When there's a will
there is a way
Don't be confuse
it's all in the brain
No, you're not insane!
just keep going...
your life is at stake.

You ask yourself if it's safe
to go through tomorrow
without having any regret
or sorrow...
we should hope for the best
because if you reap
you will sow
and like a plant
you will grow.

How can we go on?
As the flames burn our confidence
and strip away our happiness
its our job to fight through it!
if the devil took our prize pocessions
shouldn't we make our way to go retrieve it?
And if God says he'll make a way
for all your circumtances
to fade away,
shouldn't we give him more chances
than the one's that failed
to keep our promises
that was made?

There is no curse or spell
to prevent our way of living
if we live through this
our problems will be less deceving
As we can all tell
because nobody
should go through
hell.

Do you see
what I see?

Do you see
A friend in
me?

Am I
What you want
me to be?

Am I
enough for you
to be heard
or to be seen?

Is there anything
wrong with me,
if so will you
tell me?

Am I green
or am I grey?

Am I
good enough
for you to stay,
or will you
leave me astray?

One day, I'll pray
to make this pain go away.
Someday, I must say
my past will never drag
me down today.

There will come a day
where everybody knows my name.
They will say to me that
I was once a worrier,
but now I'm a slayer.
I slay every fear and anxiety
that creeps upon me like a serpent.

I held on to my sword
for I will no longer
be a slave no more!
I will travel across
the land to find the cure
for I am a warrior.

I shall fight,
if it's the last thing I'll do!
the devil will never have me
because we're through.
I lift up my hands
to the righteous King,
for he has blessed me so well
that I could sing .

After many years of doubt,
I won't let my fears and emotions
pour anything out.
I must have the courage
enough for me to flourish.

God, I rather not sleep tonight
because I'm going out of my mind
I pray that you will let me stay up all night
it may be dark outside, but these feelings...
they crawl inside my thoughts all the time
and the last thing on my mind is...
that these feelings must die.

I want to put in the fire,
it's my only desire!
I want to shove it in the dirt,
it feels so good that it won't even hurt!
I want to rip it apart,
so I can love God with all of my heart!
I want to shoot it with a bullet,
so I can live my life through the fullest!

Through aggression, depression, obsession, and frustration
my mind keeps making the same equation
on how to prevent my feelings that leads me to temptation.
I just keep trying to keep my feelings inside...

*but still I want them to just...die

The angel says stop
and the devil says go.

The angel grabs my hand,
but the devil slapped her
and said: No!

The angel says: Don't do this!
as her wings spread out,
she was to smart to not
give up now.

The devil looked upon my face,
that wry smile seems out of place.
Suddenly, the devil grabbed me
and took me away.

As the angel said:
So,that's how you want to play.
The angel flew faster than a
lightning bolt soaring through the clouds.
I start to remember that the angel
promised me to never let me go
until now.

The devil still held on to me.
Why wouldn't she let me down?
She was still smiling, while I frown.

I start to see the angel now,
as she turned around and drop
me into the center of the ground.

They stare at each other
like ferocious stray dogs.
Then the devil looked
straight at me and said:
This won't take long.

The battle begins,
as the devil held onto
her breath and let out
a deadly scream.

The angel blocked her ears
and closed her eyes.
Once she opened them
there was a beam of light.
The angel's powers pierced
the devils side.

The devil fell and died.

I thanked the angel that
she saved my life.
The angel said:

*As long as
you live through Christ,
my child you will be alright.

Come on,
say something.
Are you there?
Is there something
in the atmosphere
for you to not hear?

Are you alright?
I'm talking to you,
have you lost your sight?
I know you have eyes
because I can see them
just fine.

Can you speak English?
If you could,it would be kind
for you to speak, that way
we can finally greet.

Please speak,are you sick?
Is there something wrong
with your throat?
Does it burn, or itch?

No, Then what is it?
Are you afraid of me?
I'm very sweet and humorous,
so don't worry about me.
I won't hurt you, you'll see.

I can totally sense
that you're reclusive,
so you don't see the point
in making any friends.

Honestly, you can't
just tell yourself that
your better off alone...

But your not,
people like you
don't deserve
to be alone.

You need to get out
of that zone because
one day you'll end up
all active and grown
with nobody to share
your adventures with,
but your own.

Therefore, it's time
to build friendships
that is worth known.

So don't be afraid
to say anything
you seem like
a good person
anyway.

Now tell me, what's your name?

"Keyana"

Thanks for speaking out.

After all of that running,
even though I'm panting.
I can't stop now,
I have to keep moving!

I can feel my blood pressure rising.
I'm not giving up, I'll continue on climbing.
I catched my breath, and realized that I'm still alive.

Some people say that
I'm out there dying.
Well that didn't stop me from trying.

At first, I started crying;
My mind wasn't right,
There were times when I started to fight.
Thanks to God I began striving.

I made it this far
Even though it was hard
I'm never going to stop,
until I reach the top
because I'm almost there.

You know what?
I'm not ugly,
I'm beautiful!
From head to toe
God knows that
My confidence is key
And it's a part me
So, don't be discouraged
Because that's the way
Is going to be.

You know what?
I'm not stupid,
I'm diligent!
I may not know
Everything in this world
but, I've grown up
as a woman
than a foolish young girl.
I've become bold and wise
from the looks of your eyes.

You know what?
I love my friends
And I never wanted
to hurt them!
It doesn't matter how
Many friends I have
What matters is that
Their good and not bad.

You want to know
Something else?
I'm happy with my life!
It may not be perfect,
but it's worth it
You'll see.

Is it me or
is it the devil?
I think that...
I may be evil.
I have broke
my way into
deep trouble.

Is it me or
am I negative?
The squandering
of my thoughts
lead me into a
nasty situation.

Is it me or
am I selfish?
I'm so attached
to myself to the
point where I
start to hate...
people  

Is it me that
started this
insanity?
I'm confused
right now
and it's
killing me!

I should
tell my
deep
and
dark
emotions
to leave.

My enemies are like mites
they crawl inside your skin
and they know where to bite...
My expectations, dreams, faith, or anything.

Those bugs are nothing,
but blood thirsty thugs
they had me this close
However...
It wasn't enough.

I had to fight it out
even if it seems rough.

Every bruise, scrape,and scar
after the attack of the enemies
I'm surprised I got this far...

I can't just quit!

After every time that I get bit
with their hate and arrogance.
I can still fight and have a chance.

Leave it to Satan
to fill your thoughts with lies,
or leave it to God to tell you the truth
and he will never say goodbye.

Leave it to Satan
to say your not enough,
or leave it to God to say
to never give up.

Leave it to Satan
to tell you that your emotions
will cause you to die
and believes that it's alright.
Or...

Leave it to God
because he hears your cries
when you couldn't sleep at night.
He's a hero and a good friend,
therefore his love will never end.

He's a small middle schooler,
who loves violent video games
with explositions and railroad trains.
Whenever he sees a train explodes
he threw out his hands and goes insane.
Dashes around the room and screams,
until his whole heart contains.

Some people say he needs help,
but I ignore them and kept quiet because
when I look at him, he reminds me of myself.

I see him in the hallways carrying tons of stuff,
as he walks in a slow and steady pace,
while everybody stampedes
towards the hall like its a big race.
Sometimes he stumbles and falls;
because in his eyes, everybody is tall.

Some people say he needs help,
but I ignore them and kept quiet
because when I look at him,
he reminds me of myself.

What about this kid that makes him tick?
He screams like his head is piled with bricks.
Everyday, the boy gets stressed out at school,
he's like a hot molten rock that never cools.
Sometimes, in his worse days he would whine,
just like how I was when I was nine.

Some people say he needs help,
only this time I volunteered
because he can't do this all by himself .
Now I know what I must do for him
because dealing with autism isn't easy,
it was hard for me to deal with it, believe me.
It was me who saw through him than nobody else
because everytime I look at him,
he reminds me of myself

It's so good
to get out
of my bed
to not sink
into the deep
comforting covers
that left me
lethargic and unbottherd.

Now that out
of my bed
enjoying the things
that I should
or maybe did
because if I
don't I could've
been sleeping for
the entire day
or reading depressing
poems as my
emotions leave me
in such disarray.

Never have I ever heard
anyone say they hated music
I asked her again and she said
'I hate music!'

She hated music
because it reminded her
of her tragic past after
every lyric in her head
it drowned her thoughts
that filled her with dread.

She hated music
because it reminded her
of love because she
feels that her love
isn't good enough...
for anyone.

She hated music
because it reminded her
of unhappiness
when she tried to listen
to an instrumental tune
she would be gloom
as the beat mimics
the sound of her
fathers beating heart
before he passed away
until then she fell apart
and felt her life was
going to be doomed.

She hated music
because it reminded her
of the good old days
where she was young
and nothing was
stepping in her way
although there were
songs that would say
in life things will change
and you don't always
have it your way.

She hated music
because it reminded her
how people created it
and she said that some artists
don't make songs for
great motivation,
but sadly it's more like
great desperation
she said it must be easy
for them to do all of that
just to get famous
although it doesn't do
everybody any good to
improve their daily
situation.

She hated music so much
that it made her jump into
conclusion which made her
so ticked as she look back
at it now it got her sick.
she asked me
why do people listen to music
when all we can do is ignore it?

She listens to every genre
of music from
many different artists
and she still isn't
interested
as she clutch
her hand into a fist.

She realized now
that she is free from the lyrics that weighed her down
and the rhythm that drags her back around
she believes that without music she would feel
safe and sound.

Today is...a new day
Today is...changing
Today is... unexpected
Today is... rearranging
Today is...a chance of scary
Today is...a chance to be inspired
Today is...living
Today is...worth every hour

In my daily life
I consumed so many pills
to ease my troubles
I'm frozen as I remained still.

~It isn't enough

In the middle of
my dose,
Lord you were there
when I needed you the most
because of you
my mood is not so cold
everyday you always
remind me I'm never alone.

He set the rain
to my fire
whenever I lack love
or even desire
He was there
as my protector
when my mind
wasn't sheltered.

When people
don't find me equal
Lord uplift my story
and enhance my sequal.

He's love
He's my will
He's better
than a happy pill.

The devil has many ways
to keep you craving for desire.
He's inside your thoughts,
Suducing you in what you admire.

First, your under his spell
Next, he lures you into the fire
Then, your heart burns and ache
Finally, you start to loose your desire.

This is when you realize that it wasn't love....
It was 'LUST'

Lust isn't love
It's temptation,
It's a drug.
It's like ecstasy
that you just
can't get enough.

Lust isn't meant for trust,
it's what we want
until our fantasies are crushed.

Flee youthful lust:
for God has our hearts
even though if temptation
seems tough and our minds
get rough.

Therefore, we must be careful for what we desire
Because it might be lust and keep you down
I'll admit the devil is a filthy liar
and he will try his best to come around.

My mother said to look past
the bright pink walls
imagination and story tales
overtime it will grow old.

I imagine about
fairy tales and casting spells
very pure like white snow,
I glimpse past the pink walls
as my face beats red
my mind has been deceived
my imagery of the world
was wrong.

Outside the pink walls
lead me to an imperfect
sporadic world
that slowly
caves me into
adulthood.

Sometimes, a laugh
can also be a cry.

Sometimes people want to live and some of them want to die.

Sometimes we have to lie in order to survive, even though it's not right.

Sometimes, a beautiful person can be ugly if their attitude worsens.

Sometimes, getting advice isn't going to affect you right.

Sometimes, we gotta learn from whats right and what's wrong.

Sometimes, we didn't know that we're brave and strong.
Othertimes, we managed to hold on,  but throughout life, we should  carry on.

Here you go again
getting on about
talking...talking...
Talking about
that townhouse.

I felt like a caged mouse
there's a way in, but...
no way out.

Blood stained walls
Cracked floors
Should I say more!?
Creepy neighbors
Meddling bugs
Enough, now hush!

Why the townhouse?!
Why the townhouse?!
Just why?

Thinking about that house
gives me nightmares
don't you want our family safe?
Do you even care?

A townhouse where
a husband and wife
wish for more money
and not enjoying life
where the children
are spoiled rotten
and they cry
all the time.

So stop mentioning
that townhouse
one more word
and you are out
Where we are now
is perfectly fine
don't say it again
don't waste my time.

*I'll stay and live here
because I'm nourished
You can go out there
as I watch you...
flourish...back into
the townhouse.

I can't help it
I can't take it...
anymore.

Who's looking
at me now?

I am sobbing
I am throbbing

Who can stop the
rain from falling?

I just...can't stop
crying!

Tears, Tears
go away!
I want to be
with the Lord
today.

Tears, Tears
back away
please let me
be happy again.

I don't want
to cry anymore
because I cause
such a storm.

Where's my hope
Where's my faith?

I can't let my
emotions take
me away!

It's time for
the survival
so I shall get
my bible.

No more shackles,
I'm ready to tackle
the enemy!

*Tears, Tears
back away
please let me
be happy again.

Think think!
Think of a time
when you had a friend
one negative thought
will make your friendship end
if you think your mind is negative
then think again,
all this bitterness inside
must come to an end.

Echo echo!
Echoing voices inside your head
the words clogging up your ears
after all the books you read
you believe there are more words
that hasn't been said
if so, don't overthink it
don't drown yourself with dread.

Dream Dream!
Dream about achievement
never over relax
don't chase your dreams by sleeping.

Hope Hope!
Hope won't bring you low
you say it's pointless
believe me I know,
always stay positive for
god will shine a light on you
and make your confidence glow.

Imagine imagine!
Imagine a day without stress
if everyday was a vacation,
you couldn't careless
picture your mindset again
it's not a torn up mess,
fiill your thoughts
with happiness and nevertheless.

Love love!
Love from the work of God,
he taught you much
loving him wasn't so hard
but loving other people is
that why he made you smart
by managing your feelings
he has given you a clean heart.

Believe Believe!
Believe in God and yourself
God loves you as aspie
he gave you multiples of talents
of what he trained you to be.

~I'd rather
start burning
all my anger
away.

~I'd rather
start cutting
down my anxiety
because it's
getting in the
way.

~I'd rather
start drowning
every sadness
that ruins my
day.

~I'd rather
start burying
my problems aside
It will be blissful
for that I
pray.~

As I saw the rain
I said to myself...
No more guilt
No more misery
Or how bad I felt
And no more feeling
Sorry for myself.
It is time to let go.

I stepped outside
and I feel alive
I told myself
I don't want
to hide.

God has showered me
From the goodness of
his grace and I'll never
turn away.

I'm dancing, dancing,
dancing in the rain
and there is nothing
standing in my way
People might say
I have gone insane
But it doesn't matter
Because my blessing
Is on its way.

I will give it my all
just like David,
As he dance around
in public bare naked
to declare victory in God
My heart beats rapidly
as I begin to shout:
Glory!

Because he is a mighty God
As I rain dance against
all the odds.

When life getting tough to beat, all you have to
drink water, pray, breathe, and sleep

Whenever you get over your past and you are far from future
as you breakdown until you began to weep, thats why its important
drink water, pray, breathe, and sleep.

If you haven't made your goals, just know you are not alone
the goals that you had will be well on your own and to keep
just drink water, pray breathe, and sleep.

Hello
I'm that friend
that you dispies
just from the look
of your eyes
I would say:

"You look cool, let's be friends."
And the next day I become distant
I left you on read,
snatched all of your friends,
and tell people your such a dread
the truth is I wasn't really your friend
it's just one of those friendships that's ruined.

~Toxic

Hello,
I'm your lover
who is the opposite
of what you want
than the other lovers
we hit off strong
until more other
seductive lovers
came along.

I cheated on you once,
shame on me
I cheated on you twice
this time it wasn't me you see
I cheated on you on third
it was meant to be.

You told me to get out
as I left the door
then I turned to ask you:

"What did you do that for?"
And you said you
don't want to see me anymore
by now you realized it's
another broken relationship
that you have store.

~Toxic

Hello,
I am your manger
and I expect you
to get things done
you get no break
for there's a company
to run
I'm the one that
your coworkers say
that I'm no fun.
In the first job, I say:
"Good job, your doing great!
                Few minutes later,
" Leave slacker, your always making a mistake and trying to make me look bad like I'm a rough case!"

Everyday you had to deal me
which in reality I'm pushing you to
quit and feel unsucced.

~Toxic

Hello,
I am you
and I tell you
what stays
and goes.

Your getting too fat
         Oh-no!
You don't need friends
           Let them go!
You need change
there's too much goodness
in you that needs to be arranged!

I need you to get perfect and
stop acting worthless
but you hurt others than yourself
which who would have ever thought my emotions could destroy my mental health
then end up hurting everyone else.

And you said to yourself...
~*Maybe I'm just toxic.