i gave you every
last piece of my heart
a fact that you are so
blithely unaware of
  
                 l.r.

it's kinda sad to
look back at the people
i once knew and
remember how full my heart was for them.

l.r.

he was beautiful
his words enticing
i thought that maybe
he could love me

but perhaps only in another life

his past is dark
his soul tortured
i thought that maybe
I could love him

even in his eternal strife       l.r.

i'm not sure what it is
about me that
makes you want to
be thin
i guess i never told
you enough

it's your flaws i'm interested in

        l.r.

i've had a few too many and
i miss you all too much

l.r.

They all say I'm "too young"

to experience the hardships

of life.

But how then,

would they know,

if they hadn't felt the same way


Themselves...?

your body on top
of mine
our sweat mixed together
like the ocean's waves
exchanging foam
                                 l.r.

i hope that one day
you can learn to love
my mind the way you
love my body
                            l.r.

don't take me somewhere i've never been
take me somewhere i've been before
so i can see how different the world is
when i'm with you

l.r.

you were all that i
never wanted,
but that didn't stop you
from loving me.
you tried your hardest
to be what i needed,
but i was always
too blind to notice.        l.r.

lend me your lips
and hear my decree
you wouldn't be here if it
wasn't for me
                           l.r.

you taught me that i meant something. you gave me someone i could rely on, and then you left. you've let me down more than anyone i have ever known.
even myself.

it's impossible to tell how long i've been here
when i don't even know where i'm at


l.r.

unless

what a funny word... unless

it has the power to transform and defy

to entrance the world and mystify

yes, what a funny word

unless

You're not afraid to be
Alone
When it's all you've
Ever known

his eyes sparkled with a love that wasn't meant for me

l.r.

The darkness, its closing in;

uh oh here we go again.

The icy cold surrounds my skin;

Why'd I wear a shirt so thin?

My happiness feels like a sin;

**Sadness soon becomes my friend.

"Don't speak," I tell you.
You've had enough to say

I shut your mouth
with mine because

*there is no better way.

i wanna be your everyday, i don't wanna be your "sometimes"

l.r.

the hardest part about saying goodbye is that you should never have to

l.r.

i'm doing my best but my best isn't good enough
i guess i just never thought that life could be so rough
i think i might be on the brink of relapse
but i don't want to be; i left that life in my past
so what am i going to do if i don't get better?
the sad girl is trying to get out but i'm trying not to let her


l.r.

I always knew this would
end in battle

You and I
against one another

But
no one is winning
because

Neither of us knows
what we are fighting for.

you taught me
how to love
myself
in a world
that told me not to


l.r.

so
So
SO

tired of crying over people who don't deserve my tears

your eyes make you seem immortal; as if you have lived thousands of years and seen so many things

but your mouth says too many young and beautiful things.

l.r.

the hardest walls to climb
are the ones we build ourselves

l.r.

I am a
warrior
But they don't give
A ****

So I fight
The silent battles
To preserve the
Human I am

kiss me in the way the waves
touch the shore.
love me in the way the stars
love the night.
whisper sweet nothings to me
as if you were telling a secret.
                                   l.r.

chapped lips
shallow breaths
anticipating what comes next
legs weak and
sweaty skin
how could this be called
a sin?
               l.r.

it funny to think
of how much sway
you have over my
heart
              l.r.

...to see me cry?
To watch me break?
To see me die

Slowly,
Inside myself.

I've put my heart
up on a shelf.

I bet you hate me
I know you do.

I mean, what else
could be your excuse?


l.r.

I welcome
death like a
blanket of snow;

Cold at first,
But in the end bringing
forth new life to all
it touches.

born to be free
never to be tamed

is she a woman or a wildflower?

l.r.

I thought I was the only one that no one understood
But I found that words could touch me in a way he never could.

i love you
i thought you loved me
i guess we were just interested
in different things
                                    l.r.

open the door to my heart
and mend the creaky hinges
for i am tired of leaving it closed
and having my soul off limits

l.r.

There you are again
my heart is palpitating

I'm drowning in your love
it's so intoxicating

I'm so in love with you
I'm acting like a fool
no matter what I do.

I'm so numb
with your love
and I just cannot get enough

And even if I feel like I am dying
you always seem to leave me sighing

Your smile makes my life
worthwhile.

*Oh, yes it does.

I grab at your heart.

Then pulling away slowly,

I lick the blood from my frostbitten
fingertips