Deep down
I was holding on tighter than I already knew I should.
Deep down
I was hoping that although it’s not forever now, maybe it would.
Deep down
I was praying that if you gave me the chance, I’d give you everything I could.

Deep down
I know I should’ve trusted my gut more.
Deep down
I know that I was just another girl for you to score.
Deep down
I know that I am broken to the core.

Being with you is like giving a loaded gun to a child,
Pistol clasped in both hands, shots fired, can we be reconciled?
Gathered up your words, your lies, put them away
Let them bleed down the page, leave them til the edges fray.
When I gave everything to you, it was me that I lost,
I know that I love you but at what cost?
I’ll think of you fondly in a bitter and twisted way,
But my mind, you see, has started to crumble and decay.

Will you let me read your mind?
Enter into your space-dust thoughts
Nebula’s sprinkled eyes fixated
Dragging onto my galaxy twisted heart
Years spent orbiting the moon -  back to you.

Her pale skin knew all the secrets.
When the maze would twist,
and when it would turn,
when it etched a clear path,
and whispered the escape route.

His dark skin was trapped.
The maze unleashed its branches,
tightening the grip around his body,
tangling him up in the mess
that she had created.

It was designed
by her ancestors,
for only one to win.
This maze
is the one they call life.

She needed to forge a new path.
One where he leads, she follows.
One where the branches
only burden the deserved,
and not for the colour of their skin.

I don't want to be in a world
where you're not here.

I don't want to be in a world
that crushes you when you're down,
where you try to reach for happiness
but can only frown,
because deep inside, you can only drown.

I don't want to be in a world
that is full of such hate,
where you feel like you're not important and that's your only fate,
because together, I promise you, we'll re-write the slate.

The wilted leaves of the plant you gave me
begin to peel away
lingering on the sunny window ledge
starting to fade on this day.

I laughed at its structure
and how it reminded me of us:
started out blooming and blossoming
but soon we lost our trust.

Today, I feed a new plant
with the tears I cried over you,
and with the warmth that I never received,
I began to build something new.

I smiled at its structure
and how it reminded me of myself:
started out small and feeble
But I am no longer just a decoration on the shelf.

the fire burns
flickering in the cold winter's night
and you see the reflection
of someone you had lost
or someone
who had lost you

you could never really be sure
whether the bright flickering flame
held only an illusion
or whether
it was truly burning you up inside

Hollow, deep and empty;
Welcoming to the dark.
Hollow, deep and empty;
Wishing to make my mark.
Hollow, deep and empty;
The flashbacks begin to start.
Hollow, deep and empty;
These scars are not a work of art.

'Smile', they say as the camera flashes, when all I want to do is break down in tears.
'Smile', they say as it feels like one day is turning into years.
'Smile', they say as I have to face my deepest, darkest fears.

I'm in hysterics, but they don't know it's just nerves.
A car is about to hit me, I remain hopelessly still, but it swerves.
But yet what am I told to do?
'Smile', they say as I feel like I'm taking my very last breath.

'Smile' they say, as I'm taking my very last pill.
'Smile' they say, as I try searching every ounce of emotion just to feel.

'Just smile'.