FIND YOUR HAPPY PLACE.
2. COMPLIMENT SOMEONE EVERY DAY.
3. NO ONE CARES ABOUT HOW YOU LOOK
4. SWEAR ONLY WHEN YOU MEAN IT.
5. EAT ICE CREAM OFTEN.
6. SKIPPING CLASS IS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD.
7. IT'S NEVER TOO LATE TO CHANGE.
8. READ A LOT OF BOOKS.
9. ALWAYS SAY THANK YOU.
10. TAKE MORE PICTURES.
11. TREAT YOURSELF.
12. DON'T LIVE IN THE PAST.
13. MENTAL HEALTH DAYS ARE ALWAYS ACCEPTABLE.
14. SPEND TIME WITH YOUR FAMILY.
15. HANDWRITE YOUR NOTES.
16. DON'T FEAR FAILURES.
17. DON'T RUSH.
18. QUALITY NOT QUANTITY.
19 MAGIS.
20. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. YOU ARE SMART.

To the guy I'm going to date in the future,

I don't know where to start this. Umm, hey, how are you? Okay, this sounds cringey. You know I’ve no expectations regarding your stay. Cause a long time back, life made me realise that no one's gonna put those Cinderella shoes in my foot and no prince charming on a white horse is coming in search of me. Oh wait, I did wanted that to happen.

I've confessed to some guys older then me, but they rejected me. Well, I never got into relationships before. So yes I’m a newbie in relationships.

Just so you know, I'm not expecting you to be perfect- but to be the perfect guy for me. If you already knew all these, I think there'll be no war and just love. :) I don't know if you'll ever find my note here. But just incase if you do, lucky you! You have found another piece of me.

❤️❤️❤️

He still loves the girl
The girl who left him just because
Yet his heart was still with her
She wanted to let him wait.

A year younger whom i fell
It doesnt matter, it would fade.
Avoid him at all cost
The time is coming to an end.

I like you, i mean i feel you too.
**** what could i do
Should i just forget about you
Let go of all things I knew.

Oh wait, I know nothing.
Felt like the first time we met.
We talked in lines.
And that's that.

It just hurts so much.
To know all of it was friendly.
Now all is ending.
I saw the line you sent to other.

Hurts it wasn't me.
It won't be me.
It will never be me.
How I wish it could be.

All it takes is a rehab.
Control when he replies.
Stop when he seened.
Forget is what you need.

Another step, a chapter
You'll be again the another.
From strikes I felt
You were different.

Move on, let go
They'll be happy, be happy too.
Learn from the pain
You'd be needing it later.

When I was young,
I was like a safe kept hidden
Staying inside a shell
Following, Obeying what was written

I was ignorant yet curious
What was happening out there?
Out in the reality world?
Is it much as peaceful right here?

Til I was ready to be set free
Molded and taught first by family,
Before letting go in this world,
That I thought I could be happy.

But no, I didn't
Seldom I felt peace, always wars.
Yet not bombs and jets flying,
but death and life between bars.

Now everything was contaminated.
It's more like a contagious disease.
Spreading out the bad vibes.
Every turn, every corners increase.

Curses and blames were the words.
Out here, even children were used.
History repeats itself.
Depending whether either are abused.

I opened my eyes and saw a light
You were together with papa- smiling so bright
Not knowing anything nor speak anything.
All I knew was I came with a life.

First word, First step, First Laugh.
You and papa would cry out of joy
Thinking those days and wondering why?
Why didn't I appreciated it before?

Toys, food, and clothes
You allowed me to choose things I want.
Crying, begging and screaming
Then, you promised to buy it when you have enough.

Those things I couldn't do, you supported me.
Times I needed someone, you comforted me.
Things I didn't know, you taught me.
You saw right through me.

I remember that summer,
It was a little less hotter,
I’m not becoming colder.
I wish I were a little warmer.

‘Till the days that I remember,
When we were both still together,
It felt like forever.
But we began before it was over.

We walked hand in hand
Our feet were standing on golden sand.
Sunset is setting, seen by everyone’s eyes.
This is our different kind of paradise.

Until one day, you said “hey,
It’s time to say goodbye.”
A tear fell from my eye;
And tried to hide these feelings,
That I never wanted it to die.

I was happy that you came
To my summer romance .
Though I wanted you to stay
But there’s a part of me that says:
*“I hope you’ll go away.”

Just stay calm and act normal.
Always reminding myself when I'm talking to you.
Just like when I chat.
Just talk like I normally do.

Nobody knows the real me.
As I am, very silent, very moody.
I lived in a far away land called "Reality."
But realized it's hard to fit in,
Especially when you're still stuck in fantasy.

Good grades, happy family,
Met best friends, lived peacefully.
Until my life's been looked closely,
You won't know what it's like to be me.

I still strive hard to reach an unknown dream.
A dream even I, myself, never knew.
Well, my life won't stop there, it seem.
I'll just follow the path my dear author drew.

We were the same between the opposite
But you never notice.
Even wht I feel inside,
It was like I ws never there.

Time stops whenever we pass each other.
That's what I want you to feel.
The feeling of a little sister
Is what you let me feel.

I'm getting curious about you-
Since the day we got close.
We talked and chatted
'Til day becomes night.

You said you liked me,
But in the end, it was a joke.
'"I knew it," was my reply.
But hoping that was real.

It would stay a mystery- unless someone moves.
Thought of becoming us in one.
Could it be? Is still my fantasy?
Since were the same between the opposite.

When I first saw you,
I don't know what to do.
It feels like it was a scene from a movie-
with a perfect song playing in my earphones.

You approached me and said my name.
Once again I was speechless.
But before I could even reply,
you smiled and turned back to your friends.

I know my feelings were true
but I need to know yours too.
So i went alone to you;
I expressed all my hidden feelings-
and found out the truth.

The truth.
The truth that made me feel like an idiot.
The truth that I can't believe.
The truth that made me woke up from my fantasies.

Your heart told me.
My eyes saw it.
You were together.
My face might expressed my laughter-
but you cant see any deeper.

Now liking you doesn't exist in me.
I wasted so much time daydreaming.
Realized that I'm not really meant for you.
Started to pick myself up in this reality.

I never got an answer.
It means I was neither accepted- nor rejected.
Friends was in between though.
But it's okay to leave it like that.
Since your heart told me, my eyes saw it.