a few violin strings and promises were broken in the process [11:56 p.m.] they say drinking hot tea creates the same effect as physical closeness, the touch of human warmth i settled for coffee and the heat of a texas summer but it wasn't the same feeling as when you held me in my dream [12:11 a.m.] there are so many wasted nights in the wastebasket of poetry written about love and loss and anger and not enough about the indescribable feeling of staying up at night just to hear your voice for an hour [12:47 a.m.] there was a time when i got sick at the sound of laughter sunshine gave me a never-ending, piercing migraine i stared into the dark and screamed profanities into my pillow because i wished i could be content alone and without you for one second [1:21 a.m.] someone once told me i have the memory of an elephant but i forgot to tell you that you give  me  the strangest euphoria   like eating gas station sushi on long trips to my hometown or wearing mismatched socks underneath my favorite shoes and autumn nights [2:13 a.m.] sometimes we focus too heavily on the tiny details to realize that if we step back for a second, we will see a beautiful masterpiece right in front of  us instead of mistakes under the guise of "amateur brushstrokes" and "just friends" [3:30 a.m.] there are times where i can't distinguish between tachycardia and a broken heart but i do know that i love you in some way and if i never told you that before now well I'm sorry
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May 20, 2014
May 20, 2014 at 3:33 PM UTC
gas station sushi
[9: 15 p.m.] for some reason, my ribs ache when i think of you they feel incomplete like gaps in between teeth empty spaces where a heart should keep pumping   then i imagine you next to me and it skips a beat or maybe two [10:32 p.m.] normally it's the chase that gets me most thrilled i heard once that lions sometimes hunted for the hell of it but i can't seem to find heaven tangled in these phone lines it is better to back down before i get myself wounded or even worse [10:49 p.m.] tear stains seem more permanent than ebony ink so i wrote you a song on the tip of my eyelashes but you couldn't remember how to read the music a few violin strings and promises were broken in the process [11:56 p.m.] they say drinking hot tea creates the same effect as physical closeness, the touch of human warmth i settled for coffee and the heat of a texas summer but it wasn't the same feeling as when you held me in my dream [12:11 a.m.] there are so many wasted nights in the wastebasket of poetry written about love and loss and anger and not enough about the indescribable feeling of staying up at night just to hear your voice for an hour [12:47 a.m.] there was a time when i got sick at the sound of laughter sunshine gave me a never-ending, piercing migraine i stared into the dark and screamed profanities into my pillow because i wished i could be content alone and without you for one second [1:21 a.m.] someone once told me i have the memory of an elephant but i forgot to tell you that you give  me  the strangest euphoria   like eating gas station sushi on long trips to my hometown or wearing mismatched socks underneath my favorite shoes and autumn nights [2:13 a.m.] sometimes we focus too heavily on the tiny details to realize that if we step back for a second, we will see a beautiful masterpiece right in front of  us instead of mistakes under the guise of "amateur brushstrokes" and "just friends" [3:30 a.m.] there are times where i can't distinguish between tachycardia and a broken heart but i do know that i love you in some way and if i never told you that before now well I'm sorry
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How ironic to not seek the tools yet drool on them To see the instruments and break down like a phlegm How naïve of us to use the gym as an excuse To prolong it, as if it were drug use Some call it dopamine others call it clarity Most see an opening to showcase their barbarity Called less of a man to those "better off" Called less of a woman to those showing pictures with their sweater off Lust driving companies to show children compromised We see these plaything while revenue boosts the enterprise Anime, video games, novels and Tv Nothing seems too extreme for these mediums Beheading, shredding, **** and made "Dream-like" Topics have been explored beyond their tedium **** is accessible and Ai makes your dream man Merge yourself with your idol beyond the imagination of a regular Stan Be praised for wearing Japanese *********** and condoning said behavior Treat somebodies feet pics like your very own savior The beast wins not with wit, but with a pattern To catch us in the act frozen still like Saturn Internet connections show us the milky way And your hands remain adamant, your mind filthy The beasts doesn't care of November, nor valentines or about your crush It waits to clamp you, and turn you into dust Too ashamed to seek humanity, too far gone to find morality Repeated until insanity, Your mouth blurting profanities And yet we blame the beast when our relationships end or we cant break a ***** habit Then try to pray to catch up to the Sabbath Why Lie to the beast and to ourselves? To those who use their hands or run to cheap hotels Is *********** more worthwhile than redemption? The beast is with me as I type this, judging my every move It laughs, uses slurs and denying my attempts to improve It lives in you, no matter how content you are with your sexuality And does its all to destroy your Mentality
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Nov 13, 2023
Nov 13, 2023 at 8:41 AM UTC
The beast that controls my lust
How ironic to not seek the tools yet drool on them To see the instruments and break down like a phlegm How naïve of us to use the gym as an excuse To prolong it, as if it were drug use Some call it dopamine others call it clarity Most see an opening to showcase their barbarity Called less of a man to those "better off" Called less of a woman to those showing pictures with their sweater off Lust driving companies to show children compromised We see these plaything while revenue boosts the enterprise Anime, video games, novels and Tv Nothing seems too extreme for these mediums Beheading, shredding, **** and made "Dream-like" Topics have been explored beyond their tedium **** is accessible and Ai makes your dream man Merge yourself with your idol beyond the imagination of a regular Stan Be praised for wearing Japanese *********** and condoning said behavior Treat somebodies feet pics like your very own savior The beast wins not with wit, but with a pattern To catch us in the act frozen still like Saturn Internet connections show us the milky way And your hands remain adamant, your mind filthy The beasts doesn't care of November, nor valentines or about your crush It waits to clamp you, and turn you into dust Too ashamed to seek humanity, too far gone to find morality Repeated until insanity, Your mouth blurting profanities And yet we blame the beast when our relationships end or we cant break a ***** habit Then try to pray to catch up to the Sabbath Why Lie to the beast and to ourselves? To those who use their hands or run to cheap hotels Is *********** more worthwhile than redemption? The beast is with me as I type this, judging my every move It laughs, uses slurs and denying my attempts to improve It lives in you, no matter how content you are with your sexuality And does its all to destroy your Mentality
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Sometimes I am so sick of this town. I am tired of the way the young people twist and pull time to make it seem that they are years older than what their life conveys, and use large words that they only know half the meaning of, and oh, "darling" "lovely" we'll maybe I want to be called ******* "Wild" "untouchable" "agressive" "Manipulative" "weird" "Fire filled crazy eyed brown haired ***** footed mess of a girl" I don't want to be "lovely" I want you to tell me I am insane, and say it to my face. I am bored of everyone buying so many large books that they will never read, only look at with some false, faraway nostalgia when their friend comes over with their favorite vinyl. I don't want to be "sunny" I am not "happy" Or "a nice girl" I am a confusing like a labyrinth of contradiction, And my emotions move inside me like a hurricane. I have no time for big words anymore, or long poetic musings. I want you to scream profanities at the top of your voice, filling your lungs with every bad word in the book. I want you to etch bold letters in illegal places, I want your words to be direct, quick like fire. Tell me exactly how you feel. I want you to be clear, straightforward, I have no ******* time to be called "lovely" and asked if I want a cup of tea. I want ***** and I want it now. I don't want to be asked if I am awake at two a.m., I want to be asked if I am alive. If I'm being rude, I want somebody to hold my face still and talk to me while looking at my eyes and say "You're being a real ******* ***** quit it." Instead of some ***** with hurt rotting inside of them, digging an early grave due to the inner decay of unspoken words. I'm tired of people feeling obliged to say Bukowsi was an *** but a good writer, "but oooh Nerudas good" I'm sure Neruda could have been a **** too. Stop pretending to like Shakespeare and really strong coffee and stop trying to force yourself to read really long confusing poetry. Life isn't supposed to be a metaphor, It's a ******* moment, So seize it, You don't have time to be complicated and fake. Be raw and real. Be vulnerable and strong. You are young, You are at the prime of your life, So yell off the ******* rooftops, And scrape your knees a little bit, And rebel a little bit, And get a black eye sometimes, And get angry a little, And kiss people with soft lips sometimes, And tell people exactly what you feel when you feel it, And make mistakes, And get drunk, And do weird things sometimes, You are ******* young, Stop pretending.
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Dec 22, 2013
Dec 22, 2013 at 1:17 AM UTC
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Sometimes I am so sick of this town. I am tired of the way the young people twist and pull time to make it seem that they are years older than what their life conveys, and use large words that they only know half the meaning of, and oh, "darling" "lovely" we'll maybe I want to be called ******* "Wild" "untouchable" "agressive" "Manipulative" "weird" "Fire filled crazy eyed brown haired ***** footed mess of a girl" I don't want to be "lovely" I want you to tell me I am insane, and say it to my face. I am bored of everyone buying so many large books that they will never read, only look at with some false, faraway nostalgia when their friend comes over with their favorite vinyl. I don't want to be "sunny" I am not "happy" Or "a nice girl" I am a confusing like a labyrinth of contradiction, And my emotions move inside me like a hurricane. I have no time for big words anymore, or long poetic musings. I want you to scream profanities at the top of your voice, filling your lungs with every bad word in the book. I want you to etch bold letters in illegal places, I want your words to be direct, quick like fire. Tell me exactly how you feel. I want you to be clear, straightforward, I have no ******* time to be called "lovely" and asked if I want a cup of tea. I want ***** and I want it now. I don't want to be asked if I am awake at two a.m., I want to be asked if I am alive. If I'm being rude, I want somebody to hold my face still and talk to me while looking at my eyes and say "You're being a real ******* ***** quit it." Instead of some ***** with hurt rotting inside of them, digging an early grave due to the inner decay of unspoken words. I'm tired of people feeling obliged to say Bukowsi was an *** but a good writer, "but oooh Nerudas good" I'm sure Neruda could have been a **** too. Stop pretending to like Shakespeare and really strong coffee and stop trying to force yourself to read really long confusing poetry. Life isn't supposed to be a metaphor, It's a ******* moment, So seize it, You don't have time to be complicated and fake. Be raw and real. Be vulnerable and strong. You are young, You are at the prime of your life, So yell off the ******* rooftops, And scrape your knees a little bit, And rebel a little bit, And get a black eye sometimes, And get angry a little, And kiss people with soft lips sometimes, And tell people exactly what you feel when you feel it, And make mistakes, And get drunk, And do weird things sometimes, You are ******* young, Stop pretending.
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The big teetotum twirls, And epochs wax and wane As chance subsides or swirls; But of the loss and gain The sum is always plain. Read on the mighty pall, The **** of funeral That covers praise and blame, The -isms and the -anities, Magnificence and shame:-- "O Vanity of Vanities!" The Fates are subtle girls! They give us chaff for grain. And Time, the Thunderer, hurls, Like bolted death, disdain At all that heart and brain Conceive, or great or small, Upon this earthly ball. Would you be knight and dame? Or woo the sweet humanities? Or illustrate a name? O Vanity of Vanities! We sound the sea for pearls, Or drown them in a drain; We flute it with the merles, Or tug and sweat and strain; We grovel, or we reign; We saunter, or we brawl; We search the stars for Fame, Or sink her subterranities; The legend's still the same:-- "O Vanity of Vanities!" Here at the wine one birls, There some one clanks a chain. The flag that this man furls That man to float is fain. Pleasure gives place to pain: These in the kennel crawl, While others take the wall. She has a glorious aim, He lives for the inanities. What come of every claim? O Vanity of Vanities! Alike are clods and earls. For sot, and seer, and swain, For emperors and for churls, For antidote and bane, There is but one refrain: But one for king and thrall, For David and for Saul, For fleet of foot and lame, For pieties and profanities, The picture and the frame:-- "O Vanity of Vanities!" Life is a smoke that curls-- Curls in a flickering skein, That winds and whisks and whirls, A figment thin and vain, Into the vast Inane. One end for hut and hall! One end for cell and stall! Burned in one common flame Are wisdoms and insanities. For this alone we came:-- "O Vanity of Vanities!" Envoy Prince, pride must have a fall. What is the worth of all Your state's supreme urbanities? Bad at the best's the game. Well might the Sage exclaim:-- "O Vanity of Vanities!"
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Double Ballade on the Nothingness of Things
The big teetotum twirls, And epochs wax and wane As chance subsides or swirls; But of the loss and gain The sum is always plain. Read on the mighty pall, The **** of funeral That covers praise and blame, The -isms and the -anities, Magnificence and shame:-- "O Vanity of Vanities!" The Fates are subtle girls! They give us chaff for grain. And Time, the Thunderer, hurls, Like bolted death, disdain At all that heart and brain Conceive, or great or small, Upon this earthly ball. Would you be knight and dame? Or woo the sweet humanities? Or illustrate a name? O Vanity of Vanities! We sound the sea for pearls, Or drown them in a drain; We flute it with the merles, Or tug and sweat and strain; We grovel, or we reign; We saunter, or we brawl; We search the stars for Fame, Or sink her subterranities; The legend's still the same:-- "O Vanity of Vanities!" Here at the wine one birls, There some one clanks a chain. The flag that this man furls That man to float is fain. Pleasure gives place to pain: These in the kennel crawl, While others take the wall. She has a glorious aim, He lives for the inanities. What come of every claim? O Vanity of Vanities! Alike are clods and earls. For sot, and seer, and swain, For emperors and for churls, For antidote and bane, There is but one refrain: But one for king and thrall, For David and for Saul, For fleet of foot and lame, For pieties and profanities, The picture and the frame:-- "O Vanity of Vanities!" Life is a smoke that curls-- Curls in a flickering skein, That winds and whisks and whirls, A figment thin and vain, Into the vast Inane. One end for hut and hall! One end for cell and stall! Burned in one common flame Are wisdoms and insanities. For this alone we came:-- "O Vanity of Vanities!" Envoy Prince, pride must have a fall. What is the worth of all Your state's supreme urbanities? Bad at the best's the game. Well might the Sage exclaim:-- "O Vanity of Vanities!"
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The big teetotum twirls, And epochs wax and wane As chance subsides or swirls; But of the loss and gain The sum is always plain. Read on the mighty pall, The **** of funeral That covers praise and blame, The--isms and the--anities, Magnificence and shame:-- 'O Vanity of Vanities!' The Fates are subtile girls! They give us chaff for grain. And Time, the Thunderer, hurls, Like bolted death, disdain At all that heart and brain Conceive, or great or small, Upon this earthly ball. Would you be knight and dame? Or woo the sweet humanities? Or illustrate a name? O Vanity of Vanities! We sound the sea for pearls, Or drown them in a drain; We flute it with the merles, Or tug and sweat and strain; We grovel, or we reign; We saunter, or we brawl; We answer, or we call; We search the stars for Fame, Or sink her subterranities; The legend's still the same:-- 'O Vanity of Vanities!' Here at the wine one birls, There some one clanks a chain. The flag that this man furls That man to float is fain. Pleasure gives place to pain: These in the kennel crawl, While others take the wall. She has a glorious aim, He lives for the inanities. What comes of every claim? O Vanity of Vanities! Alike are clods and earls. For sot, and seer, and swain, For emperors and for churls, For antidote and bane, There is but one refrain: But one for king and thrall, For David and for Saul, For fleet of foot and lame, For pieties and profanities, The picture and the frame:-- 'O Vanity of Vanities!' Life is a smoke that curls-- Curls in a flickering skein, That winds and whisks and whirls A figment thin and vain, Into the vast Inane. One end for hut and hall! One end for cell and stall! Burned in one common flame Are wisdoms and insanities. For this alone we came:-- 'O Vanity of Vanities!' Envoy Prince, pride must have a fall. What is the worth of all Your state's supreme urbanities? Bad at the best's the game. Well might the Sage exclaim:-- 'O Vanity of Vanities!'
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Double Ballade Of The Nothingness Of Things
The big teetotum twirls, And epochs wax and wane As chance subsides or swirls; But of the loss and gain The sum is always plain. Read on the mighty pall, The **** of funeral That covers praise and blame, The--isms and the--anities, Magnificence and shame:-- 'O Vanity of Vanities!' The Fates are subtile girls! They give us chaff for grain. And Time, the Thunderer, hurls, Like bolted death, disdain At all that heart and brain Conceive, or great or small, Upon this earthly ball. Would you be knight and dame? Or woo the sweet humanities? Or illustrate a name? O Vanity of Vanities! We sound the sea for pearls, Or drown them in a drain; We flute it with the merles, Or tug and sweat and strain; We grovel, or we reign; We saunter, or we brawl; We answer, or we call; We search the stars for Fame, Or sink her subterranities; The legend's still the same:-- 'O Vanity of Vanities!' Here at the wine one birls, There some one clanks a chain. The flag that this man furls That man to float is fain. Pleasure gives place to pain: These in the kennel crawl, While others take the wall. She has a glorious aim, He lives for the inanities. What comes of every claim? O Vanity of Vanities! Alike are clods and earls. For sot, and seer, and swain, For emperors and for churls, For antidote and bane, There is but one refrain: But one for king and thrall, For David and for Saul, For fleet of foot and lame, For pieties and profanities, The picture and the frame:-- 'O Vanity of Vanities!' Life is a smoke that curls-- Curls in a flickering skein, That winds and whisks and whirls A figment thin and vain, Into the vast Inane. One end for hut and hall! One end for cell and stall! Burned in one common flame Are wisdoms and insanities. For this alone we came:-- 'O Vanity of Vanities!' Envoy Prince, pride must have a fall. What is the worth of all Your state's supreme urbanities? Bad at the best's the game. Well might the Sage exclaim:-- 'O Vanity of Vanities!'
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take three hours of low-quality sleep, and sprinkle lovingly with the midnight threats of the racist and schizophrenic Madam Crazypants who lives on the next floor up. for milder taste use the glowing red profanities that she hollers through the vents at the Mexicans who aren’t there. for more spice use the white hot suicidal screams that saturate the night sky like streams of lava that shoot from Kilauea. call the cops when she threatens to jump. their lights and sirens will render waves of space into solid panes of ice that smash into your head in surges. go to school and simmer in silence until it’s execution time. while the blood is still flowing from the bullet holes that you gave yourself, pour on half an hour of "constructive" criticism from your professor which will burn like lye or battery acid depending on the day of the week. wash down with caffeine. simmer for three hours in a soulsucking class. go home. drink beer. play Halo. bury your anguished cries beneath your vice and that secret codeine and the bottle of wine you sequestered and the cough syrup which makes the world warm and salty and drippy and noodly like a good bowl of pho. let it sit in the oven but don’t turn it on and then pull it out on Monday wrapped in a cotton blanket of cold ***** bleeding from the brain and fingers empty of meaning. and when the sun blows a fuse well I guess then you can eat it.
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Aug 7, 2013
Aug 7, 2013 at 4:46 PM UTC
the recipe for success