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"unemotional" poems
Sensation, intuition, feeling, and thinking, Is wrapped inside a ball, A small pink ball inside our head, That won't stop till we're dead, Analytical bedrock inside oozing theories, Elemental atoms sizzling logic, The imaginative stranger, One abstracted and eccentric, Walking with shadows, Talking and mocking, Through these theories inside us, Tilting our caps ‘til we’re shaking our heads, Pensive love in storming analysis, Sapiosexually excited, piqued interest, Unemotional and thoughtfully attuned, Absently minded, always condoned, Unconventional and impartially stringed, Weirdly wired in auxiliary functions, Misconstrued and misunderstood, An ****** intelligence bleeding paranoia, Knocking unto me, Into you, inside us all, It’s something we all yearn to be, And when you fail and prevail we laugh, Crickling crickets thinking nothing, Washing down the storm drain, With no thoughts fluidly sliding down my throat, Pop goes no questions into absolute concise words like freshly broken glass, Again shadows await, but different shadows, Blinking at me staring at you, Wondering what’s what, inside this dementia made sense of a lovely afternoon, Inside your sane, autocorrected, predetermined, twitching, little…mind. Inspired by Myers Briggs Personality Test Tyler is INTP... Logician  (Introverted INtuitive Thinking Perception) The drifter, dreamer the absent minded professor! SassyJ is INTJ... Architect  (Introverted INtuitive Thinking Judging) The starry-eyed idealist manoeuvring life as if a giant chess board! What Myer Briggs personality type are you?... See link below It would be great to know.Please comment!! http://www.16personalities.com/intp-personality
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Jan 11, 2016
Jan 11, 2016 at 10:30 AM UTC
No.1 Sapiosexual Slapping Inquisition- Collaboration with Tyler James Birabent (#one-a-week-series)
Sensation, intuition, feeling, and thinking, Is wrapped inside a ball, A small pink ball inside our head, That won't stop till we're dead, Analytical bedrock inside oozing theories, Elemental atoms sizzling logic, The imaginative stranger, One abstracted and eccentric, Walking with shadows, Talking and mocking, Through these theories inside us, Tilting our caps ‘til we’re shaking our heads, Pensive love in storming analysis, Sapiosexually excited, piqued interest, Unemotional and thoughtfully attuned, Absently minded, always condoned, Unconventional and impartially stringed, Weirdly wired in auxiliary functions, Misconstrued and misunderstood, An ****** intelligence bleeding paranoia, Knocking unto me, Into you, inside us all, It’s something we all yearn to be, And when you fail and prevail we laugh, Crickling crickets thinking nothing, Washing down the storm drain, With no thoughts fluidly sliding down my throat, Pop goes no questions into absolute concise words like freshly broken glass, Again shadows await, but different shadows, Blinking at me staring at you, Wondering what’s what, inside this dementia made sense of a lovely afternoon, Inside your sane, autocorrected, predetermined, twitching, little…mind. Inspired by Myers Briggs Personality Test Tyler is INTP... Logician  (Introverted INtuitive Thinking Perception) The drifter, dreamer the absent minded professor! SassyJ is INTJ... Architect  (Introverted INtuitive Thinking Judging) The starry-eyed idealist manoeuvring life as if a giant chess board! What Myer Briggs personality type are you?... See link below It would be great to know.Please comment!! http://www.16personalities.com/intp-personality
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Symbol: The goat Opposite Sign: Cancer Meaning: The achiever Modality: Cardinal Element: Earth Ruling House: The tenth Ruling Body: Saturn Motto: I build Birthstone: Garnet Color: Brown Metal: Silver Flower: Carnation Fragrance: Spearmint Lucky Day: Saturday Numbers: 3, 4, 9 Lucky Colors: Red, Pink, Purple, Blue Lucky Flowers: Cyclamen, Plantain lily, Fittonia Capricorn is: persevering, patient, conventional, practical and disciplined.  Capricorn can be practical, unemotional, sober, orderly, controlling and manipulative.
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Dec 4, 2015
Dec 4, 2015 at 1:25 AM UTC
Capricorn
was uttered in a computer generated, non-demeaning, gender neutral tone by the impersonal, unemotional, automated, grocery checkout machine. "Enter your customer ID now!" demands the artificial human. "And... if I don't?" I query the metallic shell of what once was a minimum wage employee. There was no reply.
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Sep 17, 2018
Sep 17, 2018 at 10:42 AM UTC
"Hello Valued Customer"
All alone, again Feeling meloncholy and captive Within a cloud of intentional isolation As each thought comes and goes without an answer. Memories flicker in the crime scene of my mind. My perception is clouded by questioning every suspicion. As I try to stay unemotional and rationally make doubt my enemy. This day has now ended and I have not made a decision. Wondering when indecision and fear have intersected in my life. Have I become so insouciant that I am blinded? As I grow old and in my final hours, could this be my biggest mistake? I am unwillling to dwell in the present and find happiness again? Hours spent suffocating myself with regret Tried to harden my heart to the point of no return But, I perservere and try to rise above the abundancy of pain. Licking the salt from my tears as they drip to my lips. I now lay down, so silent that even my breath is quiet Asking if the pain is worth the possibility of a true love that will last. Will he crush my heart with unintentional love for another? A chance, I guess, I am willing to take. Or too soon? I can only pray that the right answer will come during my slumber And it will be within the will of my creator Praying that my dreams will be filled with the answers that I seek And tomorrow will be full of love, trust and loyalty.
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May 29, 2015
May 29, 2015 at 1:12 AM UTC
MY OWN WORST ENEMY
If she wore a short skirt or dress then she was doing it to get attention from the boys. If she wore pants,shirts or had short hair she looked just like the guys. If she hung out with girls only and no boys then she was "too reserved like what the hell?!" If she hung out with boys alone then she was "doing it" with all men. If she liked to play sports she was laughed upon and told to go work in the kitchen. If she wasn't athletic then she was a 'typical girl, too feminine'. If she was incredibly successful and a total boss, she had apparently slept her way to the top. If she was strong then she was called unemotional "like do you not have feelings?!" If she was sensitive then that was just the "menstrual mood swings." If her clothes were revealing then she was just "asking for it." If she was all covered up then "girl loosen up a little bit." Like in this society there was no way she could win, she was always wrong. She was either very shy and quiet or just too loud. She was either just another girl or helpless and worthless, Or some kind of *** object. Good thing she was stronger than all of them. Good thing she rose up despite the crap they said. Good thing she was made of fire. Good thing nothing they said touched her for she was a fighter.
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May 12, 2019
May 12, 2019 at 12:17 PM UTC
fire.
A charming *** toy, That is all I am to you. One who will still stay close, And **** you too. A charming *** toy, With good looks and scary eyes. I'll pleasure you for hours, But love, I will always deny. A charming *** toy, To make you hurt like you do to others. I'll make you beg for forgiveness, For touching me under the covers. A charming *** toy, For when you feel alone. Wishing someone would make you pay, When you don't want to leave your home. A charming *** toy, What if you fell for me? How could it possibly work, When I will never be there for you like he. A charming *** toy, Only I can say no. Though ******* you my little slave, Is the only thing I know. A charming *** toy, Why should I even feel? An unemotional psychopath like me, Should just enjoy the meal.
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Dec 10, 2012
Dec 10, 2012 at 4:26 PM UTC
Charming *** Toy
Most of my life, I’ve been a highly independent person and proudly so. I have grown myself up, travelled alone, personal decisions. I am even praised for being so independent. I can’t say I did not enjoy the glory. I have rejected my support system fiercely and craved the glory of independence. Growing up and be independent! That’s all that has been a goal. I had made personal independence as my virtue. Independence from parents, from education, and when you have your heartbroken, independence from being in love. I hated the word “compromise” and the only way to achieve. Doing something all by yourself takes no compromising. I don’t have to think about someone else’s feelings, I don’t have to worry about their needs, I don’t have to take care of anyone but me. Now, this sounds more and more like selfish than independence. I realise the bigger struggle is to collaborate and come to a solution where everyone has their needs met, to give as well as take. Now that felt like growing up, the test of real courage. Are we glorifying independence because we don’t want to take care of other people? Because everywhere I went, someone was telling me I needed to find my freedom. Everywhere I looked, I searched in vain for that independence I once had, finally having to accept I would never be an unemotional, unattached person again. Maybe we need not be independent. Self-made Is so overrated. Nobody is. We need not be. Even world war was won by the alliance. We need 2 for a clap or make a life. You need light and day to survive, you need bones and muscles. The world is not singular, the world is not independent. Even earth is going round and round the sun with a crazy crush that it can’t collide into and it can’t move away from. Earth is so on its own, so much in its own, but its existence is a collaborative one. I know now that I can’t go at it alone or maybe even if I can I don’t want to do this alone. I want to live a life with friends and family supporting each other through the good, the rough, and everything in between. And I want a romantic partner to experience life with me. I want to have support emotionally, physically, and financially a coexistence. My feminazi is in admitting that we need more feminine collaboration than the masculine ideal of success and independence. I want to find that freedom of shared submission and being part of something bigger than self-sufficiency.
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Dec 16, 2019
Dec 16, 2019 at 6:17 AM UTC
Independence overrated!
Most of my life, I’ve been a highly independent person and proudly so. I have grown myself up, travelled alone, personal decisions. I am even praised for being so independent. I can’t say I did not enjoy the glory. I have rejected my support system fiercely and craved the glory of independence. Growing up and be independent! That’s all that has been a goal. I had made personal independence as my virtue. Independence from parents, from education, and when you have your heartbroken, independence from being in love. I hated the word “compromise” and the only way to achieve. Doing something all by yourself takes no compromising. I don’t have to think about someone else’s feelings, I don’t have to worry about their needs, I don’t have to take care of anyone but me. Now, this sounds more and more like selfish than independence. I realise the bigger struggle is to collaborate and come to a solution where everyone has their needs met, to give as well as take. Now that felt like growing up, the test of real courage. Are we glorifying independence because we don’t want to take care of other people? Because everywhere I went, someone was telling me I needed to find my freedom. Everywhere I looked, I searched in vain for that independence I once had, finally having to accept I would never be an unemotional, unattached person again. Maybe we need not be independent. Self-made Is so overrated. Nobody is. We need not be. Even world war was won by the alliance. We need 2 for a clap or make a life. You need light and day to survive, you need bones and muscles. The world is not singular, the world is not independent. Even earth is going round and round the sun with a crazy crush that it can’t collide into and it can’t move away from. Earth is so on its own, so much in its own, but its existence is a collaborative one. I know now that I can’t go at it alone or maybe even if I can I don’t want to do this alone. I want to live a life with friends and family supporting each other through the good, the rough, and everything in between. And I want a romantic partner to experience life with me. I want to have support emotionally, physically, and financially a coexistence. My feminazi is in admitting that we need more feminine collaboration than the masculine ideal of success and independence. I want to find that freedom of shared submission and being part of something bigger than self-sufficiency.
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I The absence of air affects the lungs, which stop inflating, and kills the subject of illusions. The absence of love, which is not so fatal, immortalizes the unemotional and ponders if in heaven he must be put. There's a longing as wilting as flowers and as old as happiness. There are colors which together paint my town with praises and pains. II There's a new effect: creepy like fear, fragile since early and sad when undone. There's a new now which arrives in mind and explores in it everything what feels The absence of us saddens the unhappy when there are no advantages, The absence of what I did, done alone, makes useless what is said about flowers.
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May 8, 2014
May 8, 2014 at 6:16 PM UTC
Unhappy Flowers
INTP Introvert Intuitive Thinker Perceiver Highly intellectual but score lower than expected on standardized tests Fascinated with the world Plan maker and abandoner Frighteningly unemotional and seemingly moves on from devastating events rapidly Acts self absorbed but truly cares for people under the cold exterior Often feels detached from the world Unable to articulate great idea and thoughts exactly Loves to argue and debate for learning sake but some don’t see it as friendly banter Called the mad scientist without convention An absent-minded wonderfully built learner, That INTP
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Feb 24, 2015
Feb 24, 2015 at 11:13 PM UTC
INTP (Story of Me)
I heard the rushing wind in the calmest air Loudly whispering Unemotional words spoken through many tears Flying freely With no wings The present time became bygone Dedicatedly detached A light of darkness lit up bright shadows Well suited In mismatch Opposing allies fought for hostile peace Calling light the same Agitation dwelled in tranquility All their calmness Spoke disclaim Harmony was found within a tempest Coordinated discord The rushing wind screamed out quietly Time as they knew it Was no more
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Oct 3, 2010
Oct 3, 2010 at 2:44 PM UTC
Harmony Within a Tempest
So what if I'm outspoken My hearts been broken I'm not jokin,            my mind is awoken Soul is stolen,                must be an omen Words unspoken,        open and golden Not what I would have chosen ***** the heartache,       now I'm awake Looks so opaque,            you were fake It was a mistake just to partake Do a double take,        no more heartbreak Time to remake and fix the break Give and take,         now I'm awake Was so miserable,      unforgivable It's criminal,       be an individual So predictable,            you're an imbecile It's unthinkable,          not unconditional Unintentional,       you're unemotional Not original,         be considerable It's so pitiful,           not traditional I'm rational and very visual You ought to not get too distraught You got caught tied in a knot Like an afterthought,             you fought And brought the plot,          overwrought Maybe you forgot what you taught But I'm not distraught Over what you brought Just      some          food      for   thought...
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Nov 3, 2014
Nov 3, 2014 at 9:25 PM UTC
Food For Thought: The Awakening
I choose to be inhumane undressed the layers of emotions that occupied my heart suffocating me I need to breath I choose not to care allowing my mind to wander beyond a single feeling while others dwell blindly in a perpetual repressive state I observe beauty with a cold mind destroy without hate save without love remain silent in a chaotic world
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Aug 12, 2015
Aug 12, 2015 at 3:45 PM UTC
unemotional
Shaking like a train down its tracks Contemplating two sides... One a fantasy One a reality. Breaking down the barriers of fear Lonliness through the crowds Insecurities followed by depression My unemotional mindset spiraling into a disaster. Flipping the script to a sunlit view ...where the clouds drift smoothly... ...when I feel my pulse beat through my skins blush... ...when the stars gleam through my eyes... Without an alternative. Going back to sanity Home, where I belong...
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May 20, 2014
May 20, 2014 at 4:56 AM UTC
WATCHING MY LIFE PASS BY
i don't want to date you you're unemotional walled off if we were going to connect we would have already you don't put much effort you don't respond to my messages although i try to be there a constant variable for you i understand that you don't mean it to be a negative thing it's just how you are you see everything i send and sometimes you mention them to me whenever i make enough effort to get you to see me regardless of how understanding i can be i don't want to keep you i don't want to own you i don't want you to be mine i just want to feel your lips against my neck and your nails dragging harshly across my skin
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May 7, 2014
May 7, 2014 at 10:32 PM UTC
*** dreams about a close friend (probably not a good thing)
It’s Sunday morning, about 8am. My BF Peter and I we’re doing our laundry. Most of the time, we spent in my dorm common room, sitting side by side on a red corduroy couch, while our clothes washed, and then tumbled away in the dryer. If you want privacy on a college campus, or to do laundry in peace, avoiding the weekend laundry rush, do it before 10am. "Why do you wear these," Peter asked, pulling and lightly snapping the hair-band on my wrist. I pull my hand back, protectively. "If I don’t have a hair-band on my wrist I feel out of control." There’s a new me. I’d decided - civilized, unemotional, clear-sighted. "I've got a lot to do before summer,” Peter said earlier, “so I made a spreadsheet.” I felt a shadow pass over me - our future is, at best, undecided. So, I shifted gears, the way the new me is trying to do lately. “A Spreadsheet!” I said, like I approved, and he grinned. I’d made him happy. This is what adults do, I’d decided, they have civilized conversations where decisions were made or avoided - but there was a small, dark thing in my heart. I got a text from our dryer saying our clothes were dry, so we headed down. I love the smell of fresh laundry and the feeling of shaved legs against fresh bed sheets - a luxurious combination no guy will ever understand. I made a mental note to shave my legs later. The last couple of weeks I’ve been working on summer fellowship applications. A successful summer fellowship is one of those things I’ll need when I apply for med-school - like grades, faculty letters, physician recommendations, community service, a great MCAT score, bla bla bla. My mom knows the 200 things med-schools use to cleave away pretenders and she’ll rattle them off upon request and sometimes over groaning protests. What I need, ideally, this summer, are clinical experience hours. There’s not much at stake, just my future, the respect of the faculty, and the begrudging acknowledgement of my pre-med peers. My mom was quizzing me on my progress last night. I confirmed that all the applications were in and I ended with, “I haven’t slept with anyone yet, to gain advantage - but we’re still early in the process.” She was not amused.
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Feb 20, 2023
Feb 20, 2023 at 2:13 PM UTC
***** laundry
It’s Sunday morning, about 8am. My BF Peter and I we’re doing our laundry. Most of the time, we spent in my dorm common room, sitting side by side on a red corduroy couch, while our clothes washed, and then tumbled away in the dryer. If you want privacy on a college campus, or to do laundry in peace, avoiding the weekend laundry rush, do it before 10am. "Why do you wear these," Peter asked, pulling and lightly snapping the hair-band on my wrist. I pull my hand back, protectively. "If I don’t have a hair-band on my wrist I feel out of control." There’s a new me. I’d decided - civilized, unemotional, clear-sighted. "I've got a lot to do before summer,” Peter said earlier, “so I made a spreadsheet.” I felt a shadow pass over me - our future is, at best, undecided. So, I shifted gears, the way the new me is trying to do lately. “A Spreadsheet!” I said, like I approved, and he grinned. I’d made him happy. This is what adults do, I’d decided, they have civilized conversations where decisions were made or avoided - but there was a small, dark thing in my heart. I got a text from our dryer saying our clothes were dry, so we headed down. I love the smell of fresh laundry and the feeling of shaved legs against fresh bed sheets - a luxurious combination no guy will ever understand. I made a mental note to shave my legs later. The last couple of weeks I’ve been working on summer fellowship applications. A successful summer fellowship is one of those things I’ll need when I apply for med-school - like grades, faculty letters, physician recommendations, community service, a great MCAT score, bla bla bla. My mom knows the 200 things med-schools use to cleave away pretenders and she’ll rattle them off upon request and sometimes over groaning protests. What I need, ideally, this summer, are clinical experience hours. There’s not much at stake, just my future, the respect of the faculty, and the begrudging acknowledgement of my pre-med peers. My mom was quizzing me on my progress last night. I confirmed that all the applications were in and I ended with, “I haven’t slept with anyone yet, to gain advantage - but we’re still early in the process.” She was not amused.
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Light upon the statue of retreat, "Get away from me!" stupid mother, for I, myself, lie within a lie and cards dealt do fly, I hesitate to say I wish I could cry, but the disgrace would hit me in the face Crush the ****** ants crush them all roll them over call it up ring it back **** it in blow it out, left dead no longer wandering about Leave me this way with my false laughter, stagnating mind, it is true, I try to be kind, But all for not I cannot blot, Make me blind hurt me justify my doubled contempt, it makes no sense that at one time I rhymed and dreamed A destructive force is strong, A reconstructive force is too late, a world of isolation wouldn't that be great!? Unable to retreat for only fools avoid thought and the universal mind, without a translator, is a love me not In what I say none shall see, I sting, I stung, just like an assimilated ant-bee. Listen! What do you see? See! What do you hear? Uncensored, What do you feel? Tasteless human hell Heavenly human smell, oh... do tell. All combined by the link brake the ****** chain, disconnect local bus, electrical circuit drain: If a tree falls in the forest... cliche. If information is lost on the super-highway... cliche. I refuse to lose, now amused, at the fun-filled mind so depressed, lifting up all but itself, just put them on the shelf free time for yourself Lyrics to rise: Curs' ed female emotional warfare Damn' ed males physical, unemotional warfare The battle of a single mind Destroying the thing we wind Will we fall behind? Look backwards, at the passing of time, LOOK! AHEAD! Fix what was wrong... and live really long Lyrics to sing to a retreating statue: "Come here I care!" loving mom For a lie is just a defense against closeness, a decent hand to hold on to I wish I could lie and deny, but truth always unfolds don't die Long live the ants live long to them all blow the hate out, is that what I was wondering about? Be By Me Not Too Close, Stagnate Laughter is soon repulsed, I care, perhaps too much, for ones unknown and known my only request: return the zest, Return my dreams or the balance of force I have retreated in the solace of universally translated hope; I solidify and take shape, running in many directions.
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Jul 18, 2010
Jul 18, 2010 at 8:56 AM UTC
Statue of Retreat
Light upon the statue of retreat, "Get away from me!" stupid mother, for I, myself, lie within a lie and cards dealt do fly, I hesitate to say I wish I could cry, but the disgrace would hit me in the face Crush the ****** ants crush them all roll them over call it up ring it back **** it in blow it out, left dead no longer wandering about Leave me this way with my false laughter, stagnating mind, it is true, I try to be kind, But all for not I cannot blot, Make me blind hurt me justify my doubled contempt, it makes no sense that at one time I rhymed and dreamed A destructive force is strong, A reconstructive force is too late, a world of isolation wouldn't that be great!? Unable to retreat for only fools avoid thought and the universal mind, without a translator, is a love me not In what I say none shall see, I sting, I stung, just like an assimilated ant-bee. Listen! What do you see? See! What do you hear? Uncensored, What do you feel? Tasteless human hell Heavenly human smell, oh... do tell. All combined by the link brake the ****** chain, disconnect local bus, electrical circuit drain: If a tree falls in the forest... cliche. If information is lost on the super-highway... cliche. I refuse to lose, now amused, at the fun-filled mind so depressed, lifting up all but itself, just put them on the shelf free time for yourself Lyrics to rise: Curs' ed female emotional warfare Damn' ed males physical, unemotional warfare The battle of a single mind Destroying the thing we wind Will we fall behind? Look backwards, at the passing of time, LOOK! AHEAD! Fix what was wrong... and live really long Lyrics to sing to a retreating statue: "Come here I care!" loving mom For a lie is just a defense against closeness, a decent hand to hold on to I wish I could lie and deny, but truth always unfolds don't die Long live the ants live long to them all blow the hate out, is that what I was wondering about? Be By Me Not Too Close, Stagnate Laughter is soon repulsed, I care, perhaps too much, for ones unknown and known my only request: return the zest, Return my dreams or the balance of force I have retreated in the solace of universally translated hope; I solidify and take shape, running in many directions.
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I don't want a "friend" I don't want to get ****** in the end I don't want your shoulder I want something colder I want someone to pretend to "be there" But in all actuality not even begin to care No, I don't need a ******* hero I just want a neutral , unawkward place to go I really don't want your opinions or your advice Tho, I'm sure I've numerous flaws for you to chastise I don't care to see things from your point of view I want fun, fake, I want flippant for now I don't want you to  really listen to a **** thing I say Because I don't want your theories to get in the way I don't want your hopes and dreams explained to me I just want someone to humor me for Gawds sake Please do not try and understand or analyze me I'd  be much more comfortable, if you just use and abuse me You know, someone to really kick me while I'm down Drag my tired *** around, you know, something physical I'm so numb, many believe Me to be unemotional I no longer stand to correct them Hell, at least  they've something to believe in Inflict harm upon me Isn't that the way it's supposed to be? I don't want your Gawed ****** empathy or you to "Feel my pain" Can't you hear me? I want you to be the very source of my pain I want someone I can blame Someone who doesn't give a **** all the same I want you to look away, walk away, stay the **** away You to, can pretend my inner psyche is not at all in disarray No, I don't want a caring or understanding touch Jesus! I am not asking for all that much I don't want you to give me your heart I really don't want any part All I want is a sympathetic acquaintance Doesn't that make sense? © Melissa Adkins. All rights reserved
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Feb 27, 2014
Feb 27, 2014 at 2:00 PM UTC
Sympathetic Acquaintance
I don't want a "friend" I don't want to get ****** in the end I don't want your shoulder I want something colder I want someone to pretend to "be there" But in all actuality not even begin to care No, I don't need a ******* hero I just want a neutral , unawkward place to go I really don't want your opinions or your advice Tho, I'm sure I've numerous flaws for you to chastise I don't care to see things from your point of view I want fun, fake, I want flippant for now I don't want you to  really listen to a **** thing I say Because I don't want your theories to get in the way I don't want your hopes and dreams explained to me I just want someone to humor me for Gawds sake Please do not try and understand or analyze me I'd  be much more comfortable, if you just use and abuse me You know, someone to really kick me while I'm down Drag my tired *** around, you know, something physical I'm so numb, many believe Me to be unemotional I no longer stand to correct them Hell, at least  they've something to believe in Inflict harm upon me Isn't that the way it's supposed to be? I don't want your Gawed ****** empathy or you to "Feel my pain" Can't you hear me? I want you to be the very source of my pain I want someone I can blame Someone who doesn't give a **** all the same I want you to look away, walk away, stay the **** away You to, can pretend my inner psyche is not at all in disarray No, I don't want a caring or understanding touch Jesus! I am not asking for all that much I don't want you to give me your heart I really don't want any part All I want is a sympathetic acquaintance Doesn't that make sense? © Melissa Adkins. All rights reserved
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I’m an unemotional mess. Just call me a paradox I am surrounded by seas of nothingness Comforted by the lack of a beating heart. I am chaos; I am a calamity. Just a mass of unsure existence Engulfed by a cloud of grey. There is no black and white for me, Just a horizon of unequivocal bleakness. The emotions within me stir nothing, Unlike those that surround me. It seems their hearts beat in unison While mine remains silent. My heart feels like oblivion. I hear its silence over the snare of beating hearts. What will happen when they become louder than my own? I’m a mess. An utter disaster.
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Nov 7, 2013
Nov 7, 2013 at 1:03 PM UTC
No Title.
Reading bad poetry, writing bad poetry, existing as a subpar slice of unemotional prose. I'm a singsong last-ditch singalong; ding-dong-ditch me, ***** me out. Slice me up and lay me out to dry. I cut onions: I don't cry. You ignore me: I don't mind. Remember me as a sad story and not a person. It'll be gratifying, albeit dehumanizing, patronizing, but at least you'll be sympathizing as I'm unsurprisingly capsizing. Right now I'm realizing that I wanna be the hungry waves and not the sinking ship; the sharp harpoon and not unfortunate Moby **** I wanna be the brick instead of the window pane; I wanna be the ****** sword and not the bleeding slain. So the inferiority complex that's been harrowingly ingrained inside of my needlessly idle brain can **** off once again, because I'm gonna be the poet now, not the reader, page, nor pen.
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Aug 8, 2016
Aug 8, 2016 at 11:44 PM UTC
it's 11:44 pm and i'm watching men's gymnastics
So time to and move on and goodbye. Like the strangers we were in all the time we sojourn together. unemotional be for all it is a wistless life, aeon in aeon: meetings and partings ****** be the vogue, mallet-smash the mirrors them in the halls of spirited dreams barefooted walk  on those shards then red be they tinged, **** if they do for there is a pleasure in this pain always like this, rivers that rise high up in the hills, swelling in the rain die dry in the heartless dunes and a piper sounds out the songs caravans on horizon that them streams carried here into their graves for deep somewhere subterranean buried lies a clothed casket broken heart, sunken dream so let us move on. you, on, and I, to my dance to each their own.
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Oct 9, 2016
Oct 9, 2016 at 4:46 AM UTC
mallet byebyes
All Understanding uncovers ugliness, usury. Unifying utopians uncorruptable, unmoveable. Dashing Prophets promoted promiscuous personalities. Promethus’s powers persisted purposelessness. Do Postmodern proletariats protest phantoms? Puckering proudly, pondering paraphrases? If Egyptians engineered excessive egoists, Englishmen evolved ethical endgames. Tradition Rules reformed rednecks, remobilizing, romanticizing, recursions rose remarkably. If Caesar costumed cabals crafted carefully, Christianity calibrated circumferential conflicts. Vigilantism Unveils unlucky usurper, undoes underachieving, unemotional, unconsciousness unlearning unhumanness.    Every Tadpole’s talents triumphs titan’s tricks tip toeing towards truth.
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Sep 15, 2017
Sep 15, 2017 at 2:58 AM UTC
What has the gift of knowledge given unto us?
As I journey through the tracks of life, I lost my train of thought Emotions avoiding to feel, it's closest touch of feeling, is distraught Trapped in a whirlwind of unemotional cyclones Feelings trapped, feelings caught My essence seeping from my skin daily, I question of fight or flight Decaying self worth I fought Dividing by zero, a bitter chaotic end, life has its lessons, I'm not listening It comes to nought I'm married to the darkness, a trial in error, the verdict still out Im lost in court A life settled in coin, casket to cross the river to the afterlife Paid in full with despair It's bought I wish this train would return, Take me with it on it's journey, let my self worth become my companion, I crave it My escort
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Sep 6, 2019
Sep 6, 2019 at 2:20 PM UTC
Escape
*Creativity has its own life Longing to be free It's something I must do Though you may never see Do these words mean I'm crazy? It may be that I am I just let my feelings show But control myself, I can You moved into another place Between casual and intense It begs for some attention I'm just trying to make some sense How should I act around you? What am I allowed to say? Our lovers would not understand And assume we will wander away I want to be close to you We have a connection But life says no for us So I must accept its rejection I want to know you It's clear for you to see You can be my friend Are you thinking of me? Maybe I'm being presumptious Something I need to be told Are you just being polite? Am I being too bold? I've thought more than this It's hidden from your view I want to tell you what I think But can I trust you? I can be your confidant Your secret's safe with me You'll never have to wonder If I'll reveal for all to see My age a curse Yet equally a blessing I may be too old for you But I'll never keep you guessing I give everything I have Yet never lose control I am not unemotional I let my feelings roll I know who I am And sadness is part of life I can live within it I will remove the knife It's because I believe in me Regardless of who says what I am very strong inside No matter how deep the cut But your beauty cannot be ignored Even though that is what's required My fantasy world, unrequieted but alive Focuses on you, something to be admired It may be you are appalled You didn't ask for this You have chosen your path And wish to follow your bliss Confusing as it can be It's obviously the wrong time It doesn't help your life in any way I'll never say you're mine True as this may be I still think you're great But I will leave you alone And accept my life's fate In a different world we can thrive Seeing through our mind's eye It doesn't have to be about the flesh We will never have to lie It may be that close friendship Spiced with coy flirtations Is all that we will ever have No matter our inner sensations It is ok for you to know That I think you are so attractive I will continue on with my life And not be so reactive But if you need to confide And tell me what you think I will gladly lend an ear From the cup of honesty we will drink Do not be afraid of closeness Outside of your spoken vows You can reveal yourself to others It can be managed with what life allows But it's back to the reality Of what it all means I'll go back to my world And see you in my dreams*
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Jan 30, 2012
Jan 30, 2012 at 2:36 PM UTC
Forbidden Love
*Creativity has its own life Longing to be free It's something I must do Though you may never see Do these words mean I'm crazy? It may be that I am I just let my feelings show But control myself, I can You moved into another place Between casual and intense It begs for some attention I'm just trying to make some sense How should I act around you? What am I allowed to say? Our lovers would not understand And assume we will wander away I want to be close to you We have a connection But life says no for us So I must accept its rejection I want to know you It's clear for you to see You can be my friend Are you thinking of me? Maybe I'm being presumptious Something I need to be told Are you just being polite? Am I being too bold? I've thought more than this It's hidden from your view I want to tell you what I think But can I trust you? I can be your confidant Your secret's safe with me You'll never have to wonder If I'll reveal for all to see My age a curse Yet equally a blessing I may be too old for you But I'll never keep you guessing I give everything I have Yet never lose control I am not unemotional I let my feelings roll I know who I am And sadness is part of life I can live within it I will remove the knife It's because I believe in me Regardless of who says what I am very strong inside No matter how deep the cut But your beauty cannot be ignored Even though that is what's required My fantasy world, unrequieted but alive Focuses on you, something to be admired It may be you are appalled You didn't ask for this You have chosen your path And wish to follow your bliss Confusing as it can be It's obviously the wrong time It doesn't help your life in any way I'll never say you're mine True as this may be I still think you're great But I will leave you alone And accept my life's fate In a different world we can thrive Seeing through our mind's eye It doesn't have to be about the flesh We will never have to lie It may be that close friendship Spiced with coy flirtations Is all that we will ever have No matter our inner sensations It is ok for you to know That I think you are so attractive I will continue on with my life And not be so reactive But if you need to confide And tell me what you think I will gladly lend an ear From the cup of honesty we will drink Do not be afraid of closeness Outside of your spoken vows You can reveal yourself to others It can be managed with what life allows But it's back to the reality Of what it all means I'll go back to my world And see you in my dreams*
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A while back I talked about crunch time. and in all honesty it really wasnt that long ago       that I cared. but I dont anymore.  Not because its what I decided consciously. But more so it was just one of those things that happened. the dreaded month is here. and nothing is how I presumed it would be. instead of being scared or sad or anything expected, normal -                          i dont care. I feel empty and unemotional, which is weird for me. typically, feeling is all that I know how to do.                  I guess that's gone,                                                too.
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Aug 6, 2012
Aug 6, 2012 at 2:50 AM UTC
Slacking