Its terrifying
When everyone goes away
Because the thoughts and the fears
All want to stay
The blue skies turn to gray
And the light dims away
All for you to watch
While your mind goes astray

I love the melancholy
Every time a chord is struck
Such beauty and passion
No tear could feel alone
A euphoric atmosphere is created
Almost like a dream
No more anxiety or hatred
No more low self-esteem
But I can only listen
I wish I could play too
My hands shake too much
It is a shame
Because I always feel blue

I wish it were so simple
Rain could fall forever
Daydreams could become reality
Love would seem so clever
Fear would become a distant thought
My mind would stop its chatter
Flowers would bloom
Life would flourish

Sadly time will never falter

Walking through these gates of hell
I wonder what my mind will tell
An endless encore of thoughts today
Only time will tell when they will go away
The music is endless if you aren't feeling sane
If my mind was a puddle
I would be washed out in the rain

I wonder tonight what the sandman will give
Maybe I'll dream of the beautiful sea
The waves breaking calmly on a white sandy beach
Or maybe I will have a nightmare with no escape to be seen

Forever trapped and lost away
Her wings were broken and her heart turned grey
Forced without will
Her existence was a sin
It was not her fault
That she lost the light within
With no place to go
She only could wait
And hope that one day she would be saved

If I could lay upon a flowerbed
Until my mind expired
Maybe we could become connected
The soil would consume me
My body could bloom
With vibrant colours
Of blood reds
And shallow blues
Maybe these flowers could speak
Of what my life had become
It seems that people only want to know you once you are truly gone

Leaves will fall inevitably
You might as well say hi to them before you have fallen too

Leaves will fall inevitably
And one day we will fall too
A fallen leaf will wilt away
Eventually, our bodies will decay
The sunlight can not always save the day
But that is okay
For in our dreams we will escape
Escape our lives
And escape the pain
Death will come in time
But not today
For tomorrow I know
I will see your face

You cut me out of your life
So I cut myself
Blades always knew me like no one else

Band aids could never stick
Just like those who I called close
Fantasies arose about my suicide notes

Time became slower
I loved to feel numb
Pain is too much for a small heart to overcome

Life is a game
Which nobody wins
Except those who are blessed with ignorance

Nightmares of life
Dreams of death
Life is my prison
I will be released in death
Feelings of nothing
Mind lost in a storm
Waiting for my acceptance into the void

Those 'little lies’ you tell me
Always come back to haunt me
You think not more but for yourself
And pretend that you adore me
Through manipulation
You create my frustration and make me feel lonely

You taunt me with your 'little lies’
And use me like an object
You pull me close when you're feeling sad
But don't catch me when I'm falling
You tell me that we're the best of friends
Yet you leave me when I'm hurting

Your 'little lies’ always end in tears
Just admit that you don't love me

Live for the moment
Blank out the past
Rejoice in the present
Learn to smile and laugh

Forget about sadness
Numb yourself from pain
Ignore others problems
Congratulations you are deranged

I live not to remember
Or else these days will repeat
The memories and their echoes will never leave
Spring has become hollow
Like a lost fever dream
Maybe all this time just means nothing
And nothing has become me
Some days feel endless
As if sleep will not come
Other days feel too precious
To accept they are gone
Live not just for the moment
But the moments yet to come
Or you will feel stranded with no one to love

Loneliness is an empty street
Void of life
The street lights fleet
Houses crumble and rot away
Empty nights make nothing days
Where nothing is
Something will grow
But for now
This night will haunt my soul

Lonely
That word should be left alone

It is lonely here
This land is so far away
Beyond the empty blue
Past the acid rain
The sky is pitch black
The air is chill
Not a soul in sight
On my lonely hill
The stars have settled
The moon is beaming
The tears have dried
I have lost all feeling
It is lonely here
Sometimes it is hard to see
This lovely desolate land
Lacks company

Lonely little leaf
Flying alone in an autumn breeze 

Amber where it was once green
Its changed in ways that can't be seen

Will it be let to lay 
Or fly away

I hope it will be with the stars one day
But most likely it will just fade away

Just like everything else
We all decay

Isolation and quietness are my two best friends
They never leave me
They don’t betray me
And they do not care
Isolation helps me think and comprehend reality
Isolation does not sleep and never decides to leave me
Isolation eliminates my pressures and anxieties
Isolation helps me relax and breathe
With isolation who needs real friends?
Quietness comes and goes but never decides to leave me
Quietness helps me sleep at night and stays with me till the morning
Quietness lets me focus and takes away my fears
Quietness is always trustworthy and is right around the corner
With quietness who needs real friends?
Isolation and quietness are always there for me
They never leave me
They don’t betray me
And they do not care
My two best friends never change and are always there for me
With isolation and quietness who needs real friends?

I hate this empty silence
It bleeds through these hollow walls
The wallpaper peels as I dream
I get lost in endless halls
Nothing is really as it seems
You can tell by how the rain falls
There is light outside this room sometimes
I can see it through the blinds
It waits for me to understand
Until I lose my mind

Somewhere down a river
Past the land that no one walks
Lies nothing but a mossy meadow
And a man who's clearly lost
Silence puts his mind at ease
Flowers make him grow a smile
Peaceful
But scary
This place makes him wary
Will this man ever find his way out?

In these eyes I see
What cannot be unseen
If I did not feel anything
What would I dream
If I knew nothing at all
What would life mean?
If I was lost in infinity
How could I breathe?
Sometimes I wonder
What separates us from being lost in infinity?
Is it that we can see the beauty and the horrors
Or that we can dream
Is it the fact that we don't have to think to breathe?
The longer my mind contemplates
The closer I come
To consider the idea that
Maybe we are lost too
I can only hope that life is finite

Lost in some nonsense
I sense I lost something when it rained
This ink means nothing
When these thoughts will not leave my brain
Pain will feel endless
Until the end has found my way
Maybe one day I will sit and watch as the lilies slowly decay

Sometimes you just sit there
And I do not know what to say
My heart loses focus and tries to run away

Grey is the falling sky
My mind has gone awry
A sudden horrid rush fills my lungs
Storm clouds surround my mind
Is this a normal thing?
Or is this just to be alive
No words have come into place
But that is okay because you can read my eyes

In the darkest silence of the loneliest night
A smile enveloped in moonlight
Took the pain from my eyes

I'm lost in your mind
I can't find my way out
Your mind is a maze
Full of twists and turns
Locked doors and false exits
Obscured by secrets
I forfeit myself to your soul

There is something terrifying
About the absence of sound
It can fill a room with nothing
And not a wanted voice to be found

It is said that silence can be loud
When the thoughts seep through
The cracks in your mind
I sometimes feel as if I have lost myself to hell

It is just too bad
That when silence bleeds
The only escape
Is to dream..

I see you hurting
I can hear the worry when you talk
I can feel the coldness when your sad
I can see the pain when you sleep
The stress of waking up means rest will never come
Those black rings are so willing to consume
They circle your eyes
And hold on until you let go

I have trouble letting go too
But it will never stop the love I have for you
Without you, my mind would be a mess
Because of you, I worry less