Thou shalt follow me,
Be with me 'til eternity,
Turn into someone I want you to be,
With my decree thou shalt obey me 

Thou shalt be envious,
Like a culprit get what you want to use,
Live with thy desire,
Happiness of others you should acquire

Thou shalt be gluttonous,
Like a pig go and be voracious,
Satisfy your hunger and rapturous cravings,
Drinking and eating what you want is never sating

Thou shalt live with lust,
Like a tigress in bed you must,
Embrace the desire you have within,
Coquettishly caress and savour someone's skin

Thou shalt be wrathful,
Like darkness let it manifest your soul,
Hatred shalt flow violently in your blood,
With thy anger sins shalt flood,

Thou shalt live with thy pride,
Never ever let thyself subside,
Walk with your pretty cruel soul conceited,
Shalt not let thyself be defeated

Thou shalt be greedy,
Like me love thy life acquisitively,
Have the excessive desire to take what you don't need,
Earn what you want no matter if you exceed

Thou shalt live like a sloth,
Do nothing just lay at your couch,
Survive like a narcoleptic man,
Just sit down and hope that something will be done

may you continue
reaching your dreams
even if sometimes
it is too far
even if sometimes
it is too hard
may you never get tired
of moving forward

with the stars as my witness
i promise to love thee
above anything else
without bounds
forever and always

when i was a kid
i always wonder why the moon kept following me
is she my best friend?
my protector during the nights i walk alone?
until  i grew older
and find her presence my peace
started telling her my secrets and dreams
sometimes we share our tears
we will talk all night
together we will fall asleep

living in a world
where giving up is not a choice
is indeed cruel
suffocating and absurd
pushing one's limit
to reach a goal
leaving yourself empty
a burned-out soul

the stars tomorrow
are not as much as tonight
the moon so beautiful
won't be as bright as how it is right now
i must say
the world get's sadder and sadder
everyday

"are you
still in love
with me?"

asked the moon
with tears
flowing down
her cheeks

"i am afraid
that i
no longer am."

answered him
as he vanished
from the sky

the setting sun
leaving the world dark
leaving the moon behind

❝  i am commonly mistaken,
to be the answer for your hatred,
the result of your depression,
and the end of your misery,

i am used by people,
to suppress the pain,
forget the agony,
and escape the nightmare that they face,

yet i am the reason,
why each person close to your heart,
experience the pain,
and face their darkest nightmare,

i am the reason,
why they experience agony,
encounter depression,
and starts feeling the misery,

your loss is their downfall,
so please stay away from me,
i can't be your friend,
and we can't be together  ❞

how
are
you ?

probably ours
was a very unlucky love story
for you were the sun
and i was the moon

you possess beauty
without me
while i can't even shine
without you.

lately life has been
too suffocating
that tears no longer
make me feel at ease
instead
it drowns me
into the depth
of sadness

i can no longer breathe

Turn into a ravenous human,
Have a piggish demand on foods and drinks,
Go and be hungry even you are asleep,
Never be full― have an excessive eager to eat

I your master― said once that thou shalt be gluttonous,
Like a pig go and be voracious
Satisfy your hunger and cravings,
Drinking and eating what you want is never sating

For after thy life in land,
No food shalt pass in your hands,
Hunger and fire will **** you continuously,
So go and eat― before entering hell to join me

i thought for once that forgetting you
was the hardest thing i will ever do
little did i know that going back
to the way i used to be
before you came
will be harder
that i am still here
trying

while brewing the coffee grounds and enjoying the aroma it brings
I decided to get a cup of warm milk and add it to my glass
it seems funny because nowadays
I prefer having a strong black coffee
to be with me as I do my pile of tasks
but today I choose not to make my coffee black
maybe because I want to try something new
or maybe because today I choose to be kinder to me and you

love arrived one day
and i know
that i am more than willing
to give all my heart and soul
without fear
all in
full of hope
because we don't know
when love will leave
or if it will ever try
to visit me once more

3 of 30

Pampering myself with the scent of the old ink,
The sound produced by the pen suddenly turns into a melody,
Letters collided and produced words,
Which indulged me as I turn them into metaphors

I started to define the curves of his lips,
How his tears flow down as he begins to bleed,
The way he laugh and make hearts skip a beat,
His anger and sorrow that turns up the heat

As I put the little details of him in each verses,
He began to learn how to use a pen and a paper,
Created a prose which contains lines,
Another being he is starting to define

A lady with long curly hair,
Fiery eyes which can easily tame,
Rosy cheeks and curvy lips,
He started to depict beauty― his poetry which isn't me

"why are you writing
poems and prose?"
asked a guy out of nowhere
while staring at my pen

"to breathe."
I answered with a smile

for writing lets me indulge
with metaphors and similes

it is my escape
the key toward my fantasies

Disaster shalt dominate thy world,
Let the catastrophe within unfold,
Once a feeble humain being,
Be a living fiend― with havoc it brings

Thou shalt be wrathful,
Like darkness let it manifest your soul,
Hatred shalt flow violently in your blood,
With thy anger sins shalt flood

Wreck your life― for I will do it to your soul,
I am your aftermath― start digging your own hole,
Towards thy master― king of all evil
Prepare thyself― as you turn into a devil

make yourself a cup of coffee
eat your breakfast on bed
listen to your favorite song
go with the melody and dance along
give yourself some time
to rest, live, and laugh
oh loving yourself above all
is indeed the greatest love

he collected me
once every piece
and shaped my edges
for him to fit me in

and then when he left
returning those parts of me

it no longer fit
the way
it used to be

lately ive been pondering
if is it really a dream deferred
or i cant just accept
that its a dream denied

just like water
you wash away those tears
and i drown into you constantly

you used to be
the color of the sky
when the sun is bright
so peaceful to look at

the color of the ocean
with the soft breeze it brings
it touches my face
so pure, so calm

the color of the shirt
you wore on our first date
so masculine
and sophisticated to look at

but now you are an entirely different shade of blue
so hurtful to see as our memories haunt me still
with tears in my eyes
im all alone and blue

maybe you were in love with those conversation we shared by the balcony while staring at the sky

or maybe you were in love with those sweet messages i sent you as soon as i wake up

or maybe you were in love with those poems i wrote for you specially when you are feeling blue

maybe you were in love of the idea of me being there

maybe you were in love with those,

but never with me.

you can try
to cover my mouth
close my eyes
block my ears
and put my hand down

but you can never stop
a heart
that shouts for her rights
a heart
who wants to resist

because a heart that loves
loves so hard
and if she fights
she fights so hard

i wanna write more
but my mind is empty
soul is missing
heart is shattered
i am broken
i am lost

i loved
comparing you
to sunsets
but now i am afraid
that i did

for sunsets
are portraits
of beautiful endings--

and ours was nothing to keep

we may have
stopped talking
but the memories
are still there
lingering
making me wonder
every night
what if i told you

what if i tried

oftentimes
it is better
to leave words
unspoken
and unheard

for truth
can be too painful
that it is better
to turn a blind eye
on things
that might have occurred

may you
never get tired
of loving the core
the universe–
and everything in between

the thing about grief
is that it does not make itself immediately felt
it will slowly dive deep into your soul
and the moment you thought things are long over
it will surprise you with overflowing emotions
and eat you alive
hoping that you hugged them more
hoping that you loved them more

you deserve that love who asks how your day went
even if you forgot to reply because of your hectic sched
that love who brews you coffee without asking
since they saw you yawn amidst work
that love who still listens
even when you are imitating a cat's purr

you deserve that love who holds your hand whenever you cross a bridge
since they are aware how afraid you are of heights
that love who remind you you are beautiful
when you tried not to eat because of gaining another pound
that love who captures the moon when they can
knowing how much you love the evening sky

you deserve the love that tries.
you deserve the love that lasts.

Let me pick those dull daisies
Supplant those with roses and lilies
Take the agony and sadness away
And I'll replace it
With ravishing orchids
As you do the same thing
With these flowers in my head

Let me pour love
And watch you bloom
As the sun shines directly
Towards us two
Continue growing with me
Even days are blue
This love will g r o w --
And so us, too

somewhere down the broken lines
we will meet and know
the answer of all those hows and whys

how my truth is no longer you
and why your love is no longer mine

and suddenly
i dont want
to write
anymore
my mouth
seems too tired
to utter
a word
hands
are too numb
to write a prose
mind
is too blank
heart
is no longer beating
too fast
i
just
wanna write
no more

And when the astronaut
fall inlove with the sea
you will see him dreaming
how wonderful it is
to be a scuba diver
and dive into
the deepest part of the ocean.

you are my sun
but i know
you are rising
for someone else

i wonder
how terrible
things are going
around your mind
that you are able
to write those pieces
so heartbreaking
yet so beautiful

you are
the complete personification of the ocean

deep and enchanting,
so blue yet charming,

and i am a swimmer

allow me to explore,
unravel your mystery

let me dig deep,
solve you 'til eternity

perhaps, this is the love
I was created for
without buts
without doubts
full of hope
full of love

some days are extra hard
but i hope you try
to be extra kind to yourself, too

if i could
i would kiss away the pain
with poetries and prose
for all i know is write
until all the tears are out dry

but i couldnt

in the end
i hope you choose yourself
because there is no other love
more beautiful than the love for one's self

genuine.
everlasting.

i don't know
but it lingers within me
flowing through my veins
causing my muscles to ache
scratches my heart
and causing that pain

i must say
that emptiness
is finding its way
to knock down my walls
and make me think
about those dismays

never stop until i fall
into the grave of darkness
disappointment
and loneliness

i am slowly fading
but sadness keeps on prevailing

i've been staring at you
a lot more lately
and sometimes i wonder

what if you are the one


but i wasn't?

maybe it's just right
if i tell you the truth
you are loved
you are valued
you deserve all the good things  in the world
it's okay to be sad
it's okay to be angry
your feelings are valid
don't let the world tell you otherwise

i knew im ****** up the moment i imagined how our perfect first date would look like

ill definitely bring you in a zoo because i wanted to hear you talk about the things you love
your passion in loving and caring for these creatures
i wanna see your eyes sparkle through that

or maybe ill bring you in a peaceful place
because i know how bothered your mind is most of the time
from all the responsibilities you juggle in your everyday life
i want to give you peace

or maybe we will study together?
stare at the skies?
maybe watch a movie or two?
or anything

anything could actually work
as long as it's with you
i know it'll be perfect

do you love
when you are ready
or just whenever
love is there?