She's what they all write about,
The girl that fights a war no one knows about .
She's who they all honor,
The girl that secretly dreams up such horror .
There's only so far they can venture behind the mask,
Before they uncover something that was best left latched .
She's not unique or grey or green,
She's lost and alone and wants to be seen .
The girl that doesn't own a bad day, .
She's the one hiding in your letters,
Peeking around your thoughts .
The one you think has it better,
The one you think could never be forgot .
She's the one that was murdered by social media,
The one that continues to smile even though she's past done .
The one that talks to the moon,
And cheats on the sun .
She's the one that takes off her clothes,
But leaves her insecurities on .
The one that cries herself to sleep,
But wakes up smiling .
She's the girl they all want to be,
They have no idea she's dying .
flip a coin
take a chance
of one in a million
to have met you
wear a mask
who wants to know you
stand in rain
that still haunt you
leave me to die
hate me forever
because i knew you
watch from far
never to speak
checking on me
because i scare you
guard me dear
teach me now
stay on the edges
because you can't let me go
i hid behind a mask everyday,
my true emotions unseen,
i smile at you with crying eyes,
but you could never notice that.
after all these years my mask started to fade,
that porcelain smile turned to dust and blew far far away,
...fear all now on full display.
what about your happiness?
it flew away.
Skipping out the door
I'm happy I'm happy I'm happy
If I say it enough could it be more true?
I say it again
Because that's how I cope
But I never imagined I'd be so conflicted
lips taste of lies
skin smells of fear
cheeks flame with shame
eyes swell with sad tears
Happiness is not a mantle for use
To hide from painful truths
Nor is it a protective shield
To use on a bloody battlefield
So let the fake seep out on occasion
To make room for real reactions
For then you will find the genuine kind
Will follow in orderly fashion
Your shadow has fallen over this place
like the plague.
The chandeliers cower at your advent,
collapsing atop this innocent crowd;
yet the violins still play.
Your presence ensues consternation.
Who's time is it?
It is I from which your invitation has been sent.
I am elated you could make it.
My mask is you,
with rose patterns aligned,
a gown to match,
with a bone breaking corset.
From my painted lips,
Will you save me this dance?
Face to face, chest to chest,
force each breath from my lungs.
Twirling now to my sounds,
I follow your lead.
Dip me back into your arms, my sweet,
finally reaping me with a kiss.
You are my only love.
Hiding the hurt, hiding the pain
Hiding the tears that fall like rain.
Saying I'm fine , when I'm anything but,
This ache In my soul rips at my gut.
My skin is on fire, I burn from within
The calm on my face is an ongoing sin.
The world must stay out, I've built up a wall
My fragile lie will collapse should it ever fall.
Loneliness consumes me, it eats away the years
Until my life is swallowed by unending fears.
Waiting for someone to see I wear a mask
And care enough to remove it, is that too much to ask?
You opened me a door
I once thought I never knew
You showed me heaven
And so high I flew with you
But heaven became painful
And slowly I came to knew
That this is not what it seems
But I fear not for I'm with you
Hell masked as heaven
I wished earlier I already knew
The flame opened my eyes
And realized that the devil was you