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572 · Jun 2017
Old Folks Home
I had never heard any remark by anyone in my life
Who stated anything good about such a necessary place.
Therein the stretched miles of eyes and smiles being much
Un-pre-processed on the grounds of an unaccountable nature.
But in the old folks home the goddess of good nature
Seems almost as merry as she is wise.

As I oft do I carried in with me a hand truck loaded down
With doughnuts of every kind – 14 dozen in all.
Oh the smiles that permeate from the long faces each
Time I travel down the long hall.
Bertha, Martha Sue, Betty and Clare to mention a few.
Old Tom, Billy, Bob and Jacob too.

Like the pied piper they follow me all smelling the air.
“Ummm they smell hot and fresh,” Jacob whispers to Clare.
Pushing the double doors all the way back to lock open
I place one box of 12 on each table with 6 chairs.
Each box marked with a table number as I know
Who ordered what, and where tis they sit where.

Bertha always gets powdered with strawberry crème,
Martha Sue is the true classic with her original glazed dreams.
Old Tom decided it was time for a change with cinnamon and sugar
While Billy, wild Bill ordered chocolate ice with crème filling.
Betty, Bob, Clare and Jacob said simply to make of them a surprise.
Eighty four people in all get two each as it's the golden rule.

Oh there’s many more people to talk about but
That’s not what I’m here to do.
What good is life is if you have nothing to measure it or do?
The old folks home can be melancholy with lonely walls.
All that’s needed is a smile and something to look forward to.
Especially when oft the size of a gift is so extremely small.

I watch the room as they eat, smile, laugh and talk.
Life’s more about the connection we make and not about much else.
Dark faces full of light, quick eyes smiling with delight.
Long noses turned up on the end.
Teeth no longer white now sugar coated with a childish grin.
Prominent jawbones chewing away remembering where happiness begins.
Sometimes - in order to get ones feet firmly planted on the ground, we need to look around and find the joy in ourselves by giving it away to others. If you are one filled with confusion and anger I invite you to stop in on those less fortunate in your area. You'll be surprised to learn that the give and take that you will find works both ways.
553 · May 2018
Auspicious lover!
You by whose sweet nature does rule this text,
As surely as I spell your name, your thoughts it reflects.
My longings my darling are nothing less than your desires,
Our combined cloudy pillar floating on high by our inner fires.
My second dream is but a forethought of your mind’s first wand
Parting my words and showing me your promised hand.
Who’s to say, in some very far off distant age,
They will say that I have exercised some sacred prophet's rage?
An unpeopling prayer within our combined diviner's themes,
Like we were young filled with vision and the old people's dreams!
To thee, my Love’s Savior, to thee my vows’ confess,
I am never satisfied with the time the world gives us in bliss.
Swift do those times pass, bespoken each timely romp, thy hips do proclaim,
These words, a stammering thought teaching me how to whisper thy name.
If you share the meanings hidden in this piece you possibly can understand why I wrote it.  If not, it's just another crock of time.
547 · Apr 2018
The Guardian
If an impeccable ally is false or the implacable ingrate
Resolved to ruin or rule our combined fate
Or to encompass us with the blood oath bonds they've taken
The pillars of our safety shall forever be shaken,
A jilted child removed from a foreigner awakened.
Then seized with fear, yet affecting fame,
Usurped by an intruder’s unatoned name.
So easy still it proves in falsely factious times
With public zeal to cancel their most private of crimes.
How safe is treason and how sacred it’s ill,
Where not even a child is safe to be free at will.
Where evil marchers are all hoodwinked and their offences not be known,
Since in each other’s guilt - they confuse and hide their own.
Yet their fame is undeserved, for I am their enemy with a giant grudge
Once a child that they abhorred, but praise be – I am now their judge.
In my court they sit for me to annihilate their scheme
With my discerning eyes, with these hands that are bloodlessly clean.
Unbribed, unsought, these wretches I redress -
Swift to dispatch them to ease the victim’s distress.
Oh, some call me a heartless hanging judge,
As I dispense my medicine on this vile blood thirsty sludge.
But had I the ownership of these evil souls freed
I’d hang these oppressors twice hoping to redeem their evil seed.
A hanging judge I’m truly not, I’m just a historian in love
Setting heaven straight for the one I serve, the true guardian above.
Daily our news gets weirder and weirder and something tells me that we are just now seeing the tip of the iceberg. If so I pray that God sends us good men and women to weigh through the filth and gives these evil, sadistic, satanic worshiping crazy nutcases their just rewards.
546 · Jun 2017
Hourglass
Sand sifting gently through my fingers,
A dedicated time ‘til my body lingers.
Oh, to know the smell of the center of your hand,
To see into those eyes -
To feel those sighs.

Sometimes I don’t think I can wait
But then it’s too late.
How can all this be real
When I’ve not even a finger to feel?
Visions of heart – remembering soul –
Up to now that is all that I know.
I'm lost in this moment,
Chained to the sweet torment.
Inside a fire is burning
Hotter than hell – so full of yearning.

Maybe the wrong place -
Maybe the wrong time.

Is it a crime
To watch the sand as it falls?
Measuring time ‘til my body lingers
And I have you - lost in my fingers.
There is no such thing as time until you find love.
533 · Jun 2017
Defy Death
Find your abundance, your radiance, your nourishment,
For in you lives a God or a Goddess lying dormant.
Be reverenced – that is the key of life -
Dance on your grave in your own behalf.
Do not live in fear for fear is like death.
Fear will return you to the soil without a breath.
That death, a compost for the new generation.
We hold the key to eternity in our outstretched hand.
Be courageous and face yourself and be annihilated
By your own light – your love – and be not rested
For rest is a kind of death absent of your essence.
Whatever death can take it will take – so be salient
And find that which is unborn and undying.
Life will knock seven times at the door to your heart,
Searching for the indestructible part of you to impart.
We are the King and the Queen of our own desires.
Dancing together with the world as our Kingdom’s choirs.
Rejoice in the world for here we are - we have come.
Let laughter be the nature of our bodies’ home.
A home where laughter defies death and love defies reason –
There our consciousness sits broadened
By the dance we dance – forcing death to be dethroned.
I have defied death no less than twice in my life and in some ways I defy it daily. Yet death I do not fear. Neither should you.
523 · Jul 2017
Feeding Love
I see an ancient moon
Passing through the soft
Branches entering my window.
Reaching into the illumination feeling
The fire - impalpable in my arms,
Shadowed by wrinkles with a remembrance
Touched by everything that always brought me home.
It is as if everything that exists, all light, all aromas,
All that I touch - they are all the sea upon which I float.
Funny how little by little I learned to love yet
Little by little I also seem to forget.
Somehow we forgot how to look for each other.
You left me at the shore holding my own heart,
Where my roots were exposed and ripped out
Floating away to seek new lands carrying
With me this silent, broken existence.
Destiny will undoubtedly land me wherever it will but
As the moon shines on me tonight I float off
To the heavens while nothing is extinguished.
For love feeds on love and as long as I live I
Shall forever be in your arms as surely as
This moonlight shines ever so softly in mine.
Don't you ever wonder why things never stay as ... wonderful as they once were? I suppose that like life love works in cycles. It never hurts to ask, why?
505 · Oct 2019
Q
Q
Are not thou supremely good and wise,
Imparting these prodigious gifts - not in vain,
What wonders are reserved inside the breadcrumbs reign?
Amidst the breadcrumbs - the arguments have shown
Such truth’s only given to guide us all home.
Your visions’ mildness I shall not condemn,
Taking up my pen to force your diadem.
'Tis true, Q grants the people what most they crave,
Even more perhaps - than mortals ought to save -
For lavish grants suppose the monarchs were all tamed
With more than goodness than my wit can proclaim.
But when should good people strive their bonds to break?
If not when evil tyrants are negligent or weak?
Let Q give on till he can give no more,
‘Lest we find ourselves homeless and poor -
And to every shekel which Q can retrieve,
Shall it cost a limb, a choice - or a prerogative?
To supply new plots, shall be not my core,
Nor to plunge us deep in some expensive war,
Which, our treasures were never meant to supply,
We must, with our remaining kinship, refuse to buy.
Oh faithful friends forget our jealousies and fears
Call on each other to solve the issues, don’t rejoice in tears.
Whom amongst us, when our aid is torn,
Shall be left naked and left to public scorn?
Are we not the next successor, whom we fear and hate -
If we allow these obnoxious leaders of state
To turn all virtue into nigh and overthrow
And denounce all righteousness both good and foe?
Q’s right, they fight for sums of personal gold,
The collateral is all of us to be pawned and sold -
Like sheep to the slaughter, Where We Go One We Go All.
They corrupt their titles into law,
If not, we the people have the right to reign supreme.
We did not make them the kings, these kings are made by them -
An empire has no power unless that empire has trust -
And without trust, it can no longer be just.
Take them all down for the general good redesigned,
In their own wrong any nation cannot be defined.
In altering that, we the people can be relieved,
Better the evil ones suffer, than all nations grieve.
We all know their evilness their sins they chose,
God was their king, and God they durst depose.
Call now on your own piety, your spiritual, filial name,
It is our right, to be fearless and let us build our own futures’ flame.
WWG1WGA
504 · Jun 2019
True Love
True love must assert a soul binding liberty -
But what is right in you, seems like a crime within me.
Your favor leaves me nothing else to require,
You answer my every wish and long out-run all my desires.
What more can I expect while I live?
All your princessly diadems that you so sweetly give -
On that: there you pause; then sighing, you said,
This is justly destined for your worthy head.
For when from my toils I shall at long last rest,
This latest augment of this life - oh I’ve been so blest.
Your lawful issue shall to my lap once again ascend
To the collateral damage of my heart that somehow you end.
My love, though oppressed,  moves toward your light -
Dauntless  –  secure  – full of a native fight.
Of every royal virtue that you surely must possess;
Never be still dear, be the bravest, be you, be the best.
Your courage knows no foe, your truth to proclaim
It is your loyalty that I hope is your biggest fame.
Have mercy on this nave my dearest find,
For surely you must be of the forgiving kind.
Why should I then repine against Heaven's decree,
That somehow, someway - you fell in love with me.
It's not all about being loved - it's all about truly loving....
503 · Jun 2017
Silent Lucidity
Too many religions
Too many interpretations.
There is truth in their folly.
Each religion beautiful in its own way.
Each one incomplete by itself, each naming
The Infinite Light, - God, Allah, Yahweh or Buddha rendering
A human division when True Light is anything but divisive.
The blessed mother Mary, the crown jewel in Catholicism,
Was she Catholic? - I only ask of you the truism
Found in this simplest of questions.
In her life, the word Catholic never even existed.
The Infinite Light appears in all religions - as fluid
As the Love that each of the religions seem to know.
In the common threads between the religions an echo
Reverberates through the world enlightening those who realize
That Faith is unanimous and Love is something that we can materialize.

So the question, no matter how it's asked it is always the same -
Do you believe in God?
I do not mean - do you believe in some religion's fairy tale,
I mean - do you believe that there is some power greater than ourselves
Which is The Light, The Infinite Light that created everything that
We know of and all that we can ever know of?

I like to think of it like this;

We as human beings utilize only a small portion of our brain.
If you place the human brain under emotionally charged situations,
Such as, meditation, joy, stress, fear or physical trauma - then the neurons
In the brain begin firing resulting in an enhanced mental clarity.
You may say, 'So what, just because you are thinking more clearly -
It does not mean that you are communicating with the Infinite Light.'
But you must also agree that sometimes unfathomable answers to what seems
Like impossible questions occur in these moments of clarity.
Biologists call it 'Altered States'; Gurus call it 'Higher Consciousness';
Psychologist's call it a 'Super Capacity for Sensation or Feeling.'
Some call it Psychic, others simply call it crazy.
Religions call it answered prayer.

I say it is simply an adjusting of the brain to learn what the heart already knows.
Each of us already has the knowledge given unto us by the Infinite Light -
We only need to open our minds and hear our inner self.
So please don't dwell on the differences.
Find Peace in what makes us all the same.
Don't you get tired of the current news? Each story mixing up an already inflated population of angry people. We must learn to see through the design and ignore their hateful influences.
499 · Jun 2017
The Cape Of Good Hope
Sometimes love sets sail on some distant journey
To get farther and farther away from me.
I see the journey going round the world
In the most vivid color – as an apparatus
For its own painting – or at least so I presume.
I long for love's conversation but
It is too far away it seems.
What wretch is this that hazards this life?
What thanks is this nature capable of returning?
This wretch will be repaid only with
Insults and injuries.
Any blessings in store for the meek and the
Gentle heart might be disinherited by it.
If hope is that which keeps one alive
Then I should by my hope be kept afloat
Both in spirit and in looks.
And in love's journey, would it ever know me again?
Would it know me as if my pleasure is left
Behind in a kind of resigned misery which arises
From this situation where a heart is unsupported
By everything but its own tenderness?

We all owe love much and I will have patience.
For love's journey – it does round this Cape of Good Hope.
It will undoubtedly begin the long trek home again –
Sooner or later - the least I can do is to hope.
The demand – it is equal – for I owe it as much as love owes me.
I watch as its treasures float away making of it
Conjectures upon each part – all the while thinking that
The distance is but a little ways off and I know
That I could venture after it – I’m sure that I could –
Were I to only understand the reason for the distress.
But what if nature has chalked out another road?
Must we go on with so many a weary step?
Each in a separate heartless track till nature
Takes this journey’s course wherever it will?

Love asks me why – why do I say this?
Why do I write such a somber set of words?
And yet – it knows I follow it alongside its journey.
I beg of it to return while the heart of love
Tells me why I do this – as with everything that I do.
This journey does make a shadow of love and if I am
Good for anything I must remain true to the mortal part
Of its agreement – but that mortality does allow for me
To think and talk upon everything, does it not?
I rally my words, my powers and my alarms not to
Send ill winds to push love's sail farther away from me
But rather hoping that it will meld them all into one.
With the hope that within my power
With the most ardent of affections – they will triumph
Over all these feelings.
Standing aft on the vessel of love with its spyglass in hand
Look closely at me – I’m just off its bow.
I’m in its wake paddling trying so hard to
Keep what is left above the waters edge.

I wonder what infection it is that passes in this
affected crisis?
The contrary winds and currents leading this track
Could be the engine of nature working it together –
Or apart.
Tis true, it know it is – or should I just continue
To leave nature to her own destination?
But the language and the embodiment of love
Should not be left to mere chance.
If I swim harder toward it would love at least drop its sail?
Maybe I should speak no more - whatever the currents carry
May they carry the gentlest illusions through
The spyglass – and I suppose somehow they will.
If the remedy is but a cold philosophy then
I shall remain here undaunted by the distance – frantically treading water -
While love carries away with it the balm of my existence.
If so – somewhere round the Cape of Good Hope
Is where love can find me if it should ever choose to return.

I am here treading water as best I can in love's wake
As its vessel sails ever further and further away from me.
It is love who must decide my fate for I am doing all that I can.
I flail my arms side to side hoping against hope
That this Cape of Good Hope is not where love abandons me.
But I refuse to drown and I refuse to give it up
Just as ardently as love fails to turn around and see me.
Please don’t turn around unless you too understand
That our fates are indelibly tied together.
If this wretched thing does take full possession of love
Then it too has possession of me.
Like a baited hook I swim here watching and waiting
For the shark to come and swallow me up.
And all this time all love had to do was to – STOP.
It’s almost too late for that – the distance is so great.
I cannot swim that far.
I close my eyes and dream.
My tears flow into the ocean around me
So I know I’m still here.
Swimming for my life –
Somewhere just off the
Cape of Good Hope.
When all you have ever known isn't good enough then what is left?
497 · Jul 2017
Summertime
I prefer the sultry ways of Summer
On a lazy sweltering hot afternoon.
If summer were here all year round -
I’d be so perfectly browned.
Oh you can have your mistletoe
And your Halloween masks too.
I prefer my short shorts and sandals
And warm cozy nights by the candles.

Oh Summer if you were a woman
I would surely run away with you.
And if Spring should ever let us come in
We'd surely show her what to do.
487 · Jan 2018
Wind Song
With a whispering wind in silence she sings -
Her raptured emotion stirring even the trees.
The old wind chime chants out its haunting ring -
Singing within her crystalline voice.
Yes she hung it long ago just where it is,
Another reminder that she was here
And somehow she is still near.
But I just cannot find it in me to rejoice.

That day it was snowing and cold.
She had asked me to hang it days before.
Somehow I forgot and I suppose that rather than scold
Me she decided to take care of it herself.
She had on her nightie, her bath robe and my old work boots.
She had the wind chimes, a hammer, a nail and a chair.
At the moment I didn’t think that I had ever loved her more.
I was wrong.

Keep singing - my darling...... please keep on singing
Needs no interpretation
487 · Jun 2017
The Sacrifice
What art in Heaven is unknown to the heathen?
Lest the scriptures write of adolescent teens.
For the scriptures build an ark and the arc
From which we must all be reborn in the barque.

With the strength of the carpenter’s lieutenants
The gallows outlast ten thousand tenants.
The faith in ones own wit is the noose indeed
As is the church’s wit when their sovereignty be decreed.

Is not this parchment made of sheepskins?
Like the fine carved furniture of the followers of Louie Quinze.
But of these carvings was once a beautiful tree.
Like the lamb – it was forced to its knee.

There a man placed upon their remains
Words and pictures of the self it proclaims.
But to God they are still a tree and a lamb
No need for the words or pictures he found.
Some think that they must sacrifice something or themselves in order to receive blessings. There is no need for any sacrifice at all. The blessings are always there. We just need to learn to recognize them.
484 · Jun 2017
Lookin' For The Gold
Sitting outside an old country store somewhere between the real world and what used to be sat an old wrinkled man in a swing, straw hat on his head, tobacco chew in his lower lip with a tin coffee cup for the waste. He had his legs crossed sort of funny; I could tell that the age of his body made him feel uncomfortable. I could almost feel his back as it ached. As I got out of my car an old hound dog moved slowly to the old man’s side. Above the old man was on old tin Coca Cola sign mostly rusted away by time. I stopped for a moment and looked at the old store front. It must have been a vintage from somewhere around the turn of the twentieth century. As I passed by the old man on the bench, I nodded my head and the old man reached up for his old ***** straw hat and tipped the front of it slightly. He having greeted me in his way as I had greeted him with mine. I pushed on the old wooden screen door to hear its spring stretch and the hinges creak and after I entered I failed to catch the screen door and I shuttered as it slammed shut. Above me was an old silent ceiling fan whispering out a slow gyrating motion as it passed down the air around me. A peaceful majestic feeling came over me. Looking around the store I saw no glass fronted coolers, thirst was why I had stopped. “Do you have any soda’s?” I asked the lady behind the counter.
“Sho do,” she replied , “They’s over thare.” I looked to where she was pointing, it was like a big long flat freezer, painted red with several silver stainless doors on top of it and Coca-Cola embossed on it’s front. Arriving at the freezer I opened the lid and looked inside. “Jest’ put yer money in the box,” the feminine hillbilly voice continued.
On the front of the box and on each side of the box it had a hand written note which read, “Please Put .06 Cents Here.” ‘Six cents,” I thought – surely I must have gone back in time.” I asked, “How much are the sodas?”
To which she replied, “They be just six cents.” I fumbled in my pocket and pulled out my change, located six pennies and put them through the slot in the box. Then I looked back into the cooler to find that the only choice was Coca Cola inside. I took one and opened it up and took a big swig.
Walking back to the counter I asked the lady, “ How in the world can you afford to sell a soda for just six cents?”
She answered me with, “Well, did ya see Uncle Hap on the front porch?”
“The old man with the straw hat?” I asked.
“Yep, dat be Uncle Hap, go ask him how he can afford to sell a Coke for jest six cents.”
Interested, I walked back under the old ceiling fan and through the squeaking door. The old man had his hat pulled low on his eyes. “Sir,” I began, “I have a question to ask you.”
“Yes sir, sonny, and jest what be yer question?” he answered tilting his hat back high on his head.
“Well sir, just how do plan to make a living selling a coke for just six cents?”
The old man smiled and said, “That’s an easy one son, I ain’t a plannin to make any money offen them thar cokes.” I know I must have had a puzzled look on me but before I could inquire more he continued, “Has yer ever mined for gold?”
“No, I’m afraid not, sir,” I replied wondering what that had to do with the price of a coke.
The old man continued, “Well yer see Sonny, when yo be a minin, yer works real hard sometimes. You see, yer digs and digs and digs some more day after day – sometimes not seeing anything but more dirt but once in a while you be a finding jest a little bit a ore. Then ya comes back da next day and yer dig some more.” More confused than ever I sat down beside the old man in the swing taking another drink of my six cent Coke. He continues, “Trouble is yer see, you get hooked on that little taste a ore. It jest keeps ye a comin back fer more.”
Finally I had to ask, “But what does all this have to do with the price of coke?”
'Hold on sonny. I’m a gettin to that part but yer see yer got to hear da whole story.” I sat back in the swing deciding that maybe I’d just let the old man do his thing. “Now yer see, it was about 1920 I reckon when ever dis here young fellow come by dis here store a sellin this new fangled thing he called stock. Now he wanted me to buy some stock in dis here company he was a promotin. I was a minin at da time a-course and I’d just hit it a little lucky that week and I had some xtree money in me pocket. So fer five hunerd dollars, a whole lots a cash back den, I buyed a 1000 shares of that thar boys stock.” The old man then looked me in the eyes with a big smile on his face. “Yer see sonny, I works hard all my life a digging holes in the ground most times not seeing nuttin atall but I jest keeped on a diggin. I must say I always did believe that even if’n I fount no gold at all at least at the end of every day I could sit back and see whar I’d been. But yer jest never knows whar that real gold is. Sometimes yer find it in the strangest of places. Well sonny, I’z figures that 100 shares of stock musta split no less than 25 times since 1920. So yer see, I be one them whatcha might call million dollar aires. So don’t you fret that head o urin over’n what I charge fer that thare coke cola yer a drinkin. Matter of fact, if’n yer wants to, why don’t you go right back inside and buy yerself a whole **** case. Yer see, thar’s gold in them thare bottles. Yep, gold I tell ya. That 100 shares of Coca Cola stock sho was a golden God send. And wid me bein da onliest one a chargin just six cents a pop, well you can be one – o – da lucky ones to find soma dat gold. Who knows, the whole **** vein might be a sittin right side ya right now. You jest never knows. Just keep on a digging, Sonny. At least you can see whar ya been.”
The old man smiled as he turned to wave at a car as it passed by.
Me, I guess I’ll just keep on digging. But you know what? The old man was right. The gold is all around us. So if you ever find this place where soda’s are just six cents, well maybe it isn’t gold but believe me, the gold is all around you too.

Jest keep on a digging. At least yer can see whar ya been.
I love to sit down with people older than myself and listen to them tell me about their life. I am always amazed at how much different (and the same) our experiences can be (or think they are) when only a few decades are the mark by which we gauge those differences. In this piece I hope to be able to capture "Hap's" personality as well as his beautiful story as well as let the reader listen in on 'our' conversation on  his view on life. I hope that you enjoy it.
475 · Apr 2018
Love Yet Unsung
The pulse of love beats inside of me,
Relegated to never be released or made full use of.
My inner compass always pointing to a seal unbroken
Like undisturbed pillows on a display bed - always made.
Sheets fitted - made ready for the unmaking.
Then seized by some inner fear, affecting all that I ever dared,
Usurping you my love, the you without a name.
Yet, how easy it begins in these faceless rhymes,
They ensnare my heart with their private crimes.
How safe is love, how sacred still,
Where no one reads of my inner hidden will.
What good is it that I can wink when it goes unknown,
With nothing shared or to call my own?
Yet, my love deserves no enemy nor grudge,
Just the presence of my heart as the consummate judge.
In this court I sit chained and broken
With discerning eyes scouring me until I’m deemed a token.
Unbridled, unsought, a wretched mess,
Swift to dispatch me off to less and less of my own access.
Oh, had there been a covenant I could have served the crown,
With virtuous, heady and proper nouns
Or had I been given the pass of my big heart freed
I could write unoppressed with the noblest indeed
But my tuneful harp is forever unstrung,
While heaven waits for my loving sounds,  my songs are yet unsung.
Nothing is worse than a mind full of thoughts with nothing or no one to share in them or understand them. It's like being in the darkness of the deepest cave of your own making.
474 · Jun 2017
Breaking The Ice
“Is this what you do?”
Sitting on a dock in Sausalito looking out over
One of the grandest scenes that I had ever seen, I replied,
“What do you mean?”
Moving her feet further away from mine she replied,
“Travel around the country to see women that you barely know?”
Leaning back I answer her half laughing,
“Nope, haven’t had a date in twenty five years.”
“Is that how long you were married?”
“Twenty- three,” I answered changing the subject I continued,
“Sorry, but this view, it is beautiful, it’s like nothing I’ve ever seen.”
Ignoring my intended change she says,
“Well, I hope you know that just
Because you flew from Atlanta to San Francisco - that doesn’t
Mean that you are getting lucky tonight.”
Turning toward her, I responded, “Come on, just relax, can’t we
Just try and enjoy the evening?”

It was about an hour after sunset when we decided to walk back
Up the street to a two story restaurant to get something to eat.
We stopped at the door to look at the menu,
I could hear music from inside and that’s when I noticed the sign
That read:
“Open Mic Competition Tonight – $10 to Enter, $250 & CD to the Winner.”

We went in and were seated and soon we ordered our meals.
The ice was so chokingly thick between us that I was
Beginning to wonder why it was that I had come so far.

We talked little during the meal, mostly about her work and
About my son, who was ten and the fact that I had custody.
“I figure it’s hard for a man in Georgia to get custody of children?”
She said, clearly making a question within a statement.
“Oh, I suppose we are not as backward in the South as we are made out to be,”
I answered her listening to the entertainment coming from the upstairs bar.
I was watching through the windows of the restaurant as a
Huge barge moved across the glittering waters of San Francisco bay.
Off to one side I could make out the lights of the Golden Gate Bridge.
Amazingly beautiful.
“It must be nice to be able to have views like this everyday,” I commented.
She hardly noticed that I’d said anything.

When we had finished eating, I paid and we got up to leave.
As we passed by the stairway leading up to the bar I said,
“Let’s go listen to some of the local talent.”
She nodded her approval and said that she needed to go to the ladies room.
With her gone I gave the man behind the booth $10 and filled out the papers.
When she returned we climbed the stairs and were seated
At a table just in front of the stage.
A woman was singing her rendition of
“The Tambourine Man.”
It was truly an eclectic crowd that somehow was still enthralled in the
Middle to late 1960’s, you know the type.
The Haight Ashbury district was sure alive and well here in Sausalito.

I watched my date, she wasn’t impressed, not in the least.
The bar had a house band that would play whatever music the
New entertainer wanted to be played.
We listened to several other hopeful stars.
Then they called my name.

I looked to my date and saw the surprise in her eyes as I said,
“Would you excuse me for a minute?”
I took to the stage asking the keyboard player to move over.
I turned around and winked at my date.
And then I began to sing and play…

'Sittin on the Dock of The Bay.'

Having sung my song, I returned to our table.
Did I break the ice?
The $250 prize was a nice little footnote,
As was the rest of the evening.
No more wasted time………*

(Click or cut and paste the link below to hear me on the CD)
https://youtu.be/D-EKmIirqYE

The above link will take you to YouTube.com where I have uploaded the song. You will need to copy and paste the URL into your browser and once it loads click on the arrow in the bottom left of The YouTube player to start up the music. The above story is almost useless without hearing the music.
We are the face of Christmas
If you’ll look inside you’ll see
In a place where only children hide
That’s where the face will be.

The Christmas bell ringing on the door
As I exit the small downtown store on 5th and Main.
It reminds me once again that it is Christmas.
On the sidewalk a cold North wind flushes my cheeks red,
I tighten my scarf tighter around my neck.

I round a corner and just across the street I see several
Gathered around a large table, all waiting in a line.
Curious, I cross the street and take up my place.
I look around the line to see a sign that says –

“The Real Santa Clause- $1.00”

One by one people step up to the old man behind
The table and hand him a dollar –
The old man reaches into a large red bag under the table
And produces a small doll of Santa Clause.

One step at a time I move closer to the old man until
It is almost my turn to give him a dollar.
I watch as those in front of me walk away with their doll,
Each one walking a few steps away and then they abruptly stop,
Looking back to the old man, their eyes with a questioning awe.

It’s my turn – finally - I step up to the table with my dollar in my hand.
I hold out my dollar and then it becomes clear to me that the old man is blind
For I have to find his open hand to place the dollar into.
He accepts the payment and opens the red bag feeling for my prize.

The old man chants “Merry Christmas” as he hands me the doll
Seeming to talk more to the doll than he was to me.
Receiving the doll I repay the emotion returning the “Merry Christmas.”
The old man nodding his head as if to say yes all the while.

Walking away I look down at the Santa Clause figure in my hand.
I notice one piece of clothing that doesn’t seem to fit.
The doll has a scarf wrapped around its head.
It’s a tiny copy of...
Of the scarf that I am wearing!

Quickly I unwrap the scarf from Santa’s face and find –

The face on my Santa

IS ME

We are the face of Christmas
If you’ll look inside you’ll see
In a place where only children hide
That’s where the face will be.
Hopefully this piece will remind all of us what Christmas is really about.
472 · May 2017
The Lonely

A constant companion that I know all to well,
No shadows following wherever I go.
No other life to show and tell.
It is with me
Though no one I see.
Where do I put this thing called lonely?
Who do I share when it is me only?

It follows me around
Wherever I go,
It makes not a sound
And it weighs on me so.
The God I know is always with me
But he has not a breath
And even though he does give comfort, you see,
He is God, in a way as lonely as me.

Isn’t that why creation, is not that why you and I?
He turned nothing into something
And if you ask him why
He will say it was in the name of love.
I question not the reasoning
When he says it was lonely above.
But not one breath can I create –
I am not God.
So must I trust it to fate?
This seems so odd.

Through the long lonely night the lonely shares my pillow.
Always there
Somewhere between a heart that is shallow
And another one that is where?
Does anyone understand what this is all about?
Does anyone care enough to stand up and shout?
I don't even know how to begin
When these walls have sunk so far within.
The walls keeping the lonely in ahead
Of everything else instead?

But from the depths of the shadows of my soul
I rise above the darkness that follows
And look back through the old
And feel it within me - what could have been
If only life had a chance to begin.
But these things, are not meant to be.

For it's just me and the lonely.
That's all I can see.

I suppose everyone knows the lonely. Here I turn the adjective into a noun accepting it or giving it a personality. Like a ghost not only following me but also inhabiting me. Once that is accomplished - giving it personhood - then I can begin to conquer it. Otherwise it's just an adjective describing me.
471 · Jun 2017
The Idiot's Corner
Am I merely an entertaining guest?
If so – in the course of my entertainment
Perhaps I should have resigned
All of these cursed talents one after the other
On the principle that no matter what -
There is no way that I could keep them all.
Perhaps if someone else had these curses
And they were not in my brain -
Maybe then I could become a regular Joe.

Yet I ask – Is it that I am the one let in
To show off my own wit or is it
That I was let in to see the wit of others?
I call upon heaven itself to bear witness
To the fact that even now,
I have never once opened my lips.
Even so I am told by most that they have
Never had a more improved conversation
With a man in their life. Strange.

How crafty and artful I must be to
Speak without ever saying a single word.
Have I some gift to UN-people them from
Their dominion over their own
Ideas of Love?
Or are all of us mere objects of our affections
Hiding about as slaves in a church while not
Actually believing in anything?
Could a slave defend the citadel anyway?

In my mind I form designs toward
All sentiments of every religion finding
That beauty has its place buried
So deep in worship that even the
Church is but a slave to its effects.
But life itself is not so adamant.
It comes and it goes flowing through
First one and then another having no
Such chain or restraints as does the
Fleeting song of beauty which in time
Steals all beauty laying waste to us all.

Likewise, religion too is a waste if it
Is based purely on the beauty of itself.
My lips are not moving now either
But they are neither dead or fully alive.
But if they could they surely would say
More than an entire encyclopedia could
Say by just saying that one single word aloud.
Yet if I said that one word aloud
Everyone would take me to the corner
Pinning the badge of idiot upon me.

So remember of me this -
I am as much a slave to this mind
As this mind is a slave to life.
The price for this mind’s freedom has
Within it an honest reckoning of which
I can neither avoid or deny.
Inside my mind there is a slave fighting
Diligently with my every sentiment of honor –
Both cherished and despised by this, my inner revolt.

Yet I grow ever stronger even as I battle myself.
Though I am often forced back down
To a slavery system which forces me
To be a slave to that one word that has
Within it the ability to set us all free.
While it both loses us and finds us
Somewhere inside of this silenced art.
I need not say the word for if you are
A slave to it – as am I – you already know it.

Ssshh – just write about it – don’t say it out loud.
You know that to most people we poet's are basket cases right? In this piece I try to communicate with other like minded poetic fools such as myself. Only a poet can understand another poet - I have come to believe this is true.
470 · Jun 2017
Silvery Pearls
I was a planet explorer
Long before they explored
The planets

Then I was a farmer
Long before they toiled the soil
With their hapless endless rows

I was the black man, the red man
The white man and the yellow one too
Long before there was any separation

I was a cowpoke
Long before there
Were any herds

I was your cabin boy
Long before you ever planned
That well deserved vacation

I was a pioneer
Building my home of mud
Long before there were any houses

I was a stream
Before there were any streams
For I filled each one of them

With my own silvery pearls
Ever heard the term "Cry Me a River" - well when anyone says that to me - this is how I respond to them. Touche'
463 · Jun 2017
The Eye of the Needle
Bare feet come running down the stairs and
Then they run right through the screen door bursting
Onto the front porch stopping only briefly
To look at me and smile – then Zeke plants
Those feet once again as he runs and jumps into my lap.
The church bells begin playing their toll while
This beautiful 8 year old gift bounces back and forth
Chanting – Happy Birthday to Me – Happy Birthday to Me.

On the walkway out front a half dozen people pass all
In their Sunday best as Zeke waves to them still
Singing himself his birthday song.
None of the six wave back – all toting their Bibles
Shaking their heads ignoring Zeke - and me as well.
“How come you don’t go to church?” Zeke asks turning
Those bright blue eyes up toward mine while scratching
His right foot and with a small lock of hair across his left eye.

“Let’s see, you just graduated the second grade, did you not?”
I asked already knowing the answer pushing the hair out of his eye.
“Yep,” he replied - “Teacher says that I’m now a third grader and
She told Mom that she was going to see if the board would let
Me skip the third grade because she thinks it would be a waste for me.”
“That’s great Zeke,” But what do you think about that,” I ask?
“I don’t know, I try not to think about it – I don’t want to lose my friends,”
Zeke said with that small, sweet childish voice that makes everything understood.

“It’s OK Zeke, it’s OK to be frightened of the unknown – hey – you being
Almost a fourth grader – how well can you read now,” I asked?
Quickly he turned and grabbed my paper saying, “I can read anything, Grandpa.”
With that he read the headline on the small town gazette.
“Supreme Court Upholds Ban on Ten Commandments Abolished from Courthouse,”
And then he continues on with the rest of the article.
It’s clear to me that he knows the words but does he grasp their meaning?
I let him read the entire article aloud and when he finishes, “How was that,” he asks?

“That was great Zeke, really good reading,” taking away the paper from him.
“Now tell me what you read, what did you learn?’'
“Umm, the court said that the town cannot put the – the commands on the walls
Of the cord house,” he said confidently.
Knowing this little man did his job as best he could
I patted him on the head in approval saying, “Very Good, real good.”
“But why don’t you go to church Grandpa,” he asked again?
“Do you now where I keep the Bible,” I asked him back?

“Sure, it’s that big book on the coffee table, isn’t it,” he stated
While pointing to the adjacent living room wall.
“Yep, that’s it – why don’t you go get it and bring it out here?”
Without saying a word he was back on the porch floor with
Those quick feet headed to the screen door – patta-pat-patta-pat
Inside – then he rewinds the effort as he comes back to me
With the large 5 pound Bible in hand.
Handing me the Bible he climbs back in my lap.

I scrunch him up under my arm with his legs and feet out straight
Placing the Bible in his lap and opening it to Matthew 19:23-26.
Pointing at verse 23 - I ask Zeke to read the verse.
“I tell you the truth, it is hard for a rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven. Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of 'the' needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God. When the disciples heard this, they were greatly astonished and asked, “Who then can be saved?” Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
Zeke laughed - “A camel cannot go through the eye of 'a' needle,” he said.

“Not so fast Zeke,” I said questioning his reasoning, “Are you sure that you know
What is being said?”
Zeke looked at the good book, “I think so?”
“OK, look at it from Jesus’s point of view.
In Jesus’s time there were 12 gates to Jerusalem and
One of those gates was so small that they called that gate
The Eye of The Needle and it is this gate that Jesus was
Referring to – Now does the verse make more sense?”

He leaned back into me saying, “Yes – now it makes sense -
Jesus was talking about a gate that was hard to get a camel through.”
“Good Zeke, so now you see that it is important to understand
The meaning of every word and of every phrase – otherwise - your
Mouth is just spitting out meaningless words and if you do
That often enough other people learn to do the same thing.”
“But how do you know this grandpa?”
He turned those blue inquisitive eyes upward to me.

“Because I’ve seen the remnants of the Eye of The Needle, Son.”
We sat there on the porch all morning – him asking –
Me trying to explain things – when all at once he turned the pages
Back to the parable of the Eye of The Needle and he pointed
At the scripture saying, “I see why you don’t go to church, Grandpa.”
He reread aloud, “Who then can be saved?” Jesus looked at them and said,
“With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”
He looked at me while pointing to the verse.

“No man can save us can he grandpa?”
'Happy Birthday, Zeke,' I said smiling as we rocked away in our own harmony.
Religion teaches anything but how to find yourself. And yet it is only through one's own self can we ever hope to be found.
446 · Jun 2017
Knot Heads
One evening, while going to a small concert being held at Martini’s,
I was just entering the door of the establishment when a woman
Was coming out in a rush with tears in her eyes.
I moved as quickly to one side as I could - to give her free passage.
She did the same only to the same side as I and in a most compromising
Manner we solidly ran our two heads together with a thud.
She immediately jumped to the other side to get out of the door.
It seemed as if I were as unlucky as she for as she sprang to one side, so did I -
A second time, and a third – as if I were intentionally trying to block her way.
It was ridiculous and though she smiled through her tears I felt so unbelievably
Inadequate to move anywhere, so finally I just stood still so she could pass.
But the guilt of those tears beckoned me that this literal bumping into each other
Was not by mere chance, so much so that I now had not a reason to see the concert.
So I stepped back out of the doorway and followed her with my eye
As she made her way down the sidewalk.
She looked back at me twice looking like she was running away from me.
To anyone else who might have been watching it might have seemed
As if I were the transgressor and indeed one woman
Entering Martini’s gave me a look of scorn as if I
Were the reason for the woman’s tears.
I shook my head trying to say, “No, it isn’t me,” but it seemed
A futile plea to her as she had condemned me already.
But whether I was to blame or not mattered little
Because as a human being - did I not have the duty to reach out
To any creature who might be in distress?
I made a thought in my head that said that I should apologize
So I started out after her – no that’s not the correct translation –
I lit out after her, whoever she was, hoping that I could be of some assistance.

When I had caught up to her she was standing on the corner hailing a cab.
It was dark and she was dressed all in black and every cab that passed
Acted as if she were invisible.
It was beginning to rain and as I stepped up next to her I took off
My coat and wrapped it around her which at first startled her.
Then I begged her forgiveness for the earlier incident, trying to
Explain that I was merely trying to get out of her way.
She answered that she too was guided by the same intention
Towards me and she said that it was her fault and not mine.
So we reciprocally and sufficiently apologized and thanked
Each other until I saw a cab approaching from down the street.
I stepped out onto the street and whistled at the cabbie and
The driver quickly pulled up beside us.
I opened the back door to the cab and handed her in it
While she squirmed and removed my coat handing it back to me.
One of the buttons on my coat was steadfast hung in her black sweater
And as we both tried to free the button – our heads butted again.
We both laughed as I said that this was the fourth time that our heads
Had met each other tonight.
She put her lips to my ear and whispered,
“I wish to heaven that you would make me a fifth bumping.”
She moved over in the seat and I joined in beside her thinking
How life is too short to be long about the forms of it.
446 · Jun 2017
My Garden
Enter with me into the perfumed garden
And I shall share it with you to see.
The plants with their mating dance have already begun
Taking in the sun, the earth, the moon, the common bee,
The wind, the water – all apart of the garden’s flowering.
Every road, every footpath, every by-way does end
But they are all bordered with pinks, reds and wandering
Blues – waxed and un–waxed, tall and short with many a trend.
We are all a part of the flowering of the kingdom of Eden.
But this is my garden of truth.
A sharp swish of branch with no resin’s scent in this place.
No coarse weeds or taste of bark, only truth to sleuth
Out the fruit that lies under the covering of the human race.
Over there, do you not see the “pair” there?
Watch as they remember when they were placed on this earth.
In this garden, in those bodies, they move about here
Laughing, dancing, singing of their worth.
Their fruit undercover aching for the morning light.
Ripened pears wadded into clothing protected from frost,
Sweet melons, almost ripe, smothered in an airtight
Corsage, clinging to the fullest of crisscrossed stalks.
When the spring comes to this garden we see the perfection
Of balance between male and female qualities reflected
In the flowers’ blooms, a silhouetted combined reflection
Of male and female where the pears cling to the branch granted
Residence – Or the melon – sun bleached and **** to the taste.
For this is beauty, beauty without strength, the smallest of fingers
Reaching high into the sky, the pathway made of twigs,
Spiced heads, reddish pink stalks, with leaves like beggars
Straining to turn toward the lighted prigs.
Oh ye of little faith just look at the earth as the garden that it is.
Taste the fruit of nature’s wisdom and let spring come to your garden.
For it is we who renews the earth and all that we have to do to pass the quiz.
Use the earth’s resources wisely for we are the coachmen
Who drives the earth forward into the light.
We are like fruit clinging to a branch calling out our birthright –
This earth is our earth and we have only this chance to get it right.
When you struggle the most just look to Mother Nature. She's always there ready to take your breath away.
Found on the date of nine – two – three – two – oh – one – seven -
On that day a far greater kingdom of Persia shall be reborn.
United again their prince of war shall endure a crude destruction.
The fires of Hades soon spill out upon the seduction.

Six fortnights later the earthly engine grinds to halt
Followed by rumors on every side.
The very laws of nature open their rightful vaults.
The power of lesser animals can no longer be denied.
442 · Apr 2018
In The Name Of
My bleeding here like this -
May it never stop until I have
Taken my very last breath.
And in that last breath may I
Somehow take up my pen
Thrusting it into my chest once again
To make way for the release of that last
Phrase which still anchors itself so
****** deep in my soul.

Oh, to feel it finally ooze from me
Leaving me void of its painful control.
Of which I both love it and I hate it too.
Its double edged influence like God
Himself on the one side giving me hope
While the devil is on the other,
The destroyer of all that I ever hoped.
Oh dear Lord - is not my pen like
A multi-cartridge-d vessel containing
More than just one color?

At times to be blue
When the pain of life draws out that color.
Spilling all my tears
To anyone within my reach.
At other times my pen writes a crimson red,
Letting go of all the love that is in me.
Then to click it yet again to find the black
Darkness that also lives somewhere in my soul.
But there is another color, isn’t there Lord?

Yes, one so silky white in color
That when I write in on this page
No one can ever see it.
That is, no one but you Lord.
So if I leave a white page
With my last dying breath
Perhaps you’ll understand that it’s
Just another note from me to you.

Pulling my pen from my bleeding heart
While taking the last breath I shall write to you:

With the tidings of my fate squarely in your hands oh Lord,
My bleeding has not quite yet stopped.
Here you are to come to administer
Whatever consolation of thy affection
That thy Love has for me.
Dear Lord, receiveth my parting breath
And close my eyes within your blessings.
And when I reawaken let me find myself
Somewhere in the midst of your framework.

Thou hast undoubtedly numbered all of my tears
And placed them in a bottle for safe keeping.
Dear God, thou has always been the framework
For all these words that I bleed upon these pages.
They were all my fancy embracing my feeble knees
Hoping to raise my eyes to bid me into your comfort.
They are all my own blessings like the child within my heart.
Never more so than when I am bleeding here like this
In these words – only then do I feel your principles
Ever present within me.

So take me Lord when my bleeding has stopped
And please don’t be alarmed if even then
My soul dips its finger into my own crimson jell
And one last time with that finger I write

In the name of Love……
This is a repost. I think this is my favorite piece that I wrote many years ago. I still feel this way. Even when I’m not writing I’m always thinking of what to write. If you are as infected as I am about trying to express whatever this is inside of us all - I think you’ll appreciate this piece.
440 · Jan 2018
Death Wish
Shrouded in mystery, confined to my head —
Sometimes I think I’d be better off dead.
In here the inhabitants haven’t enough room —
They quibble and quarrel and spread so much gloom.

Do any of them have more of the native right—
To occupy my mind, let alone my sight?
There are those, the chosen ones, who grow here more strong,
Their rightful cause at great length fighting the wrong.

And every thoughtless idea the others bare,
They are my enemies but they are every where.
Thus worn and weakened and filled with ill content,
Why must I submit me to this internal government?

Impoverished and deprived of all my command,
Their thoughts double as mine lose their stand.
What they are is not real - not flesh and blood,
They’re a disgrace to everything and burnt like the wood.

If I died would not these heathens go up in flame?
They are priests of all religions, are they not all the same?
Of whatsoever descent from their godhead be,
Just mud and stone or other worthless pedigree.

In my defense my thoughts are always bold,
As if they were written of the purest gold.
But these Rabbis are my worst of enemies,
They are not honest men and they are not at all wise.

For if it 'twas their duty and like the learned think,
They’d espouse my own thoughts of which they eat and they drink.
From hence began this plot of my demise as if I were cursed,
Their bad intensifies in me – am I representing their worst?
Ok - just deep - perhaps too deep...
436 · May 2017
Sofia
Here is something that I read in the headlines today
And I AM OUTRAGED… (Just kidding guys...)
It goes like this;

“An ex-communicable hubbub broke out in the halls
Of the church today as a certain group proposed
That a super God named Sofia created God
While depicting images of the feminine deity.”

(Can you imagine such a thing?)

The article went on -

“The conflict is over the lefts’ constant barrage of
Attacks to modify references of a male being the
Supreme deity by pointing out that God also has” -
And I quote, “Motherly qualities.”

What an awful a thing - I just don’t know how these
People get off the bus without knowing they are on
The Lunatic Fringe – who do they think we are?
(Again I’m being sarcastic here.)

Back to the article;

“United Methodist leader, Dado do dis do dat said
At the annual conference of the 12 tribes of Brooklyn
That no comparable words of heresy had been spoken
In the last 15 centuries and that just when the church
Begins to lose its grip on powers and principalities,
Weird sort of things like this start to happen.
He went further stating that these ideas must be
Eradicated from Christian thinking.”

Or what? Or these women are taking over?

“Bishop Dado do dis do dat continued – We wanted
Woman speakers who could carry on the Christian
Tradition – but look what happened.”

(You haven’t heard anything yet.)

“The women, who were venerating Sofia as a Goddess
Used ****** images to express the divine and held a
Workshop on belly dancing.”

(All right -)

“And went on further stating that the woman claimed
That with their hot wombs they give formula
To life and with the nectar between their thighs -
We women create the world as we know it.”

(LoL… go Sofia… )

(This was a real article in a real paper.)

The point here is this.

We are in the age of Aquarius and
The Aquarian age is a feminine age.
And that’s what we are experiencing.
There are those who will, for their own
Reasoning, exaggerate both sides of the issue -
Jesus said it this way, “It’s just birthing pains.”
Before the child is born there is a lot of difficulty.
But the child that is being born into this age
Is a beautiful thing.
Move over Dado do dis do dat,
There’s a new sheriff in town
And she ain’t likely to put up with
Your crap any longer.

Names changed to protect the guilty...
I am always amazed at how the simplest non- threatening things are twisted into a reason for more dissension. Rodney King said it best - "Can't we all just get along".  I think the answer to Mr. King's question is to say yes that we can by shutting down a media device that dies everything that it can possibly do to stir up more anger.
411 · Jun 2017
Grandma
“Let me tell you,” she said as she reached
For her glasses making her eyes to be
At least five times their original size.
“Let me tell you right now, you don’t know anything.
Hard times, these aren’t hard times, why I remember
A time during the great depression when all we had to eat
Were a few soda crackers everyday, I ate so many
Soda crackers I could wipe my backside with
A wisk broom – Now those were hard times.”

“I know Grandma; I know you’ve been through a lot,”
I said as I held her by the arm trying to get her into
My little compact Japanese gas saver car.
I held her from bumping her head on the top of the car
So that she could try to get one leg into the
Floor of the front passenger seat.
“Watch your head Grandma.”

“You look the other way, how in the name of heaven
Do they expect someone do get into these tiny little bugs?
I said for you to look the other way,
Can’t you see I’m in a dress?
Now your Grandpa, rest his poor soul,
That man - at least he knew how to pick a car.
Why, you could put four of these little
Mutant Ninja Turtles in that old Buick we had
And still get two more in the trunk.
Where is that old Buick anyway?”

“Remember Grandma, we sold it to pay
For your adjustable comfort bed,” I answered
As I - with my head turned - lifted her other leg
And eased it into the car.
“Let’s put on your seat belt, Grandma.”

She slapped my hand and stomped the floor saying,
“Stop it, stop it, don’t you put that noose around my head.
I’ve been riding in cars for Nye on sixty years
And I’ve never worn a seat belt and I ain’t about
To start a wearing one now.
Ted, it’s your responsibility not to hit anything -
And if you can’t drive good enough to keep from
Hitting anything in the five miles to Doctor Langston’s
Office then you can just go right back in the house and
Get that shoe horn of mine and come back out here
And wedge me back out of this torture box.”

Caught up in oblivion, shutting the car door carefully,
While shaking my head, I wondered what
Mortal sin I had committed that created these
Circumstances where I had to be subjected to the
Wrath of my Grandmother’s dominance.
Once underway I reminded her,
“I’m not Ted Grandma, I’m *****, remember me?
I’m Ted's son; *****: Ted had to work today so I’m taking
You to the doctor.” She looked at me through
Those thickened glasses and then tightened her grip
On the purse lying in her lap.
Then she turned her head looking out the side
Window as the trees and mailboxes passed by.

All three of the red lights on the way to the doctor’s office
Were green and we made it there it record time.
I pulled into a parking spot and looked towards her
And said, “Here we are safe and sound.”

She turned her head away from the side window and then
She looked oddly at her purse saying, “I have a confession
To make Ted, I mean *****.”
Like a small child caught with her hand in the cookie jar
She continued, “I really don’t have a doctor’s appointment today.”

“What do you mean Grandma?”

She looked up at me with tears in her eyes,” I just get so
Darned lonely sometimes, *****. So lonely that I think
That I’m going out of my mind.” Then she looked back
At her purse as a tear ran off the side of her cheek.

I felt her pain and I knew a little about loneliness.
I reached over with my right hand placing it on her left
And asked, “How would you like to go to the park
Today Grandma?”

She looked up saying, “Only if I can have a hot dog.”
Take the time to take care of those too old too take care of themselves.
400 · Jun 2017
All The Difference
Heart raising a hollow mist to the heavens
In the cove this sultry spring’s morning.
Thoughts quicken to brightly colored sail boats
Sitting quietly in their moorings.
Bobbing about to and fro
With masts reaching tall into the fog.
Tethered to land and to each other –
They dance effortlessly in the waves.

Farther out into deeper waters larger vessels
Move slowly about the harbor.
Some anchored awaiting to unburden their bloated bellies
While others sit high in the water to take on new cargo.
Each with a scurry of movement about their decks
In preparation for the chores of today’s tasks.
The pier becoming the object of their labors.

My mind dissected by the peacefulness of the sailboats
And transgressed by the labors of the larger vessels.
A frightfully busy place is the harbor.
A tranquil loving place is the cove.
A visual blend of both seemingly distant worlds
Lie before me indulging my mind into each.

And I wonder…

Am I as this sailboat tethered safely to the shore
Or am I in the harbor scurrying about
To take on the next heavy load?
The mystery hidden somewhere in the blanketing fog.
Walking across the small dock
Feet capture the movement of my sailboat.

I release the chains that tether her to mother earth
And she, I in her belly, move away from her bindings.
No longer restrained sails slip us from the cove
And into the harbor as the sun rises a new day.
The veiling fog lifting to reveal the answered
Question of this mornings predawn endeavor.

The difference between the cove and the harbor
Lies not in the depth of the water.
That depth need not be frightening.
Looking back into the cove from the harbor
I find that it is what I have brought with me –

That is what makes all the difference…..
No matter what we endeavor - it is up to us to make a difference.
391 · Mar 2018
Last Rights of Every Poet
Thy lively prose and sprightly words disclose
Within a sweetness of eyes as fixed as those.
The flavor of your smile extends
Often to reject, but with love, it never offends.
To a poet thine eyes strike
Like the sunshine, they are so alike.
With a graceful ease void of pride
It hides any fault - if in you - you ever had any fault to hide.
For if to thy being some poetic errors befall
One look into those words and I’d have surely forgotten them all.

Doest’ thou know the beauty that I find in a single verse?
Let alone the many where my mind becomes traversed?
In unequal sentences measured in a peck
They shine like gold covering ‘round your ivory neck.
In these labyrinths - I am but a slave detained –
A mighty heart held within your slender chains.
So much to ponder in your imperial snare.
When all I ever needed was to know you there.

Let me breathe the breath that raises the fire.
Till we all fall together, never let us transpire.
To obtain and possess for each of us this prize.
The one I see when I’m lost within these cries.
If the powers can grant me but half of this prayer,
Then all the rest can fly to the winds dispersed into empty air.

Come now, my poet friends, secure this vessel that glides,
Fill it once again like sunbeams trembling across the floating tides.
Melt away the distant music that stole away the sky,
A deafening sound along the unwritten reply.
Please feel the smooth flow of the waves in gentle play.
Give me another smile to share with the whole world today.

Oh my thoughts of you are so tightly compressed,
I see the love tread softly across all the rest.
Summoned straight from some denizen's despair,
A lucid mastery of mystery, let it sail in to repair.
Soft underneath this shroud of death,
Let me feel your whispered breath.
Words flowing of the love we all bequeath.
We are many fluid bodies half dissolved in light.
Let us lose these garments erasing every mortals’ sight.
Our bodies given away freely in the words of a few,
Each of us lost in the other, the ones’ we always knew.
From every beam a transient color flings,
Given of life with our love on its wings.
Amidst the circle of life rides an ink filled gilded mast
With our hearts throbbing together within our task.
With purple pinions raised to the sun,
We raised our pens and shouted - we have just begun.
When a poet passes the words left behind become more meaningful. Isn’t that sad?
386 · Jun 2017
Perfect Circle
Sitting, she opened the lapel of my jacket and from
My shirt pocket – she took my pen.
Then from her purse she pulled out a small diary
And carefully unwound the ribbon from its leather binding
Until it opened her into the next available page.

“Shall I write” she asked, “Or is it – I shall write?”
Questioning her flippant words I reply,
“But is there a difference?”
“Oh yes”, she said, “There is the greatest of differences –
For in the one there is a question while in the other there is a statement.”

“Hum,” said I – thinking ore her commentary – “Yes I suppose
In one sense with one remark you are the slave while
In the other remark you are the master.”
I watched as she wrote into her diary today’s date and then
She wrote, “His mind works in a perfect circle.”

“Why did you write that?” I questioned.
“Because I must be a slave to what I write,” she responded.
“I beg to differ madam”, said I, “That was clearly a
Statement – a statement about me – that makes you the master.”
“No”, she said, “I am merely serving YOUR pen.''

I am apt to be taken with all kinds of people at first sight:
But never more so than when a poor devil comes to offer
Her opinions to an even poorer devil as I.
Oh I know my own weaknesses as I always suffer them in every thought,
Drawing concentric rings about them according to the mood that I am in.

“Is it because I’m a woman?” she asked, “Does my gender preclude
My ability to be a slave to words or do you believe all women are the master?”
I thought on her questions for a minute seeing full well the trap that she
Was so eloquently leading me into – for on the one hand I am to lead -
While on the other – and this one must be the real truth – I am to be led.

“When you first walked into the lobby”, I said, “I found myself
After every excuse that I could make to my soul to meet you.
Your genuine look and the very air around you at once
Determined that any matter between us was in your favor.
So I came over to you to see what it was that you wanted me to do.”

She put the pen to the paper once more and wrote, “Well almost
A perfect circle but somewhere the circle seems to be broken.”
“Now hold on a minute,” I said wrapping my arms on my chest, “You want
To write in your diary that MY CIRCLE is broken when you’ve not
Had the benefit of my accompaniment for more than a mere 5 minutes?”

She looked into my face, “OH - I - SEE, you take an offense that I sum up
Your worth based upon less than 5 minutes with you when you yourself
Just said that you came over to me – without knowing me mind you – to see
What it was that “I” wanted YOU to do – excuse me but if anyone here is
Being presumptuous - then “I” think that it must surely be you.”

I walked around her chair to the left in a broad
Circle until I came directly up to her on the one side of the seat.
“You know”, I remarked, “You may be right my circle may be broken
For it seems like there is SOMETHING IN MY WAY.”
She put my pen to her paper again and wrote “He’s a little slow but -

Thank God I think there’s some hope for him still. We SHALL see –
Or is it – SHALL we see?”
She handed me my pen, closed her diary and re-wrapped the ribbon about
It being sure to bookmark her place – her place? My Place?
She held out her hand and I took it in mine helping her to her feet.

“Yes, I suppose WE shall see”: I said as I kissed the back of her hand and
Then we turned to walk side by side toward the elevator corridor.
We reached the elevators and one door was open so we stepped aboard.
The door closed - “No one is a slave nor are they the master -
There can be no perfect circle until that truth is realized,” she whispered.

She turned to me as the elevator rose,
“We have to stop meeting like this”, I said.
“Oh but I know how you like roll playing”, she answered.
“But I was hoping that this time I could lead you”, I replied.
“You know you love it”, she whispered as she pushed the button marked

**Stop!!
In as much as a man's mind is full of more fantasy than fact - especially we - (clearing my throat) older gents - some of us don't have much else besides imagination.  So forgive mine.  Sure beats nothing.
381 · May 2017
eeS oT uoY roF
In my most quiet of moments
I stir my heart.
The mixture it generates swells
Throughout my extremities coalescing
In this page, another finger painted start.
It contradicts that which is allways of mind.
It conjures up something yet defined.
Splattered words on the kettle’s crest
They fill the void with more or less.
Tinkering on a balance beam,
The right words jostle to be redeemed.

I could say they were me – my own gentle art -
But are they? Or are they just mine to take the part?
For they come from where I cannot see
And sometimes they go to where I cannot be.
They drive me around in an uncovered plea
Straight up to the heart of me.
Yet it is here in these pages that I belong
Found between the lines – how could I be wrong?
If I were to dismantle my heart here before your eyes
Would you understand its dissected replies?
I think I surely would if I thought that you could
Trace the lines inside of me – all the way to understood.

In this one place I take leave of myself
Pulling out everything from off the shelf.
Scattered on the floor – oh what is left?
With my hand I pick up another piece of myself.
Placing it here, covertly from right to left.
Could you ever know of such a scattered line?
If you could it would be the real me defined.
Yes, in my most quiet of moments
I stir my heart.
In the mix it regenerates me -
The real me -
**eeS oT uoY roF
Words are nothing more than symbols or signs. Many do not know this. They hold out the wrong sign all the time and then wonder why things happen the way that they do. In this piece by reversing just 4 little insignificant words I make the reader focus on what it is that they are seeing.
375 · Feb 2018
Painted on the Breeze
All of my troubled lives have I taken leave
Of all that I ever thought you could be?
Without seeing you or knowing you
And often at the very idea of you,
I suffered a bidding of something I could never know.
As if I had long ago bid you adieu.

That time, time was my heart suffering
At some strange and dismal crisis.
My mind, body and soul were to be as separate beings
Which somehow seemed to be less than nothing
Until I passed that tremendous moment.
My love - your love - they were both in different worlds,
One where I would give anything to go after them or
Even hear of an account of them.

Time was what life could never be.

The reality of those words working softly over me
Like one day does blend into the next until
Returning blurred through some imagined memory.
All of my lives, have I really taken my leave of thee?
I always knew everything that I thought you would be.
But I see you and now I have
More than just the mere idea of you.

Oh but at least I no longer suffer at something I never knew.
So now I pray Lord, with the windows open tonight,

I beg of you

Paint me on the outgoing gentle breeze.
Let me know this love I need.
Let me be the warmness in the air that you breathe.
Let me drift through your open window
Softly blowing the sheer curtains over you.

Oh to be that sweet caress,
Sensual and soft upon your skin.
Your bed becoming a cloud
Cradling you in the misty waters of warmth.
Let it graze lightly upon your body
Like the tip of a painter's brush.

Let yourself feel my love with every movement,
Designed for your pleasure.
Let me hear you beg to be fully painted.
Let all of our art take its intended form.
Dipping again into the warm paint
Withdrawing slowly, ever so slowly
To feel the paint take hold.
Admiring our beautiful work,

Whatever it is that we create.

Within our artistic release
The hottest colors of passion
Pouring from within us
With each brush stroke erupting
So smoothly until
Even the brush shudders.
The immense sensations born on the wind.
Listen now, can you hear me?
Can you feel me?
I’m right here.
Painted on the breeze.
Needs no explanation. Just an inner expression.
365 · Feb 2018
The Elements
Barefoot - the walk up the beach alone
Is a journey alongside passionate waves
Like walking on anchored cotton
Each step anxiously craving the next sandy touch.
Oceans of water join in the experience
Retreating around my feet.
My long shadow follows me like a kitten
In the orange day glow of the evening light.

In my mind I recreate passionate times
While tickled feet squish into the unarmored sand.
Each thought complete in its own uniqueness.
A delicacy of emotions racing in with the tide.
The hopes that were held most dearest,
The fears that kept most things inside.
Am I dreaming or awake?
It’s hard to say –
The lullabies of the waves are my friends
Gently singing, returning me to the shore.

The walk now becoming long
The sun is beginning to close its eyes –
The kitten is no longer there.
Without even a shadow, I
Have never felt so alone.
What were once clearly discernible objects
Now become something jutting out of the earth.
Slowly they begin to glow with the new moonlight.
I continue the walk.
What is ahead? What is behind?
Either way it is just another step away.

Some of the objects must be buildings –
What lover’s secrets are being told inside?
The wind beginning to blow it shrills by me
Over the sand, past the objects to the sky
Onward to the stars above.
I wonder – can the wind carry away my loneliness?
Somehow it stays with me
Locked away deep inside.

Looking toward the ocean for answers
Shedding my clothing I oppose into the tide.
The cold liquid awakening me from my numbness.
Surrounding me like as if a billion tears.
Submerged to my chest – a dance begins.
The earth at my feet
The wind in my hair
The water all around
And the sky above with
This fire - kindled by all of the elements -
It burns deep inside of me.
And for one brief, settling, moment
We – the elements - with the tide

Are one again….
Once we understand that we - like everything else - are nothing more than a human conflagration of the elements that make up all physicality - that knowledge engages us to understand every aspect of the uniqueness of those elements in our own makeup. This poem is an exploration of that inner thought and the the truth that such an awareness evokes.
344 · Jun 2017
The Clowns
Oh words, a vile pit of clay to be formed for each guest they meet.
Shall our digits press upon them in this way or that as a creaght
Of thoughtless claws within a lying dainty love of the gravest making.
Let not these words be the reason that we are forsaken.

I form out of the clay a form of an empty skull.
Yet has not this skull a tongue in its hull
Like a politician who drowns out the emptiness of its head?
One whose reach would circumvent God himself - as if the almighty were dead.

But my skull says NO! Good morning my sweet Lord!
Thou, my most highest idea, have mercy on this – my gourd
And tell us how to oust these screeching clowns.
I see the good book inside this face, tubes of you and other pointless nouns.

A Politicians’ speech - as empty as an empty skull full of worms
Whose bone is worthless to all but its breeding.
Watch them – never listen – watch their tongue as it squirms.
These people only see words as how they can be used to be misleading.

How absolute this knave is who speaks from a card.
An invocation made not by pure thoughts but infiltrated by lard
Greasing the mind into inclusion with nothing but simple sounds.
With hair and makeup and clothing – and the empty skull - they are the clowns.
Just an expression of my disdain for politicians.
342 · Jun 2017
The End of The Beginning
Is there ever
A beginning
To anything
Without its end?
Or is there ever
An end
Without its beginning?
Or is it that “if” there
Is a beginning -
Then there must
Be an end?
The invalidity of
These questions
Bear witness to
The feebleness of
My human existence.

But grieve not for me
Ye simple travelers
And fair
Mystic Nymphs.
Instead – go pluck
The roses
And scatter their petals
In thy path.
For God himself
Has done no more
And ye cannot
Be better served
At his fountain
Of riches or
Show a better decorum
Than to bring ye
Rosy smelling feet
To him.

Only when one’s face is
Dressed out in the
Pearls of our tears
Are we sure that
We too are infected.
Tis’ a pity when love
Is stolen for it is
Always good though
Not of much use to
Anyone else.
But the heart is for beating,
Is it not?
There is very little
Else in it.
The scriptures say that
If we are as good as
We are handsome
That heaven shall fill it.
But reading that
Says nothing of its pleasure.

Or is the love one’s
Heart finds
Like the rose?
Once plucked
Its petals thrown
On the ground
Reminding us of
The love that
Was once whole?
If so, those petals
Must somehow
Remember us.
Of course -
That must be it.
They remember us
By the smell
Of our feet.
Word play trying to describe the unfathomable feeling one gets when one's love is abused.
328 · Jul 2020
Last Call
This darkened - smoke filled room
Seems like a silly place for people to gather
In such a smelly sardine fashion.
The band on stage finishing up its last number
Of their best set of copy cat blues.
The neon bar sign flashes as if a short
While the bartender bellows out “Last Call.”

One fellow sitting at a table in front of me
Seems to find his nerve.
I suppose enough Jack Black was all that was needed
To make his first move.
A few words pass and then
He leads his new found princess
To the dance floor.
Many leaving, many preparing to leave
As these two begin to dance.

They move perfectly together
Without any sound
Except for the drummer who ends
The beat with a final clamber of sound.
The guitar man leans his weapon against the wall
While the keyboard player turns off his magic.

But the two just keep on dancing.

The bar tender begins swabbing the decks
While an old gray haired man
Sweeps the floors in front of him
Turning the chairs up as he goes.
Sweeping away the memories of this night -
The old man stops to pick up a lost yellow rose
Someone dropped carelessly on the floor.
The old man takes the rose over to the couple dancing
Taping the young man on the shoulder he asks,
“Did ya drop this?”
The fellow, still moving to the imaginary beat responds,
“No sir, but I think she did.”
Taking the rose, holding it in one hand, she doesn’t miss a beat,
Still dancing with her newfound partner.
Walking by my table the old man nods at me
While saying, “It’s time to go.”
Getting up I place my chair on the table
Still watching the couple dancing.
My ears still ringing from the sounds
Of the band as I finish off my water.
And I wonder,
I wonder if I was a drinking man,
One like the one on the dance floor
Tightly absorbed in the moment,
With his new found lady friend

Could that ever be me?

Maybe,
Maybe if I hadn’t dropped the rose….
324 · Jan 2018
Living Twice
In times to come, will you believe me or believe my verse
When they come to place the words “Poet” on my tomb?
But if I write of the hidden beauty found in those eyes,
Or try to solidly account for all of your graces
Heaven itself would stop and say, "This poet lies,
Such heavenly features never left our heavenly places."
So should my letters become yellowed with age,
Or be ravaged by old women of less truth than tongue,
Sentencing my words to remain inside this poet's cage,
A simple wrinkle of some ancient love song.
Through your children that live in that futuristic time,
You will live twice, in them and in this rhyme.
321 · Jun 2017
Israel (Step One)
Stone | Water | Wine
You | Truth | Fire
Physical | Consciousness | Spirit

The good book if read properly focuses its allegory of
Symbols and signs saying one thing while meaning another.
The word stone always meaning - you or the physical.
The word water standing in for truth and consciousness.
The word wine meaning the fire or of the spirit.
The trinity thus is – stone, water and wine
In every biblical representation of each.

How do I know, what do you know and what does it matter?
Watch this…

In the ancient document we often find the use of the word Israel.
But what was Israel and where was it?
Was it a real place?
Israel is not a Jewish word.

Is | Ra | El
Egyptian | Egyptian | Egyptian
God | God | God
Isis | Ra | Within
Female | Male | Both Male and Female
****** Spirit | Mind | Ang-el (do you see the El)*

That’s why all the angels are named, Michael, Gabriel, Uriel, Rafael and
All the other El versions of the angelic allegorical texts.

The word Israel when spoken of in the gospel has nothing to do with
A race of people or a specific nationality of people.
It means that when the spirit and mind are together
They produce the power that is within.

So when someone asks you “Why is God prejudice – or why God
Has chosen people,” and they truly want to know what all this is about
You can now safely tell them that the Apostle Paul said that
A Jew is not a Jew outwardly but instead a Jew is one inwardly.

Now I am going to let you ponder on these teachings for a bit.
Go read your bible and when you see the word rock or stone
Think of it as a symbol for you or for the physical aspects of life.
When you see the word water see it as truth or the conscious aspect of truth.
When you see the word wine understand that it means fire and spirit.

The bible is not only transcribed by men of ancient times
But they had a knowledge that has become mired and confused
By time and by countless belief systems – these people had an
Advanced knowledge of the cosmos and the inner workings
Of everything.
Don’t believe me?

Jews are known in the bible as the children of light.
And what is God? The bible says that God is light.
Look it up. His name is what? His name is I am that I am.
God is not human – it is written. Look it up.
And in Numbers Chapter 2 and verse 9 we hear
That the number of the tribe of Judah was 186,400.

And what is that number, does it mean anything to you?
186,400 is the exact speed per second of light and here we have it
In the old testament referring to the Jews – the children of light.
How could they have possibly known that exact figure?
Oh we’ve just begun. The knowledge held within the pages of
This book is fascinating beyond belief – if we would just
Get through the false teachings that the Bible is literal
And learn to read the stories and their allegorical teachings
Through the lens of a pure heart and mind not jaded
By conviction or guilt or all the traditional ties.

Instead listen to Jacob tell you what is inside of you:

Genesis 32:30 - Jacob then named the place Peniel,
'For I have seen God face to face,' he said,
'And I have been delivered.'
Jesus said: The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light. But if thine eye be evil, thy whole body shall be full of darkness. (Matt 6:22-23, KJV) The place of the single or one eye is the pineal gland described by Jacob as the place named Peniel.  The only way to activate the pineal gland is in meditation. The pineal gland produces melatonin, a serotonin derived hormone which modulates sleep patterns in both circadian and seasonal cycles. The pineal gland is only activated by or in total darkness.
320 · Jun 2017
Act I - Scene II
What lines offer evenness
Amongst a passionate play?
Would not actors stand in line
Waiting to play in the heated Malay?
Roles cast of heart strings
Tied between lines whispered phrases.
What right has any character
To come alive whilst on stage?

One scripted part comes right on cue
As one mark meets the other
Right in the middle of the author’s view.
The background accompaniment
Playing softly to the screen test.
When suddenly one moves the other
While that one moves all the rest.

They stray from the script confusing all the stage.

At first tip toes lead into a scripted kiss
But then she falters losing her gauge.
Music continues its composure
While feet flounder in the demise.
She becoming the new composer
As he gets lost somewhere in her eyes.
They came to try out,
To play love in a play.
But what began to play out
Was a true love – some say.

For they could not hold back
And before all the audience,
Shoulders touch while hand in hand.
He breaks rank against the lines
While their lips cover each others
Engulfing love’s unscripted reach.

The music changing tempo
Giving more meaning to each.
Passions groping forward
Creating a brand new play.
She losing her shoes
As he shed his spats.
Non refrained skin opens and just
As this was about to become a part of that's,
The curtain swiftly closing as
The audience’s heads all tilt sideways.

Oh well - after all it was a passion’s play.
Maybe the author knew it wasn’t important what to say.
Once started, the lines conjure up
Loves unscripted intent.
Unprepared actors
Lose their marks
Lovingly spent.
Don't you ever wonder if the actors in this life's play are the people we want to be? Sometimes we read our scripted lines repeating the same things over and over again. In this piece the actors loose themselves daring to refuse to repeat what has been scripted for them to say. The irony is that when we witness anyone varying from what's expected, we generally shut the curtain on them. Only in poetry can we venture on....
313 · Jun 2017
Crippled Man on the Corner
Somewhere in the dawning of morning
In the moonlight far before noon
Lies the flickering stars of the evening
The sun shines on the moon.

A crippled man stands on the corner
Repeating his minded chant.
To no one is he a foreigner
Telling who he is, he both can and he can’t.

He rocks from side to side
Repeating the same wordy sighs.
I move closer trying to hide
There is only whiteness in his eyes.

I listen intently to what he has to say
For how can a ******* man without any eyes
Tell me any lies?
What he spoke of went something like this.

“In the beginning that which is was all there was and there was nothing else. Yet all that there was could not know itself because all that is was all there was and there was nothing else. So much so that all that is could not be. For in the absence of something else, all that is, is not. All that is knew it was all there was but this was not enough. For it could only know who it was conceptually and never know of its own touch. Yet for the experience of itself is what it yearned. For it wanted to know what it would be like if only it could know itself. But all that is could never know itself unless that which its not showed up. For in the absence of that which its not, that which is, is not. The one thing that all there is knew is that there was nothing else. So it could not nor would it ever know itself from a point outside itself because such a point did not exist. The is not wasn’t, just as the am not was. Still the all of everything wished to know itself. This pure, unseen, unheard, unobserved and therefore unknown energy chose to experience itself as it was, utterly magnificent. To do this it had to use a reference point from within. It thus divided itself into portions – each portion less than the whole and being now less than the whole it could look back on itself and see its magnificence. So in one glorious moment with all that was divided, itself becoming in one instant all that is this and all that which is that. For the first time, this and that could co-exist quite apart from each other. As did all that was neither. Thus three elements suddenly existed. That which is here and that which is there and that which is neither here nor there. But that which is neither here and neither there had to exist in order for that which is here and that which is there to exist. It is the nothing that holds the everything. It is the non-space which holds the space. It is in the everything that we find itself for it is he that divided itself into the here and the there and into the no where. Therefore itself is all there is as well as itself is all that is not. For in creating that which is here and that which is there, itself could experience itself from within and from without. From no-thing sprang everything which some choose to call “The Big Bang.” And with the possibility of here or there came the difference we know as time. For first it was here and then it was there and the period from here to there was measurable. As the parts of itself which were seen began to define themselves, so too did the parts unseen. Itself knew that for love to exist and to know itself as pure love its exact opposite had to exist as well. The great polarity of the great opposite of love is fear. But in the instant that fear existed, so too could love exist and be experienced. In order to know that all this is true – all you have to do is to follow your heart.”

I watched him as he stumbled along
With one leg turned oddly to one side.
I knew this man could do me no wrong
For he could not even see his crooked stride.

I stepped up beside him and took him by the arm,
“Sir, could I possibly give you a ride?”
“I guess that would do no harm.”
Soon we were side by side.

“Son,” he called me – turning those egg white eyes
To me, he asked – “Do I know you?”
“Yes sir, I’m just a part of all that is -
And a part of all that is not – just a part of your crew.”
If you can experience yourself as all that is and all that is not then you have experienced the freedom of knowing everything that matters.
305 · Jun 2017
Whistle While You Work
Having answered my ad for a handyman
A knock on my door offered the first applicant.
I am apt to hire anyone at first sight and
Never more so than when a poor supplicant
Is as myself but I know my own weakness -
Though that knowledge usually proves most worthless.

I let the man in and his look alone
Already predisposed the situation to be in his favor.
So, as usual, I hired him first and then began
To inquire of him what was his traver.
The man looked up to me and replied ”say what?”
I stated, “ Your sir name?”

He looked puzzled and stated, “Sir name, what’s that?”
“Well it’s your last name, sir.”
His voice quivered as he spit it out, “Nazareth.”
I kinda chuckled, “Say What?, Your first name – is it Jesus?”
He nodded his head as I half jokingly asked “Is that Jewish?”
“When can you start,” I asked handing him a wrench.

I explained that I had several tasks that needed completing
Knowing full well that a Hebrew can do anything.
We started with an outside light fixture which needed reseating.
I showed him where the ladder was and in a flash as he was riding
It up when 'Yahweh' started a low but cheery tune whistling
As he glided up the rickety thing.

I swear to my soul had the man been able to do nothing but whistle
His delightful tune - I would have not been better served.
Having finished that task I took him to the next which required a chisel
To skim off a bit of the top side of the front door which had become curved
By its constant dragging upon the frame.
He whittled it out whistling all the while just the same.

And from one task to the other we went fixing, repairing
And finishing them all until I heard his stomach growl.
I looked at my watch – it was after 12 – swearing
To 'Yahweh' that I had no idea that I had made such a foul
Keeping him from eating his lunch.
He not having one was my hunch.

“No worries,” I said as I led him inside.
We feasted on onions and tomatoes with all the trimmings.
When finished I made us a *** of coffee with a piece of fried pie.
As we ate I asked him what that tune was he was whistling.
He said he didn’t know the title but that he knew only the words.
He started whistling each line of the song like a songbird.

Between each whistled line he’d stop and speak the words.
The words went something like this.
“The lips of wisdom should always be closed
Until the ears of understanding are fully exposed.”
I had never heard this song before but from somewhere -
And I know not where – I seemed to be aware -

He continued whistling a line and then saying the words:

The mark of an intelligent mind
Has the ability to entertain
A controversial thought without
Necessarily adopting it.
Then he just whistled on as he got up from the table.


I paid him and he set out the door back to his life
As gallantly as any man ever does.
He served me a day that ended up being my whole life.
At the end of which I whistle as I go
About my day satisfying both my physical
And spiritual need to play and to know.

“The lips of wisdom should always be closed
Until the ears of understanding are fully exposed.”
I like to take real life experiences and put them to paper so that I can remember them. I think any person who likes to write knows what I mean. This piece is in part, a story but the roles have been switched. I'll let you figure out which role I played.
301 · Jun 2017
I
I
I dream awake and work while I’m sleeping.
I sit on the floor and stand on my couch.
I open the window to let out the air.
I pour out my drink because I’m thirsty.
I eat the apple peeling and throw out the apple.
I wait till something is rusty before I paint it.
I shut my mouth when asked what I think.
I close my eyes so I can see better.
I scratch my nose when my *** itches.
I don’t throw out the bath water or the baby either.
I put my foot up – not down - whenever I’m angry.
I cry myself silly and laugh myself a river.
I don’t dig ditches, I fill them.
I don’t get thirsty, I just get wet.
I am never early and I’m always late.
I sleep under the bed so I don’t have to make it.
I am not an eager ****** – I’m more of a Billy cat.
I do my homework at somebody else’s house.
I don’t pick my nose - I poke stuff in it.
I don’t punch a clock – I wear it on my ankle.
I don’t have a wedding ring – I have a wedding rung.
I cannot sing anymore because I forgot where I left my voice.
I am ugly as a picture and twice worse than nice.
I park on the parkway and drive on the driveway.
When I jump out of an airplane I yell ESKIMO.
I fly on a plane but I’d prefer to be in it.

But most of all

I wish I hadn’t started this silly poem cause now I'm out of periods
In a silly mood
289 · Jun 2017
Tunnel To The Other Side
Floating into this maddening, tumultuous trance,
Mocking my own fatigue wherever found.
Snatching wide the emptiness
Riding abreast against high silvery clouds of harmonious sound.
My shell – an object to be inwardly consumed -
Standing weakened, balanced 'til the convulsive wind awakes.
There thick hung vestal torches gleamed
'Neath my silvery feet, while placid masks
Sear the senses enlightening the heart of all things.
Unwashed joys share my earthly blooms,
Cheek to cheek un-faded in the thought it brings.
My soul linked to this shell like a common galley slave -
With my nature born with all the love to hold the forms I make.
Yet it crumbles me with each breath with the greatest loving caress.
Golden fruit hides the scathing ache
As pleasure un- hides all that once laid hidden;
I gave all I have hoping my ideas took.
The cloud blooms as the winded music fills the air,
Time stands still buried in my reflective look.
Feeling this flush of pleasure that invades my stare;
My soul shakes loose the burden of my flesh.
Then like a gallant kite flinging high
I chide for it is not vanity nor is it fresh;
It borders on brutish within a vaporous tunneling sight.
Nature's cadency dancing to her joy of strength
With harmonious limits of her enlightened might.
I give all of my impulses to these, my un-minded lengths,
Within the melody’s measure my rapid heart tries best to keep.
The winds of my breath making me a cloud with weightless turns,
Devising me deeper into this place that makes my bodiless soul weep.
Within that prodigal overflow of life that love spurns,
Sweet sounds shed from me like white garments with flowery coronals
Making me holy in the pageantry of my fates.
The beautiful sound, a measure of time in circles
Stirring my heart until I can no longer await.
Then when the dizzy tunnel spins again youth falls from me.
And it blooms once again then shrinks back to its original size -
Then come the many smiles with a glow on their honeycombed faces.
Dream- wondering I fade into the skies
Like an unaccustomed ghost stumbling over my own grave.
For my grave is always just 'neath my feet with its placid face -
But with a melded mind I meditate on my love riding life's waves
Giving that death mask a smile within God’s gentle loving embrace.
A poor representation of the experience but hopefully you can glean a little imagery from this piece.
254 · May 2017
I Am ...
Is ever what is at one’s center
Not that which flies to the extremes?
But are we not victims of some injustice
Mounted in concentric rings
Flying up the stairs to meet?

The longer I look up the staircase
The stronger they do weave
Themselves into my brain.
Any other would run up the steps
Without the slightest solicitation.

But do I have the authority
To take each step forward while
Weighing the equaling step backwards?
For this is true of myself,
Each step forward was placed

There to slow my accent allowing
Me to gain a better perspective
As I climb.
But is the author ever out of rule
If his conjectures are not easily read?

But 'IS' the author ever out of rule
When the pen strikes the paper
Pounding out the movements in time
Within his heart’s blessed beat?
Present, past and future all intertwined.

Or is it the reader who passes on
The least insinuation which moves the pen
Toward the reader’s direction?
Taking another step upward - are not
Hearts undressed in a begging plea

That no garment could ever
Cover that which is weak about each?
I know not how to throw the garment on.
Tis a written account of the journey
Of the heart in pursuit of the affections

That rise out of Love.
The most perplexing thing in life
Being the effort of telling
Anyone who I am.
For it seems that only to myself
Can I give a fair account.
Simplicity being of great measure
One should be able to describe one’s
Own self with in a 'single' word.

If I measure myself with one word
With my heart in my pen
Explaining all the efforts engaged
While looking up to the next step
That one word has to be ... I am

Yours...
Is that not what we all are? I think that some of us can easily recognize the ones that always belong.
243 · Jun 2017
What Is Truth?
What is truth?

Unfortunately –

No one can be told what the effect is.
You have to know for yourself.
What if this was your last chance?
After, maybe there is no turning back.
You can take the red pill and the story ends.
You wake up in your bed and believe
Whatever you want to believe.
Or you can take the blue pill
And stay in wonderland as I show you
How deep the rabbit hole really goes.

Science says that we are made of detritus
Stuff exploded from distant stars.
Get over it, I say, celebrate it.
After all, what nobler a thought
Could one ever cherish
Than the knowledge that the
Universe lives within us all.
So look up into the stars and with each
Twinkle, wink back to the ancestors they truly are.

There is nothing for which I have
Painted out for myself so joyously
A riot of my affections as in this journey
Through the inner part of my dreams.
Sometimes my thoughts are gated away from the
Dreams which suffers me to be somehow unfit.
But as I gain an awareness of each and every
Mindset, a festivity arises in me with a knowledge
That the father is in the background
Of my every foregrounded piece.

But sometimes those gates are not so easily opened.
Somehow, with each line the locks open and I vibrate differently -
A feeling so deep inside that the effects render me entwined.

That's when I sit up and shout,

“Oh, eternal fountain of feelings,”

I place my hand over my heart and repeat:

“Tis here I trace thee,
Tis here that thy divinity stirs within me.”

I move my hand to my forehead and continue

“Dear God, is love just some pomp of a word?
You, are you not the great sensorium of the world?
You know my languish and you also know of my symptoms.”

Taking my hand from my forehead sitting now Indian style
With my hands on my knees facing upwards.

“I come oh Lord just as I am, without a plea
But that thy blood was shed for me, so I come.”

Closing my eyes looking down in reverence
While thinking the thoughts of the master.

“Would God place a boulder in front of the blind?”

“No my Lord.”

"Would God speak out loud to the deaf?”

“No my Lord.”

“Would God put Love out of reach?”

“No my Lord.”

And then in this concurrent dream state
One sage after another appears to me.

“You will ***** around in broad daylight, just like a blind person groping in the darkness and you will not succeed at anything you do. You will be oppressed and robbed continually and no one will come to save you.” Deut.28:29

“My heart beats wildly, my strength fails and I am going blind.” Psalm 38:10

“Let their eyes go blind so they cannot see and let their bodies grow weaker and weaker.” Psalm 69:23

“So I let them follow their blind and stubborn way living according to their own desires.” Psalm 81:12

“Is there one who made your ears deaf?
Is there one who formed your eyes blind?” Psalm 94:9

“For the wise person sees while the fool is blind. Yet I saw that wise and foolish people share the same fate.” Eccles. 2:14

Looking up from my inner self,
I see the darkness gaining its entry in.
The battle that is without is also within.

“I sleep but my heart waketh : it is the voice of my beloved
that knocketh saying, open to me my sister, my love, my dove, my undefiled:
for my head is filled with dew and my locks with the drops of the night.” Song of Solomon 5:2

“And it shall come to pass that in the last days, saith God; I will pour out my spirit upon all flesh and
Your sons and daughters will prophesy and your young men shall see visions. And your old men shall dream concurrent dreams.” Acts 2:17

Rising to my feet I know now that it is
In my blindness that now I see.
It is in my deafness
That now I hear.
And in the darkness
Like the stars at night,
That is how I see the light.
In these many, many concurrent dreams.
Only the spirit lives on and ones' spirit - when released - sheds religion like a worn out pair of shoes.
220 · Jun 2017
Is It Me - Is It You
What a huge span of adventures can be
Had in such a short span of one lifetime.
At least to he who takes interest in every thing he
Has the eye to see what time, chance and signs
Are perpetually holding out as he journeys
On his way. Missing nothing that he can
Fairly lay his hands upon, rather than

Creating an essay of human nature, or an experiment of the senses
Which always manages to put the blood to sleep.
I pity the man that can follow me around intensely
Only to argue and cry that all around us is barren as he weeps.
And by his own omission – so it is for him – he who may say
He will not cultivate the fruit that is all around him.
I get up clapping my hands declaring cheerily that this is MY day!

And some days I do find out how the day shall
Call out all of my affections -something I could never do alone.
Sunny or cloudy, rainy or snowy – it makes no difference at all -
I fasten on the day like a helmet and seek out something to bring home -
Is it here – Is it there? Is it me – Is it you?
So if I fail to get out of the rain once in while
Just say that I strapped on a wet, rainy day and a smile.
Some can't understand a person who is "up" all the time. To those I say - move over - here comes sunshine.
198 · Jun 2017
Panhandled
The man .. or woman .. who either disdains or fears to walk up
The darkest of entries may be an excellent being –
Fit for a thousand good things – but he or she may not
Make a good person to sit with their own spirit.
I count so little of the things that I see pass
By me at broad noon in the open street.
My nature is shy and I hate spectators yet in
Such unobserved corners I sometimes see the
Fault in my nature –
But is not nature simply nature after all?

Through a long lit wide passage the air opens
Into the narrowest of streets trodden upon by
The many who humbly await their turn to speak.
They get oft in my head until they at last
Are given their silent turn to audition for my inner word play -
The one that I know I will reproduce later –
Oh they all read their own lines one after
The other as I secretly score their performance.
I can tell always when they have struck a chord in me
Because their score is measured within my laughter - or my tears.

I pretend to call out next - and the next one begins their reading ...
And thus here it goes….

Two ladies were standing arm in arm 5 paces from me
With their backs against the wall – I edged up
Within a yard or so of them and quietly took my stand.
I was all dressed in black and scarcely seen – as were they –
The lady to my left was a tall lean figure of a woman
Of about forty: the other woman the same size and make
At about age forty six.
There was no look of wife or widow in either of them –
They seemed to be two upright vestal sisters –
Unblemished by caresses – unbroken by tender salutations.

I wished to my soul that I could somehow make them happy
But I knew that this night their happiness was to come from
Some other quarter, a place not far away from my heart.
Behind me I heard voice, a shrill voice which had within
It the sweetest of cadence about it, it was asking for two and twenty dollars.
Having had my thoughts so impetuously shattered I turned to
See the owner of the voice - thinking “For the love of Heaven,
Has begging gotten onto to such a science that now the beggar is allowed
To ask for the exact amount of charity that his need requires? ”

As for the two women,
They seemed as astonished by the request as I for
The request was about an outlandish thing – near
Twenty two times more than what one would normally
Give in the daytime – let alone in the dark.
“Twenty two dollars!” one of the ladies exclaimed
Laughing while the other lady shook her head in disbelief.
The poor man then said, “I know not how to ask for less
Of ladies of your rank and beauty,” and then he took off
His tumbleweed hat and bowed down his head
As if he were in the presence of royalty.

The beggar remained silent in his bow and after a
Minute or two he renewed his supplication with,
“Do not my fair ladies, please do not stop your one good ear
Against me – for I have a need of the amount and I’m
Not used to begging so forgive me if my asking is out of rule.”
The older of the two replied, “My good man, between the two
Of us we do not have the money that you require for we carry
No cash.”
“Then God bless you”, the man cried “And may God multiply
Your joys by which you so graciously give to others while without any cash.”

I then observed the younger woman reaching into her purse.
“I have a twenty she said,” as she pulled the bill free of her clutch
Handing it straightaway to the man but he shook his head no.
“I must have twenty two”, he replied, “Surely you must have two more,
Has not nature been good to you?” he asked “I see she has been
Bountiful to you – please be bountiful to a poor man in need.”
Still holding out the twenty she answered, “If I had it I would.”
He turned back to the older one and said, “My fair charitable woman,
What is it but your goodness and humanity which makes your eyes
So sweet – they outshine the morning even in this dark passage.
I only just heard the lawyer and the doctor over there talking
About how beautiful the two of you are as I passed by them.”

I watched as the two ladies seemed to be much affected and to my
Amazement the older one of them reached into her purse and pulled
Out another twenty and both of them handed them to the man.
The context between them and the beggar was no more but it continued
On between the two of them even after the man had walked away.
I stepped on hastily after him touching him on the shoulder
To get his attention and as he turned he shoved the forty dollars in his pocket,
“I could have you arrested for panhandling,” I said as he turned around.
“Panhandling?” he asked, “I was not panhandling,” he responded.

“When was the last time that you heard of a panhandler getting an eighteen dollar tip?”
Be careful what you say. You never know when your story will end up in my word play.
193 · May 2017
This Thing Called...
Somewhere in the darkness of morning
Or in the evening just before noon
Lies the dawning of midnight
Throughout the sleep of afternoon

Mixed emotions hidden by daylight
Darkness empties the room
Dinner comes to me at daybreak
The sun shines on the moon

Feelings captured in emotion
Care little about the time
With a handhold on tomorrow
The future was yesterday

Can you see that forever
Is just a daybreak away
Life isn’t about tomorrow
And not about yesterday

In the darkness of morning
The moon shines at noon
Stars beckoning the evening
To come on too soon

Life cannot be about tomorrow
And cannot be about yesterday
Life has to be about the present
This thing called - today
Trying to express that the past is a mix of jumbled up memories and that any expectation of future events is nothing more than expecting those jumbled up memories to repeat themselves. All we really experience is this odd unending thing called the present. If we can grasp the truth in that we could begin to make not only the present more enjoyable but also make the past more pleasant to relive and the future less unknown.
163 · May 2017
The Universe Awaits
Am I somewhere betwixt the many worlds?
What is real – what is not?
Am I a fornication of my imagination?
Or am I simply a puncturing of a place in time?
I confess – nowhere – nowhere is where I’d rather be.

There, these earthly sediments fall to my feet,
Aged ballast no longer holding me to the past.
Thoughts traveling at light speed
Covering the vastness of my universe.
And in solemn slumber - reality does orbit me.

One thousand times the speed of light
Is possible to us taking up the flight.
A new journey beyond the scenes of the past,
Conjoined with others finding similar tasks.
First level, second level – the remembering goes on.

Without any struggle we are to understand
What God has created within a single hand.
This universe – this inverted reality in its form –
With us – the living – on the inside – trapped
By the never ending boundaries but warned.

There we must find that we are the masters
Of our heaven and earth – for ‘tis
Up to each of us to figure our own worth.
If one dies without believing in himself his soul
Remains separate but still worth retrieving.

Yes – because we are the creators – our light lives unchained
By the boundaries that we call space and time.
We can pass over to the other side –
To the other side of the inversion.
There we learn the true meaning of the diversion.

Walking as we may looking back into the
Inverted universe we become one with our dreams.
For ‘tis in life that we test our souls – yes –
It is in the singular act of living that we opportune with giving.
One pair of hands – they can remind so many….

Alive, one voice is all that is any,
In his image, our thoughts are of what he is within.
Those everlasting thoughts creating the future of light.
Freeing ourselves from the illusion of the endless night.
Finding our places on this side of the inversion.

Where do you remember the line of your being?
Must you depend only upon seeing?
Listen - to - one - who - has - seen - the - inversion.
Live life giving – make no diversion.
The beauty is that it is your choice to make.

What will you create?
Darkness – or light – or – something in between?
Don’t wait too late ….

The universe awaits.
It's hard for me to describe this piece. Either you get it or you don't like trying to explain infinity.  It means different things to different people. But I do always enjoy how other people interpret it.

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