swings drifting
in the ever cooling air
stars sliding down
and down

The monkey bars are for
climbing up and joining
the sky and the stars
to slide down again

In this playground
no one plays
until the stars come out
and the sky is dark

In this playground
there is no one
who is there to play with you
and you play all alone

You turn a blind eye to the world around you
As blood and tears rain from silent captives.
Your ignorance astounds me, you subdue
The natural instinct inside that lives.

You push away the plate of all their pain
And refuse to eat the words of truth, fool.
So tell me, what is it you hope to gain
By living your life as a broken tool.

Nothing you could tell me would justify
The arrogance you show by ignoring.
What would it do and would satisfy,
Or would it leave yourself unraveling?

The next time you hear a captive cry out,
Don’t sit in silence with wonder and doubt.

I'm back from the dead
and let me tell you
it wasn't pretty
wandering aimlessly
among souls lost and broken
where the ground is ashen
the sky is grey
with clouds overcast
but yet it never rains
a desert of bleakness
that not even i could stand
and nobody talks
they all just stare
blank faces
blank pages
opportunities gained
and emotions lost
until all that was left
was the fact that I was back
and I never wanted to go there again
but now I'm stuck
and I can't find the right path

Laughter should be happy
but instead, it's bitter and unwanted
uncared for and unneeded
because who wants laughter when it's fake?

Laughter should be cherished
because you never know when it could end
when something inside you dies
and then who wants a dead man?

Laughter should be protected
because people will try to hurt it
to make it stop so they can feel good
and then their laughter rings out bitterly.

Laughter shouldn't be lonely
it should be spent with a friend
not ignored by staring at a screen
instead of focusing on the laughter of those around you

Laughter should be joyous
but behind a mask are thoughts
and those thoughts lead to doubts
and then that laughter is a disguise for pain

Laughter should be happy
but instead, it's bitter and unwanted
uncared for and unneeded
Because who wants laughter when it's fake?

What changed from back then?
Was it the way we think?
The way we act?
Or the way we perceive reality?

A time forgotten; a life lost
where the happiness had blown away
into the dusky morning sky,
where beautiful silence lays.

What is different now?
Is it the way I can't seem
to find happiness in anything
but the comfort of the suffocating silence?

Or is it the way that despite my fears
I want to be with the people,
the things that cause my mind
to shatter and scatter the earth like a warm breeze

A time forgotten; a life lost
where my thoughts bury deep
into the controversy of life
and the meaning of all things

What is the same?
The way my eyes light up in the face of a page
the way my life revolves around my own selfishness
around my own constant need for change

Where the world lost its meaning
is where you'll find the love I lost
when I gave it away and got none in return
where the sky lays broken on a pile of ash

A time forgotten; a life lost
where the sun lays on the other side
with a dusky morning sky rising over
a broken girl's dream of a life not marred by sadness

not stolen by the cruelty of the world
A time where innocence still ruled over her mind
Before that time was forgotten, and her life she lost
to the darkness of the drained hope within us all

Words stinging
like a thousand bites
like a spider crawling unnoticed

Words burning
like a lick of flames
in the blazing heat of summer

Words digging
into the flesh and blood
of your skin and bones like a knife

Words gripping
like a persistent dripping
of an icy cold melted gaze

Words turning
in your mind, learning
of the darkness the world has shown you

Take the Pain
Take the Fear
I don't want them
to be left here

alone with me
because they
will break me
I fear

So angels send me
to a place where I can stay
away from the demons
that chase me in my mind

They fight and they kick
they never go away
so please help
and save me

From the demons
in my head
and let me sing
with you again