Stone cold
The words you spoke
But you didn't even know
And no one else seemed to either
Drifting
Is where my mind was
But no one ever asked
And now it continues to drift
Further.....
Down

And

Down...

Lower

And

Lower.
Into the depths of my favorite fantasies
And the border of my dullest nightmares

I fear myself like I fear the empty midnight sky
No stars to connect
No friends to create
Just an empty abyss
Its nice at first
The peace
And the quiet
But the quiet never leaves
Until its too loud to bare

I don't write disorderly
I just write how I feel
And right now I feel messy
My mind is as messy as the words before me
But they are words nonetheless

I want to impress people
I want to show how great I can be
I want to love myself like how others love me
Through all this pain and hurt
It will shape who I am
And I will be better for it

Your words allure in the depth of night
From my phone you are my light
Winter came and brought the cold
But suddenly my heart feels warm
Worries and troubles slip away
These night talks have made my day

How many songs can you salvage from a dead person's voice?
They are gone
And, although their voice still lives on
These songs aren't truly theirs
They have been altered and manipulated
Yet, we love them even more
Because people love to want to know
About someone who's already gone

It's sad to think about
The times we had
Good and bad
The happiest hurt the worst
Because I know that they have to move on
Its sad because I know that they haven't
And I haven't either
It's sad
Its 3:47 am and my only light is a monitor
It illuminates the hair that meets my eyes
I stop to think sometimes
Maybe I should sleep
But I swear this light speaks to me
It's sad
These thoughts don't get any easier
I thought it was just a phase
But apparently that's not how the brain works
It's sad
Every time I feel positive
I always see the other side
Because I can never be too happy
Or I would have too far to fall
It's sad
Life
Death
Everything in between
Maybe its time to dream

It was so utterly calm outside today
The weather was lacking
And the sky was grey
No rain or sun
Maybe the sky was feeling numb
Although sleep will come
Flickering lights
The TV knows night
Eyes seduced by its temperament
Out goes my light

In this dream like meadow
Let your legs become roots
Open your heart to the flowers
In time it will bloom
Let the rain tap your skin
And let it nurture your soul
Become one with the forest
Before it is gone

Do you ever just look at something
With not a thought on your mind
But your lovely blank stare
Can see straight past the blue sky
And over the mellow meadows which give color to dreams
Over the infinite skyscrapers that grow but do not leave
Do you stare at the trees which may not have long before fall
And not even have one single thought at all

My midlife crisis has begun
I'm only nineteen
But I'll be dead by forty

You think you are a loser  
I can tell by the way you reflect my lies
Thoughts can be deceptive
But the mirror never lies

Miscellaneous thoughts
They never make sense
They lie and take over
And never resist
I'm scared that one day
I wont be dead or alive
Instead
My mind will be forsaken
Like a dream lost in time

It's so much easier to blank it all out
That ******* tune never leaves does it
'Tic toc tic toc therapy wont fix my mind-block'
But as soon as your fears confront you
The music can't get loud enough
And your stuck
Thinking
****
I guess that's love..

An eerie silence fills my hollow room
Closed curtains make darkness last forever
Patches of light offer a sense of hope
However are eventually lost into the nightfall
A sense of melancholy holds me hostage
Wrapped in layers of warmth my insecurities cease to exist
I confide to my internal voice to release me from my angst
Time goes on as I dream in this room
Life will go on without me

Draw a smile on your face
And don't let the ink wash off in the rain

I'm no longer falling
Now I'm falling in love

When a pop star dies people want to know who to blame
When a homeless person dies they are labelled insane

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Too many problems
Too many lies
Too many heartbreaks
Too many bad vibes
Too many tears
Too many thoughts
Too many stars
Not enough time

Nothing matters anymore
Who am I kidding
Nothing ever mattered

She cut onions
As her wrists bled deep
Because the tears only came in her dreams

A fractured smile
And telling eyes
The depths of my dreams
Fell through empty skies

If music could numb the mind forever
Popping pills wouldn't seem so clever

If there was an off switch to life
Some people wouldn't hesitate to press it

When people tie a noose
We have time to think about the consequences

It's not that I am uninterested
I just have other things on my mind
Thinking clearly is harder than you know
My emotions go further than these words
I cry when i'm alone
But when i'm with you
I can't think at all
You make me feel at home
You are my drug
You are my love
You aren't real
Oh no

Some people strive for perfection
Without knowing what perfection is

I wonder what they think
A quiet boy
A pink jumper
I just like the colour
But I still wonder
what do they think
Am I not masculine enough?
Are my emotions showing too much?
Maybe I am just overthinking it
It hurts to know that I will never quite understand it
You have your reasons
I have my own
I just want to be me
But it seems to risky to push it
Don't get me wrong
I love wearing black too
But sometimes I just feel blue
And want to wear the brightest colours in my room

Pitter patter
Nothing matters
Each raindrop sounds the same
Pitter patter
You will not remember
In time everything will fade

Pretty people get jobs easier
I wonder if they get accepted into heaven easier as well