A while back
I talked about
crunch time.
and in all honesty
it really wasnt that
long ago
      that I cared.

but I
dont
anymore.  Not
because
its what
I decided
consciously. But
more so
it was just
one of those things
that
                  happened.

the dreaded month
is here.

and nothing
is how
I presumed
it would be.

instead of being
scared
or
sad
or
anything
expected,
normal -
                         i dont care.

I feel empty
and unemotional,

which is
weird
for me.

typically,
feeling

is all that I know how to do.


                 I guess that's gone,
                                               too.