You said that you loved me.
You said that you cared.
But once you were gone,
I was so very scared.

I wish that I had never met you....
Then there would be no need to impress you.

No need to want you
No need for still loving you.

No need for crying over you
No need for heartbreak.

No need for pain or tears
No need for unkept promises.

No need for rejected hugs
No need for crying myself to sleep.

No need for acting like you care
No need for everything you did to make me feel like  absolutely nothing.

The moon split in half
And the stars crumbled,
Falling like fireworks into the sea.

I watched my world
Fall apart the day
My love left me.

Call me a name,
**** me with words

Forget about me,
It’s what I deserve.

I feel empty
Yet so full
Of emotion

Like the smallest thing
Could push me
Over the edge

What do you do
When theres nothing
But pain
Left inside you

And what if everything
We were looking for
Only existed
In our
Dreams

How do you explain
Something
You don’t even understand
Yourself?

Can't run from it
Always a step behind
The worst is i'm trapped
In my own mind

The end is near
I can't keep trying
Stop asking if i'm okay
I'm tired of lying

My fake smile is getting heavy
Eyes can’t hold back
My mind has won
Done living in the black

Going through the motions
It’s almost time to quit
Most fear death
But I pray for it.

dew drops in the spring  
the sun is shining
I'm running towards my mom even though the time has come for me to say goodbye for graduation
I try to focus on the day that is graduation
But everything is a blur
I zone out until my name is called
I walk across the field
feeling proud, accomplished
But I can't help but cry
as I try and not trip on my small gown
I spot you in the crowd
All I can think of at that moment is the memories that we've created
and the way we're all huddled up
I cry one because I'm leaving the group behind
making my way in this word
adulting
still a newbie at heart
learning through trial and error
But know this
no matter where I go in life
I'll always treasure you and the memories that we made
my senior year

Fallen to the rivers and valleys,
Hated by the depths of my sea,
Nurtured by the hands of many,
Killed by the thoughts inside me.

Dwelling in a golden chariot,
Riding to the highest of hills,
Thriving inside all but one,
Giving the one soul chills.

Dreaming to be in the hearts of all,
But running too fast to catch,
Bringing the perfect feeling to everyone,
But always seeming to forget.

Living inside everyone it sees,
Just always neglecting me.

GUILT
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*that is all I feel right now.