I want you,
what are you talkin 'bout?
I can't forget you,
you're all I think about.

You can feel it,
I know you do,
the chemistry,
it's undeniable -
the intense gaze,
our eyes locked
forever.
We're capable of fixing it -
we just need to rewind.

First it was talking,
then kissing,
and soon later ******* -
but now it's nothing.

Nothing...
Let's go back to square one,
you know we can:
Let's just go back to talking...

They say I should let go,
but I can't.
my heart is
dangling on a string,
attached to your angel wings.
So, my heart is
always with you,
angel.

I never knew walls had a purpose,
Until I pushed you against the one in my room - closest to my bed.
I don't know why I didn't just dump your beautiful body onto the bed,
I mean, it wouldn't be the end of the world if "something else"  transpired...
But I guess I lost to my conscience and tried to avoid the sheets that were dying to witness a performance.

I pushed you against the wall,
And I was unable to regret it, because you had this look in your eye,
One that flicked a switch,
And my lust took over.
You surrendered your body,
Allowed me drown you in kisses,
You let me be rough with you,
And I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be -
Blame the wall,
I've never made out against a wall before!

You didn't want me to stop,
You were totally unlike yourself,
They way you smiled when I told you that I didn't mean to do what I had done,
The way you threw your arms around my neck and whispered, "That was fun."
You were so unlike you...
But I liked this you a lot,
I liked what this me was doing.
I liked what the wall did to me,
How I instinctively pressed my two hands on both sides of your head, telling you that I wasn't gonna let you go - without uttering a word.
And I knew that our hearts were beating in sync the moment you leaned towards my face,
I knew that we were thinking alike...
I knew that you wanted me,
And you knew that I wanted you,
So we let our tongues do the confessions of love
As they waltzed within the confinement of our mouths
And our lips tickled each other's necks.

You know you're ******* when almost everything she says is cute.

Maybe she is your one...
    *But are you her one?

Your hands are just the right texture,
The softness bids all my fears to subside.

Your lips are just too perfect,
A different taste according to your lipstick,
But still the same sensation that makes my eyes slowly close shut.

Your eyes give away your feelings,
And your, "I want you" eyes are simply the best.

Your hugs are magical,
They make my insides feel soft and mushy,
They make me feel warm and loved.

Baby,
You're absolutely perfect for me -
Why don't you want to see that?
Why'd you rather be insecure even though I remind you everyday that you're the pretty one in our relationship?

I'll shut you out,
because I love you.

I'll keep you away,
When I can't keep my thoughts at bay -
because I love you.

I won't call you up,
I won't let you worry -
or even know
that I'm descending
into a dark pit -
because I love you.

I'll fight them on my own,
I'll defeat them for us -
but,
I'll make sure that you're not a spectator,
of the gory battles I seldom fight -
because I love you.

She made me feel love,
only to drown me in depression.

She has her own demons,
And she wants you to vanquish them...
Stupid boy,
Not defend and empower them...

I didn't know that a girl could trigger all these feelings.

Sometimes you just need to relax
And take everything,
One step at a time.

Some people are fit enough for the challenges love brings,
I guess I'm just not one of them.

I don't know how we got here...

I'll be honest,
I'm sorry that we're always fighting,
That we don't see eye to eye no more,
And that twinkle in your eye is gone -
I'm sorry,
That our love is withering.

I'll be honest,
I miss when things were rosy,
When you and I just made each other blush,
And our lips were inseparable;
When my hands couldn't keep away from your soft skin,
And we were acting lovey-dovey, ignoring the unrequested attention of wandering eyes.

I'm scared, when you scream and yell,
I'm heartbroken, when you cry because of me,
I'm debilitated, when you won't let me hold you,
I'm stunned, when you don't accept my apology.

I miss,
When you and I,
Didn't care much about the label,
We were good friends that's what we said...
But soon later you wanted more:
And you got it...

Then
"We",
Started becoming an underused word,
The bonds formed by mischevious nights
Shamelessly crying on one another's shoulders,
And divulging of blackmail-worthy, jaw-dropping secrets,
Starter weakening, separating...

Is there any possibility that things will get rosy again?
That you'll stop getting mad at me and I'll stop hurting you?
Is there a chance, just a slight chance,
That the girl I fell in love with will come back...
Or, have we... Have I killed her?

There's this urge to say I love you
And there's this fear she'll say "I don't"...

If he tells you
that he can't say
"I love you" -
It's probably
Because he does.

Love is amazing
Heartbreak is ******,
Loneliness is simply depressing.

Was his mistake letting her in,
or letting her leave?

Dear heart,
Shut up,
So that I can sleep,
Please.

Since I'm falling,
I decided to admire the scenery around me--
Since there is nothing I can do to prevent it from happening...
It's true that I don't want to be here--
But look at how bright the orange sun shines,
It's absolutely breathtaking the way it paints the clouds a lovely orange shade.
I mean, I don't want to fall for her,
I don't want to fall in love--
Man, Autumn leaves are something else, right?
They just look beautiful. I love the way conifers look when they are dressed in red, green and yellow leaves.
Where was I?
Yeah, I don't want to fall for her,
Because I'm scared I'll fall out of love,
Or,
I'll hurt her and up being the worst person she had ever crossed paths with--
It's so nice the way the wind hugs me,
As I plunge towards the earth's centre,
All because of that pretty lady that's giving me an adrenaline rush.

I'm falling for her,
With the help of Earth's gravitational force,
I'm Accelerating at 9.8 metres per second.
And I've been here before,
Suspended in the air,
Surrounded by clouds--
Plummeting towards the earth's centre.
I know one thing,
When I hit the ground,
My heart will be shattered,
Because it's a fall from an elevated place--
Elevated by flirting and more than friendly hugs--
Because she didn't catch me...
Because,
Reality will catch me,
When everything ends.

So,
I kinda know,
That soon the wind's embrace will be gone,
That soon,
I'll look up at the sun, instead of seeing it at my eye level, like I do now.
I know,
Soon,  she'll no longer be interested in me,
Soon,  sunsets won't look beautiful,
Instead they'll remind me of her eyes.
But,
I'll cherish this fall,
Every single second of it.

And,
I'll hold onto the hopes that I'll one day,
meet someone,
Who never let's me reach the ground,
Someone who doesn't even have to catch me--
Because, she'll make me fall for her,
Everyday,
And keep my mind far, far away
From the contemplation of a reality without her.

I didn't know I loved you so much
That waiting for your messages is currently the worst form of torture for me.

I'm probably that page in your love story that you'd refrain from sharing with friends.

Oh, love,
you tell me that many take your trust for granted,
and it upsets me greatly.

But there's something you need to know:
your trust is the best gift you could ever give me...

To you.
I'm still feeding off your love -
Even though it's a different kind of love,
A milder kind of love,
One that doesn't keep me up at night with a racing heart -
I'm still feeding off your love,
Because foolish hearts like mine never let go,
No rehab can do them good:
So I'll still love you,
No matter what you feel,
I still need you,
Even if you're not mine -
It's good enough,
'cause you're happy
And somehow making my days less ******.

Hey, love
I'm sorry if I hurt you -
if it means anything, I still think of you,
every time I wake and before I sleep.
But, I can't tell you how I feel,
for I know it's the last thing you want,
so whenever you ask how I'm doing,
I'll always reply with,
"I'm fine/good"
and never,
"I don't know, I'm kinda missing you a lot and regret what I did greatly..."

GUILT
     G  U  I  L  T
          G
            U
              I  
                L
              ­     T

*that is all I feel right now.

You know why I think love is difficult for many?

They're always searching for "the one"...

Do we really know there is such a thing as "the one",
Could be a myth if you ask me?

"Home is where the heart is",
So... Ummm... My home are her hands?

Occasionally the fear of losing her to some other guy grips me,
But then she tells me things like I made her day just by saying hi and that she misses me and that gives me the idea that she loves me - even if she doesn't want to say it.

So even if she is cheating on me,
I'm fine with the lies she's feeding me then.

To those enjoying today with their other half,
I hope you get to celebrate next year's valentine's with the same person.

To those who are single,
Then welcome to the club,
My name's Bob,
So let's mingle.

To those with broken hearts,
Do not fear, forget your ex's lies,
For sooner or later someone else will make that heart race.
You won't notice it's poor condition, when you stare at their face
And give it to your new crush, while gazing at their eyes.

I think it's safe to say that when motivation runs low,
You've lost yourself.

She's not mine
But it's fine
Because she's a great friend
And that's all I need in the end.

It's difficult for me to forget her -
But without me, she's happier.
Her happiness is top priority...
Even though it's a sad reality
That it's without me.
Our current situation is one I couldn't foresee.

I thought I was doing what's best for her...
But I'm also doing what's worse for me.

So,
I'm toiling,
Everyday,
For
What again?

Love?
Changing people's lives?
Making mom and dad proud?
Raising children one day?

So,
I'm toiling everyday,
Aiming for high grades,
For what?

Mundane things...
Experiences that are not compulsory...

I'm working hard,
For what?

My heart says it's you, my love,
It says it's your arms,
And your lips,
And your body,
And your voice.

My mind says it's all for nothing
And it's stupid...

But guess what?
My heart's beating is way louder than my brains thinking.

If you really love me,
you'd still cradle that flame -
even though all I do is hurt you -
you'd stay optimistic,
because loving me includes understanding me...

And if you understand me,
you'd know that I bring pain,
no matter how hard I try
and I distance myself from you,
to protect you.

At times i want to tell you
That i want you back...
I want you to tell me that I'm not alone - that you want me too.

I want to tell you that all that  i told you wasn't a lie.
I do love you and that's making things hard.
I do want to hold you tight.
I do want to kiss you on your ear after telling you how the sun can't compete with your beauty.

But i also told you that as long as you're happy...I'm happy, i guess that was lie :
I want you to be happy with me, love.

I guess you really were perfect,
that's why it's so hard to accept that I've lost you for good.
But you are perfect,
I don't think I'll find a girl who can erase my memories of you -
so I'll hold onto the hope that you one day think I'm perfect too...

I think I know now,
What all these feelings mean...


That I'm unworthy of your love...

"Perfect is you", love
Why do you not see that?

*******!*

To the man that manages to **** my mood,
Dump me into a sea of blue,
Make my life ****** when I finally see a rainbow.
Sometimes, I wonder what I've done,
But I realise it's the story of my life,
I'll never be happy until I leave your roof,
It seems.

But for now,
All I can do is write about how much I abhor you.

Yes, I want her to be happy -
I just thought it would be with me.